Greedy.

There will always be a period of gentle burnout after the intense emotional ups and downs. The literary and artistic point makes the heart feel ashamed, which is simply a self-defeating.

Now you can’t get angry to be angry, you can’t get angry to hate, and you feel that you who can’t get up to hate are very annoying.

You have nothing to do all day, just lie in bed from morning to night, looking at the ceiling with your hands on your pillow.Sometimes my mind goes blank, and other times my thoughts run wild.

You often think of Qiao Qing.But just as you can't be bothered to do anything else, you can't be bothered to go to him.

You know you will eventually, but not now.

Qiao Qing once briefly ignited your enthusiasm for life, the fire was beautiful, like a guiding star in the dark.

You follow it and come to a vast mountainous area.You have never been here before, and the ups and downs of the terrain make you a little flustered, but more curious and joyful.It's like eating candy for the first time. Although I am wary of its strange shape, I like its sweetness.

However, before you had time to be happy and explore, you stumbled.The fire fell upside down on the ground, a few sparks sprang up, and slowly extinguished.

You stretched out your hand tremblingly, only to touch the ashes on the ground.

But when you get used to the darkness again and think about it calmly, you will feel that there is nothing wrong with it.

Even if it is allowed to burn freely, it will be extinguished one day.You know you don't have that much fuel.

It's just that the ending of burning out was brought forward.This is the fate that illuminates the moment it is ignited.

Stopped early, still on the periphery.Maybe if you retreat carefully, you can also retreat to the plains and return to the place you were familiar with before.It's better than going deep into the mountains, only to grope among the barren mountains and mountains, and have nowhere to ask for help.

You don't want to see tall steep slopes if you can't get across them safely.That will make you rather take the risk of falling off a cliff than walking in the dark.Otherwise you will not be reconciled.

If you want to be silent in the end, you want to be at least a little more decent and chic.

Otherwise it would be too pitiful.

When you think about everything, and then rub it all into the "forget it" trash can, you finally admit to yourself frankly: "I don't want to live anymore."

But what's worse than not daring to die is that you can't die.

Although you have turned yourself into a living dead, you feel that it is still a bit close.A living dead person shouldn't think about Qiao Qing all day long, and shouldn't be hard-pressed.

You think and think, and finally come up with a solution.You can't die once and for all, but you can anesthetize yourself.

Otherwise, how do you say "There is nothing difficult in the world, as long as there is a heart and soul".

There are no sleeping pills at home, but you rummaged through boxes and cabinets to find several boxes of cold medicines.Due to limited conditions, you have to take a few more cold medicines on the spot and use the side effects to hypnotize.You don't expect to have sweet dreams again and again, it's good to be drowsy.

It worked really well at first.But I don’t know what kind of evil you have fallen into. The dream of the prince coming to visit the dragon appears frequently, and it always ends with the phrase "I remember you".

The voice is soft and the tone is very gentle.Like a feather scraping over a scabbed wound, there seems to be no comfort.

Waking up from that abruptly stopped dream again, your thoughts are light and you can't help but be whimsical.

If... if you were the dragon, you wanted to wrap the prince with your wings.

Having this thought is almost like surrendering, and you sigh sadly, and finally return to the grass.

And seeing Qiao Qing still lying there, he couldn't help being a little happy.

It's not good, you know.

Contact creates cravings, and unsatisfied cravings destroy you.It will make you beg for mercy and be miserable.

You want to watch him, out of curiosity, fascination, dependence.You dare not contact him again because of the foreseeable future that you can't get over.

If you can't stay away from Qiao Qing, you can at least control yourself and only look at him from a distance.

You sit silently about ten meters away from Qiao Qing, observing him calmly.

An oval spot of light flickered on Qiao Qing's eyelids, his eyebrows frowned slightly, and he turned his head away.Unexpectedly, one spot of light fell down, thousands of spots of light stood up, and another small irregular bright spot jumped into his eyes.

Qiao Qing simply covered his face with his hands.

You find it funny that the posture you saw before came from this way.

Your mood becomes soft no matter what, like wicker scattered in the wind, stretching happily.

He fell asleep for another twenty or ten minutes, and then opened his eyes a little, slowly adjusting to the daylight.The brown iris appears lighter under the reflection of light, giving it a sense of excessive clarity.

Qiao Qing blinked her eyes a few times to get rid of the daze she had just woken up from, but there was still a bit of sleepiness in her eyes, and she seemed to want to continue to sleep.

You predicted wrong.Qiao Qing sat up, stretched crookedly, then fell back and leaned against the tree.

He stared at the sky in a daze, a three-point smile gradually brewed on the corners of his lips, but the smile was not hearty, and the remaining seven points were blurred.

It's like I don't know what night it is, and I'm drunk in a broken dream.

You also stared at him in a daze.

Unexpectedly, Qiao Qing closed her eyes quickly, and did not open them for a long time.If he hadn't closed it so hard that the veins on his forehead were throbbing, you would almost think he had fallen asleep again.

You stared at him silently, wondering at his abnormality.You are eager to find out, but you don't realize that your eyes are too hot.

Qiao Qing opened her eyes without warning, and looked straight at your invisible gaze.His eyes were cold, like a thin blade reflecting the moonlight.

You caught off guard and looked at him, the blade gradually blunted and melted under your gaze, and returned to the familiar shape.You are the first to look away as if waking up from a dream.

It was very embarrassing to escape.

You replayed his eyes repeatedly in your mind, full of paranoid madness, but...you felt a little bleak.

You feel that Qiao Qing is still looking at you.Long after you've turned your head.

You can't feel his gaze, just guessing like this.

You don't end up having the guts to verify that he does.You silently and silently watch the rushing river, and the dark green duckweed is carried away by the river, one wave drifts away, and another wave comes.

There is no end in sight.

You grab a piece of grass, slide down its flexible stem, and finally touch the sticky soil.You dialed down and removed a layer of slightly moist soil.You picked up a piece and slowly clenched your fists.Soil crumbles easily and slips silently through your fingers.

You twisted off the remaining powder on your fingertips, and withdrew your hand.

Didn't bow down from beginning to end.

Clouds, pushed by the wind, hid the sun and dimmed the shimmering water.

You let out a small breath, and you also lie on the grass like Qiao Qing did before.

The shade of the trees in your position is very sparse, and the sun shines down unobstructed, so it is not very suitable for resting.But the place with dense trees is occupied by Qiao Qing, and the rest are too far away from Qiao Qing, you dare not get too close to him, and you don't want to be too far away from him, so you have to make do with it.

While it's not too sunny, you want to squint for a while.

But even if it is still daytime without sun exposure, it is still bright when you close your eyes.The light keeps you from falling asleep as you wish.

You lay motionless for a long time, and finally a thin drowsiness brewed, everything around you gradually blurred, and it was no longer a vast expanse of whiteness.

I don't know how long it took, but the annoying light seemed to disappear in the confusion.You relax, smile like nothing, and fall asleep completely.

I slept very deeply, without dreams.