gentle fairy tale

The study life after entering the university is more busy than imagined.

The exclusive building of the School of Architecture is nicknamed "02:30 Building" by the students of the whole school, because this building is lit all night, and at two or three o'clock in the night, there are always students who finish their day's study and go out in twos and threes .

In addition to a series of professional courses and public basic courses, the design course starts from the freshman year, and there are two designs to be done in one semester, often in the model room.

Yu Mian followed a very nice design teacher and got started very quickly. He was exposed to Rhino at the beginning of the first semester, and then started to learn grasshopper battery diagrams.She doesn't like staying up late, and most of the time she wakes up at 5:[-] in the morning, runs, and then completes the day's classes and homework, because the time planning is better, and she rarely stays up all night to catch pictures.

In addition to studying, student clubs also take up a considerable part of her time.She seems to have a gentle and quiet personality, but she won the championship of the Freshman Cup with her teammates in the school debate team, and she even won the best debater all the way to the final.During the dinner party, the seniors always teased her, saying that she looks soft, her words are as sharp as steel knives on the field, her logic is meticulous, and every sentence sees blood, which is really amazing.

Whenever talking about this, Yu Mian would think of the logic class in elementary school, the humorous teacher and confused tablemate Xu Xiaoyan, the two ginkgo trees outside the school classroom, and then Pei Songxi involuntarily.

She was keenly aware that something seemed to have changed.

The distance seems to be getting farther away without a sound.

Sometimes Pei Songxi would call her in the evening, but more often she didn't. She seldom took the initiative to contact her.

When Yu Mian was too busy to turn around, she could only call her on the way out of class, but it was often already late at that time, and they would hang up before they could say a few words.

She didn't know why everything had changed, she felt sad, but she couldn't tell if it was her fault.

After observing for a while, Yu Mian found that the students in the dormitory actually don't like to call their families.Su Yu and Ran Lin are lively and outgoing, and soon fell in love. They sometimes play games with their boyfriends in the dormitory.Shen Dengqing is still introverted and quiet. He is obsessed with studying every day, and occasionally asks her to go to the library to read books. It seems that she has never called her home.

Is it always like this when you grow up?

—— Gradually learn to be independent, gradually learn to walk, eat, read alone, and learn to... learn not to call people you miss.

She is under heavy academic pressure, coupled with the busy tasks of school clubs and school teams, she occasionally thinks about this issue, but most of the time she can only keep it in her heart, and she gradually feels confused.She remembered that before coming to school, Pei Songxi packed up all the things she needed. Now that she thinks about it... it seems that she wants her to be more independent.

A thought popped up: Does Aunt Pei think she is a trouble, so now that she has finally grown up, she hopes that she will be more independent and stop disturbing her?

In the middle of the night, Yu Mian was lying on the bed and looking at the call records on the phone, from once every two weeks at the beginning, to once a month later, and now there is no more call even once a month.

She knew she was an adult.

Is it because she is not mature enough, she has grown up, but she still wants to see her, call her, and hear her voice... I will think of her and miss her when it is raining or windy .

That's what it's like when you're an adult.

When she was a child, she wished that she could grow up, but when she grew up, she wished that she was still that child.

She didn't dare to call Pei Songxi anymore, and sometimes would send her messages, such as asking her how the weather in Mingchuan was, and asking if she was busy at work recently.But Pei Songxi's reply surprised her.She said that she is not in China now, and is preparing to open up new markets in Europe.

After doing this calculation, there was already a time difference between them, no wonder she was so tired every time she called her.

Yu Mian blamed herself for being careless and inconsiderate, maybe she had woken her up at an inappropriate time before; but her heart was sour—she was not in Mingchuan, she went abroad, she had her own career planning and career development, these She won't even tell her.

She could feel the connection between the two of them weakening.

At the beginning of this year, when Yu Anqing found her, Yu Mian was worried that Pei Songxi would not want her anymore and would send her back.Later, she went back to see her grandparents, and came back to her again. It was obvious that Pei Songxi was very happy that day, and she also had a secret joy in her heart—it turned out that Aunt Pei didn't want her to leave either.

But now it seems that she got it wrong.

It may be because she was in her third year of high school at that time, and the college entrance examination was approaching, which was the time when the pressure of study was the greatest.Pei Songxi has always been meticulous and thoughtful, and will not affect her study because of this matter.

Maybe she had planned it long ago, and when she went to college, she would gradually let go and not care about her anymore.

After all, she has been delaying her for so many years, but everyone should have their own life.

Thinking of this, she gradually stopped taking the initiative to call Pei Songxi. She just looked at the address book every night before going to bed, and looked at the top dialog box in the chat software, counting how many days they hadn't called each other , How many days have I not sent a message, and then...then tears always roll down uncontrollably.

It wasn't until the eve of New Year's Day that Yu Mian finally mustered up the courage. She took a walk on the playground, put on her earphones, and made a call.

This time, Pei Songxi answered quickly, and his tone seemed a little surprised: "Mianmian?"

Yu Mian smiled: "Hi, Aunt Pei."

Pei Songxi also smiled: "How have you been recently?"

Yu Mian silently pursed the corner of her lower lip.

What a polite and distant opening.

"Well, okay, how about you?"

"I'm fine, you don't have to worry about it."

Yu Mian hesitated and didn't know what to say, the feeling between them seemed to have changed all of a sudden, it was no longer the time when they were facing each other day and night like before.There are vast continents and deep oceans between them, tens of thousands of kilometers away... No, it's not just a matter of distance, even their hearts... have already been quietly separated.

"I...we have final exams coming up soon."

"Well, then you should prepare carefully and do your best, and you don't have to be obsessed with grades."

Her tone was as calm and gentle as ever, but she didn't seem to have any intention of chatting.

Yu Mian realized it, and stopped talking. After a long silence, she asked, "A few days ago, I saw sister Wei Yi posting on Moments. It was at the airport in Mingchuan. Have you guys come back?"

Pei Songxi paused, and then said: "I went back once, she was still in Mingchuan, but I left again."

Yu Mian didn't believe it, and smiled lowly: "The work is over by now, are you lying to me?"

"No... I'm abroad and I have some work to do. I happened to drop by to meet a friend today."

Yu Mian asked: "Who is it, do I know it?"

There was a moment of silence on the other end of the phone, and soon a gentle and mellow male voice came in: "Hi, little girl. I'm Wen Zhizhen."

She felt her heart was hit.

Why is it him?

At that time, Pei Songxi broke off the engagement, and she didn't know until a few days later. Pei Songxi never told her why the engagement was broken off, and she didn't ask.

She didn't dare to ask, but she cherished every minute and every second, as if she had stolen some peerless treasure, holding it carefully in her arms, fearing that someone would take it away.

Thinking about it now, she felt an unspeakable sourness, and a certain thought popped up:

——Is it to give me a home, is she breaking the engagement for me?

Does she still like Wen Zhizhen?

So now, now that she's gone, she's gone to him too.

Yu Mian knew that Wen Zhizhen had been recuperating in England, and heard that he was in poor health.A few years ago, she also heard Pei Songxi talking on the phone with him, and heard her asking about his physical condition with a gentle tone and occasionally a little smile.This is very rare, because Pei Songxi treats people coldly, and this kind of proactive greeting is so rare that it almost never happens.

She knew that Pei Songxi and Wen Zhizhen had known each other since they were young, and they were childhood sweethearts in idol dramas. Not to mention, they really matched each other very well. Now that there is no trouble like her, are they... Are they going to get married?

Yu Mian raised her head and looked at the sky, the peaceful heart lake was blown up by this thought.

Pei Songxi's voice came from the other end of the phone again: "Mianmian, are you still there?"

Yu Mian hummed softly, restraining her throat from choking: "...here."

"I haven't heard you speak for a long time. I thought you were dead. Zhizhen just said hello to you. I didn't lie to you. I'm in England recently."

"Well, I see."

But if I want to ask, I can't ask anymore.

Originally, she wanted to ask her, New Year's Day is coming soon, there are three days of vacation, she wants to go home and see her, is that okay.

Pei Songxi was still talking softly: "Is the living expenses enough? It's cold, remember to buy some new down jackets, clothes that are too old are not warm."

"Enough, enough."

In the bank card, Pei Songxi saves a large amount of money for her every year, not to mention that her grandparents and aunts will send money to her, but... But she suddenly felt that she seemed to have no home anymore.

Is this what growing up feels like?

She felt like she was homeless.

Pei Songxi heard that she was not in a good mood, paused for a few seconds, and then said restrainedly: "Mianmian, you're done. Promise Aunt Pei to take good care of yourself, you know?"

Yu Mian silently pursed the corner of her lower lip, and said softly, "Okay."

Then she hung up the phone.