Green train

☆, alive

Li Weihe, Middle Shop No. 10, Car 13

foreman

30kg

One.

"Live without a reason."

My dad lived in the newly dug cave during Chinese New Year last year. He was very happy. When he squatted at the gate to eat at night, he would go up to everyone with a bowl and say a few words. Everyone in the village knows my family’s The cave was dug by me and my elder brother.

An ordinary farmer's family in a poor Huangtugou has raised two urbanites, one is an engineer from the state unit, and the other is a successful foreman in the city. Actually, my father doesn't need to show off. You can walk in the village arrogantly, and Piansheng's father can never be overjoyed about good things.He held a big banquet, set off loud firecrackers, and broke his leg when seeing off guests at night!Our two brothers were busy driving him to the clinic in the village. The doctor immediately got busy after seeing him. After all, people are old, and broken legs are not as easy to turn over as they were when they were young.

Obviously it was a matter of extreme joy and sorrow, but my father still smiled cheerfully, while beating his broken leg, which was ignorant of current affairs, while gossiping with the doctor as if nothing happened.

"Have you visited my cave dwelling?"

"Uncle Li, your old man is 82 this year, and his legs are like this, why don't you say anything?"

"What's wrong with my leg? Isn't it just broken? You help me fix it, and I can come down to see you tomorrow."

The doctor frowned and said: "Uncle Li's leg is not broken, but the bone is necrotic from the inside. Even if he is cured today, he will not be able to walk in the future."

My dad's eyes widened immediately, and he slapped the doctor on the back.

"What? Why are you talking nonsense, kid? That's not the way to cheat money!"

The doctor groaned, pulled the stool and sat on the side of the bed with a sad face, and began to pinch my dad's lap with both hands.

"Uncle Li, you don't know me? It's okay if you don't believe me. Feel it yourself. Is it like this when you pinch your legs and feet on weekdays? I'll give you some medicine and a plaster cast. It's fine if it's straight Well, that would be the best, I will come to your door with a basket of eggs to apologize to you. If it keeps hurting like this inside, then hurry up and look at another place, okay?"

My father had a guilty conscience, the expression on his face betrayed him early on, the eldest brother understood everything when he saw this, what's the use of regretting it when he gets angry again?The next day we took Dad to a nearby large hospital, and this began a long hospitalization period.

To see a doctor is to use a fire to burn money. Our two brothers’ savings only lasted for more than half a year. The elder brother left soon because of work. The salary he remitted every month was not enough. After paying the money for a month, I contacted the project in the city and postponed the time as much as possible. Today I couldn’t delay anymore, so I took out the last bit of money I had left to buy a ticket for the green leather train, and hurried back to the city. city ​​road.

Although I am not a rich man, I may not take the green leather train for a long time.When I first entered the city, I took the train for two full days, and my impression was really bad. When the economy improved slightly in the future, I took the train out of my consideration.Unexpectedly, after so many years, I came here again.There is no other choice, the situation is exactly the same as the first time, I really deserve to be scolded: □□!

When I took the train back then, I said I was sitting, but in fact there wasn’t even a hard and crowded seat, so I stood with a group of people who didn’t have seats at the junction of each carriage.I didn't feel any noise during the day, but at night, I was so sleepy that I couldn't stand up.I lay on the glass of the car door. Every time I reached a platform, my head was hit hard. Closed, I immediately lay down back to the original position and continued to sleep.

It is said to be sleeping, but in fact, there is an inexplicable feeling between half dream and half awake.What's the matter?I was always worried that the train door would not be able to bear my weight. If it accidentally opened while the train was accelerating, I would immediately fall to the ground and roll into the rails, and my whole body would be crushed into a pulp.Under this kind of worry, I still fell asleep. When I was about to fall asleep, I smiled to myself. In my dream, I really felt many monsters and ghosts surrounding me. They all wanted to kill me, so I could only run as hard as I could. Run, run until you have no energy at all.When the train arrived at a platform, I was a little dazed and awake, staring at the passengers boarding the train as if dead, and worried about the train door again, and then fell asleep next to the door spinelessly, and continued to run when I fell asleep.

I lived in worry and fear throughout the night, running like hell in my dreams as the train took me to a new destination.The two seem to overlap at the junction of dream and reality, they completely dominate me, and I feel the malice of fate.The past life is a true reflection of the fiddling of fate. When I take the train again, I have a kind of foresight of the miserable life to come. The sad thing is not that I have been manipulated all the time. choose.

Fortunately, this time I have a sleeper, the space is small but enough for me to lie flat and sleep soundly.As soon as I got in the car, I climbed into bed and closed my eyes to sleep. Sleep can make me forget the heavy debts and burdens on my shoulders, and I completely surrender myself to the mysterious dreamland.Because my body is very aware of my inner fatigue and the pressure of life, I often sleep very fast and sleep for a long time, and this time is no exception.

two.

I fell asleep until the next day, and when I woke up, I was so hungry that my stomach felt like it was on fire, and I broke out in a sweat when I moved a little.Fortunately, it was meal time, and the flight attendants who were pushing the dining car went back and forth frequently. I took out all the remaining money from my trouser pocket and collected a box of lunch.The rice grains were hard and dry, there was no fishy smell in the dish, and there was even a pitiful lack of oil and water. The only thing worth noting was the overwhelming salty taste. I drank three glasses of water after wolfing down the taste. .

This is a good start, at least compared to the first time, I ate a meal, and now I continue to lie down and sleep, which is much better.

When I first entered the city, I followed others and did many wrong things because I couldn't sleep well.Relying on our youth and stamina, we worked hard for half a year, but the boss ran away with the money. A group of us guarded the half-built building and shouted every day, but we didn’t get the money, because there was no work to do and even food was a problem.A few well-connected people took me to work as a temporary worker, hungry and full, and had no savings when they returned home during the Chinese New Year. If the eldest brother hadn’t taken some money, the whole family could only lie on the kang and drink the northwest wind. .

Later, I figured it out. I brought my own people to contract the project and worked hard for them. Finally, I got real money. But I fell ill at the wrong time. Medical treatment in the city is expensive. I dragged It's okay to procrastinate, but sometimes I have shortness of breath and tightness in my chest.Years have passed, I have saved a lot of money, and I have a partner. I thought life was slowly getting better.The mistake is to think this way, people, if you think about it beautifully, life will change immediately.

When I woke up again, it was the most poisonous time of the day. I was still talking to my partner in a dream. When I turned over, the sun was dazzling, and I was pulled back to reality after a while.I was in a mess, I rubbed my hair casually, took a few sips of water, and lay still holding the cup tightly in my arms.

Just now I dreamed about my partner, she was dressed up Kexi, she was red all over, her hair was newly curled, a little yellowish.In the dream, I took her back to my hometown. My dad leaned on the kang and called us with a smile. My elder brother greeted relatives back and forth happily. Everyone in the village knew that I had married a handsome girl, and they secretly squeezed behind the curtain and looked into the house.My dad was satisfied with everything, he gave my partner a red envelope in private, and said a lot.We agreed to choose a day in the New Year to register, thinking about everything is very happy.

The mobile phone in my trouser pocket buzzed and vibrated. It was the person working under me. I combed my hair with my fingers again, and turned sideways to answer the phone.

"Li Gong, what are you doing?"

"On the train and on the train, I was so tired that I was sleeping all the time."

"Didn't you contact private work a few days ago? I found one, and it was still in the field. Would you like to do it?"

"Going to the ground again? Nothing else?"

"Li Gong, what is faster than getting money from the field? Uncle's long-term hospitalization is the time to spend money. You have to figure it out yourself."

I patted the bed a little annoyed, and said in a low voice, "Where is it? Who are they?"

"It's a little risky this time. The land is a private one over there in the teleportation. It was buried a month ago. The family is in the jewelry business, and it was published in the newspaper for a few days. People, just me, you, Lei Zi, and Zhao San."

"Could it be the one from the Lin family? Are you crazy?"

"Li Gong, I know it's risky. We're also short of money and there's nothing we can do. Lei Zi is still in debt to the casino. If you still can't let it go, just listen to me: don't ask the cause, just look at the consequences."

Not to mention that I am heavily in debt right now, and I will continue to treat my father in the future. Maybe I will marry my partner after the Chinese New Year. There is no place to spend money. There is really no other way if I don’t do this order. Thinking of this, I gritted my teeth and became ruthless.

"The news has been found out? Don't be so busy as before."

"Don't worry, Zhao San has friends in Lin's family. He saw the buried one with his own eyes. The things are definitely good."

"Okay, you guys get ready, I'll go to the old place to find you when I arrive at the station."

three.

Lo and behold, the train was ten hours late, another twist of fate.I just received a text message from my companion informing me to start tonight, and the flight attendant here said the news of the delay, but fortunately, I didn’t feel surprised, so I replied a text message to delay the time, and the more I could do it, the more I got it. Although the difference in the amount caused by the difference is not large, I still get angry because I am always highly sensitive to money.

To be honest, my card has astronomical figures. I have been a rich man for a few days. I have also fantasized about ignoring money, pointing to countless zeros, and said contemptuously: This is just a number.What a proud life!But that's all.I wandered around in high-end places with my card in my pocket, watching people of various teleportation classes squandering money like watching the fire from the other side. After a year of hard work, I felt distressed and envious. I was eager to try in my nature, but the sense of conservatism cultivated in my acquired life suppressed my desire even more strongly.I just wandered around like that, and no one cared about anyone outside of my teleportation class.I feel like a lonely ghost, everyone is living in the world, but I don't exist in their eyes.

It’s ridiculous to think about it, the ceiling of fate is very low, we live in peace and contentment at the touch of a touch, but we don’t know that some people step on our heads as soon as they are born, and their world is so vast that we can’t imagine it in our dreams borders.People live for a lifetime, thinking that the length of life is the limit of the value of all life, and greet death with a smiling and peaceful face, but we don’t know that our life is not the transformation between human and ghost. After death, people still have the value of being a human being. Turning directly into a human form to do things that don't exist in the world, death is not a good end.

The cell phone in my pocket rang again. It was a call from the hospital. I guessed that my father's illness had worsened again. Those meager advance payments must be gone now, and the hospital couldn't wait.

"Hi, it's Dr. Chen, what's wrong with my dad?"

Dr. Chen's voice was not as indifferent as expected, but surprisingly gentle and patient.

"Let me tell you something, it's scary, you should be mentally prepared first."

"Is my dad's condition worsening? Is he going to have an operation?" I was fully prepared for this.

"It has indeed deteriorated. Since this morning, we have carried out rescue immediately. The person has come back to life. He is now in the intensive care unit, but the situation is extremely pessimistic. You should be prepared and come back if you can."

My eyes suddenly turned black, my ears buzzed, and my phone kept vibrating. Dr. Chen should still be talking, but I couldn't hear anything.What does this mean?Didn't people come back to life?Why is the situation not optimistic?

"Doctor Chen, if you can save him, you must save my father!" I yelled while holding my phone.

"We did our best, sorry."

I should cry, I want to cry, but I can't cry at all.

"Is it because of the money? I can make a lot of money right away, you use the best things to save him!"

"Mr. Li, I understand your feelings, I'm sorry, I'm sorry."

"I have money, I will send it to you immediately, you don't have to worry about money!"

Dr. Chen was silent for a while, and then said again: "Mr. Li, in fact, your father passed away in the morning. He refused to let me call you when he was dying. He left a recording for you. You should listen to it first. .”

My heart ached so badly that I couldn't breathe. I stared blankly at the telephone poles that frequently passed by outside the window, and just listened without any response.

"Mr. Li, please express your condolences. According to regulations, your father died at the age of 82 and weighed 26kg. He should be sent to a public funeral home for the funeral. The specific method depends on the wishes of the family members. The hospital has sent the body to the funeral home according to the regulations. Please Come back as soon as possible to take care of your father's funeral."

......

"Mr. Li, are you listening? There is a stipulation for the storage time of the remains sent to the public funeral home. If the time is exceeded, they will be buried automatically according to different specifications. Don't miss the time, come back as soon as possible to take care of the funeral."

......

"Mr. Li?"

four.

Li Weihe also couldn't remember why he did this business in the first place. The awe of the dead and the condemnation of conscience disappeared with the passage of time. To the point of waking up with a smile in a dream.With the card in his pocket, he walked lightly on the road, as if stepping on a cloud, and floated back to the hut on the edge of the city like a fairy.Every now and then he would take out the card to have a look, and at night before going to bed, he would kiss him hard. If there was any movement outside the house, he would wake up immediately, holding the card in his hand and patting his chest.

There is a barbecue stand in the alley of his house, and young people go there a lot. People like him only gather to spend extravagantly when they pay their wages.He couldn't forget the taste, and he paced back and forth in front of the stall with his card in his pocket. The stall owner knew him by heart, and several times generously offered him a few skewers of mutton skewers, but he completely refused.When he met the person he liked, he took her to the barbecue stand without hesitation, and the two had a hearty meal. Li Weihe was drunk, and he didn't let go of the girl's hand. After all the words were spoken, the girl followed Li Weihe wholeheartedly after hearing it.

Li Weihe went on one order after another. He saw a lot of strange things, and he was not afraid of people or ghosts.To be honest, Li Weihe would rather meet ghosts, people like them are scary enough, but what he saw with his own eyes after going to the ground proves that the living people are even more terrifying.

Some would steal corpses to do some ghostly deeds, some would brutally retaliate against corpses, and some would buy corpses because of special hobbies. Every time the coffin was opened but it was empty, Li Weihe couldn't help feeling chills down his back.If a person cannot live peacefully in the world, nor can he be peaceful after entering the earth, it is really sad, and such people are not uncommon. Li Weihe has a premonition that he may also end up with such a fate in the future, and he always feels that death just stops. He followed behind him like a shadow, and he didn't even have the courage to look back. In order to survive, he could only run forward desperately, as if he could leave this terrible thing far behind.

Once the four of them opened a tomb for a centenarian who was buried in the same day. They thought that those who lived to this age would always be respected by their children and grandchildren, hell!Not only are there no funerary objects in the tomb, but there are even no corpses.In order to secure a place in advance, Li Weihe personally joined the mourning team. He participated in the whole process from beginning to end. It made no sense that the body disappeared when the coffin was opened that night.That time of turning back empty-handed really hit Li Weihe in the head. He began to be timid, and began to worry that the undead offended in the past would come to take revenge, so Li Weihe returned to his job and continued to be his hardworking worker.

When he returned home during the Spring Festival that year, Li Weihe secretly invited the great fairy in the village to exorcise evil spirits, and spent a sum of money to buy an amulet. Feeling the real touch on his neck, the big stone in his heart was finally let go, and his steps home were much lighter. .

Good things come in pairs. Li Weihe picked up a large piece of meat on the small river beach in the village. The wrapping paper was very high-grade. He didn't know what it was at first, but saw something shining by the river under the moonlight.Driven by curiosity, he walked over and picked it up, but he didn't recognize the words on the wrapping paper, a bunch of complicated teleportation language, what x12253x, he didn't think much, peeled off the heavy wrapping paper, and was surprised to find that there were A good cut of meat.Through packaging and codes, he guessed that it was high-grade meat eaten by the teleportation class. He had heard of the existence of this kind of meat, and after carefully inspecting the meat, he found that there was no problem. He washed it carefully with river water, and cooked it himself after returning home. Made a meal of braised pork.

Li Weihe's ancestors have always been poor. Although his father's living conditions have improved a lot because of his two sons, the habits he has developed over the years cannot be easily changed. On weekdays, when the children are not at home, they still eat and dress according to the old habits. Only then did he have enough food.This time, the youngest son cooked meat for him in person, which made him happy and moved. Apart from anything else, he took out the wine that had been preserved for many years, and the three of them sat on a kang to eat and drink.

Li Weihe remembered that it was very cold at that time, and the three of them were all wearing thick padded jackets, and the windows were covered with white, so they couldn't see anything clearly outside.He was holding a pot of oily meat, and the eldest brother immediately took out the hot steamed buns from the steamer from the stove. His father opened his mouth happily, took a soft white flour steamed bun, and broke it open, with a lot of meat in it. Squeezed it, then broke it into two halves, handed one to the elder brother and the other to Li Weihe.

"Dad's life is worth it."

It's worth it, Li Weihe chanted these two words softly, suddenly a bitterness flooded up, tears rolled down his eyes, and the pillow was wet.

Fives.

"...They can hear now?...Weihe, my old bones are gone, it's a good thing to go. I knew that my illness was serious, and it couldn't be cured. Why take your hard-earned money and burn it in? I would like to see you live a good life, start a family and start a business, and save a few handfuls of paper money in front of my grave during Qingming. I have no regrets. When I grow old, I will experience everything Now, I understand everything, you two are still so competitive, I smile happily all the time... I still remember that year when you lost money, you cooked a special meal of braised pork for me when you came home , our family gathered around a table, put a few big pieces of meat in the steamed buns, swallowed a big mouthful, and drank two small wines, give me something delicious! With this, what else is there to live? Enough! We will still be father and son in our next life, and our family will live in a loess cave dwelling by the Weihe River, and the three of us will have everything together.”

six.

"Dear passengers, thank you for taking this train, and wish you a pleasant journey."

Li Weihe walked out of the train station with a big bag, and a man who was smoking in the corner greeted him.

"Gong Li, it's finally here. The train has been delayed for too long. It was supposed to start yesterday, but it has no choice but to move it to tonight. You will have a good rest later, and we will cheer up tonight. "

Li Weihe remained silent and did not answer.

The man seemed to see that something was wrong with Li Weihe, and asked tentatively, "Do you have an opinion?"

Li Weihe reached out and snatched the cigarette from the man's mouth, took a few puffs, and exhaled thick white smoke.

"Do it! I, Li Weihe, can do anything!"

The author has something to say: "To live, you don't need a reason." From Yu Hua's "To Live"

☆、The truth in the mouth

10 car No. 18 lower berth Xie Yumo

Dentist, foreign exchange specialist

45kg

One.

"Life itself is a mystery, the dust of the universe is everywhere, only life has the power of flesh and blood; we walk on the earth, like thousands of other creatures, no one can do without the gift of nature when breathing and multiplying, but Only human beings have the ability to think. I should be very proud of being a human being, but I have repeatedly noticed that every near-leap-forward development is another proof of human ignorance, and human beings will never touch the boundaries of truth. For this reason, I I often wonder if this is a joke of the Creator?"

Xieyumi people, as their name suggests, will study every word they hear, chew every question that cannot be answered, and swallow it into their stomachs.He was born with a rigorous and serious temperament. Since he was a child, he has shown a superiority far beyond his peers in Xie Yumo's studies, like a steady stream of strong wind pushing his small sail.Xie Yumi was admitted to the top dental school smoothly, and easily overcome the problem that can be called the Mount Everest in the dental world. Now at a young age, he is a rising star in the Capital Hospital, only one teleportation class away. Life experience is complete.

Everyone thought that Xie Yumo would be the director in succession, surpassing international experts, and leaving a name in the history of national dentistry, but Xie Yumo looked like an old man over eighty years old who understood everything, and he politely rejected the decision. Chang's kindness, he stayed in the ordinary position of a dentist and worked hard. If he hadn't been full of respect and gratitude to his mentor, who is called a national treasure-level medical scientist, he would not have helped his mentor's research institute in his spare time.

The instructor often said that Xie Yumi lived like an old man than he did.

At work, Xie Yumo gets up early to make a pot of tea, writes two brush calligraphy leisurely, and takes the first tram in the morning to work on time.No matter how busy the day's work is, he must have a good and full lunch, take a nap, and play a game of chess with the doorman before returning to work.After treating the last patient in the evening, he went to the restaurant outside the door to eat soup and rice, and then walked home slowly listening to opera.

Don't look at Xie Yumo like this, the patients who have passed through his hands are not dissatisfied, just see rows of patients sitting at the door holding various diseased teeth and going in, and when they come out, they don't just say "Doctor Xi, please stay." .The hospital is naturally jealous, and they secretly write report letters and make irresponsible remarks, but the hospital leaders can be clear about it.Although the working status is a bit idle, he neither delayed work nor caused troubles. He stood firm when he encountered a wealthy private hospital. Xie Yumoi has a good reputation and attracts people from the teleportation class. What more could a man ask for?

Xie Yumo himself also found that most of the people who came to see the dentist in the past two years were from the teleportation class. the same?

Xie Yumoi lived up to his name again. He kept the samples for his own research. He had no intention of hiding this matter, but it soon spread to the ears of his mentor. The gray-haired mentor was panicked for the first time. He had a secret conversation with Xie Yumoi. After a long time, the two sides reached an agreement, and this matter will not be mentioned again.The hospital also seemed to get wind of it, and the reaction was not as flustered by the instructor. A group of core figures held a meeting and unanimously decided to assign a new position to Xie Yumoi. So since then, Xie Yumoi has not only been a dentist at the Capital Hospital A young doctor, he also serves as an expert in foreign exchange at Capital Hospital.

As a capital hospital directly under the management of the state, if the rare foreign exchange experts travel on business, their status is special.Before departure, Xie Yumo had to receive a high-level password box from the key person in the hospital, handcuffed himself and the box in front of the designated personnel, was escorted to the train station by a special national car, and boarded directly through a special passage.The flight attendants on the car had received the information in advance, and they had to fulfill any requirements of Xieyumoi. The task of Xieyumoi was not completed until the box was safely escorted to the destination and transferred to another foreign exchange expert. .

Why should we pay so much attention to setting up foreign communication experts?Why is it that the task of the experts is only to escort the boxes instead of communicating with real talents?Is there some medical top secret in this case?Xie Yumo couldn't find the answers to these questions. He had no way to start, so he could only swallow them one bite at a time. Just like the secret he discovered at the beginning, he had a strong desire to explore. As a result, he was forcibly forgotten, and the old things were repeated No chance to mention it.

There is also a seemingly insignificant problem that bothers Xie Yumo. It can find out the reason everywhere, but it is the point that Xie Yumo most wants to understand in the whole process.

"Why did you choose to take the green leather train?"

Capital Hospital attaches so much importance to boxes, why not choose the most advanced teleportation transportation?Teleportation transportation is convenient and safe. Apart from the strict and complicated security check, the only disadvantage is that the price is extremely high, but the cost of the national special car to escort him from the hospital to the train station is enough to support the teleportation fare.Since it took a lot of time and effort to arrange the front and back, why did you choose the product of the old era-the green leather train in the most risky link of transportation?

This is puzzling.Every time Xie Yumo lay on the sleeper and thought about this problem, he felt that he would never see the truth in his life. He could only sigh helplessly, holding the box and imagining the endless boundaries of medicine, and gradually he felt better. Of course this time is no exception.

two.

Xie Yumo couldn't eat his lunch. The mixture of various smells in the carriage made him dizzy. Not only did he lose his appetite at all, but he gradually began to vomit.He saw passengers coming and going with all kinds of meals, and he unconsciously imagined the process of the food sliding from the mouth to the stomach after the entrance. Those food residues that were not swallowed would stay in the tiny gap between the lips and tongue, With the passage of time, it gradually rots into something indescribable. If you brush your teeth carefully and clean it, it will be fine. If you deal with it carelessly, then these inconspicuous little things will exert great power in the future. It hurt half of my face.

Xie Yumo has done research on the sources of food residues in the mouth. He found that people with richer sources of food residues pay more attention to oral hygiene, and thus have a lower chance of getting sick. On the contrary, people with simpler sources of food residues have higher oral Poor hygiene will increase the chances of suffering from various dental diseases.In fact, generally speaking, people with richer food sources mostly pay attention to the quality of life. Such people are close to the teleportation class, and they have a very high demand for cleanliness. On the contrary, those in the train class don't care much about such things. Hidden dangers are often buried.

The research of Jieyumoi is now being confirmed.Just to say that the passenger next to him who was intoxicated with hot and sour powder had obvious tartar on his teeth, and there was still some red chili powder left between his teeth. He stopped eating for a while and covered his mouth. Dental problems caused by his bad habits were exposed.There are still many such people. Xie Yumo can figure it out by carefully observing the passenger flow in the bathroom before going to bed at night.

Xie Yumo was really taken aback when he discovered this incident back then, and the senior brother who had become friends with him was half joking and half persuading: "Well, the problem with this kind of thing is not necessarily entirely the patient's own. We will be dentists in the future, and we must always keep our hands on things. , there are only so many people who are sick, and if you cure one, you will lose a mouthful of food. The doctor in the unit I practiced last year divided the diseases that could be cured once into three treatments. The patients only knew that the pain gradually eased and they felt comfortable. Now, I still trust the doctor in my heart, and you still look for this person when I see a doctor in the future. Do you think it is ridiculous? Think about it, doctors are also for life, not for the present, but also for the future."

Xie Yumo was taken aback again. He didn't think about food or drink at that time, and he always felt that his future life would insult his ideals. After entering the society, he saw a lot and thought about it. According to his own principles, he insists on seeking truth and being pragmatic in his treatment. The consequences of this kind of behavior can be good or bad. He doesn't care about gains and losses, so he doesn't care about good or bad.A colleague with the same style of work he met in the hospital was not so smooth at work. He was alone every once in a while, and the anger and sadness of his family members and personal self-blame would always overwhelm him. Taking up the burden of enlightening colleagues, the two of them would either lament for a night, or get drunk until dawn, and everything would be fine the next day.

Even with the development of medicine today, it is still too limited. There are really few diseases that can be cured in the world, and even fewer people can be saved by doctors from the hands of death.Xie Yumo chose dentistry because he couldn't face death, but he was in a hospital, where the clouds were shrouded, even if he didn't have to face the terrible thing in person, from the blood on the operating table, from the piles of scalpels, , from the endless howling, Xie Yumo could feel the traces of death.He seems to be able to touch the mystery of life from this invisible end. He seems to see a huge confusion, an insoluble puzzle for a lifetime, and its only answer will be the truth that everything in the world has been pursuing for thousands of years.

The truth is always being pursued, and every minute and every second of its existence is a ruthless exposure of lies. As long as it is still standing there, you can know: the world in front of you is false, and what you experience is always true. On the ugly side, the principles I uphold are actually vulnerable.For example, Xie Yumi's principle of seeking truth and treating patients pragmatically, such as his mysterious identity as an expert in foreign exchange.

Xie Yumo knew so many things, he planned to expose everything, but the teacher stopped him in time.

"You want to give the world a truth, but do you know that even the world is a lie?"

Xie Yumo understood that what he was doing was just peeling off a not-so-fake appearance from a false existence, there was no big difference, it was just a light wave on the sea, he thought carefully for a long time, and put on the lie With a beautiful coat, he can claim to be a realistic and pragmatic dentist, and he even has an additional identity: an expert in foreign exchange!

three.

"Old Chen, didn't you know the end from the very beginning when you received that patient? Now it's the old man who doesn't want to live anymore. He thinks about it before he dies. What a rare thing, you are a bystander. Don't blame yourself too much." Xie Yumi received a call from a colleague, and the heavy voice on the other end revealed the fact that Lao Chen had collapsed again.

"I feel so hateful! The sick can't be cured, and even the living can't be saved. You know? Their family is poor, and the youngest son of the old man left with very little left on his body. When I called him I don't know what to say, what's the use of apologizing? I still have to tell him the follow-up according to the hospital's regulations, how indifferent."

Xie Yumo rubbed the part of the bridge of his nose that was pressed down by the glasses with his hands that were not handcuffed.

"You can't say that. Human reason and business reason are two different things. You have no responsibility in this matter. You are just a poor person who happens to be assigned to this role."

"It's not only pitiful, but also very ridiculous! I have studied medicine for more than ten years, and only saved a dozen patients. Is this a year of my time for the life of a patient?"

"Old Chen, stop blaming yourself." Xie Yumo took the phone a little farther away, and listened carefully to the train's news broadcast. "My train is ten hours late. It's really in time."

Old Chen over there seemed to take a sip of wine, choked, and coughed for a while.

"You are on a business trip. There is no risk. If you are ten hours late, you will not waste your time. I have a major operation tomorrow. Maybe another life will be lost in my hands. You are better than me."

"That's enough! What's the matter with you? You have an operation tomorrow and you got drunk today? Ask for leave early and find a solid person to take your place. Otherwise, if you haven't sobered up today, you'll have to continue tomorrow."

"Hey, you scold me, don't you? I like to hear you scold me. If you scold me harder, it would be nice to wake me up earlier."

Xie Yumo was really angry now, picked up the box and went to the bathroom, his voice suddenly became louder.

"Old Chen, to tell you the truth, you are not good at technology, not good at mentality, you are not good at lying, you are not suitable to be a