Chunsheng

【3】

Incandescent lamps on the roof of an old house.

Warm, with fuzzy edges.

Lin Zixi stood under the light, looking at the blurred figure in the distance, he couldn't tell his appearance at all.He stretched out his hand to explore, then crouched down with his head in his hands in horror.

—that was his mother.

From the time he got his memory back, Lin Zixi has been in various relatives' homes.Essentially, he never met the man.

Blood, umbilical cord, association of life transmission.

That is the warmth that people feel for the first time in the world.But at the moment Lin Zixi got his breath, he lost it all.

His mother died on the operating table, and a large piece of bloody but hot red constituted the beginning of Lin Zixi's life.

There are more people in the world for no reason.

Not understanding the meaning of loving and being loved, the whole relationship is distorted and incomplete.

In order to obtain a place to live, people at a young age learn to laugh from the beginning of their sensibility.The eyebrows and eyes are curved, and the baby's fat face always has a kind of flattery.

He is fundamentally unaware of the relationship between people.I also don't understand the so-called empathy and self-esteem.So much so that the first time Lin Zixi heard someone curse his mother, his first thought was how to make people happy by agreeing.Instead of feeling angry.

Even in essence, his mood didn't fluctuate at all.

Some said he was a monster.

But in a way, he does look like a monster.

"Hey! Is your little devil dead?"

"do not know."

The wind in the suburbs blows across the face through the gaps in the dark woods, like a cold and thin knife across the skin.

He Gu put down the dagger in his hand and kicked the person under his feet.

"It's the first time I've seen someone who didn't pay back his debts, fled with money and ran into the wind." Lu Boyan lowered his head and patted the man's face.

Dark blood trickled down the red-stained blade to the ground.

The people on the ground had their right thumbs cut off, and the blood seeped into the ground, which was lifeless black under the moonlight.

"It's been weird recently. I usually put on a show, and it's fine to collect the debt. Recently, I have to see blood every time." Lu Boyan ground and stepped on the other party's mobile phone boredly, leaning his body and hooking He Gu's shoulder. "Why, don't you think it's strange? Recently, those old guys have been nervous all day long, and even the few characters above who can't see their heads and tails often appear in the field...you say..."

"If you fart, let it go." He Gu shook off the opponent's hand, he knew this little boy too well, he grew up together, and he knew how many pounds of meat was in his stomach.

If not, Lu Boyan couldn't hold back any longer, and whispered in his ear. "I heard that the area in the north of the city recently wants to open meat in our area."

"What?" He Gu frowned uncomfortably. "Isn't it an explicit order not to touch drugs?"

"That's the memorial arch built by Uncle Ming himself. Where there is no medicine, more or less, he disagrees, but the few above don't think so. Cutting off people's fortunes is to suffer retribution." Lu Boyan raised his eyebrows at him and said. "So if I'm not wrong, this time... it's time for a change."

The air was filled with the sound of the cold wind shaking the forest, which made people tremble in the bones.

Why didn't he speak, he looked up at Lu Boyan for a long time.The moonlight shone into his eyes like a layer of ice. "So... what are you going to do?"

4,

Speaking of which, when Lu Boyan met He Gu for the first time, he would still laugh.

At that time, He Gu was obedient and obedient, and lived next door to Lu Boyan.In the small rooms, one is for him and the other is for his grandmother.

And Lu Boyan ran to He Gu's house every now and then.Not for anything else, just for the good soup made by his grandma.

Back then, Lu Boyan's father used to drink a lot, and he liked to beat people up when he was drunk, and the father and son beat up every now and then.Then Lu Boyan hid at He Gu's house to drink soup with injuries all over his body, grinning his teeth in pain, but he didn't stop talking.

"Grandma, with your soup, I don't need to go to the hospital."

It was also in those years that Lu Boyan became the thorn in the eyes of the teacher.Fighting and fighting, collecting protection fees, anyway, I did everything I was able to do at that age.No one cared about him, and he felt nothing to be afraid of.The only time he caught He Gu blindly and shook his head trying to put on some airs of a hooligan, but he couldn't see who it was.

Then someone kicked his knee, and he raised his head angrily.He Gu picked up his shoulder bag and frowned. "Lu Boyan, don't you want to drink soup tonight?"

He still remembered that He Ge stood under the sun at that time, and the sunlight leaked through the shade of the tree, reflecting the sparkle in the eyes of that person, the corners of his mouth were curled up, it seemed that even a smile was warm.

>>>>>

——Are you... crying?

A huge pendulum swung before his eyes.

In the next second, the empty streets were lit with old lights.Little by little, the scenery becomes richer with the swing of the pendulum.

All the scenery is shrouded in a thin layer of mist, flashing golden light.

Standing under the high sky, Lin Zixi turned her head to look around.The surrounding sounds seemed to be separated by a glass cover and became indistinct. He heard the discussions of the crowd close at hand, but seemed to be far away.

Is it... a dream?

Lin Zixi raised his head and looked around, the street mirror reflected his appearance when he was only 11 or 12 years old.

He took two steps back in a panic and looked up at his surroundings, everything was warm and unreal.

He opened his mouth, but found that he couldn't make a sound.No one noticed him, and no one came to greet him. He heard the laughter of the crowd, the rustling of leaves in the wind, the sound of car horns, and all of them joined together to form a huge net.

"Hey, what are you crying for?"

He raised his head abruptly, and the glare of the sun pierced into his eyes.

There was a person standing in front of him, with a smile-like expression on his blurred facial features.

Lin Zixi stared at him blankly, his eyes were hot, and even his vision became blurred.He blinked hard to drive the mist away.

The man seemed to be smiling. "What's your name?" Her immature but warm knuckles rubbed against the corners of his eyes.The heart found an important piece like a jigsaw puzzle, and it fell steadily from the air into the chest cavity.

That was a long time ago memory.Lin Zixi thought.He had been to this city before, and someone led him slowly through the streets and alleys.

The man had told himself his name, what was it...

what is it...

Damn...how did he forget.