in the years of crushing on you

The gray hanging lamp was quiet, his hands were entangled in front of his knees, and his suit pants were lightly pressing on the light white tatami.

For some reason, he followed Zhao Qingyang to this Japanese grocery store.

The layout of the store is strong in Japanese style.The wooden partitions and utensils should make people feel comfortable, but as soon as he stepped into this private room, his heart was like the hanging lamp on the top, shaking and not stable.

Taking advantage of the time when Zhao Qingyang went out to pick up Song Zian and the others, Qu Hao sighed.

He didn't know what he meant by being so flustered.

Obviously the two of them are men, the love should not have arisen, but if there is a strong wind in the water, the ripples will dissipate without knowing when.

He is almost 25 this year, and he will be [-] years old in five years.His father was old and often urged him to start a family.He felt that in another five years, he might be able to follow his father's ideas.

Ah.

He laughed at himself, but he has survived for seven years, and the knot in his heart is getting bigger and bigger.

Alas, when will he be able to find an opportunity in this stagnant water and escape from the sea of ​​suffering.

When Xu Xiao followed Song Zian into the private room, he paused.

His back felt cold, and even though he was wearing a cotton short sleeve, he still felt the chill to his bones.

The man who is sitting cross-legged at the square table, dressed like a man, isn't that Qu Hao, a master of high school and beat all the neighboring schools!

Xu Xiao didn't know why, but he recognized this old classmate at a glance, an old classmate whom he hadn't seen for nearly six or seven years.

But the cells in the whole body became active the moment they saw him.

run away! !He didn't want to recall those unbearable memories.

As soon as the idea came up, Song Zian stopped him when he turned around.

"what happened?"

Ah, he suddenly remembered, today is Song Zian's birthday, where can he escape?

I had to speak in a low voice. "I'm going to the bathroom."

Song Zian felt that Xu Xiao was a little strange today.

"Hey, aren't you Qu Hao!"

It's just that when he saw the person sitting, he threw away the doubts in his heart.

"Hmm. Long time no see."

Qu Hao smiled and raised his head to look at Song Zian, but his gaze pointed in the direction where Xu Xiao ran away.

"Ah, he has diarrhea today, don't worry about him. Let's order first." Song Zian made up a random reason, then sat beside Zhao Qingyang, and took the menu.

Qu Hao looked unclear, lowered his eyebrows and nodded.

"You came back from abroad?" Song Zian handed the menu to Qu Hao while speaking.

"Well, I hurried back as soon as I graduated from university."

"Does the company need people to run it?"

Qu Hao nodded, "My dad is not feeling well, so I came back early."

Song Zian seemed to understand, and nodded suddenly.

"I'd like a curry beef brisket with rice, anything else is fine."

Qu Hao rejected the menu and directly reported his favorite dishes.

Song Zian looked at Qu Hao suspiciously after hearing this, and then ordered two orders on the WeChat ordering system.

Xu Xiao tidied up his mood from the bathroom, and when he returned to the private room, he saw Zhao Qingyang and Song Zian sitting side by side, holding their small hands, and felt that this pair was really boring.

Then his gaze turned sharply, and he found that there was an empty seat beside Qu Hao.

Don't be afraid, you are already 24.

Xu Xiao took a deep breath, and when he walked to Qu Hao's side, he saw Qu Hao looked up at him, and his eyes met, but he wanted to run away.

How could Qu Hao ignore the fear and worry in his eyes, his heart was full of self-deprecation, he lowered his head and moved a futon to Xu Xiao's side.

Not daring to say more, she raised her head and nodded at him, then turned her body to communicate with Song Zian and others.

Xu Xiao felt as if in a dream, why did this person suddenly become so calm?

Sitting down carefully, he heard Song Zian chattering with Qu Hao.

"I haven't seen you for seven years, why didn't you bring your girlfriend with you?"

"I'm busy at work, so where will I find a girlfriend?"

In the eyes of outsiders, Qu Hao's chatting at this time, whether it's tone of voice or facial expression, is very casual and ordinary.

But ever since Xu Xiao came in, Qu Hao's hidden left hand was always holding the futon under him.

My heart was beating too fast.

Qu Hao vainly wanted to distract his attention by talking with someone, but the person was beside him, so close, his shadow was cast directly on his thigh.

Song Zian and Zhao Qingyang were still talking to him.

Qu Hao's right hand rested carefully on the outside of his thigh.

Xu Xiao, who was ignored, had no choice but to take out his phone and scroll through Weibo.

He boarded his tuba and posted a post while he was bored.

"I bumped into an old classmate today, and I don't really want to see him."

It is estimated that after a few minutes, someone commented below.

"What's wrong with you! Is the relationship very bad?! Has he done anything bad to you?"

A few years ago, Xu Xiao studied Russian as a major in university, and after graduation, he joined a foreign company.The working hours of foreign companies are relatively free. Based on his interest, he joined a subtitle group that makes a living from his interest, translating Russian dramas for others.

After a long time, I also have some fans who like him, and often send him comments and private messages on Weibo.

Of course, the most content in private messages is. "Big brother, how about translating this drama next time?"

Seeing someone commenting on him, Xu Xiao thought for a while and replied.

"The relationship shouldn't be considered good."

When replying, he originally wanted to add a sentence at the end, "There are bad things."

But in the end, I deleted this sentence, leaving only the first half of the sentence and sending it out.

When the mobile phone was turned off, the waiter was just carrying the tray to serve.

Xu Xiao saw the curry beef brisket rice on the tray at a glance.Just thinking that Song Zian deserves to be his good brother, he knows that he likes this.

It can be seen that the waiter passed the plate in front of him, like a dragonfly crossing the water, and put it in front of the person beside him without any delay.

Xu Xiao turned his head and saw that it was actually Qu Hao who ordered it.

"Why didn't you order this for me?" He was speaking to Song Zian.

But let others move their hands.

Qu Hao was thinking about how he could push this staple food over, without being surprised.

But Song Zian took less time to answer than he thought.

"Okay, I'll order one for you too."

As soon as Song Zian finished speaking, the waiter behind took another plate of curry beef brisket from the tray and put it in front of Xu Xiao.

It's just that Xu Xiao always felt that something was weird, but he couldn't guess what made him feel weird, so he hummed lightly, and lowered his head to scoop up a spoonful of beef brisket.

Mmm...delicious!

Qu Hao had no choice but to carefully put his left hand next to the plate, and took it back in dismay.

"Ah Xiao, when will you get a girlfriend? My aunt came to my house during Chinese New Year last year, and asked me to introduce someone to you. It's almost halfway through this year, and my aunt was still calling me yesterday to ask about your situation."

Xu Xiao took a hard bite of the beef.

"What's the use of asking, what can I do if there are no girls who want to be with me? You don't know, I have had two or three girlfriends in four years of college. I don't know how to divide the first one or two." I know, that Fan Wei told me the reason at the end, but I couldn't understand it. Forget it, let's talk about it when fate comes."

Xu Xiao actually didn't want to talk about this, especially when he was beside Qu Hao, it felt very strange.

But Song Zian clearly didn't understand his facial expression, and was still asking, so Xu Xiao had to jump his mind and say something about the situation.

Of course Qu Hao knew why those girls broke up with Xu Xiao, after all he was the mastermind inside.

Seeing that Xu Xiao didn't seem to take these things to heart, he was overjoyed.

But then he remembered, if he hadn't done some ridiculous things with him when he was drunk, how could he take himself to heart, maybe he wouldn't even remember who he was.

Qu Hao was in a complicated mood and when he was restless, he thought of cigarettes.

"I'm going to go to the bathroom." Qu Hao found an excuse and hurried out of the private room.

The air conditioner outside the house was very cold, which made his neck feel cool.

When he reached into the pocket of his trousers, he remembered that he had left the cigarette on the car.

He went out and dug out a pack of cigarettes and a Zippo from the car parked on the side of the road.

Leaning against the side of the car, when the cigarettes are lingering, the signboard of the pharmacy on the left is conspicuous.

He suddenly remembered Song Zian saying that Xu Xiao often had diarrhea recently.

Possessed by some kind of ghost, he shook his hand and threw the cigarette under his feet. After stamping it out, he threw it into the special ashtray in the trash can.

Then walk towards the pharmacy.

His figure was stretched very long by the streetlights, even a little deformed.

Qu Hao felt that he might really be fascinated by something.It may also be that my heart has been pinched into another appearance.

So always think about that person.

Qu Hao thinks this is very reasonable, maybe that appearance is the miniature version of Xu Xiao.

"Welcome." The sensor hanging on the pharmacy spoke mechanically.

Welcome to this dream that can never be escaped.

The author has something to say:

I'm sorry! !I've been so busy at the start of school recently, I've been going to nights these days, and I can't spare time!