single team

After a snowstorm, the temperature is getting lower and lower.Shao Fei forced himself to distance himself from Xiao Muting, and he never brought back the panda water bottle. He was able to focus on nothing during training, but he couldn't do it during rest. All he was thinking about was Xiao Muting, and he couldn't stop looking in Xiao Muting's direction.If you can't find someone, your heart will hang, if you see it, you will be happy in a foolish way.

After about a week like this, Shao Fei couldn't hold back anymore.

And Xiao Muting has been waiting for him to find him.

The world in the frontier has an unusual vastness and solemnity, and people walking in it are so small that they can almost be ignored.Xiao Muting walked slowly in front, Shao Fei followed obliquely behind with his head down.The distance between the two was less than two steps. In the past, Shao Fei would have strode forward a long time ago, leaning towards Xiao Muting and asking questions.

But today the atmosphere is much more serious.

Xiao Muting waited for Shao Fei to speak, but Shao Fei typed out the manuscript a hundred times, but still didn't know how to ask.

He had already traveled quite a distance, leaving two rows of parallel footprints closely spaced on the thin snow.If you don't care about the size of the footprints, it can even be judged that their owners are a pair of close lovers snuggling together.

Xiao Muting stopped and turned his body back halfway. Shao Fei didn't know that he would stop suddenly, and he didn't pay attention to walking. He buried his head and continued to move forward, almost bumping into him.

The parallel footprints almost intersected. Shao Fei opened his mouth slightly and looked at Xiao Muting dumbly. After a second, he stepped back and said, "I, I didn't hit you on purpose, don't think about it."

Just for a moment, the roots of his ears turned red.

Xiao Muting let out a breath, and his heart softened again.

The two stood facing each other, Xiao Muting looked at Shao Fei, and Shao Fei looked at the lower right corner.The footprints were no longer neat because of the step back just now, and they seemed a bit messy.

After a while, Xiao Muting said helplessly: "Are we just going for a walk like this?"

The corners of Shao Fei's lips moved slightly, and he raised his head slightly slowly, his eyebrows were furrowed, his expression was tense, and his eyes were particularly serious.Xiao Muting was frightened by that gaze, his fingers trembled without warning.

"I..." Shao Fei lowered his eyelids, and raised them again after a while, "Captain, you..."

Do you know Shao Yu?

What a silly question, Shao Fei pursed his lips and thought, but if he didn't ask that, how could he continue to speak?

"En." Xiao Muting waited patiently, without urging, even his eyes were calm and gentle.

Enlightened by this light, Shao Fei suddenly became more courageous, quietly clenched the hand hanging by his side, stared into Xiao Muting's eyes and said, "Captain, do you know Shao Yu?"

Originally thought that Xiao Muting would show a slightly surprised expression, and then smiled lightly, but no, Xiao Muting's expression did not change significantly, only deep sadness floated in his eyes.

Shao Fei was taken aback, "Captain?"

"I know." Xiao Muting turned around, put his hands in his pockets, closed his eyes to the waves in his eyes, "Let's go, I'll tell you about your brother."

The parallel footprints extend forward again.

"He is my team member, he was younger than you when he joined the team, and he is the best recruit in my team." Xiao Muting said in a calm voice, "I still remember what I told you before, I led the team on the Sino-Russian border Pursuing an arms smuggling gang, lost four excellent comrades in arms?"

"Remember." Shao Fei suddenly felt his heart in his throat, "but you didn't say too much, you just said it was all over. I asked you at that time - did you want to grind my temper when you were so strict with me? , don’t let me be folded in the mission in the future.”

"Yes." Xiao Muting slowed down and his voice became even hoarse: "Because your brother Shao Yu was one of the four sacrificed soldiers."

It has been 7 years, and the pain of the death of a loved one has already calmed down from a raging tide to a calm sea. Shao Fei is not surprised, but his heart tightens uncontrollably.He took a breath of dry and cold air, continued to look at Xiao Muting, "Yes."

Xiao Muting looked at the black mountain in the sky, "His sacrifice is my responsibility."

"What..." Shao Fei opened his eyes wide: "What does it have to do with you?"

He still remembered that when the troops informed Shao Yu of his sacrifice in written and oral forms, they also delivered a pension—the money was spent later on treating his grandmother, but he kept writing the documents. keep it.Shao Yu died unfortunately during a special mission, so what does it have to do with his comrades in arms?

"I'm his captain." Xiao Muting said: "According to the team's regulations, he was not qualified for that kind of mission at that time, just like you, Ai Xin, and Chen Xuefeng are now."

Shao Fei listened silently.Xiao Muting didn't need to explain too much, he could understand - no matter how good a junior special soldier is, he would not be allowed to perform high-level missions, which is why he has not performed important missions in Falcon for a year.

"But I ignored the regulations and took him to the border." Xiao Muting paused: "After the operation started, I failed to protect him well."

He didn't speak in too much detail, concealing the bloody cruelty and tragedy.He didn't want Shao Fei to know how painful the last moment of Shao Yu's life was, but he should let Shao Fei know, and he couldn't hide it.

Shao Fei took two steps back, his thoughts gradually becoming confused.

He asked Xiao Muting to come out, just to confirm his guess, just to let Xiao Muting know—Captain, I already know why you took care of me.But the words only started, and Xiao Muting led them in another direction.

Shao Yu was his closest family member, and he couldn't help but care about the details related to Shao Yu's death.

He looked at Xiao Muting uneasily, his lower lip trembling: "You..."

"If I followed the rules, he wouldn't have participated in that operation." Xiao Muting didn't avoid Shao Fei's gaze, "and he wouldn't sacrifice."

In an instant, Shao Fei's head buzzed, his cheeks turned pale, and he didn't say a word for a long time.

"Seven years ago, I put Shao Yu's urn in your hand, and you stared at me for a long time." Xiao Muting said in a deep voice, "But I was wearing sunglasses at the time, so you couldn't remember what I looked like. If you keep If you don’t remember it, I probably won’t tell you that Shao Yu’s sacrifice was my fault. But when you were doing sit-ups in the snow that day, I knew you remembered it.”

"I..." Shao Fei frowned, and said incoherently: "What I want to know is not, no, Captain..."

"What you want to know is whether I am the one who returned the urn that day, and whether I am Shao Yu's comrade-in-arms, right?" Xiao Muting asked.

Shao Fei opened his eyes in a daze, and nodded slightly.

"Yes, I am." Xiao Muting smiled wryly: "I am not only Shao Yu's comrade-in-arms, but also his captain, an irresponsible captain."

"No!" Shao Fei retorted subconsciously: "You are not the captain who is not responsible!"

A little astonishment flashed across Xiao Muting's eyes, and he shook his head immediately, and continued to say: "I owe Shao Yu, and I owe you too. You think I take care of you and treat you well, that's true. If I don't do this, I will There is uneasiness."

coming!Shao Fei held his breath and concentrated. Although he had long understood that Xiao Muting's care was due to Shao Yu, but hearing Xiao Muting say it himself, his breath was still stagnant.

What's more, what Xiao Muting said was far more complicated than he expected. It turned out that the "goodness" was not only due to the love of comrades-in-arms, but also due to debt and guilt.

Shao Fei couldn't help but straighten his back to hide his helplessness at the moment.

Xiao Muting looked at him, and saw the fragility of being helpless from the calmness and strength he pretended to be.

Suddenly I couldn't continue.

The pain spread from the apex of the heart to the internal organs, Xiao Muting stood silently, thinking whether he was too cruel.

He even knows better than Shao Fei that he has become Shao Fei's reliance, and is the only reliance.But just now, he told Shao Fei personally that I am responsible for your brother's sacrifice.

If the meaning of this layer is expressed more cruelly, it is probably—your misfortune is caused by me.

Of course he can hide it, just tell Shao Fei: Yes, I am Shao Yu's comrade-in-arms and the captain, your brother is a good fighter, his departure is a pity for our whole team.

But the experience of the past 34 years made it impossible for him to easily erase this paragraph, and he did not want to lie to Shao Fei.

Shao Yu's death changed him in a sense, from an excellent special soldier who was almost conceited to a thoughtful and reliable captain who could carry all the burdens on his shoulders.

In his medal of merit, the blood and unfulfilled ambition of that little soldier are buried.

And from a more selfish point of view, he also had to tell Shao Fei.

Shao Fei's feelings for him must be stopped in time, and this week, as long as he walked into Shao Fei's sight range, he could immediately feel Shao Fei's gaze.

Burning, longing, like fire.

Over the years, he has been very rational, but for the first time in the face of this pure and fierce admiration, he felt overwhelmed.

It's not that he doesn't know what to do, but hesitation has the upper hand.

If you don't care about it at all, you can immediately transfer Shao Fei away. His military rank and position are there, and it's easy to deal with a little soldier who doesn't know the heights of the sky and the earth.But he didn't want to hurt Shao Fei, not only because of Shao Yu, but also because of Shao Fei himself.

Telling Shao Fei the truth would be a relief for both parties.

But what he didn't expect was that after seeing Shao Fei's hidden fragility, his heart ached so much that he couldn't speak anymore.

At that moment, he even wanted to pull the pretendingly strong boy into his arms, hug and comfort him.

In that case, would Shao Fei wrap his arms around his waist, bury him on his shoulder and sob softly?

Maybe, maybe not.

He thought in surprise that he couldn't guess how Shao Fei would react after knowing all this.

Hate, should not hate.

Close, probably not anymore.

Xiao Muting sighed secretly, suddenly felt lost.

Shao Fei stood for a while, before leaving, he asked suddenly: "Captain, I want to ask you one more question."

"En." Xiao Muting nodded.

"When we talked last time, I said that my brother's comrade-in-arms sponsored me for 5 years until I was 18 years old." Shao Fei swallowed his saliva, and said with some difficulty: "Is that person you? You were injured before you came to Falcon , Did you break contact with me because of your injury?"

After a long time, Xiao Muting said softly, "It's me."

The tip of Shao Fei's nose was red, and his lower lip was bitten lightly, trying to hold back tears.

Xiao Muting's heart ached like a wringer, and he slowly raised his right hand, wanting to touch him, but just touching him.

Shao Fei took a deep breath, pulled out an ugly smile, and said in a trembling voice, "It's great that you didn't leave like my brother, you're fine, you're still here. I, I finally see you..."

Xiao Muting's pupils tightened, and he was hit by an emotion he had never felt before.

Shao Fei raised his arm in a panic, dabbed in front of his eyes, and said: "Captain, my mind is a little confused now. What you said to me today, I, I have to go back and think about it."

Xiao Muting retracted his hanging right hand, Shao Fei hastily wiped his tears, reminding him of the little boy he saw in the rearview mirror of the Jeep seven years ago.

At that time Shao Fei was also like this, trying to hold back his tears, he couldn't help it anymore, so after the car drove away, he raised his thin arm and wiped it in front of his eyes.

After 7 years, two figures, one big and one small, overlapped together, both holding Xiao Muting's heart.

After Shao Fei finished speaking, he turned around and left, fleeing along the footsteps of when he came.Xiao Muting watched him fall in embarrassment, his posture was extremely ugly, and saw him standing up quickly, staggering and continuing to run.

At such a high altitude, it is difficult to stand up once you fall, let alone run again.

The cool wind swept away the snow and dust, Xiao Muting's eyes finally changed.