pure white

After I went back, I asked Chen Jingyu to call home, and Chen Jingyu frowned: "What are you calling back for? Arguing?"

"What quarrel? Your father was very worried about you during the few days when you went to deliver military supplies." I softened my tone and advised her, "You should call back and report that you are safe."

"No need, free up the phone line for others. The communication is already tense, so it's better to use it in a serious place." Chen Jingyu turned cold, "He asked you?"

I nodded and told the whole story of the days when she wasn't there. Chen Jingyu frowned and asked suddenly, "Did you encounter an air raid?"

I was taken aback, not understanding why her focus was on my incidental sentence, and then I remembered that she reacted violently during the air raid when I just came to Changsha.

She clasped my shoulders with her hands, looked me up and down, and I felt her hands shaking.I looked up at her, but I saw her lowering her head. She was already taller than me. When I lowered my head, I could clearly see that half of her eyes were red.

She is afraid.I grabbed her hand, "Chen Jingyu?"

Her eyes moved to the hand I was holding her, and I thought she was implying me to let go, so I let go awkwardly, but as soon as I let go, she pulled me again and took my hand in her palm.

"After I went to Germany, I went back to China." She said suddenly, "My brother was stationed in Shanghai, and it was his birthday. My mother went to see him, and I went too."

The Chen family had only one daughter, Chen Jingyu, who was spoiled and spoiled since she was a child, and no two people competed with her for family property.The brother she mentioned was Song Lianting, her cousin who had the best relationship with her. We played together when we were young. He was a gentle and elegant young man, a gentleman, and he would let us do everything.

After I went to England, I had no contact with him. Sometimes in retrospect, I always feel that he will study literature, and then he will pursue literature and politics in the future.But I didn't expect him to join Wu.

"I didn't expect that after watching my brother, I would encounter the Battle of Songhu when I was about to go back."

Chen Jingyu looked up at me as she spoke, her eyes were empty, and I felt a chill when I heard her say with no ups and downs: "Have you ever seen a battlefield? Wars are fought as soon as they are said, the streets are full of ruins, and people flock to one street The roads are blocked, you can't get in, you can't get out, when the devil's planes and artillery arrive, internal organs and limbs are flying all over the place, and human lives are worthless."

I had never seen a battlefield. I hadn’t started school back then in Songhu, I didn’t write a single word of my homework, I ran outside all day, and I read more novels than I flipped through textbooks.

"At that time, the devil's plane was flying overhead. When the shell came off, the corpses exploded from the corner to the end of the street. I dragged my mother and ran to the French Concession as fast as I could." Chen Jingyu closed her eyes, her voice trembling. It was terrible, "In the end she died, the air strike, and she pushed me before she came down. She died right in front of me. After I woke up, she..."

I hugged Chen Jingyu, she lowered her head and curled up on my neck and shoulders, I felt tears running down my neck.

"... □□ not far from her, she didn't even leave the whole body..." She hugged me tightly, "Lu An, Lu An, do you know how terrifying the air strike is, boom, the body parts All shot in front of you, the smell of blood is mixed with mud, the intestines are flowing all over the ground, and the end may be directly burned by shells..."

I hugged her and put my head against her. She was very sad when she mentioned the past. I have never seen her so sad since I met Chen Jingyu. I don’t know how to comfort her. I have also seen her mother. She treated me when I was young He is very kind, and always calls out "Xiao An Xiao An", leaving me a share of any delicious food.

Chen Jingyu let go, came out of his arms, his face was as usual, and even his tone returned to normal, "I lost the things I was carrying at that time, and I ran to the French Concession with no money. I wanted to find my brother, but It was too messy to find. I had no choice but to act as a watch to contact my father."

"Then your mother..."

"No bones left."

My tears flowed out, I heard her say that her mother was heartbroken when she died, but it was because she was emotionally sad that she endured it desperately, but now she said that there were no bones left...

"It was so chaotic at the time, I was half-conscious from the bombing, and a few villagers behind kept grabbing me and running, I..." Chen Jingyu clenched his fists, "I was terrified."

She said in a low voice, her voice was so low, and she just stared at her own hands, she said wearily: "I was dragged by them, I was in a daze, subconsciously I didn't want to run back, my feet just followed Do……"

She looked at me confusedly, raised her hand to wipe my tears, "I'm sorry, Lu An, I'm sorry..."

There were so many tears that she couldn't wipe them all, but she continued to wipe them stubbornly.

"You just said that you encountered an air raid on the road, and I thought of Songhu at that time. I wanted to protect you, and I wanted you to live. I was afraid that you would be scared and foolish. Just like me at that time, I didn't even know how to run. Where are you going?" Her eyes softened, "But I thought I'm not there, I can't protect you, even if I jump on you when the shells come, I can't block the impact for you."

"Have you always thought this way?" I smiled at her, although I knew that I had tears on my face and red eyes, it must be creepy to laugh like this.

I pointed out my military rank to her, "Chen Jingyu, I am a soldier, and I wear the same military uniform as you. I received military training in Chongqing, and all the instructors from Frunze know that I am excellent."

"You don't have to protect me, just let me be by your side and fight with you."

After hearing this, she asked slowly, "Do you want to be a comrade-in-arms?"

I answered her: "Yes, as a comrade-in-arms, I can fight side by side with you."

The next day she called Chongqing. She kept it from me when she called, but told Xiao Huo to stay at the door.I thought to myself that this person is stupid enough, stupid and thin-skinned.

I walked over and waved to Xiao Huo, said a few words and fooled around, and successfully eavesdropped on the door.I heard someone calling "Dad" inside.

It is estimated that after a lot of entanglement in it, I finally made up my mind to get through.

Maybe they were asking about her recent situation, and she replied: "I'm fine, there's no bullets coming from squatting in the back."

As soon as I heard this, I was about to finish. This tone is not a tone of declaring peace, but it is clearly a tone of quarreling.

Fortunately, Uncle Chen had a good temper, so he didn't get mad at Chen Jingyu, an unfilial girl.

Chen Jingyu answered him a few words in a firm tone, but when he changed the subject, his tone softened, "Nian Guo...is he okay?"

Since Nian Guo was sent to Chongqing by us at the beginning of this year, we have never seen each other again. I miss him, this kid is cute. When I went to Chongqing, I shed tears and told the Chen family to treat him well.

In a blink of an eye, I missed a lot, and then came back to my senses, and heard her say: "No, if he plays, just ask him to play, don't call him."

After a pause, "Father, you should raise him as your own grandson, I may never get married in this life..."

My heart trembled, my feet felt numb, she she she she...

Seeing Xiao Huo, he hurriedly mingled with me, "Mr. Lu, you...!"

"I'm fine." I brushed Xiao Huo's hand away and stood firm, wondering what she meant by that.

My thoughts drifted to the night when I expressed my heart to her. Although it was too abrupt, I still kept a trace of reason in it. She refused, and I felt bad for both.

I don’t know when I started to like Chen Jingyu, but I used to read Chinese books in the school library in order to practice Chinese. I ignored the ones that were too awkward. I read the ancient Chinese books from China. over and over.

There are a few lines in the storybook that are very classic, like "Oh! Romeo, why are you Romeo?"The line turned into English is "Since when did you like me?" I thought it was necessary to confess in the future, so I concentrated on thinking of an answer: "In Cambridge, homosexuality is illegal, but you said that everyone is born Equality, rights are innate."

In fact, these are just joking words, Chen Jingyu will never be moved by such sweet words, and I look down on them.But one sentence is true, Chen Jingyu said, "All men are born equal and are endowed with human rights."

I don't think gender is the barrier between us, it's whether she likes me or not.

So I left some leeway, thinking it would be best for her to understand, and let it go if she didn't understand, anyway, we still have time to talk about it.

But she really didn't understand. She probably didn't even read Natsume Soseki, so naturally she didn't understand the meaning of "the moonlight is beautiful tonight".She just thought I was inviting her to watch the moon and talk about its beauty.

I secretly scolded her in my heart that this elm lump is not enlightened.

I turned my head around and didn't pay attention to the voice inside.I sighed, and thought to myself that I was just thinking too much, now that the war is tense, and Chen Jingyu looks down on those sons of the rich family, of course he has to use an excuse to block the marriage arranged by the Chen family.

I whispered to Xiao Huo and walked back. When I turned around, I suddenly heard a sentence from inside: "Can you ask someone to send you a photo of Nian Guo? Lu An misses him very much. I have to let Lu An rest assured."

After more than a month, Chen Jingyu suddenly handed over a photo of Nian Guo to me. In it, Nian Guo was wearing a newly tailored moon white gown, his hair was neatly trimmed, and the little boy had grown up a bit, with handsome features.

Chen Jingyu only said that it was sent by her father, without mentioning that she had spoken first.

Of course I took it with a smile.

The author has something to say: final exam, goodbye before the 12th