Contentment

The person who came was An Mi.

Shen Leguang didn't know how he got the news, but when he was picked up at the station, the woman standing by made him feel inexplicably angry.

What is this?

Shen Leguang pulled Haitong and turned around to leave.But he was spotted by the sharp-eyed An Mi, who shouted "Brother" loudly through the crowd.

Haitong stopped first, almost pulling Shen Leguang with his best strength.

"Why are you leaving? Aren't we here to pick up An Mi?"

Shen Leguang didn't look back, until An Mi caught up, and he looked over with a cold face.

An Mi was a little afraid of him, so he didn't dare to say anything.The woman on the side wore a delicate and neat bun with a pearl hairpin pinned to it.There was no clear emotion on her face, only her trembling hands betrayed her nervousness.

"Brother, brother, this is mother." An Mi lowered her head and dared not look any further.The wind blew his blood cold, leaving only the sound of his own breathing.

"Then what?" Shen Leguang was a little irritable, looking around but unwilling to look at her. "Are you here to prove something, or do you want to take care of Brother Shen's funeral? If that's the case, that's good,"

Shen Leguang took out the key from his pocket, "Do you know where it is?" When he said this, his eyes were fixed on the woman, with a cold expression, suppressing the long-standing resentment and anger.

The woman pursed her lower lip and tremblingly took the key.

Of course she knew where that place was.That nightmarish place haunted her for most of her life, and it could almost be said to have ruined her entire life.

But if Brother Shen is still alive.Confronting her face to face, he would point at her with his stinky mouth and yell, "Bitch!" His fingers had already been stained with butter from years of alcohol, but his eyebrows and eyes still showed the old appearance.It's just so ugly it's disgusting.

"No," the woman suddenly threw the key to Shen Leguang again, she clenched her palms tightly, pressed the same lips and said forcefully, "I just came to see you, it has nothing to do with him."

Shen Leguang looked at the well-maintained but red-eyed woman in front of him, and suddenly laughed.For nothing else, he thought this incident was too funny, how could there be such a self-righteous person?

He didn't want to say a word.After putting away the keys, he took Haitong's hand and walked back without even looking at An Mi.

Shen Leguang didn't speak until he walked out of the station, even a long way away.

"Did you tell An Mi?"

Haitong lowered his head and said nothing, only gave a soft "hmm".He was waiting for Shen Leguang to ask him.

"Why?" Sure enough, he asked.

Haitong stared at his toes and stopped.He changed the position of the hands they were holding together, and it became his wrapping Shen Leguang.

"I regret it," his voice was a little annoyed, "Even if it is the closest person in the world, I can't make a choice for you. I'm sorry, Shen Yueguang, I'm sorry."

Haitong said "I'm sorry" several times.He kept his head down, immersed in his rashness, and didn't notice Shen Leguang's softened eyes.

"I've never told you about the past, and you've never asked." Shen Leguang stepped forward and hugged Haitong with a small step, a little tired, a little hard to say, like tearing off the most painful scar.

"I don't actually hate her. Or, if I were her, I would make that decision."

They had already reached the park, and there was a bench not far away, so Shen Leguang sat down with his arms around him.Haitong's hands are very warm, pressing the skin along the palm of his hand all the way to his heart.

"However, not hating doesn't mean you can forgive her."

"I was only six years old when she left, and I had just started elementary school." Shen Leguang looked up at the clear sky, as if all the haze had passed.

"I don't know when Shen Gezhao started beating her, beating her every day, and scolding her after beating. Calling her a bitch, calling me a bitch's child, a bitch. Once he drinks, things will get worse , he would grab her by the hair and slam it against the cabinet, and he would take a knife and try to kill us both.

"She is such a weak woman. When she hugged me and cried late at night, I even wanted to kill Shen Gezhao. I thought we were on one side, I thought we only had each other, and I dreamed that she would take me out of that ghostly place! In fact, the day was not too late, at least for her.

"So I don't hate her, I just can't forgive her for betraying our relationship. I used to trust her so much, but she left me to face Brother Shen alone, and left cowardly and selfishly."

Haitong held Shen Leguang's face in his arms, and kissed his eyes lightly.

He knew that Shen Leguang had an embarrassing past a long time ago, but he didn't know that the truth was more cruel than imagined.Life seems to be like this, when you think you have reached a desperate situation, in fact, there are more people struggling in the mud.How happy he is, how painful those people are contrasted.

"Does it still hurt?" Haitong asked with a trembling voice, like quicksilver shattered all over the ground.

Shen Leguang shook his head, grabbed his wrist and pulled out an even uglier smile. "Actually, I can't remember the past clearly. Maybe it's because every day is the same, going to school, making money, and hiding from Brother Shen to take pictures." Speaking of this, he couldn't help laughing, as if it was more than 20 years ago The little kid was really funny as well.

"Maybe it's inevitable that I like you." Shen Leguang suddenly changed the subject, "I envy everything that happens to you. Although I didn't show it, I am indeed envious."

"I was afraid that you said you liked it at that time. But when you really didn't care about me, I was very sad."

Haitong recalled the events that happened more than ten years ago, as if it had passed in the blink of an eye.He likes Shen Leguang so much, he follows like a demon.

Maybe they are destined by fate.

He can give Shen Leguang a warm home, and Shen Leguang can give him all his love.

The sun is out today, and the blue sky seems to be waxed, reflecting the joys and sorrows of the world.

The wind gradually turned cold, Shen Leguang took Haitong's hand and went back to pack his things.

There are very few people on the road, in fact, it doesn't matter if there are too many people.For them, all strange eyes are no longer worth caring about.Those people may not have the happiness they came to, and embrace all the good and evil in this world more frankly than them.

An Mi sent her mother back to the hotel to rest.Her eyes turned red from crying, and she became haggard in an instant.

After a while of comfort, there is actually nothing to comfort.He was like an outsider watching this love-hate relationship that had nothing to do with him.

In the afternoon, Haitong called him, gave him the address, and asked him to come over.

An Mi didn't know how to end this matter, but now, sitting in the taxi, he felt like a drowning person, he felt that he was about to suffocate.

In fact, there was nothing left in that dilapidated house, and all the photos of Brother Shen that could be sold were sold.Sometimes Shen Leguang didn't understand why he didn't sell the house.According to the land price in Beijing, after selling the house, he can drink his wine for the rest of his life.

But about life.Regardless of the process in the middle, poor or rich, wishful thinking or depressed, in the end, all paths lead to the same goal, and everyone is going to die.

And brother Shen didn't have any regrets before he died.

When An Mi arrived, Shen Leguang was burning the last piece of paper money.The fire light slowly dimmed, and the dust left behind was blown by the wind and rolled to every corner.

The life of the dead person was burnt out in this way.

After locking the door, Shen Leguang let out a sigh of relief.

He faced the light and looked at Haitong standing in the yard.Gentle, deep, full of love, as if all problems have been solved.

"I can't forgive her, but you don't owe me anything." He walked over and looked at An Mi, who was so nervous that his face turned blue, which made him feel soft-hearted again.

"Go to the teacher's house for dinner at night." Seeing An Mi's confused face, Shen Leguang kindly explained a few more words: "They take good care of me, they probably don't know that I actually have a younger brother."

Haitong stepped forward to hold his hand, smiled and pinched An Mi's face. "Okay, it's over."

An Mi was stunned for a moment, and suddenly laughed like a child, but after a while, he cried in embarrassment.He covered his face with his hands, crying until he hiccupped.

Under Haitong's instigation, Shen Leguang reluctantly hugged him again.But not long after, he laughed, and even An Mi laughed too.

Some things don't pass, and some people can't forgive.But what does it matter?Life is yours, love and hate are also yours.The eyes of others are often biased and full of jealousy, so don't worry about it.

Shen Leguang didn't let go, nor did he have the mercy of a saint, but the past that haunted him could no longer be a nightmare when he dreamed back at midnight.

He is happy enough.