secretly like him

Gu Xun's emotions were too obvious, he stared at Shen Yanzhi with round eyes, and his face turned red.

Shen Yanzhi really thought that there was nothing he could do if he couldn't see, so he put down the half-drinked water and looked at Gu Xun suspiciously: "What's wrong?"

Only then did Gu Xun reluctantly look away, and said like a hum: "It's nothing..."

In his heart, he was frantically swiping the screen, ahhhhhh! ! !Ah Yan drank his water! ! !It's true! !He just drank it! ! !

Gu Xun's boyish heart was going to explode right now, he was beating wildly, even more violently than when he was playing ball just now.

Shen Yanzhi looked at Gu Xun's earlobe so red that it was about to bleed, he didn't believe what he said was nothing.

Then he looked at the water in his hand and thought about it.

Gu Xun himself was agitated for a long time because of a little thing, and when he thought about it, he found that Shen Yanzhi was still holding the bottle of water.

Gu Xun swallowed, tried his best to pretend not to care, and asked, "Then what, do you still drink?"

Shen Yanzhi shook his head, and handed the bottle back to Gu Xun.

Gu Xun became even more excited, feeling that his hands were about to shake, then he cautiously took a sip from the mouth of the bottle that Shen Yanzhi had drunk.

He feels... the mineral water is so sweet... as if mixed with honey...

Gu Xun felt that his behavior was so perverted, but he couldn't help it...

He wants to write a diary when he goes back!

Shen Yanzhi just looked at him, blushing, drank the bottle of water little by little, and at the end of the drink, he even showed a very reluctant expression.

Shen Yanzhi saw it, and suddenly called out to him: "A Xun."

In an instant, Gu Xun seemed to have been caught for doing something, and looked at him in shock like a small animal.

The answer that Shen Yanzhi didn't understand last night was suddenly laid out in front of him.

Gu Xun, it seems to be...

like him.

Shen Yanzhi's heart skipped a beat because of this thought, and his brows subconsciously frowned.

Gu Xun turned around and saw Shen Yanzhi frowning at him, feeling very uneasy for a moment: "What, what's wrong?"

The expression on Shen Yanzhi's face had returned to calm, and he said, "Don't drink too much water at once, it's not good for your health."

Gu Xun looked at the bottom of the water in his hands, and coughed: "Then what, I'm a little thirsty, hahaha...haha..."

Gu Xun himself felt that his tone was so embarrassing that he didn't dare to look at Shen Yanzhi, for fear that something would be seen.

Shen Yanzhi was indeed still looking at him, he thought over and over about the possibility that was basically certain, and couldn't tell what feeling he was feeling.

Hate it?

Maybe not.

happy?

It's like...a little bit.

Shen Yanzhi frowned again, he didn't know his mentality very well, Gu Xun liked himself, this is not something to be happy about at all.

But strangely enough, he was actually kind of happy.

Shen Yanzhi felt that this was a bit dangerous, and it was unfair to Gu Xun.

Yes, it's not fair.

Because as long as Gu Xun doesn't say it, he will probably pretend that he never knew about it.

But thinking that Gu Xun wanted to work so hard to keep the two of them together because he liked him, Shen Yanzhi felt it was very unfair.

A sincere heart should not be treated like this.

Gu Xun should meet someone better, someone who can seriously respond to this feeling.

Shen Yanzhi withdrew his gaze and said calmly, "I'm going back today."

Gu Xun was stunned for a moment, then realized that Shen Yanzhi was talking about the Xiaoyanglou, so he asked, "Huh? Go back and water the flowers?"

During this month, Shen Yanzhi also went back several times, all of which were to take things, help water the flowers, and so on, without delaying things too much.

Shen Yanzhi gave a "hmm" before adding casually: "It needs to be pruned, and the house needs to be cleaned, maybe I want to live there."

Gu Xun didn't care much at first, but when he heard that Shen Yanzhi was going to live back, even if it might be just for one night, he didn't want to just separate like this.

So Gu Xun immediately said: "I'll be with you, and I can do flower-cutting and so on! I'll help you, and I'll tell you that I'm familiar with this matter, and my mother always orders me at home."

For some reason, Gu Xun was very afraid that Shen Yanzhi would not agree, so he chattered a lot.

Seeing him like this, Shen Yanzhi knew that his idea of ​​temporarily separating was a little immature, because he could hardly find any reason to refuse Gu Xun.

So in such a daze, the two of them walked from the stadium to the Xiaoyanglou.

Gu Xun went to get the scissors consciously, and asked, "Cut all these?"

Shen Yanzhi looked outside, and compared to the morning sun, he sighed and said, "I'm not busy, help me to sort out the books first."

Gu Xun put down the scissors again obediently, and went in with Shen Yanzhi.

Speaking of which, although he has been here a few times, Gu Xun has not actually visited the small building very much, so when he saw this large and scary study room, Gu Xun was a little dazed.

Gu Xun swallowed his saliva, glanced at some overwhelming books, and asked, "Ayan, how many of these have you read?"

Shen Yanzhi: "I haven't seen all of them, but only a quarter of them."

Even if it is only a quarter, Gu Xun feels that he has read more books than he has read since he started to read. There are only a few model extracurricular books in his house, and the rest are issued by the school. He has not even read many of them. turned over.

Gu Xun once again realized the gap between him and Shen Yan, Ayan is not only smart.

Then Gu Xun asked, "How do I organize it?"

In his opinion, they are all well placed in the bookshelf, and there is nothing to tidy up some of them.

Shen Yanzhi said: "Let's arrange it again according to the category. It was a bit messy when it was delivered."

This job is actually optional, but it has come, and Shen Yanzhi can't completely overturn what he said before.

He didn't want Gu Xun to find out that he was just making excuses and wanted to separate from him.

Gu Xun: "Uh...can you be more specific?"

Gu Xun fully exposed the fact that he was ignorant, because he really didn't have any idea about this category, and there were so many books in it, he couldn't even read them, how could he divide them!

How about cutting flowers?

But in this way, one with Ayan is in the room and the other is outside... and the pages of the book are quite heavy!

Gu Xun felt that his energy could not be wasted, so he directly said, "How can I move it!"

Then the two of them removed all the books from the bookshelf. Gu Xun saw all the books piled up together, and only then did he have a deeper understanding of the actual number.

Then Gu Xun began to think, should he also develop some extracurricular readings?

That's right, the high-end ones, otherwise he's always messing around with good words and sentences, how could he have a common topic with Ayan!

Gu Xun then took out an original text, good guy, I basically don't know the words, although the words can be read, but what does it mean when they are connected, he is confused.

Gu Xun pointed to a line of words inside and asked Shen Yanzhi: "Ayan, what do you mean by this sentence?"

He didn't mean it casually, mainly because there is "love" in these words.

Gu Xun couldn't help but glanced at this word twice, and then he started with "loveisasweet..." Suddenly, his heart felt sweet, and he didn't care about what was written later. He wanted to trick Shen Yanzhi into reading a sentence for him first. .

Shen Yanzhi leaned over to take a look, then suddenly raised his head to look at Gu Xun, wanting to see whether he did it on purpose or not.

Gu Xun smiled like a fool: "What do you mean?"

Shen Yanzhi was a little helpless by his laughter, and he couldn't help but sigh for Gu Xun, how could he choose such a coincidence.

For a moment, Shen Yan really wanted to lie to Gu Xun, but in the next moment, he denied it himself.

In the end, he just read the original text of the sentence in a calm tone: "Love is as sweet pain, and since love is as sweet pain, and since love is loved, ever followed abumpy road"

"Meaning 'Love is a sweet pain, and true love is never an easy road.'"

Shen Yanzhi observed Gu Xun's expression, and continued: "It was written by Shakespeare."

Gu Xun's heart was deeply touched by this sentence, he felt that Shakespeare was really cultured, and he just wrote about his feelings directly by writing casually.

Isn't it a sweet pain?

Gu Xun looked at Shen Yanzhi secretly, and then added in his heart that it should be a little sweeter.

If there is any pain, it is probably that Ayan is too good, and he is really tired to catch up with him.

Then Gu Xun clicked his tongue twice in his heart, lamenting that his road of love is not only uneven, but also a detour.

Shen Yanzhi watched Gu Xun's expression froze for a moment after knowing the meaning of this sentence, and then he smiled, showing the dimple on his face.

He didn't quite understand what Gu Xun was thinking at the moment, so he pretended not to care and asked, "What do you think of this sentence?"

Gu Xun didn't expect Shen Yanzhi to ask himself this, although it was a bit strange, he still said, "That's right."

Shen Yanzhi continued to express his doubts: "That's right?"

A big smile appeared on Gu Xun's face: "It's not so easy to be with the person you like, but..."

He looked at Shen Yanzhi, his smile restrained a little, and he said, "But being able to like someone is a very sweet thing in itself."

Then Gu Xun suddenly realized something, coughed twice, and quickly added: "Look, Xiao Song and Jun Tao are so happy now..."

Shen Yanzhi interrupted him: "It's all empty joy."

Gu Xun suddenly felt a pain in his heart. Looking at Shen Yanzhi's calm face, he subconsciously replied, "You can't say that..."

He refuted very weakly, and he didn't know how to refute this sentence forcefully.

It seems that they are all empty joys, but such empty joys always make him so happy.

Shen Yanzhi seemed to be chatting casually with him: "Like an impossible person, not just walking an uneven road, you may feel sweet at the beginning, but there should be more pain in the end."

Gu Xun was silent for a long time before saying: "Ayan, when you also like someone, you may understand."

Shen Yanzhi didn't hold back, and almost blurted out: "What about you?"

Gu Xun glanced at him, narrowed his smiling eyes, and said naturally and frankly: "I, as long as he doesn't hate me, I will be happy!"

As long as you don't hate me, I'm very happy!

At this moment, Gu Xun finally figured out what he was afraid of before.

He was so scared that he didn't even dare to think about it.

He thought, what he was afraid of was not that one day Shen Yanzhi would be with someone who was not him, or how good Shen Yanzhi would be to that person.

What he was afraid of was that once the window paper was pierced, they would no longer be friends.

He didn't even have the qualifications to stay by his side as a friend, he was afraid that he would be alienated and hated by Shen Yanzhi.

This was what he was most afraid of.

Gu Xun thought, as long as he could stay by Shen Yanzhi's side, it would be great. No matter what his status is to like him, it is a kind of happiness for Gu Xun.

It's not bitter and painful, it's sweet.

Is there anything happier than liking Shen Yanzhi, than loving Shen Yanzhi?

No more, no more.

Well, Gu Xun added it in his heart, if he insisted on saying yes, probably Ayan also likes him.

Gu Xun became amused by this thought, laughing like a cat that stole a fish.

Shen Yanzhi didn't know what he was laughing at, he just felt sad.

He couldn't help but raise his hand to rub Gu Xun's head, the hair on his fingertips was soft and fluffy, it didn't seem to fit Gu Xun's personality, but it was surprisingly harmonious.

The movements of Shen Yanzhi's hands couldn't help being a little more gentle, as if he was afraid of disturbing something.

Gu Xun looked at him, and heard Shen Yanzhi say seriously: "Ah Xun, you must like someone who also likes you, so that there will be no such thing as hating you."

Gu Xun didn't expect Shen Yanzhi to say such childish things to him in a serious manner, and he instantly had the urge to laugh.

What is this called!A Yan can talk like that but can't think of his brain!

But the next moment, he really wanted to say, and he wanted to too.

But there is no such thing as a coincidence in this world.

Gu Xun rubbed his head against his palm, and said with a smile, "Let's encourage each other!"

Then he sighed exaggeratedly: "I can't even think of what kind of person would not like you! Handsome guy, you really took advantage of it!"

Shen Yanzhi didn't know how to answer these words, but changed the subject and said, "Let's sort it out first."

Gu Xun let out an "oh", but he never opened any other books. He was really afraid of having another mental shock.

The two of them worked together. Although there were a lot of books, the progress of sorting out was quite fast. Shen Yanzhi mainly used his brain. He knew where things should be placed at a glance, so the efficiency was particularly high.

When it was finally finished, Gu Xun couldn't help plunging his waist to appreciate the fruits of their labor, and sighed, "Tsk tsk, it's so beautiful."

Seeing his happy appearance, Shen Yanzhi felt that he was oversimplifying things.

In the end... what should I do?

Do you want to explain it to him, or continue to pretend that you don't know anything?

As smart as Shen Yanzhi, he can't figure it out now.

Gu Xun looked at the time and rubbed his stomach again: "Ayan, let's go back to eat."

Shen Yanzhi said "En", and walked out first.

Gu Xun was right next to him, and the frequency of his steps was consistent with his, each step happened to be on the same beat.

When Shen Yanzhi discovered this, he couldn't help but look at Gu Xun's face.

Gu Xun didn't notice it, and asked him with a smile: "Are you coming over after dinner? The flowers haven't been cut yet, or come back tomorrow?"

Shen Yanzhi withdrew his gaze and said softly, "I won't cut it for now, I feel that it's still too hot, and it's easy to damage it."

Gu Xun didn't have a problem with whether to cut it or not. He nodded after hearing what he said, and then began to mutter: "When I came out in the morning, I saw the fish my mother bought. It was marinated in the kitchen. I will confirm it later. Some eat, but I don’t know whether to eat pickled cabbage fish or what, I want to eat pickled cabbage..."

Shen Yanzhi listened to him patiently, and responded from time to time.

A road is not long in the first place, and it will be over soon.

Because of the holiday, Shen Lan and Gu Jingyuan are both at home. They came back a bit late, and Shen Lan and the others had already eaten first.

Seeing Gu Xun and the others come in, Shen Lan stood up and complained that they came back late: "I'm growing up, how can I do without eating well, wash your hands quickly, I'll warm them up for you."

Gu Xun pushed Shen Yanzhi to wash his hands with a playful smile, and he didn't forget to tell his mother: "Mom! Don't make it too hot! Otherwise, you will have to blow it cold!"

Shen Lan ignored him and went straight to the kitchen.

Gu Xun made faces when he entered the bathroom, and said to Shen Yanzhi: "You should have said it just now, my mother will definitely take care of you."

Shen Yanzhi was about to squeeze the hand sanitizer, and then said: "Auntie is polite to me."

Gu Xun went over and squeezed the hand sanitizer too, but it was too much at once, so he wiped it on Shen Yanzhi's hand before saying, "Oh, my mother really likes you from the bottom of her heart, I wish you were her own." That's good."

Even though he said so, Gu Xun didn't show any envy or hatred. On the contrary, he was cheerful, as if Shen Lan liked Shen Yanzhi very much, and it was a very happy thing for him.

However, Shen Yanzhi felt guilty in his heart. If Aunt Shen knew that Gu Xun liked him...

Shen Yanzhi frowned again, and his heart felt heavy like a stone.

Gu Xun saw Shen Yanzhi's expression in the mirror, and finally couldn't hold back, and asked, "Ayan, are you in a bad mood?"

Shen Yanzhi stretched his brows quickly, and asked nonchalantly, "Why do you say that?"

Gu Xun actually didn't know why he suddenly asked such a question, so he said honestly: "Feeling."

Probably this is the state when you like someone. It seems that every little detail can be infinitely magnified in your heart.

Although Shen Yanzhi's emotions have always been well hidden, as if there is nothing wrong with it, but Gu Xun can feel that Ayan doesn't seem very happy.

It's not just because of the frown that he accidentally bumped into just now, he just can feel it from his heart.

Gu Xun didn't know how to relieve him, so he could only comfort him clumsily: "Um, I don't know why I feel this way, but..."

Gu Xun looked at Shen Yanzhi and said, "But, I want you to be happier. Think about it, it's a day to be happy, and it's also a day to be unhappy. You must live in happiness..."

Gu Xun himself felt that what he said was really dry, but his vocabulary was too small, and he didn't teach how to comfort people in these good words and sentences!

But it was such a clumsy sentence that made Shen Yanzhi's heartstrings vibrate, it felt like a frozen lake was suddenly broken open.

He couldn't even describe the feeling himself, but it was undoubtedly a good feeling.

Gu Xun felt that he had completely run out of formal comforting words in his head, so he leaned his head over and rubbed Shen Yanzhi's shoulder: "Here, I will share my happiness with you."

The corners of Shen Yanzhi's mouth rose uncontrollably, he looked at Gu Xun, and said, "The sweat is all on my body."

Gu Xun: "Eh... this is an accident..."

Then Shen Yanzhi laughed lightly: "A Xun."

Gu Xun was also dumbfounded looking at the wet sweat stains on his clothes, and thought that he was really dead, how could he wipe the sweat on Ayan's body? She moved a little uneasy: "What?"

Shen Yanzhi looked at him and said seriously, "Thank you."

Anyway, thank you for liking me.

When Gu Xun heard that he didn't mind the sweat he wiped off, he immediately let go of his burden and said happily, "You're welcome! I'm so much happier! I'll give you whatever you want!"

Shen Yanzhi turned his face back, washed his hands carefully, and said slowly: "Just give me a little bit, save the rest, and give it to me when I want it."

Gu Xun immediately felt that these words were really sweet. He felt that he was probably full of sugar in the eyes of lovers, and he couldn't help being happy no matter what Ayan told him.

There is obviously no point of laughter, but he can make up a lot by himself.

He leaned his hand over and squeezed under the faucet with Shen Yanzhi to flush the water, and said with a smile: "Yeah, I must have saved a lot!"

Shen Yanzhi looked at him sideways, just caught a glimpse of the dimple, and couldn't help but think, maybe it's good to maintain the status quo.

Maybe it's good to just do nothing and let him be happy like this.