I'm fine during the day

Beijing.In the crowd, I saw a familiar figure.Yu Xia.He and his parents are coming here.

My breath stopped, my steps were heavy, and I couldn't take another step forward.They came over.Uncles and aunts smiled at me: "Daytime."

I said politely: "Hello, uncle and aunt." I asked them, "Are you coming to Beijing for tourism?"

He smiled at me: "I'll bring my parents to Beijing to play."

Auntie took my hand: "You're so handsome during the day."

I said: "Where is there?"

"Is work okay?"

"Very good. Are all uncles and aunts in good health?"

"It's all good, we're all good." The auntie laughed, "You talk to Yu Xia, and your uncle and I will go over there to have a look." She gave her uncle a look, and the two walked towards the park next to the street.

Yu Xia and I looked at each other in silence for a while.

"Daytime." Yu Xia spoke first.He smiled at me.

"En, Yu Xia," I was silent for a while, and finally opened my mouth with difficulty, "How are you?"

Yu Xia still had a faint smile on her face, "I'm fine. How about you?"

"Me too." I have a thousand words, but I can't say a word.

Yu Xia, his face looks so pale, I don't know what he is thinking.

"What about him?" I asked him.

"Him?" Yu Xia froze for a moment, but did not answer.

"How is he? Is he fine?" I pressed.

"He's fine." Yu Xia said indifferently, without much joy.

"Do you... love him very much?"

He turned his gaze elsewhere. "I love him very much."

I don't know what to say anymore, my thoughts are in a mess, I don't know what I'm thinking.Yu Xia also fell into a daze.But the silence embarrassed me.

"Yu Xia." We were originally close, but now we have become so polite.But Yu Xia, I just want to know, are you really nice? "Tell me, how are you?"

Yu Xia was taken aback for a moment, then smiled lightly again, "I'm fine."

As long as you are good, then I am good.I say this in my heart.But Yu Xia, my heart is so sad.The corners of my eyes were wet, and I raised my head, trying not to let the tears flow, but the tears still flowed down uncontrollably.

Yu Xia took a deep breath, his heart must be like mine, full of turmoil.However, there are some things we cannot say.

He stretched out his hand, paused in mid-air, and finally reached out.He gently wiped the tears from my eyes with his fingers.

"Okay." You smiled at me, "be stronger in the future, okay?"

I nod.I wiped my tears with my hands, and the tears grew more and more.Yu Xia has been quietly waiting for me.

And I finally wiped away my tears.I looked up and smiled at him.

"Promise me you will be happy, okay?" he said.

"You want to be happy too." I said.

He sighed, and then he looked at his parents in the distance, "Mom and Dad may be waiting anxiously."

I was startled, Yu Xia and I have just met each other in such a hurry, are we going to separate again?Will there be a chance to meet in the future?I dare not ask, nor can I ask.I have a lot to say, but I can't say it.He looked at me and could tell he had a lot to say, but neither of us said it.

He lowered his head, his feet began to move, and he was about to leave.

"Is there no separate hug?" I said, I just want to spend more time with him.

He raised his head, smiled, and held out his hand to me, and I rushed over and hugged him tightly.I was too excited, I used too much force, he was thrown hard by me, his body was sideways, and then stabilized again.

"Yu Xia." I could hear our mutual heartbeats, "How are you? Tell me, how are you?"

"I'm fine." He said softly.

"I miss you." I said.I thought, I have to tell him, I miss him.Yes, I miss you, Yu Xia, I miss you very much.Every day, I think of you, can you feel it?

"Me too," he said.

"Say it." I said without thinking.

Back in time, I went back to the lost night in Dashishan.Yu Xia said, I love you.I said, me too.He smiled and said it.

My heart was beating violently, and I could feel his breathing becoming short, as he was trying to calm himself down.Then he calmed down, and he said, "I miss you." He said it calmly.

But, Yu Xia, I know, you miss me very much, just like I miss you.My eyes are moist again.I gently wiped it off.Maybe some words are left unsaid, and there will be no chance again.

"Yu Xia, I remember everything we have experienced." I just want him to know that I remember, I remember everything.However, I hate myself, why am I unwilling to speak out and admit my feelings openly?Why, I'm just like this, hiding myself behind a mask, saying those innocuous likes?

We hugged each other so tightly, I don't know how long it took before we let go of each other.

"I wish you happiness." He smiled at me again, then walked towards Mom and Dad.His steps faltered.I can hardly stand still.I hate myself a little, since we already have a life with each other, why do we want to touch his heart again, make him sad, and make myself sad.

But Yu Xia, I just want you to know that my feelings for you, I am true to you.

After returning from Beijing, I fell into a daze.I really want to tell Yu Xia to leave your boyfriend.But, I can't stop him, there's nothing I can do.

And I gradually lost contact with Yu Xia.I put all my energy into my work.The new company has just been established, and I am flying back and forth between the two places. I will bid farewell to this city when everything is ready.

Yu Xia no longer contacted me, and I did not contact Yu Xia too much.It's not that I don't want to contact, but that I can't.Every time I pick up the phone, I put it down in a depressed mood.I don't know how to face him, I don't know how to face his happiness.I even thought, why hasn't he broken up with his boyfriend yet?

When I got out of my busy work, I realized that there was a short message on my mobile phone.It belongs to Yu Xia.I opened it to look, but saw the scene I least wanted to see.

"During the day, thank you for every day you walked with me. I'm going to change my mobile phone number. From now on, we won't be in touch anymore. I wish you happiness and wish me happiness too, okay?"

Why?Why are you not allowed to contact me when you have a boyfriend?Why?Why?Even if you have a boyfriend, we are still good friends.

I called him, but he didn't answer.I'm going crazy.Yu Xia, are you really so heartless?I called him again, but he still didn't answer.I actually lost the courage to call again.

An hour later, his call came.

"Daytime." His tone was tired.

"Yu Xia, why didn't you answer the phone? Are you really ignoring me?"

"I was busy just now." This was Yu Xia's usual excuse, but I was powerless to refute it.He continued, "I'm going to change my phone number, and we'll..."

"Why? Why is this?"

He was taken aback for a moment, and he said, "By the day, I have a boyfriend."

"Having a boyfriend doesn't mean ignoring friends."

"If I love someone, I'll always love him," he told me, "so..."

He stopped talking.

"So, you're going to cut off all ties with us, aren't you?"

"Yes." His voice was low.

"Why?" I said, "Even though we have our own lives, we're still friends."

"I hope I can have a pure love without other people's disturbance."

I froze.I wanted to refute, but couldn't.Yu Xia, you want to cut me out of your life completely, is that right?

"Yu Xia, are you going to push me away?"

"My heart can only be given to one person." He seemed to be muttering to himself.

That person is not me.

"You forget your friends after seeing sex like this!" I yelled, my voice was excited, "Yu Xia, have you forgotten our relationship for so many years? I don't believe you won't allow me to contact you, I don't believe you would be so heartless, I do not believe!"

He just ignored my words.He said, "I wish you happiness during the day."

I said loudly: "I don't want to listen to this. Yu Xia, I don't want to see you often, I just want to hear your voice, can't I?"

"Daytime." His voice trembled.

"kindness."

"Promise me that no matter what happens in the future, I hope you will be happy."

"I am not happy."

After being silent for a while, he said, "There is one thing you have to promise me, okay?"

"what's up?"

He paused, as if he had used a lot of strength, "During the day, you have to remember my words. No matter what happened before or in the future, the past is over, let's not be sad, be strong, be happy, Live your life happily, okay? Promise me."

Yes, the past is over, I turned a blind eye to his efforts before, now he has a boyfriend, I can't do anything anymore.However, my heart is so painful.

Yu Xia, if time can be turned back, I must go back to the past, and I will use my greatest strength to hug you tightly.

"Promise me, okay?"

"Okay." The corners of my eyes were wet.Is Yu Xia saying goodbye to me?

"I know, you are very strong." He smiled.

"Can I still contact you?" I was making a last-ditch effort.

He was silent again.

Then, he said softly: "If I don't contact you anymore, will you miss me?"

"Yu Xia, you know, I will miss you. I miss you. I miss you very much." I couldn't control my emotions anymore, I choked up and said, "After you change your phone number, you must tell me, even if you Don't let me call you, I just don't call. But you have to tell your contact information, so that I at least know that we can still be contacted in this world. Okay?"

There was another long silence.He said, "I miss you too, during the day." I thought he had changed his mind, and he said two more words, "Goodbye."

Goodbye, forever.is that so?Yu Xia?The phone hangs up.When I called again, the phone was turned off.

I can no longer contact Yu Xia.

If I know his mobile phone number, I know he is there, even if I don't contact him, I will feel at ease.But now, I cut off the only way of contact with him.Between us, we have experienced something, but it seems that we have never experienced anything.