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Lu Zhongyi watched Gong Jing put the bath water for him silently, took out his pajamas and hung them on the hanger, but he still didn't say a word.

Sure enough, my own jokes went too far, and I was always taken care of by him and accommodated by him, so I forgot that he also had a heart, and would be sad and painful.

People are always easy to get lost in the unrequited, silent tenderness of others, and become unscrupulous.

His upper body was exposed from the quilt, and he sat with his whole body propped up. With his right hand, he habitually fumbled for stacked cigarette cases and lighters on the low cabinet beside the bed.Shaking the cigarette case, he reached out reflexively to light the last cigarette in the case.He smoked Marlboro's Hei Zhen a lot recently. In fact, for some reason, this cigarette was called by that kind of English name, but Lu Zhongyi liked to call it [-].Simple, very much like his style.

Hearing the rustling sound, he looked up at Gong Jing's stubborn back, but Lu Zhongyi didn't know what to say.

It seemed that Gong Jing was looking for topics between them all the time, chattering non-stop, now that it's cold, I'm really not used to it.

Lu Zhongyi's tone softened, and he said softly, "Say something, or it will feel weird."

"say what?"

"Just say what you want to say?"

"I love you."

"I know." Eyes meet.

The smile on his face froze, and the deliberately embarrassed embarrassment was self-evident.I straightened up, thinking about it as if I was waiting for the beginning of a good show of the year.He turned around and opened the wine cabinet, took out a bottle of red wine and walked towards himself. I began to realize that the plot after Yu might not be satisfactory. This detached intuition made me feel uneasy, even though I would not be in brought in.

"Zhongyi" came to the last sentence abruptly.

"Um"

"Do you still love him?" I stared at him in amazement. I was puzzled why he would bring up Pei Ji again, but I didn't dare to respond too much to that past event, just like the sentence: Time flies Dog, whoever mentions it will be bitten.

"I love him, but I just want to be with you for the rest of my life" I said softly, to be honest, of course I was very nervous, even though the second half of the truth was covered with a layer of kindness.

"Then you must choose one between love and the rest of your life, which one do you choose?" Gong Jing's expression gradually changed.

"..." I didn't answer.

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have asked that question." He was always like this. In order not to embarrass the other party, he took the initiative to put away his emotions immediately, which made people feel distressed.

"The rest of my life" I said.Gong Jing sighed lightly, bit his lip, took a sip from the goblet filled with red wine on the low cabinet beside the bed.Maybe, I'm really too sensitive, how can I doubt Zhongyi, it's really crazy.Gong Jing seemed to be regretting and entangled in the confusion of the truth, but no matter what, he had already stopped the torrent that could destroy everything.

Gong Jing took a deep breath, and said quietly: "I'm sorry, Zhong Yi, really, I'm sorry. I know you don't love me, but can you stop doubting my feelings, don't you understand how I treat you? If there is anything else you want that I haven't given, you say it, as long as I can give it to me, is that enough?" At the end of the speech, he choked up a little.

Lu Zhongyi stretched out his arms to gently wrap his arms around him, took him into his arms, and said softly: "Enough, enough, you've done enough, it's all my fault, I'm an asshole."

He was really wrong, because Pei Ji didn't take his efforts seriously, he was injured, and it was a big mistake to let the innocent Gong Jing suffer the same pain.

He will never be able to be with Pei Ji in this life. Leaving aside the reality that that person may be married, the gap between the two is an insurmountable gap. That person is already a real star doctor, and the entire Shanghai city All famous organ experts are no longer the children who needed to be taken care of at that time.But he is no longer a doctor who is closely related to him, but has become an ordinary university physiology teacher, living an ordinary life.

For him like this, Gong Jing is really the most suitable choice. Although as a manager, Gong Jing often takes on venture capital cases in medical equipment and is also doing work related to that circle, but he loves himself, Because of the deep love, she is willing to resist the temptation for him and live a simple life with him.

He was like himself when he faced Pei Ji back then.I spend only a few days, all time, socializing, as long as the other party wants it, I am willing to give it up.

After being together for more than a year, he found that they really live in harmony.

Together but not in love.

However, who stipulates that life must be with the person you love, the most important thing is being suitable, how long it can last is counting, after experiencing such a heavy loss, it seems that you are too naive to expect anything forever.

In this life, the only person he wants to live forever is Pei Ji, but in the end, he is not the only one left to walk the long road, just let it go.

The sound of even breathing came from the ear, Gong Jing curled up into a ball, and fell asleep in his arms.I know the reason for his apology, but the more it is like this, the more I feel guilty. Maybe feelings are like black holes. The attraction and repulsion of magnetic poles are the accumulation of some small incidents. Maybe the things in the past were not handled perfectly. , but who can say a clean break to the former love across the world.Seeing that the person in his arms was already sound asleep.He whispered "Thank you, good night." He said it to him who was always by his side, and he also said it to himself.

He knew that when the sun rose tomorrow, he would definitely see another smiling face when he opened his eyes.

Gong Jing would give him a gentle kiss and say "Good morning, dear." Then he would get up to heat milk, bake bread, prepare breakfast, and let him sleep a little longer, just like every morning in the past, just like tonight The little awkwardness never happened.

This is the advantage of living with Gong Jing, there is no need to worry about a cold war, because no matter how angry he is, he will not last more than one night.Unlike Pei Ji, there is no way to coax his temper.

Don't worry about being abandoned, because he said that he will wait until the day he really falls in love with him, and then he will never leave him and work hand in hand.