next full moon night

Yuan Heng watched Lin Yuan fall down limply after answering the phone, and immediately stepped forward to support him.Facing Lin Yuan's pale face and the cold sweat dripping down his cheeks, he couldn't help but also panicked.

"What's wrong? Why did it happen suddenly? What did Cheng Huanyi tell you?"

"He said something happened to him and asked me to go to the city hospital."

"Let's go, I'll accompany you." Yuan Heng replied without thinking.Even though he, as a bystander, had no choice and was unwilling to intervene in the conflicts between others, but seeing Lin Yuan's restless state, it was impossible to let him go by himself.

The two put the freshly bought vegetables on the porch of the door, lowered their heads and tied their shoelaces again, then got up and went out.

On the taxi to the hospital, Lin Yuan was absent-minded all the time, didn't say a word, but stared quietly out of the window in a daze.

He didn't want to guess what happened to Cheng Huanyi, and he didn't dare to guess.He didn't know how he should face that man, the man he loved the most but also hurt him the most.

During the brief separation of more than a week, Lin Yuan tried his best to free himself from this failed relationship, but he gradually discovered that it was impossible for him to forget Cheng Huanyi.

No matter how strong and self-reliant he pretends to be during the day, when he thinks of those grievances of love and hatred at night, his eyes will get wet again.

He knew that maybe he really couldn't escape the trap woven by that man with tenderness and lies.

The relationship between him and Cheng Huanyi was tightly attached to Lin Yuan's heart like a scar. It was embarrassing and ugly if it was not torn off, but it was bloody and painful when it was torn off.

He lost and still couldn't let go.

The half-hour drive seemed extremely long, and finally arrived at the destination, Lin Yuan couldn't wait to get out of the car and took a deep breath, trying to control the expression on his face, so as not to see Cheng Huan lose control for a while later.

He and Yuan Heng walked into the hall side by side, and the pungent smell of disinfectant on his face made him frown unconsciously.After entering the elevator, Yuan Heng forced an unnatural smile, and said to Lin Yuan: "There must be nothing wrong, you two have been calm for so many days, let's have a good chat later, no matter what worries or grievances It's all clear, and it's better to break up or reconcile and make it clear. You see that you are out of your mind every day, so hurry up and deal with the knot in your heart."

"En." Lin Yuan nodded expressionlessly, and said nothing more.

Cheng Huan leaned against the wall of the hospital corridor, his eyes were slack, his eyes were red and swollen, and his face was so pale that he was sickly.

The moment he saw Cheng Huanyi, Lin Yuan couldn't help being a little surprised. He couldn't overlap the person in front of him with the man who had always been glamorous in his memory, so much so that Lin Yuan almost didn't dare to recognize him.

"Huanyi...what's the matter with you?" At that moment, Lin Yuan seemed to have completely forgotten that they had torn their skins apart not long ago, and the shock and heartache flooded up overwhelmed the anger in their hearts.

As soon as he heard the familiar gentle voice, Cheng Huanyi immediately raised his head to look for the speaker. The moment he saw Lin Yuan, there was finally a gleam of light in his vicissitudes of eyes.

"Yuanyuan, I'm sorry, you've been treating me very well these years. Even though I, a bastard, have done many things that I'm sorry to you, you still haven't left me after all. I've thought a lot these days, and I feel sorry for those previous behaviors. Deep guilt and self-blame, I want you back, and I thought I could coax you back this time, until...until I got this." Cheng Huanyi said, his voice low with guilt go down.

A medical record was handed to Lin Yuan, who took it tremblingly, but it was difficult to focus on the paper.He tried his best to restrain his emotions, took a deep breath, and began to carefully review Cheng Huanyi's medical records.

It's strange, it may be that when people's emotions are extremely low, they don't feel pain.Lin Yuan had imagined countless outcomes before, and the horrible thoughts would often frighten him, but when he really saw the unexpected worst outcome, except for the cold sweat all over his body, he couldn't feel anything else.

HIV.

"I have had a low-grade fever for a long time these days. I thought it was just a common cold and took some antipyretics casually, but instead of getting better, it got worse and worse, and I even developed diarrhea and other conditions. So I went to the small hospital next to the company for treatment yesterday. But the ordinary blood test did not detect any special symptoms. The doctor over there suggested that I go to a big hospital for another look. After I communicated with the experienced doctor here and guessed the possibility, I panicked. I went for a professional test, and it really is..."

Cheng Huanyi spoke lightly, without the panic of the previous phone call, without a trace of waves, as calm as if he was talking about a small matter about someone else.

"It's too late. It has been more than two years since the infection was detected, and it has entered the onset period. The normal incubation period of HIV is 8 to 10 years, and many of them will not develop the disease until more than ten years later. But I, because of the large number of HIV infections As well as the reason of the autoimmune system, it took more than two years to get sick, this may be retribution."

More than two years ago, when he first started fooling around outside, he only found out.

The doctor said that his immune system had already become precarious due to excessive drinking, smoking and staying up late, otherwise he would not have entered the onset so soon.

The previous low-grade fever and unexplained fatigue kept replaying in his mind, making him laugh softly involuntarily, not only mocking his lack of medical knowledge, but also laughing at his fearless and flirtatious life habits.

Lin Yuan stayed where he was, unable to utter a word at all.He didn't know what to say at all, whether he should blame Cheng Huanyi for his unclean self-care and causing patients, or whether he should comfort this unfortunate man.

But in the final analysis, his misfortune was due to his own mistakes, and now there was no point in blaming or comforting him, the most urgent task was to minimize the cost.

Lin Yuan said with difficulty: "Although this disease cannot be cured, death can be postponed through treatment, right? There are still many cases of people living to a normal life span. It is not too late for you to start treatment now."

He didn't know whether he said this to comfort Cheng Huanyi, or to give himself a booster shot, but his mind went blank, and he really couldn't find anything more suitable to say.

Yuan Heng stood not far from the two of them. After listening to Cheng Huanyi's words, he was first shocked that he got terminally ill at such a young age, and then angry that he had done it for himself and was ashamed of Lin Yuan. Finally, the only thing left was to sigh.

He lamented that the gods and couples who were once envious of others would be reduced to such a state. He also lamented the injustice of the world and the unkindness of Lin Yuan.

He walked over and pressed Lin Yuan's shoulder as a sign of comfort, then turned his head and asked Cheng Huanyi with a completely different tough attitude: "Then what are you going to do now? Stay in the hospital and wait to die with a medical tube? Who can tell?" It's really pitiful to think that the romantic and suave Young Master Cheng will spend the rest of his life in the hospital before he turns 30."

This disease is like a machete that may fall down at any time, and the yin and yang will fall in an instant when the knife is raised. Now no one knows how long Cheng Huanyi can live.

Cheng Huan gritted his teeth, and said his true thoughts: "No, I think it is meaningless to lock myself here to prolong my life. What is worth living such a life that is worse than death? It will only be wasted Money and time, it’s better to enjoy the moment. Actually, I think... I still owe Lin Yuan a honeymoon trip, I want to take him out on a trip, and make up for the assholes I committed before as much as possible while I can still walk. "

After hearing these words, Yuan Heng immediately became furious: "Do you still have the face to talk about honeymoon trips with Lin Yuan? Don't you feel sorry for him, and wish Lin Yuan could accompany you to get sick?"

Lin Yuan tugged at the corner of Yuan Heng's clothes, signaling to him that he was in the corridor of the hospital and he had to keep quiet.Yuan Heng also realized that he was too excited and stopped talking.

"Huanyi, I respect your decision. If you don't want to be treated, I can accompany you on a trip. It's okay. I'm not afraid of infection. I heard that a good mood can relieve the disease. Let's go out and relax. You choose a place." Lin Yuan Said softly, his eyes were red, and he forced a smile.He knew that giving up treatment meant that Cheng Huanyi would not last long, but rather than barely sustaining his life, he hoped that Cheng Huanyi would go through this journey of life as happily as possible no matter what.

I hope you live a long and healthy life, but I want you to be happy and worry-free.

I will support your decision and will be with you no matter what, because I love you.

After hearing Lin Yuan's words, Cheng Huan's eyes also turned red. He couldn't help thinking about how he could meet such a good lover as Lin Yuan, and he regretted everything, hating himself for letting down such a good lover.

"Can I give you a hug?"

Cheng Huan asked Lin Yuan tentatively and softly, seeing Lin Yuan nodded, he took his lover's shoulders and held him tightly in his arms.

"This trip may be the last time we will be together. If you have any ideas, requests, or where you want to go, just let me know. I hope this can be a perfect trip without regrets." Cheng Huanyi caressed gently Lin Yuan's head, and said softly, "I still owe you a lot, it seems that this life is not over, and I will try my best to make up for it in the last few days. Lin Yuan, I love you."

The lovers near the end embrace each other, and the melody of love makes people temporarily forget the pain.

No matter how desperate and painful the future is, you don’t have to think about it, just thinking about the beautiful present and me who loves you is enough.