unable to grow up

"Mother."

The cold wind at night poured the sound of mother into Cang Han's ears, only to see her knee-high little girl, wearing a thin pink skirt, standing in the snow, with her mouth pursed, she stretched her arms towards Cang Han, as if wanting to she hugs.

The child's face was pale, but he didn't feel the cold. He stretched out his arms and waited for a while. Seeing that Cang Han didn't respond, he was even more aggrieved. He walked towards Cang Han with short legs, and called "Mom" again.

"You...you don't come here!" Cang Han looked around, there was no one there, only two dim street lamps cast a little white light, and the leaves of a few trees beside the street lamps had already fallen clean, under the dim light of the street lamps Opening his teeth and claws, Cang Han swallowed his saliva, looked at the little girl again, and only took a few steps back in fright, "Don't come here!"

"Mom...don't want me anymore..." The little girl sat on the ground aggrieved, rubbing her eyes with her little hands and crying, "Mom doesn't want me anymore...don't want a baby..."

At first, it was just whimpering softly, then the crying became louder and louder, and finally it was heart-piercing.Such a small child was sitting in the snow crying, Cang Han couldn't bear to hear it, he hesitated again and again, walked to the side of the little girl, knelt down, and reached out to hug the little girl.

Before she stretched out her hand, the little girl plunged into Cang Han's arms first, her hands tightly clutching the corner of Cang Han's clothes, and she laughed, "Mom, baby has been looking for you for a long time, baby I won't leave you either."

"I'm not your mother." Cang Han helplessly hugged the little girl and stood up, patted the snow on her body, thinking to himself, I don't know whose family's child is missing, and adults don't come to look for it, it's really big hearted .She also found that the child was freezing cold, fearing that the child would be damaged by freezing in the snow for a long time, so she unzipped her down jacket and wrapped the child in her arms. She planned to go to the clinic next to the community for the doctor to see look.

Unexpectedly, the little girl was a small ghost, so she saw through Cang Han's plan at once, tugged at the zipper of Cang Han's down jacket and asked, "Mom, where are we going?"

"Auntie is afraid that you are sick, so go see a doctor first, okay?" Cang Han wrapped her little hands back into her clothes and asked.

The little girl's reaction suddenly became violent, crying and shouting: "I don't want to! I want to go home! I don't want to go to the hospital!"

Her struggle was so powerful that Cang Han could barely hold her, and quickly comforted her: "Okay, okay, don't go to the hospital, let's go home, baby, be good...be good..."

The little girl calmed down again.

Cang Han thought that the little girl didn't look like she was sick, and if she struggled so desperately, Cang Han probably wouldn't be able to get her to go to the hospital by himself, and now that the lights are in the dark, she can't be left here, Her parents may not be easy to find. After thinking about it, Cang Han decided to take this little guy home for a night, and ask for a leave of absence tomorrow to go to the police station to see which parents are careless, even their own children. lost.

Without going to the hospital, the little girl calmed down immediately, with her two small arms wrapped around Cang Han's neck, she leaned obediently in the nest of Cang Han's neck, it must have been very cold, her little face was icy cold, and even her breathing was very weak. Cang Han couldn't feel it anymore.

On the way back, Cang Han remembered that he still didn't know the little girl's name, and asked, "Baby, what's your name?"

"The baby is called the baby."

Cang Han was overjoyed, thinking that the child's breast name was probably "Bao Bao", then he thought, which family's baby is this, why did he lose such a precious breast name?Tomorrow, I have to go to the Public Security Bureau to ask, maybe my parents are dying of anxiety.

Cang Han smiled, and asked again: "Okay, what's the baby's last name?"

"Baby's surname is Cheng, Cheng Baobao."

The baby was slurring, Cang Han didn't hear whether she said Cheng or Chen, and didn't care, so he took her home, gave her a bath, and found some clean clothes for the baby to change into. , carried her to the bed, and they rolled and played together.

Playing around, she forgot the time until Cang Han's cell phone rang, and she was shocked when she picked it up and saw that it was already twelve o'clock in the morning.

The call was from Cheng Ling. Cang Han was already afraid of her, and because of what happened tonight, he was even more timid towards her. With his index finger on his lips, he made a "shh" to the baby and said, "Be good, baby, don't talk!" , the big witch is coming to catch us."

The baby hurriedly covered his mouth tightly, leaned against Cang Han, not daring to breathe, and stared round his eyes, waiting for the "witch" to leave.

"School...Sister, it's so late, what do you have to do?" Cang Han hesitantly said to the other end of the phone.

Cheng Ling laughed on the phone, and the laughter tickled Cang Han's ears, "It's so late, and you haven't slept yet?"

"No... I'm going to sleep soon, senior sister, are you okay?"

"It's okay." Cheng Ling paused, and said, "What happened tonight... don't worry about it, I lost my composure."

"Ah? Ah, it's okay...it's okay." In Cang Han's memory, this was the first time Cheng Ling bowed his head to him, but she became uncomfortable and said awkwardly: "Senior sister, it's getting late, If there is nothing else, I will hang up first."

"OK, good night."

Cheng Ling's call took most of Cang Han's attention away, Cang Han didn't realize that the baby had put his head next to his phone, just in time to hear Cheng Ling's good night, her eyes lit up, and she turned to the phone unexpectedly Clearly called: "Mom!"

Cang Han was so frightened that he lost half of his soul, and quickly covered the microphone, "My little ancestor, why do you call mom when you see everyone?"

The baby covered his mouth and giggled, Cang Han was angry and nervous, and amused by the baby's small appearance, he couldn't help but smiled helplessly, "Look at what you've done!"

"Cang Han? What's wrong with you, Cang Han? What happened to you?" Cheng Ling heard that there seemed to be something strange on Cang Han's side, so he stood up unconsciously, and walked quickly towards the door until he closed the door with one hand Hand in hand, only to hear Cang Han say on the phone:

"No, it's okay, senior sister, the child is screaming, don't be angry..."

"Child?" Cheng Ling frowned, and loosened his grip on the doorknob, "What kid?"

"It's just...it's just that I picked up a lost little girl when I came back at night, and planned to send it to the police station tomorrow morning..." Cang Han's voice became smaller and smaller, and the person who sent Cheng Ling away at night flashed in her mind. I immediately remembered that the senior sister didn't seem to like children.

Cheng Ling's heart tightened, but his tone didn't change. He said coldly, "Oh, then do you want me to accompany you?"

"No, I'll ask you for a vacation first."

"Understood, then go to bed early and don't bother you, good night."

"Okay, good night, senior."

Hearing a beep from the phone, Cheng Ling took the phone from his ear and threw it aside.

She was sitting by the bed, opposite the bed was a large French window, there was no moon tonight, there was no light outside the window, and it was pitch black inside and outside the room.

This floor-to-ceiling window used to be Cang Han's favorite, especially in winter, when the sun shone in warmly from the window, and a thick wool blanket was spread by the window, Cang Han liked to bask in the sun, and often sat by the window with a book in his hand Look, when Cheng Ling came in, he saw Cang Han sleeping soundly on the blanket like a cat, with his mouth slightly open, and there was a book in his hand that he didn't know how many pages he had turned to.

At this time, Cheng Ling would often pinch Cang Han's nose with evil intentions, so Cang Han woke up leisurely, looked at Cheng Ling with a smile, yawned lazily and said: "Baby, let me sleep for a while." Ling lay down together, with his head resting on her arm, and his soft breath sprayed into Cheng Ling's neck.

Cheng Ling used to like winter very much.

Cheng Ling looked out the dark window, the heater was fully turned on, but she was so cold that she couldn't feel warm at all.

It was past one o'clock in the morning, and Cheng Ling didn't feel sleepy at all. She sat there for a long time, reached out, and picked up the framed photo on the bedside table. In the photo, two women were holding a child. faded.

Will always fade.

This winter is too cold and there is no sunshine.