i know i'm sick

avoid mentioning the past with him.He even felt that it would be okay to be "Ah Ran" for the rest of his life just by staying in Zheliu Villa like this.It's a pity he couldn't deceive himself.What he wants is all of peace, his person, his heart, and his feelings, what he got now is nothing but a false phantom.

After Liu Sanzhe failed to persuade Yang Anning to see a doctor, he ran over and scolded Ling Ran severely.When Ling Ran taught him how to practice martial arts before, he was useless, but this time he became more stubborn.Liu Sanzhe scolded: "Why do you want Uncle Yang to suffer these crimes? You are the one who deserves to die, why does Uncle Yang want to live?"

Ling Ran didn't say anything, why didn't he want to bear these sufferings for An Ning?

Yang Anning is neither seeking life nor death now.He will not deliberately spoil himself, and even before Liu Sanzhe becomes an adult, he will take the initiative to take care of his body. It is his goal to raise Liu Sanzhe and let Liu Sanzhe take over Zheliu Villa. Before the goal is achieved, he will force himself But he will not try to survive, as long as Liu Sanzhe can support Zheliu Villa, even if he dies tomorrow, he will not feel bad, even for him, this is a kind of relief.Now, Ling Ran and Liu Sanzhe spent a lot of time to see a doctor for him, and also bought a lot of valuable medicinal materials. In his opinion, this is a waste.

Liu Sanzhe scolded Ling Ran for a while, and finally said: "You go and persuade Uncle Yang! You have to deal with the evil you have done yourself! If you can't persuade Uncle Yang, get out early! Give Uncle Yang a few days of cleanliness, he Even if you have to go, you can go comfortably!"

Ling Ran's face was livid, he had never been scolded by someone pointing his nose like this, let alone by someone who was a generation lower than him, but he couldn't retaliate.

To make Yang Anning take good care of the doctor, make him willing to take medicine, and most importantly, make him willing to live.

This is Ling Ran's responsibility, what he should do, and what he must do.

43.

Ling Ran walked into Yang Anning's courtyard and saw him sitting in the pavilion drinking tea.

Yang Anning is very free now. It used to be that Liu Sanzhe could hide from the affairs of the village, but if he couldn't hide, he had to be lazy. Now he rushed to do it, for fear that something would bother Yang Anning.Yang Anning has nothing to do every day, except drink tea and amuse the birds, just stare at the sky in a daze.

Yang Anning felt that Liu Sanzhe was overkill. After so many years, no matter how poor his health was, he would not be exhausted from doing a few things.

Yang Anning was holding the teacup, and the water vapor in the cup rose mistyly, covering his face dimly.

Ling Ran walked into the gazebo, leaned against the pillar, and didn't speak.

Yang Anning didn't say anything, he took a sip of tea slowly, his gaze fell far away.

There was only one teapot on the stone table in the center of the gazebo, and Yang Anning was holding the only cup in his hand.

After waiting for a while, Ling Ran asked, "Are you the only one drinking tea?"

Yang Anning responded, put down the teacup, and said, "Yes, Ah Ning never liked drinking tea, he thought it was too bitter."

Ling Ran couldn't help thinking that he didn't like to drink tea in the past, he always felt that the taste of tea was too astringent in his mouth.

Yang Anning prefers to drink tea, and every time he drinks it, he wants him to have a sip, saying that although the tea is bitter, it will be rich in sweetness after the bitterness.

He always refuses.In those years when he thought An Ning was gone, he also fell in love with drinking tea. He still didn’t like the taste of tea, but he was nostalgic for the shadow cast by An Ning on the tea. With the fragrance of tea, he could pretend that An Ning was by his side .His tea is always strong, bitter and even salty, but he can drink it all in one gulp.He didn't know what the sweetness of tea tasted like, since An Ning was not by his side, all the tea had only bitter taste.

Ling Ran walked behind Yang Anning, played with his hair with his fingers, and said, "Shall I drink with you?"

Yang Anning took a second look, as if to say, do you even drink tea?

Ling Ran said: "I am also subject to change."

Yang Anning was noncommittal: "But I only have one cup."

Ling Ran took the teacup from his hand, filled it up, drank it down, and said, "We can use a cup."

A smile appeared in Yang Anning's eyes, and he said, "You drink tea like this, it's a waste."

Ling Ran put the teacup to his lips, tasted it like a kiss.Ling Ran said: "Drinking your tea, how can it be considered a waste."

Yang Anning snatched the cup back, put it on the stone table, squinted at him, and asked, "Do you have something to tell me?"

Ling Ran nodded and said, "Yes. An Ning, do you like drinking tea? There are so many things you like in this world, why don't you try to keep them for a while?"

Yang Anning smiled and said: "San'er asked you to come? Since he finished talking to me last time, he would chatter when he saw me. Before, he thought I was talking non-stop behind his ass all day long. Now it's the other way around. I didn't expect that you would also be recruited by him as a lobbyist."

Ling Ran said: "If he doesn't look for me, I will persuade you. An Ning, what is it for? Your body is not ineffective in medicine, and I can... Zheliu Villa does not have the energy to heal you, as long as you If you are willing to cooperate, even if you don't expect to have Songqiao's life, it is not a problem to be like an ordinary person. Besides, Zhang Qian is helping you see a doctor. With his medical skills, he will never let you live like you are now. Yuan is dissatisfied..."

Yang Anning leaned on the back of the gazebo chair and said flatly, "Because I have lived enough."

Yang Anning withdrew her smile: "I told San'er that, and I said the same to you. I'm too tired, Ah Ran, you don't understand..."

Ling Ran clenched his fists and said, "I don't understand, you can tell me."

Yang Anning's eyes diverged, and said, "You all don't know how exhausting and boring it is to live only for responsibilities. I've lived this kind of life for ten years, and I've had enough..."

Ling Ran said: "No one has ever asked you to take on these responsibilities. We can call Liu Sanzhe and ask him if he is willing to be this 'responsibility'?"

Yang Anning said: "I can't control what San'er thinks, but I have lived like this for so many years. Ah Ran, I should be glad that I have these responsibilities, otherwise I would have died in the [-] mountains. I don't know why you guys I must be obsessed with getting my body healed. I know my own body well. Although the situation is indeed not good, at least I will not die in the past few years. I still want to watch my third son get married and have children, and I also want to see that he is capable. In charge of Zheliu Mountain Villa, I will not die so soon. All you ask is to let me live for two more years, but you have never asked me if I would like to. I am grateful to San'er for helping me find Dr. Zhang , I also touched that you care about me, but this is not what I want. What I want is nothing more than to be able to leave without any worries when it is time for me to call the curtain."

Ling Ran roared: "Since you have to take responsibility, why can't you take it for a while longer? How do you know that I don't understand your feelings? I know, I know too well..."

Of course Ling Ran understood.He bears the burden of "Xi Miao religion", and in the past few years, this burden has allowed him to restrain his sadness and regret, and continue to live in a world without peace.Ling Ran once thought that when he finds an heir and relieves the burden of the leader, he can go to An Ning, but he doesn't know if An Ning is still waiting for him underground.Day after day, every day is suffering, every day is patience.No one knows this kind of day better than him.

Ling Ran said: "An Ning, we are all looking forward to your well-being. Is there really no one in this world that you miss? Is there nothing you miss?"

Yang Anning said: "Yes. I used to have many wishes. When I was young, I looked at the old owner and the uncles in the village, and wanted to go to the rivers and lakes with them, but my father would not allow me to go. Later, I thought, when I grow up, I must go to the rivers and lakes for a while. Unfortunately, this wish may not come true. "

Ling Ran said: "If you want to go to Jianghu, I can take you there anytime!"

Yang Anning shook her head: "There's no need. I've really lived long enough. I owe so many lives, and I always have to pay them back."

Ling Ran's eyes widened, and he asked, "You owe someone's life? Who do you owe your life to?"

Yang Anning got himself a cup of tea again, held the teacup with both hands, and said: "Actually, it's not me who owes it, it's my mother... I'm his son, and I always have to pay back what she owes."

Ling Ran seemed to have been punched hard, his voice trembling: "You...why do you think so?"

Yang Anning took a sip of tea, eyes blurred, Yang Anning said: "I didn't know what my father and mother did before, when I knew, those things happened... It was inevitable. Father and mother did wrong, No matter what the reason is, I shouldn't abandon my responsibility, especially after killing so many people... I have already paid back my mother's responsibility, but I have no way to pay back those lives. I can only... die for life Alright..."

Ling Ran couldn't believe what he heard, he said, "So you don't want to be treated... because of this reason? Because of the Xi Miao religion... because of... me?"

Yang Anning didn't hear his words clearly, and continued: "I don't hate him, if I were him, I might want to take revenge... If he told me the truth, I might be willing to do a blood transfer with him... "

Ling Ran's heart was overwhelmed, he thought about the reason why Yang Anning didn't want to get medical treatment, and he guessed that the reason must be related to him.Maybe it was just like An Ning said, he was too tired to live; maybe it was just an excuse, An Ning was heartbroken by herself and lost the desire to live.However, Ling Ran never expected that An Ning was doing it to repay the debt.

"You are his son, shouldn't you pay the debt after she died?"

The words he said rang in his ears like thunder.

Yang Anning's words continued, Yang Anning said: "I just have