you were there

The fallen leaves are yellowing and the lights are dim.

No matter how busy the city is, it will be as silent as a forest in the middle of the night, except for the little lights and sparse vehicles.

A nanny car parked in front of a high-end high-rise building, Xia Moqiao and Xue Minran got out of the car first.

In order to facilitate the movement, the company also moved Xue Minran's residence here.Next door to Xia Mozhen, she and Qiuchen lived.

Qiuchen was the last to get out of the car, and watched them go upstairs before pressing the elevator.

Soon, the elevator came down, and he hesitated for a moment before going up.

He didn't want to meet Xia Moqiao face to face, because he didn't know how to face him.

Today, when I said something that hurt him, it felt like Xia Moqiao and Zhang Qianqian hurt me that day.

The elevator door opened slowly, and Xue Minran just came out of Xia Moqiao's room.

Qiuchen didn't say hello, nor did she say "good night", but just entered the password in front of her door.

"Have you known each other before?"

The voice was a bit serious, but Qiu Chen didn't stop what he was doing.

"I can tell from the day you met, the emotion in your eyes is something that ordinary people don't have. Even if you are gay, you will not be so surprised and sentimental when you fall in love with each other at first sight."

Qiuchen became interested in this somewhat overbearing girl, because he didn't expect her to be so observant.

"What else did you see?" Qiu Chen asked her coldly, just like he questioned Zhang Qianqian back then.

Xue Minran was a little surprised by the sudden questioning, because he didn't expect his two words to arouse his curiosity.

"You used to care about each other, didn't you! I've seen this kind of friendship too, it's as fragile as a girl's friendship, because each other is emotional."

He didn't know how to answer Xue Minran's guess.

There was no friendship between them at all, and he had no intention of sharing their stories with her.

However, one sentence is very brief-they all once cared about each other.

Maybe it's not caring, but treating the other party as the whole world and everything to oneself.

This kind of meaning has already surpassed the boundaries of friendship.

"Don't ask for my privacy, and his, the last thing you know will be 'zero'. None of us will tell you."

With that said, Qiu Chen had already closed the door.

That night, Qiuchen was sleepless.He still lingered in his mind about the song "The Sun in the Palm of the Palm" and the words he said to Xia Mozhen.He knew that this sentence was so hurtful, but he blurted it out without thinking. At this moment, he was so regretful that he couldn't sleep.

Obviously he convinced himself that he didn't love him anymore, but he also wanted to know why he did that with Zhang Qianqian ten years ago; obviously he wanted to ignore everything about him, but he still couldn't keep his eyes off his surroundings. pull away.

He still loves him...

Just on the other side of the wall, there is a person who is also sleepless.

He didn't know why, he had sung so many songs on stage, and sang so many times, only tonight would make him sleepless.No matter how many times he was ruthlessly stabbed by memories, he could recover as before after waking up.However, at this moment, he couldn't fall asleep.

Perhaps, this song is his untouchable secret, which contains the memories of their love.

Just now he seemed to ignite it, and they were also bruised and bruised by the shrapnel.

After breaking up, the most hurtful thing is not the unfulfilled vows, but the past that we have been together.

Xia Mozhen was lying flat on the bed, the curtains had already been drawn, and the dim lights and bright moonlight outside the window were isolated from the white curtain.

In this world, there is only darkness and him alone.

The bed was a double bed, but he didn't occupy it. During the past ten years of sleeping, he would involuntarily make room for one person.

He has long been used to having someone hug him and fall asleep in his warm chest.

Even if they were separated, he couldn't break the habit.

Ten years is enough to change a person, but those three years have frozen them.

Even though they changed their preferences and avoided the past, they could never hide the traces of their love for each other.

Xia Moqiao turned sideways and closed her eyes gently.

How many nights, he dreamed that Qiuchen appeared beside him, saying words of forgiveness, and the two reconciled as before.

When he woke up, he still found himself alone.

How many nights, the flames of desire burned in his heart, but he could only think of Qiuchen, but that sentimentality would extinguish that passion again, and let himself be swallowed by tears.

It's not like Qiuchen.Obviously the love between the two is so passionate, and the bedtime sex has become the happiest memory of the two of them, and then he found that he did not have Xia Mojiao, as if he had passed puberty.

He has also tried countless people, but they are all indifferent.

Whether it's a man or a woman, Xia Moqiao's body and his blushing, intoxicated face will only be in his mind.

Xia Mozhen still remembered that he had read Zhang Xiaoxian's "Those Sleepless Nights for You" ten years ago, but he didn't have much emotion.Because, Qiuchen has not left him yet.

He thought of that book again, but he didn't bother to read it.His mind is full of Qiu Chen's expression on the big screen, a little cold, but also a little longing.

Do you really want to explain yourself to him?

When the time came, they would all be successful in their careers and be blessed by this world, but he hesitated.

He doesn't know how to get back the lost beauty.Those beautiful things are like a child losing his beloved doll, and there is nothing he can do except cry.

Xia Mozhen is like a child, hoping that the doll can appear by itself, and then comfort him - in fact, I have never gone far, but you are blindfolded by your own tears.

Qiuchen didn't know how to speak, he was also waiting for Xia Mozhen's explanation.

Thirteen years ago, it was Qiu Chen who pursued Xia Moqiao with a shameless face, and even cheated the beauty's heart with bitter tricks.Although it was discovered afterwards, the two were still together.

He almost forgot why he fell in love with this sensual, arrogant, and sullen boy in the first place, and he didn't know what kind of charm he had that made him change his sexual orientation.

However, he knew: he fell in love with someone, it just happened that he was also a boy.

Xia Moqiao still remembers why she fell in love with Qiuchen in the first place.When he was most helpless, it was Qiuchen who accompanied him, and it was his shoulders that wiped away the tears from his eyes.Accompanying Xia Mozhen is Qiuchen, and the cigarette that envelops the whole world.

Later, he quit smoking and went with Qiuchen.

He didn't want such a thing to exist in his world, Qiuchen was enough in this memory.

We loved each other deeply, but now we can't look forward to it; we still care about each other, but now we can't express it.

Looking forward, it will bring regrets; expressing, but it is difficult to express.

Xue Minran didn't fall asleep either, and was checking Xia Moqiao's itinerary on the computer.

After a few minutes, the itinerary is over.

Xue Minran changed her clothes and lay on the bed. This was the first night she moved into this luxurious apartment.She never thought that she would live in such a house, and she never thought that she would become the assistant of her male god.For a few days, it seemed like everything was a dream.

She dared not fall asleep for a long time, for fear that when she woke up, all the good things would be gone.

These are what she once dreamed of, and what she has now.

Although the house is not hers, it is what she has dreamed of all these years; although Xia Mozhen is not hers, it is her spiritual support for these years.

She didn't forget how much youth she had devoted to being admitted to Beijing Foreign Studies University, and she didn't forget how much energy she spent on her major.

This year, she finally graduated with a "Master's" diploma. Instead of becoming a translator, she became Xia Mozhen's assistant.

She is very clear about the reason why the company hired her. It is nothing more than to have an interpreter when going abroad, so that it will not be awkward to accompany Xia Mozhen to go abroad.

She gave up the opportunity for further study and her monthly salary of tens of thousands, and worked hard for a few days, just to get closer to her idol.

She is not as fanatical as other fans, she just wants to explore this mysterious man and know his unknown heart.

To say that she was infatuated with him was probably when Xia Mozheng appeared on stage for the first time a few years ago, and moved everyone present with the song "The Lost Beauty" on the show.She also cried in front of the TV, she cried heartbreakingly.

Every line of the lyrics reminds her of the people she once loved.She shed tears not because of those sentimental memories, but because of this boy's persistence.

His songs are integrated with his people. If he didn't have a similar experience, he couldn't put the story into it, and he couldn't sing such deep feelings.

Obviously those good things have passed away, but he is still looking for them paranoidly.No matter how many difficulties and obstacles there will be in the future, no matter how many gossips he has to face, even if he has to be an enemy of the whole world, he wants to find him, bring his favorite smile, and find those lost beauties.

Everyone has someone they wish to forget.Wishing to forget everything about him, wishing he never showed up.

Quitting a person is like quitting a habit, no matter how hard you try, you still can't quit the love you have been used to for a long time.

After breaking up, there is always another person to look for.In fact, it wasn't fickleness, it was just to replace the former person.

Let new people replace old people, let new good things replace old memories.

No matter how hard you try, it's still in vain.Why it can't be replaced, even I don't know.

Perhaps, it is because of a line in "The Lost Beauty"——

Some people can't tell which is better, but no one can replace it.