strange love

On the car home, the first day of junior high school called me for about 5 minutes while taking a break.The content is roughly that she misses me very much, her hands are a little sore after learning how to draw, but because it is very interesting, she can't help but keep practicing and so on.

I told her that I miss her very much too, that I have to work hard to learn how to paint, and that I will help her rub her hands tomorrow.

On the first day of the junior high school, she simply hung up the phone. It can be seen that although she acted like a baby, learning to draw is really a very happy thing for her.

"What's the matter, I'm still staring at my phone after making a phone call, it's only the first night." Mom was driving the car, watching all directions and listening to all directions.

"I'm just worried..." But after calling, I found that this worry was really unnecessary.It is true to be happy, but it is false to say that you are not disappointed.

"I think the first day of junior high school has adapted well, so don't worry about it. You're like an old mother at such a young age." Alas, my mother really doesn't understand me.

"Because the first year of junior high school is still a child who is very patient and considerate of others..." Well, this is also an excuse, I can see that she is really happy this time.

"Take your time, Aunt Li, you also know that a gentle temper is best for children. Now in the first day of junior high school, start with what you like and get in touch with others slowly, it should be better."

I nodded and sighed: "Indeed, she has adapted quite well."

Then I heard my mother's laughter, "What's the matter, why do you feel that she is adapting well but you are not happy?"

How to say this?

"Well, although I know this is a good thing for the first year of junior high school. I also think that she should slowly get in touch with more people and make more friends. But sometimes I feel very lost, thinking that I might become her One of my best friends instead of my best friend... Mom, am I being too possessive?"

My mother seems very happy that I can talk to her, "I think this is a very normal thing. Don't say that the situation in the first year of junior high school is special, just say that she is your first good friend. It is understandable that you value her so much. And She is very dependent on you, you may not only put yourself in the position of a friend, but also as a guardian. Because you are a good child who is thoughtful and responsible. Seeing her growth, of course Will be happy, but the role of guardian makes you feel lost because she doesn't depend on you so much anymore."

Although my mother sometimes seems unreliable, once she is serious, what she says is quite reasonable.

"Mom, do you sometimes feel down because I'm too independent?"

"Oh, you have let your mother down in this aspect since you were a child, and you are used to it now."

She laughed as she spoke, and I couldn't help laughing too.

"Then what should I do?"

"I don't think you need to pay too much attention to it. You have been doing a good job, haven't you? Help the first day of junior high school to contact others bravely, and encourage her to learn what she likes. People don't always have positive feelings, like anger Anger, sadness and jealousy are all normal, the important thing is that you know what is right and what is wrong. You didn't hinder the first year of junior high school because of your reluctance, you have done a good job."

"Then what should I do if I feel uncomfortable?"

"In my opinion, you are uncomfortable because you are afraid that you will have better friends after the first grade of junior high school, isn't it? This is easy to solve. For now, you are undoubtedly the best friend of the first grade of junior high school. You have to maintain the status quo than It is much easier to catch up with other people. Not only Chu is special to you, but you are also the same to her. You are not so easy to be replaced. As long as you treat her as good as before, better than before, Better than anyone, and of course you will always be her best, most special and closest friend."

My mother spoke with confidence, and I also felt enlightened.

"The first day of junior high school is a good child, and she is also the kind of child who treats her better the better others treat her."

Yes, exactly that.

"You're right Mom, I'll be better for her."

Mom nodded, and then seemed to think of something suddenly, "Well, but people are not only creatures that can only give, most people give in expectation of rewards. And when the result is far lower than what I expected Sometimes, the gap may lead to resentment."

Sometimes what my mother said was unexpectedly serious and full of philosophy.

"Do you mean I should lower my expectations?"

"If your expectation is only to be her most important friend, I don't think you need to lower it."

Is there anything more to expect than that?This is of course my hope.

"I understand Mom."

Because of what my mother said, my previous melancholy due to the reduced time spent with the first grade of junior high school was swept away.In fact, I also understand that it is only a few nights now, and after the sophomore class of high school, it will be difficult to see each other during the day.But our relationship is not as fragile as it was in the past. I am her best friend and I have no intention of giving up this throne to anyone else in the future.

It was already around 09:30 when I received a call from the first day of junior high school in the evening.The first day of the new year should be just after taking a shower, and the voice is softer than usual.

"Jingzhe, Jingzhe, are you asleep?"

Usually, if I didn't accompany her, I would have slept even later, not to mention that I was waiting for her call at night.

"If I'm asleep, how can I call you now?"

"Hey, I'm afraid to wake you up."

"No, I've been waiting for your call."

"Oh, I wanted to call you after class, but my phone is out of battery. I need to charge it when I get home, so I want to call you after I take a shower... I want to call you longer."

"But it's already 09:30, aren't you sleepy?" In the past six months, her sleep time has indeed been delayed, but she is generally a good baby who goes to bed early and wakes up early.

Probably also felt that it was getting late, and the voice of the first day of junior high school sounded a little hesitant. "Hmm...but, but I didn't talk to you much today."

Ah, that's right.I didn't say a few words to the first day of junior high school all day today. Even if I have something occasionally, I will start calling early when I am not together at night.If it weren't for the fact that I didn't get enough sleep in the first day of junior high school, I would actually like to chat with her for a while.

"Then let's chat more when we meet tomorrow?"

"Well~ Then tomorrow is tomorrow, we have to chat more tomorrow, and tonight we will talk about today's affairs."

The little guy is quite clear.Since she persisted in this way, I didn't really want to fight, so I had to obey her.

"Then you must tell me if you are sleepy."

"Uh-huh."

On the first day of junior high school, I fully agreed, and then began to describe in detail what I saw and heard that night.It was originally a fairly ordinary thing, but from the perspective of the first year of junior high school, it was quite a struggle.When she talked about her efforts to speak and ask questions, she was a little scared.

"... At this time, I can't stop thinking about you, thinking that you are by my side, so I can speak out what is in my heart."

If she was by my side, I would really like to hug her.

"You are very brave... As long as you miss me, I will always be by your side."

There was a moment of silence on the other side, and then came a slightly shy voice from the first day of the junior high school, "Well... I, I know Jingzhe."

"Hey, it's almost ten o'clock now, shall we go to bed?" Before I knew it, I had been talking for another half an hour. Although I was not sleepy at all, my voice on the first day of junior high school was already a little sleepy.

"Ah...it's already so late." Her regret was beyond words, "I really want to hear your voice again, Jingzhe."

The first day of junior high school said in this way is too lovable, and people can't help but want to fulfill her wish, but I really don't want to disturb her rest.

"Then... I'll read to you, so you can sleep well, okay?"

The books I like to read in the first day of junior high school are generally full of childlike literary works. After I knew this, I downloaded a lot of similar works in Kindle, but I never had a chance to show her.

"study?"

"Yes, I saw that you were watching "Little Doudou by the Window" and "The Little Prince", right?"

"Ah... Jing Zhe, you, how do you know?"

"Remember when I first invited you to lunch? I saw it in your drawer."

"Hey, but I watched "The Little Prince" very early, when you..."

Yes, I was still pretending not to know you back then.But... I have been paying attention to you.

"It was just the beginning of school at that time, I saw it by chance. You wrapped the book in blue, right?"

"I wrapped the book cover and you know it's "The Little Prince"..." I seemed to realize something on the first day of junior high school, and I suddenly felt embarrassed to be peeping at someone's house but was discovered by the person concerned.

At that time, I was really pretending not to know her and alienating her, but I was extremely concerned about her every move.

"Then you must really like "The Little Prince", right?"

...Thanks to the simplicity of the first day of junior high school, I escaped smoothly again.

"Yes..." But there was an inexplicable sense of loss.

I'm so sick of myself.

"It turns out that Jingzhe likes to read books like this!" The first day of the junior high school seemed very happy.

"Yeah, so you want to hear it?"

"Think about it, Jing Zhe, I want to hear you read."

"Okay," I flipped through my Kindle and asked her, "Have you seen "Heidi"?"

"No, what is this about?"

"Then I'll start reading this book to you first."

"Uh-huh!"

Although we spend less time together, we have other ways to make up for it.So even if there is a little distance, even if we can't be together often, our relationship will not change.

The author has something to say: set up the flag again.Jing Zhe is like an old general on the stage, with flags planted all over his body.