Before graduation, hold down the restless you

The author has something to say: [Highlight] I don’t know whether to abuse or not QAQ is not sweet anyway

Alright~ I'll break it for now...for now, for now.

next chapter...

will break even more...

Yan He's principle of making friends: rather lack than abuse

He won't be promiscuous~ Don't worry~

I accidentally created a scumbag (...?? QAQ... Actually, I think it's okay...)

Believe me! ! !Teacher Gu is not a scumbag! ! !He has a reason! ! ! (Trust me!!! Ang~=w=)

Today's traffic feels particularly bad. Could it be that everyone bought the French team to win and used money to mess with it? QvQ~

Thank you:

Thunder without a bright moon~~~~~

TCC Ray

Ray the sea coconut is not tasty

Yunwu Jinzhao's grenade [I won the purchase, so Piaore =v=

Sun Lu's nutrient solution! ! !

I thought I would have to make dozens of calls in a row, but I didn't expect to get through in an instant.Seeing the number he had already dialed, Yan He was not ready yet. Gu Ze was surprised that Gu Ze, who was living a regular life, was so late today and hadn't slept yet, so he was a little dazed for a while.After reacting for a few seconds, he scrambled to close his ears, and nervously found a cold stone chair nearby to sit down, as if he had called the hotline of the children's channel for the first time.

"Gu, Mr. Gu..." I lost the lines I had prepared, and Yan He's tongue was a little dry.

"Yeah." A one-word reply came from the silent end.

With a deep and deep voice, Yan He seemed to be able to see the frown of the person on the other end of the phone, as if he was a little displeased.

When we meet, we can talk about the relationship between the world and the earth, and through the layer of mobile phones, it becomes vivid at once.Without the help of colorful expressions, the voice chat alone is a bit embarrassing.

In this kind of atmosphere, pretending that nothing happened, jokingly blaming "Why didn't Mr. Gu come?" is really inappropriate.No matter how nervous a person is, he can't pretend.

Yan He collected himself, and his mind turned quickly: "...I have a math problem I want to ask..."

There was a sudden silence on the other end of the phone.Yan He held his breath and waited.

"12 points?"

Yan He laughed: "After all, I am eager to learn." There are also students who study until late at night in the third year of high school.Although not applicable to Yanhe.

There are a lot of logical loopholes in this nonsensical reason.Gu Ze was kind enough not to expose him, and said calmly following his words: "Go and ask your new math teacher tomorrow morning, it's getting late today, let's rest."

Yan He hurriedly said before Gu Ze hung up, "I'm not familiar with this math teacher, so I don't want to ask him."

The man on the other end paused for a moment, and spoke in a nonchalant tone, with a hint of sarcasm: "Are you and I familiar?"

With a "thud" in his heart, Yan He gripped the phone tightly, and was speechless for several minutes.

The man kindly didn't hang up either.I don't know if it was out of politeness or something else, Yan He was almost driven crazy by this uncertainty.

He suddenly recalled a girl with very good grades who went to ask Gu Ze a math question before school was over.At that time, he just glanced at it lightly, and then said in a calm tone: "I have already explained this question."

She didn't expect to be rejected, the girl didn't give up.Gu Ze didn't have any emotions, just like a cold intelligent machine: "Go and ask other teachers."

Yan He often feels that Gu Ze has no feelings for his students, but more of his responsibilities and obligations while on the job.He will teach everything in class, but he will not interfere with students' life and study after class, it all depends on self-discipline.

But it is special to him.He will help him highlight the key points, read the wrong questions, call the blackboard to do sample questions, and explain it patiently and seriously over and over again.He even buys milk for him, wakes him up, and cooks him breakfast.He was extremely proud that he was a unique and special existence in Gu Ze's eyes.

At least it is different from those classmates.

He had thought so proudly.

But now he found that those tenderness, patience, and warmth were only limited to highlighting key points, reading wrong questions, calling him to get up, and making breakfast.

Just that.

In fact, he was not much different from those classmates.Gu Ze just helped him fill in the missing part with kindness, like feeling sorry for a homeless orphan, with compassion and kindness, he helped him gently fill in the piece that everyone else had.Like a huge and thin piece of rice paper, it can solve a temporary emergency, but it cannot be firmly filled for a lifetime. Sooner or later, it will become tattered in the wind and sun.

He didn't intend to make up for his student for the rest of his life.

Temporary sympathy is only temporary.

It is he who has been blinded by the so-called "familiarity" and "good relationship".He never thought that when other people stood where he was, Gu Ze would also lend a helping hand.How many students has Gu Ze taught?He may not be the first special, nor will he be the last.

After all, he was just a student who had been with him for two years.

The fate came to an end, but he was not even willing to answer a single question.

Finally recognizing this reality, Yan He felt a slight soreness in his chest.

Even an expensive and crisp suit becomes pathetic and ridiculous.

Like a clown entertaining himself under the lights, the only audience left.

He opened his mouth, and bitterly but with difficulty asked the question that had been in his heart for a long time: "...Why didn't you come?" He was so stubborn that he wanted to hear him whisper the answer, even if he just yelled at him "" Sick" is also good.

As if guessing that he would ask such a question, there was only a sigh on the other end, and a faint sentence floating in the air: "Don't be so childish."

childish?What is childish?It's like being hit in the heart by someone, waiting for him all night just because I am naive... because I am naive...so I can be treated casually, and all can be solved by saying "I and you, do you know each other well?"Yan He's eyes were red, and his back teeth were grinding slightly. He almost gritted his teeth and said every word, forgetting all the consequences, only those two words that easily denied his sincerity for two years - childishness .

"You know that I like you, right? You also know that I'm gay, right?" Yan He suddenly felt that nothing was important, and the moment he said it, he wanted to breathe a sigh of relief, as if he had let go of a great burden.

"..."

"Then why don't you hide? Whether it's the time at the bar or the time on my birthday, do you really think I don't remember anything that happened in the bar when I drank fragments?" Perhaps it was because of the cold wind at night, Yan He The whole body is cold, and the back of the hand that is holding the phone stiffly is abnormally red.

"..."

Silence seems to be the default.

"Huh...? Then you still don't push it away?...?" Yan He smiled lowly, "Because you know everything, you understand everything. You just don't care about it, and you don't want to care about it. After all, this is just a child The game at home is naive and ridiculous, and I can look forward to the follow-up development. It is very interesting to watch when you are bored, and you will be happy if you give it a sesame seed. You are quite proud of it, aren't you?"

"..."

"How low is the cost, coaxing, teasing, and helping to read a few questions when you have time, but there is a dog who is stalking you, and is still loyal, offering you as a god, It’s so fun to watch all kinds of bad guys every day..."

"..."

"Finally when the situation is out of your control, you start to panic and want to escape, which is completely beyond your expectations. The clown you have been raising has to break this situation and make you pay the price." Every time you uttered a word , Yan He's heart hurts like being crushed, and blood is slowly dripping.

"..."

Yan He laughed self-deprecatingly, got up and stuffed the half-decayed rose viciously into the trash can in front of him: "Don't worry, I won't ask you any more questions in the future. I have made a fool of myself in front of you, and I will not continue to give you free performances."

The place where the rose thorn pricked seemed to be bleeding, but Yan He didn't feel the pain at all. He said coldly: "Please don't change your WeChat and mobile phone numbers for the time being. I haven't returned the rent to you yet. I owe this kindness, and my conscience is disturbed." Yan He paused, and finally couldn't hold back what was brewing deep in his throat, "You son of a bitch..."

Emotional deception and teasing were a thousand times more painful than when he was at the bottom of the grade when his father beat him black and blue, and it was accompanied by a lifetime of deep-rooted shame.

The avatar on the phone finally couldn't listen anymore, and a busy tone of "beep" came.

Yan He glanced at the rose that was half sunk in the trash can and half exposed outside, and then viciously mended her feet as if puzzled.Afterwards, he seemed to have finally lost his strength, and fell back onto the stone chair with an unsteady center of gravity.

He didn't know if he was more angry, more ashamed, or both.He kicked the trash can until it made a "bang bang" sound in the cold wind, and the hunting wind blew the leaves above his head.Yan He felt desolate in his heart.

The intense emotion gradually faded away, and a greater tide of sadness seemed to flow over his head.It was so congested that he couldn't breathe.He couldn't help coughing loudly, his throat was tight, and his stomach felt uncomfortable. In the end, he coughed until tears came out, and his heart still hurt.

He looked blankly at the cold stone bricks under his feet with tears in his eyes, feeling empty in his heart, like a wanderer with nowhere to turn to.He slumped on the stone chair in bewilderment, and began to recall the people he had met and the things he had experienced one by one, one by one.Trying to take a little bit of the sadness of being abandoned, of being no longer needed, out of this great sadness.

The sky was so dark that the stars could hardly be seen.He squinted for a moment, and finally, sadly, realized that he had no one to rely on.He didn't count on Yan Yangdong anymore, even Gu Ze left.

He suppressed the tears that were about to flow from the corners of his eyes. For a moment, he thought sadly: If possible, he would like to be deceived by Gu Ze for the rest of his life... Even if he is a teacher or a student...

As soon as the idea came up, he was immediately suppressed by him again. He raised his hand and slapped himself, as if to slap that spineless self completely.

After three seconds of silence, he stood up and shook his head vigorously.He couldn't believe that at such a young age, he still couldn't find someone who could accompany him all the time?

Youth is an inexhaustible capital.

What is Gu Ze?He wants to let him know that he can live just fine without him.

He took out his mobile phone, clicked on the car-hailing app, located the "1912" bar street, and sent the order.

After 1 minute, a master took the order.

Look, Nanjing is such a big city, there are many lonely people at night.

(Because this is a sweet article~ I won’t be particularly abusive~ the kind that hurts my heart... I will try my best [Struggle Face]

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