betrayal

Fayol is not a person who likes to recall the past. In fact, the reason why he hopes that his monarch will never be shaken by the past has something to do with the fact that he is often bound by the past.

"I don't like recalling the past..."

But he is always reminiscing about the past.

"I also died under the shackles of Fallows steel in my previous life, so I have some memories that don't belong to the present..."

This is something he hates, and it is also one of the things he relies on to survive well in this life.

"I hate thinking about the past..."

Because he is always inevitably affected by the memory of the previous life.

"I used to be a loser, betrayed by someone I trusted. He told me that my only mistake was to try to trust a demon. He said that a demon should be a creature that can never be polluted by emotions... "

"He's not right. It's a good thing to try to believe. As long as the person you believe in is a trustworthy person, then this trust is absolutely correct. He's also right. Demons are supposed to be ruthless creatures and cannot be manipulated. Bound by those meaningless feelings..."

"In this life, when I was a familiar, I have been living in the shadow of being a loser. I know that I am actually a very weak guy. I am destined not to reach the end of the abyss, because I am cowardly in my heart. I can't go on alone, I have to rely on someone to survive, my courage, my self-confidence, and my strength can only be displayed in the company of someone - I'm just a despicable person , Weak, disgusting parasites, they must depend on others to survive."

"But this kind of 'living' is simply more disgusting than 'death'."

So he decided later.

"Find a guy who is more suitable to live than me, and entrust all my energy and value to him..."

He couldn't go on the road of being king, so he decided to give everything about himself to others.

"Because, even though I know I'm humble, I still hope that my existence is valuable! Even if I'm a scum of the abyss, such a trash who can't do anything without others, I still hope that I can dedicate my meager contribution to the birth of the king." A force..."

He looked eagerly at Angus, his acknowledged sire.

"Can you understand?"

"Can you understand me?"

"This kind of feeling?"

Then he reacted again, denying this possibility with a little disappointment.

"Ah...you are a king, how can a scum like me beg for your understanding?"

He opens his hands, as if begging for a hug from someone who doesn't exist.

"No one will understand me...Because, in the abyss, there are kings and subjects of kings. Others, the most, will always be fools who are stepping stones of kings but have no self-knowledge. They don't know their own destiny. Don’t accept your destiny, struggle ugly, think that as long as you keep working hard and don’t give up, you will succeed—the most people will always be fools with these thoughts. There is no faith, no fear, so there is no understanding.”

He was always bound by memories, repulsive and depressing, but he could never forget them.

"When I was a familiar, I was still very naive, and I had some unrealistic naive ideas-I thought that the abyss was so big, there would always be someone who could understand me, and I would never be too lonely, I think My soulmates are hiding in some dark corners, walking alone in pain like me. I think I can find them."

He had spoken his mind to other people.

"I still remember that day very clearly. It was a dilapidated tavern in Luoxing City. There were broken tables and chairs. There was always a layer of dirt on them that couldn't be wiped clean, but people who went in and out didn't care about it. There was only one bartender at the bar. , the wine is not badly mixed, limited by the raw materials, it can't get rid of an inferior taste, but compared to other taverns, it is quite good. In fact, I always think that the bartender's wine is the only sign of that tavern. That day , I probably drank a lot of wine, my spirits were very excited, and I even lost my mind. I stood on the table in the tavern and spoke out my thoughts loudly.

I said, I want to find a guy who is more suitable for living than me, and then entrust all my energy and value to him, I want to be the most comfortable stepping stone on his road to success..."

Fayol sighed, paused, and asked Angus.

"You said, if I am so stupid, will I find someone who agrees with my ideas?"

The answer is obvious.

"Of course not! This is the abyss! It's the darkest, most depressing, and most sinful place in the entire world! The only principle here is 'survival of the strong'. All demons are watching for the weaknesses of other demons, waiting for opportunities to eat each other, and grow stronger." Myself! How can a guy like me who speaks out his weaknesses clearly find someone who agrees with him?"

"I'll just find a bunch of bad guys with green eyes who want to eat me!"

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