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Ah Ning replied: "No, your expectations are just wrong."

Yang Anning stared at him in surprise: "Do you know what you are talking about?"

Aning said, "I know."

Yang Anning tightly pressed her lips together, narrowed her eyes and said nothing.

After a long time, Aning took his hand again and said, "An Ning, I know you know it all, you obviously know it all."

Yang Anning remained silent.

Aning leaned against him and stopped talking.

58.

Ling Ran sat on the wooden board in front of the carriage, with his back leaning against the carriage.

Yang Anning's words were naturally heard clearly by him.

Ling Ran raised his head and looked at the sky, he felt that if he didn't raise his head, something would come out of his eyes.

It seems that everyone is telling him that it is best for An Ning that he does not appear by An Ning's side.But he couldn't do it.He is such a selfish person, he can't let go of An Ning, even if both of them are in pain, he won't let An Ning leave his side again.But even so firm, he was still shaken by the pain of peace.He didn't want An Ning to suffer any more pain, but he was An Ning's biggest pain.

There was silence inside and outside the carriage, only the clatter of horseshoes and the creak of wheels echoed in the air.

The sun has completely set, and the shadow of the horse station in front of us is faintly visible.

Ling Ran grabbed the reins and stopped the carriage firmly in front of the post station.

It is said that it is a post station, but it is just a wooden house surrounded by a fence.

Ling Ran opened the curtain and said to Yang Anning: "Anning, we will rest here today, someone will take our luggage to the main altar for us, and we can go on the road tomorrow with light packs."

Yang Anning jumped off the carriage and said, "Understood."

The two stepped into the wooden house, and on the right side of the door was a big bed with two quilts neatly placed on it.The room is very clean, you can tell at a glance that it has just been cleaned.

Ling Ran said: "You sleep in tonight, and I'll go to the carriage. It's cold in the mountains, and there's nothing to keep warm here, so put on a quilt at night. If you need anything, you can call me at any time. Take a rest first, and I'll prepare dinner."

After finishing speaking, Ling Ran went out and closed the door.

Yang Anning looked around, this wooden house was similar to the ones he had lived in before in the mountains, except that there was an extra bunk.Standing by the door, Yang Anning reached out and pushed the door open.

Ling Ran was busy outside the door, he set up a bonfire in the yard, all the food he ate was brought from Jin Cheng, and the dry food was warmed up by the fire.

Ling Ran watched Yang Anning standing by the door, but he didn't move forward as usual.

The two of them seemed to have lost their voices this night, unwilling to speak, and did not want to try or dodge.They don't know what will happen when they arrive at the main altar of the Xi Miao Sect tomorrow, and they subconsciously don't want to know.

After dinner, Yang Anning returned to the cabin, Ling Ran was still sitting by the campfire.When Yang Anning closed the door, he glanced at Ling Ran, his face was reddened by the flames, but there was no expression on his face.Yang Anning shuddered and closed the door.

Lie on the bed with all clothes on, Yang Anning pulled two quilts to cover her body.Naturally, he couldn't fall asleep. Even though his body was a little tired, his spirit was extremely tense.Yang Anning stared at the roof, but her thoughts drifted to the last night in the wooden house with Aning for more than ten years.

Those past events, from Jin Cheng to the Ximiao Sect General Altar are the ones that Yang Anning least remembers, and they are the ones that he deliberately fades away, because he can't tell whether the person who accompanied him through this period is the one who loves him Aning still hated his Ling Ran.He can be sure that the person who accompanied Jin Cheng before him was Aning; he can also be sure that the person who tortured and insulted him after he arrived at the Ximiao Sect General Altar was Ling Ran; , Who is the person beside him?Sometimes he thinks that person is Aning, because that person is still gentle and considerate to him; but sometimes he thinks that person is Ling Ran, because after entering the mountain, his mood is obviously different from before, as if deliberately pretending to treat him good.

If Yang Anning couldn't figure it out, he stopped thinking about it.

But when he came back here again, he couldn't continue to escape.Everything about Jin Cheng and Shiwan Dashan reminded him, making him think of the past involuntarily.He couldn't distinguish the people in his memory, so he began to confuse people in reality, so he confused Aning and Ling Ran for the first time.

Yang Anning felt that it was a huge mistake to agree to come back here, because he might really lose Aning.In Zheliu Villa, he agreed to come to Shiwan Dashan because he believed that Aning would be by his side. If Aning was lost during this journey, Yang Anning didn't know if he would really go crazy.

You can see the beating of the fire outside the door through the crack of the door, Ling Ran is still sitting there, maybe he will sit there for a night.

Yang Anning grabbed Aning's hand, and Aning immediately stuck to his body.

But they still didn't speak.

That's how the night passed.

59.

Just after dawn, Yang Anning and Ling Ran set out on the road.Both of them had a sleepless night, and staying in the station was just a waste of time.

Ling Ran walked in front, deliberately controlling his walking speed, while Yang Anning followed three steps behind him.The two made a rustling sound as they walked, which seemed very abrupt in the early morning forest.

Before leaving the inn, Ling Ran asked Yang Anning again: "Shall I take you away with lightness kung fu?"

Yang Anning refused, and Yang Anning said: "No need. Last time I went into the mountain by myself, why are you so careful this time? If you really want to talk about my physical condition - no matter how bad it is Worse than when I came out."

Ling Ran looked at Yang Anning, trying to see his emotions from his face, but he found that Yang Anning didn't imply any emotion when he spoke, he was just stating a fact.Ling Ran smiled wryly, An Ning didn't mean to make him feel bad, but he was heartbroken because of the past revealed in An Ning's words.The pain caused by those unbearable past events has become a habit for Yang Anning; but for Ling Ran, everything about Yang Anning now is his new bloody wound.

Ling Ran would stop to rest after walking for a while, Yang Anning just followed him, he walked and stopped.Ling Ran recalled the last time when he entered the mountain, An Ning walked side by side with him, although they didn't hold hands, but the physical touch during the walk was inevitable, a random small physical contact at that time seemed sweet now.It's a pity that those sweetnesses can only exist in memories.

Ling Ran wanted to find something to break the silence between the two, but after much deliberation, he couldn't find a suitable topic.

Ling Ran hesitated for a long time, and then said: "An Ning, I didn't want you to die at that time, I let you go out of the mountain, I let you go out along the road we entered the mountain, but I didn't expect that you didn't take that road ..."

Yang Anning's footsteps obviously paused, and a suppressed voice came in a low voice: "Really? Now you can say whatever you want."

Ling Ran went on to say: "I didn't lie to you. After I found out that you didn't go that way, I searched all over the mountains for you, but when I found your trace, I only saw blood everywhere. I thought you were dead. An Ning, I I regret it, I wish I could die with you at that time."

Yang Anning's voice was still deep: "You are still alive, Master Ling, what's the point of saying this now? No need to say it."

Ling Ran stopped, but didn't look back, and said: "I know you don't want to hear it, if you feel bored, just pretend there is a bird singing in your ear. An Ning, you have been suffering these years, and I am also having a hard time."

Ling Ran then walked forward and said, "It's not that I don't want to part with this life, but I can't leave the Sacred Cult alone. If I die, how will the Sacred Cult gain a foothold without a leader? I have often asked myself these years, When will I be able to find you? I'm afraid you won't wait for me, but you are no longer there when I go underground, and I will never find you again. If Ajiang hadn't told me that you were still alive, I would have gone down to find you But it's just a matter of two years.

An Ning, you may think that what I say are all excuses, what's more, you think that what I say are all lies.

When I first found the traces you left, I didn't believe you were dead. Although A Jiang and the others said that you were eaten by wolves, I didn't believe it.I had someone go to Zheliu Villa to inquire about you, I thought you just didn't want to see me.At that time, I thought, after I find you, I will make amends to you, no matter what you ask me to do, I will give it to you even if you want my life.But I can't find you. You didn't go back to Zheliu Villa. I know Zheliu Villa is very important to you. May find you.Later, I stopped asking people to inquire. I believed A Jiang's words in my heart, and I lied to myself that as long as I stopped inquiring about you, I could pretend that you were still alive in this world.

In fact, I am very timid, and I am not even willing to confirm your life and death.But because of my timidity, I missed ten years with you.If I ask for another year of inquiry, I will be able to hear about you.

Others say that I am smart, but when I meet you, I always do wrong things.One wrong step, one wrong step, I personally made our relationship what it is today.

Before I went to find you, I was thinking about how to get you back, but after seeing you, I realized that my thinking was useless.

It's useless... Even if I found you a few years ago, it's useless, I broke your heart in the dungeon, and it was already too late..."

Ling Ran's voice dissipated in the forest, but Yang Anning felt her heart was pinched.

This feeling is not unfamiliar, it is a trace of distress, but it should not be for the person in front.

Ling Ran restrained his emotions, and said: "I raised a little brat, who is quite clever, and it won't be long before I can hand over the holy religion to him, and then I will