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He cleared his throat and said, "Okay, I'll go back with you. An Ning, can you wait for me for a few days? We'll set off after I arrange things in the church."

Yang Anning shook her head: "No need. Aning, I'll go back by myself, you stay here, and we won't meet again in the future."

Ling Ran's eyes widened suddenly, he jumped off the bed, pulled Yang An Ning's body, held his shoulders with both hands, and asked in a panic: "Why? An Ning, won't you forgive me? I know I was wrong, I Will change, don't ignore me."

Yang Anning continued to shake her head: "After so long, what's the point of finding out who is right and who is wrong?"

Ling Ran became even more anxious, and he continued to ask: "Why is that? An Ning, do, do you hate me?"

Ling Ran's brows were wrinkled again, and the wrinkles in the center of his forehead were deep enough to catch flying insects. Yang Anning stroked those wrinkles with one hand, trying to smooth them out, but the wrinkles were like scratches carved on a stone, no matter what No touch can erase it.

Yang Anning sighed and said, "I don't hate you, I never hated you."

Ling Ran asked: "What is that for? Couldn't everything I've done during this time prove my sincerity? An Ning, don't say 'never meet again', you don't have to forgive me, but don't drive me away... ..."

Yang Anning's hand slid down to Ling Ran's lips.Yang Anning stretched out her thumb, and carefully traced Ling Ran's lips until the shape of Ling Ran's lips was completely imprinted in her heart.

Yang Anning laughed and said: "Ah Ning, I don't hate you, but I dare not love you anymore. I dare not love you, I dare not believe you. I know you have done a lot for me during this time, but I can't help myself, and I wonder if what you're doing is just another game, another scam."

Ling Ran was stunned, he looked at Yang Anning helplessly, his lips were trembling, unable to utter a word.

"How can we still be together? I will suspect you, doubt you, and I will think about you with the greatest malice. Everything you do has ulterior motives in my eyes, and your concern is malicious in my eyes. Ah Ning, how do you think we can still be together?"

"Now I can stand here and talk to you because I saw what you did for me some time ago. Otherwise, with what you did to me, I would only wish to be as far away from you as possible. I am crazy Isn't the timing right for you?"

"We don't want to meet again. In fact, 12 years ago, if so many things hadn't happened, we might not have reached the end. You and I are both men, and we are still young. There are too many glamorous and novel things in this world. There are too many beauties of Lan Xinhui's nature, who can guarantee that we will never change our minds? Ah Ning, the matter has come to an end, why don't you take this opportunity to get back on the right track? When you have a beautiful wife and beautiful family members, and give birth to several big Fat boy, naturally you won’t be bitter about me anymore, and when you think of me, maybe you can call me ‘brother’ again with all your heart.”

Ling Ran closed his eyes, and the wave of pain swept over again, slapping his whole body under the water, unable to move.His tears finally couldn't help streaming down: "Brother An Ning, I know I deserve everything. I said I would never lie to you again, but you lied to me instead. Who said that as long as I If he pays the truth, he will live up to his affection? Who said that he would be with me for a long time? You didn't recognize it, you don't recognize it now...Brother An Ning, do you still love me?"

A look of pain flashed in Yang Anning's eyes, but he still insisted: "You and I have suffered a lot emotionally, why are you still obsessed with the word 'love'? I...I...I don't love you anymore .”

Hearing this, Ling Ran wiped away his tears and laughed instead: "You said you don't believe me anymore, I do; but if you say you don't love me anymore, I won't believe a single word. It's me I made a mistake, and it was I who made our relationship full of holes. All the faults are mine, and I bear it all by myself. An Ning, just be yourself, if you still want to continue to love me, that is The blessings I have cultivated in several lifetimes; if you don't want to love me, then I will love you instead. You don't have to believe me, I will prove it to you, I will accompany you for a day, a year with you, and a lifetime with you , until the day you and I die."

Yang Anning took two steps back, Ling Ran's firmness made him palpitate.

Ling Ran has never changed, whether it is 12 years ago or 12 years later, as long as it is something he believes in, he will definitely do it to the end.

Yang Anning sighed deeply, he knew that it was impossible for him to get rid of Ling Ran, not only this return trip, maybe he would never be able to get rid of him for the rest of his life.He couldn't say whether he was disappointed or relaxed, maybe he already knew in his heart that his request was impossible to realize.Ling Ran refused to give up on him when he was still a lunatic, let alone now.

Ling Ran said: "Since you want to go back sooner, then let's go back sooner. I will make preparations now."

After Ling Ran finished speaking, he suddenly took a step forward, held Yang Anning's chin and kissed him on the lips.

"Brother An Ning, don't even think about leaving me in this life. You don't matter if you call me selfish or domineering. I just want you alone. I don't want anything but you."

Looking at Ling Ran's leaving back, Yang Anning couldn't recover for a long time.

66.

Ling Ran left this time with the intention of staying with Yang Anning in Zheliu Villa for a long time.

Ling Ran has made arrangements for Xi Miao's sect in the past two years.

After acquiescing to the news of Yang Anning's death, Ling Ran adopted a cub as his heir. He will never have another lover in his life, nor will he have his own flesh and blood.

The boy is 17 years old this year, and Ling Ran has taught him everything that should be taught to him. At the age of 12, Ling Ran was able to lead a group of disciples and take care of the entire Ximiao sect. Now that the boy is 17 years old, Ling Ran naturally has nothing to worry about No less.

Xinghe had been handed over to Xiao Jiang to take care of it a few years ago, so Ling Ran didn't need to worry too much.

In Ling Ran's original idea, when the cub grows up, he will pass the position of leader to him no matter what, and then go down to find Yang Anning.Now that Yang Anning is still alive, he wants to accompany Yang Anning to leave, which is nothing more than advancing the time of passing the throne by one year.

With all the burdens off his body, Ling Ran can leave with Yang Anning at ease.

The speed of leaving the mountain was half as fast as the time of coming.

Ling Ran asked Yang Anning if he could use lightness kung fu to take him away when he came out of the mountain. Yang Anning didn't agree, but he didn't object either. Ling Ran took the courage to carry Yang Anning out of the mountain.

In Jincheng, Yang Anning met the little bastard Ling Ran was talking about. The little bastard was named Ling Xiao. He was a very sunny boy, about the same age as Ling Ran when he first met.He smiled happily at Yang Anning, and always wanted to get close to Yang Anning to find a sense of presence, but was thrown aside several times by Ling Ran with his back.

They stayed in Jincheng for two days, and Ling Ran prepared all the items needed for the return trip during these two days.

Ling Xiao was very reluctant to leave when he left. He asked Ling Ran: "Master, will you and Uncle Yang come back?"

Ling Ran glanced at Yang Anning and said, "If you miss us, come to Zheliu Villa to find us. If you, Uncle Yang, want to come back, then we will definitely come back."

The route back was still arranged by Ling Ran, and after only half a day of walking, Yang Anning found that the route back was different from the route he had come here.

Ling Ran sat in the carriage with Yang Anning.When he came, he didn't dare to enter the car, and Yang Anning didn't allow him to enter the car. At that time, Yang Anning had "A Ning" beside him, and he regarded him as a scourge; on the way back, "A Ning" was gone, and only he was left. Being able to be by Yang Anning's side, even though Yang Anning still refused to forgive him and accept him, compared to when he came here, it is already thousands of times better.

"This is not the road we walked when we came here." Yang Anning said, "Where are you taking me?"

"This is the way to Yicheng." Ling Ran picked up a plum, took out the core in two halves and handed it to Yang Anning, "It will be a longer journey than when we came here."

Yang Anning didn't answer, and asked, "Why don't you take the same route?"

Ling Ran took Yang Anning's hand, put the plum in his palm, and said: "Back to Zheliu Villa, you have Liu Sanzhe, Qiao Dalou, and the old and young of Zhejian Villa, but on the way back, there is only me With you. An Ning, I want to stay with you for a while, just the two of us, even for a little longer."

Yang Anning looked down at the cut plums, the plums were juicy and very attractive.Yang Anning picked up half, handed the other half back to Ling Ran, and asked, "How long will it take to return to Zheliu Villa?"

Ling Ran was very happy staring at the half plum. After so many years, this half plum was the first thing Yang Anning offered him. Although the plum was cut by himself, he still felt that the half plum was worth finding a box to keep. stand up.

Ling Ran laughed unconsciously, and said: "If we don't stop, we will be able to return to Zheliu Villa in about two months; if you want to see more, the time will be uncertain. An Ning, you said You want to take a walk in the rivers and lakes, this is a rare opportunity, how about I take you around the rivers and lakes?"

Yang Anning was a little tempted, but in the end he still refused.

"No need, I'm past the age of looking for excitement."

Ling Ran leaned forward and sat beside Yang Anning, and Yang Anning leaned towards the corner subconsciously.

Yang Anning is still afraid of Ling Ran.Although he didn't say it out loud, some subtle movements and expressions always inadvertently showed Yang Anning's fear of Ling Ran.Yang Anning's madness has indeed been cured, but the 12 years have left indelible marks on his body. These marks penetrated into the blood and invaded the bone marrow. An undiscardable gift for "normal person" Yang Anning.

Ling Ran naturally not