as if poisoned

Sometimes what's worth waiting for might not be what you think it is

there may be some variables

but do it with satisfaction

Still won't waste persistence

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I took Brother Ye to the breakfast shop to have breakfast, but I was thinking about how the two of them would solve it, hey, no matter, I don't want to care about anything now, it's none of my business.

Brother Ye said: "So you are the same."

I don't talk and don't want to talk.

Brother Ye said awkwardly, "I don't mean to look down on you, I just didn't expect you to know who you are at such a young age. The few friends I know didn't know until they entered university."

I didn't want to pay attention to him when I heard this, and ate the buns I just bought.

Brother Ye has no intention of stopping, "Actually, you don't have to think it's a disease, it's just a matter of orientation, it's related to many factors but it's definitely not a disease.

I was silent for a while, I had read these things in Narango's bookstore, and I already knew what I should know.I said lightly, "I know."

Brother Ye probably didn't expect me to speak like this, so there was nothing to say between the two of us for a while.They were all silently nibbling on the buns.

Brother Ye has a relatively large mouth, so he gnaws faster, which is in contrast to me who chews slowly.

Maybe he had nothing to do, so he started talking again: "Are you going to let your mother know?"

Am I going to?I plan to, but what can I do? My mother taught me since I was a child that I must get married and have children. For my father, I must also have a child.Regardless of boys or girls, if I like girls, I will be happy regardless of gender.The problem is that I'm in love with a guy.

My eyes became lonely, probably looking forward to my answer, Brother Ye looked at me and caught my expression, "Well, it looks like you are gone."

I nodded in response and said nothing more.

I feel that I and him have gone farther and farther. If I suppressed my feelings at the beginning, then the four of us would not fall apart.Will it be the same as before, it is all my own harm.

Your own choice, your own fault.

If Shengjia hadn't said to be together back then, if he hadn't agreed back then, if he hadn't said to break up back then, all the ifs would still be the regrets he has to bear now.

Maybe the feeling is plain, it can be bitter, or it can be vigorous.

But now, I really don't want anything.

Because it's really tiring.

Maybe Sheng Jia said that breaking up was more or less easy for me, and it was too tiring to hide it. If I couldn't accept it and was given up, what else could I do.

"Are you going to college in the future?"

I was stunned, Brother Ye was asking me something, I nodded.

"Then don't think about it. After all, your life is still long and there are still many things to do."

I nod again, and smile.Yes, the time is still very long, I can use time to calm myself down, I like Shengjia very much, so what.

People who say no, people who throw me away, what right do I have to like them.

(The author said: I'm sorry everyone!!!!!!! I'm really sorry!!!!!!! I'm still stuck (TT) after two months of suspension !!!)