under fame

For more than 20 days, Zhang Li ordered Liu Yunfeng to arrange work from morning to late at night, forcing himself to work continuously.He knew that Lu Huai was watching his position all the time, and he didn't turn it off. When he returned to the hotel in the dead of night, he stared at that little spot in a daze.For a while, he was thinking about what to say first after bumping into Lu Huai, and for a while, he was thinking about whether he would lose his composure on the spot, and try to avoid making eye contact with Lu Huai.

Tossing and turning, trembling, like walking on thin ice.It seems that what he is facing is not a single person, but thousands of troops with spears/guns and cannons.

When I faced a group of sharp-tongued and sharp-eyed reporters for the first time, I was not so afraid.

And when I tasted fame for the first time, was chased and intercepted by a group of fans, and found that I had no privacy, I didn't panic so much.

The burden of fame and fortune is heavy, but you can still convince yourself to be normal through the habits of years and years.The burden of affection is really overwhelming.

Zhang Li couldn't sleep every night, thinking hard and worrying until this day.

This is a day full of spring.The trees in the north of the roadside are beginning to sprout after the bleak winter.Zhang Li sat in the company's car and looked all the way, a trace of greenery on the tree trunk made his heart tremble.

Because the film is about students, the first press conference was chosen in a university town.The school auditorium was used as the venue for the press conference, and it was surrounded by students from the inner three floors and the outer three floors early in the morning.

Zhang Li's car was blocked by fans, signed several autographs along the way, shook hands with several fans who had been waiting for a long time, and finally walked to the back entrance of the auditorium.A group of people entered from the entrance and walked through two small aisles. Zhang Li was walking straight in front of Liu Yunfeng and Xiao Xiao, but stopped when he reached the door of the waiting room.The light door was like a thunderbolt, blocking his footsteps. Zhang Li felt his heart was about to explode. He stood at the door and took ten deep breaths without daring to push the door.In the end, Liu Yunfeng who was behind him reluctantly opened the way for him.

The moment Liu Yunfeng pushed the door open, Zhang Li suddenly closed his eyes, like a child who dare not see what birthday present he has received.

"Hello." Liu Yunfeng gave him a push, and described the situation inside to the coward, "The director is chatting with Lu Huai, and Jiang Xiaoyu is fixing her makeup. Do you want to come in or not?"

Zhang Li slightly opened his eyelids, and vaguely saw the director and Lu Huai sitting on two sofas by the window, both of them leaning forward, as if they were having a deep chat, without looking at him at all.

Lu Huai's figure was covered with a golden fringe by the sunlight.Zhang Li hadn't seen it clearly yet, but at that moment he felt that he had lost weight. Although he was sitting in the warm spring sun, his figure was indescribably lonely.

Seeing it in person is better than listening to other people's description. At that moment, Zhang Li's fear and panic faded away, and regret and heartache occupied all his mind.

Finally, he opened his eyelids slowly and with difficulty, and took that figure into his eyes clearly.Then take heavy steps, moving in small steps.

Lu Huai still didn't look at him.

Director Zhang actually found out that Lu Huai had lost his mind the moment the door was pushed open, and his speech had been confused and lost his logic.He completely used chatting with himself as a cover, so he couldn't meet Zhang Li face to face.When they first met earlier, Lu Huai's appearance made him guess whether he was broken in love, which made him more certain.

"Hey, Lu Huai," sighed the subtle director, "the circle is so big, you can't look up and look down. I said earlier that you don't want to find someone in the circle when you're in love."

"Huh? What?" Lu Huai was completely absent-minded, his eyes were on the director, but his mind was completely absent.

In the entire rest room, there was a sudden silence.Everyone noticed the subtle embarrassment.

Zhang Li walked up to the director and nodded slightly, "Hi Director Zhang, long time no see."

The famous director with bright eyes immediately stood up and hugged him, "Hello, Xiaoli!"

"Brother Li." Jiang Xiaoyu, who had finished her makeup, also got up and greeted him.

Zhang Yu and Liu Yunfeng looked at each other silently as if they had a tacit understanding.In fact, neither of these two people knew exactly what happened, but they both guessed that there must be some quarrel between their respective artists.

Lu Huai stood up very slowly, his movements were very incoherent, like an old man who had lived for a long time.When he stood up straight, he raised his head slightly and looked deeply at Zhang Li who was half a meter away.

His pale lips parted slightly, but he didn't say a word, then he coughed violently a few times, picked up the water glass on the table in a panic, and took a few sips to suppress the cough.

When Zhang Li heard this cough with a slight echo in his lungs, he suddenly became worried. He didn't know if it was because he had smoked too much or had a cold.The double worries in his heart were fighting, and finally he was more worried about Lu Huai's body. He forced out a sentence from his throat, "Brother, are you okay?"

Lu Huai smiled faintly at him, and said softly in front of a large group of people, "Hello, I'll be fine."

The two assistants present, the two managers, the director, Jiang Xiaoyu and the make-up artist all had goosebumps from this sentence.That voice, that tone, was so gentle that it was out of place. Not only was it not like a conversation between two men, it was not even like what a man said to his beloved girl. It was a bit like a parent talking to a child, no, even like an old man talking to a spoiled child. grandchildren.

For a moment, the two stood facing each other.Lu Huai's eyes were filled with water, pouring out an indescribable meaning in words.Director Zhang glanced silently, and felt that if he was acting, then he should be acting with crazy longing and deep affection. If this expression were put on the movie screen, it would really break countless hearts.Jiang Xiaoyu watched from not far away, the hazy love from the past came back, thinking, senior brother is so charming.

Zhang Li was completely dazed, his hanging hands were cold and trembling, countless thoughts flashed through him, all of them were how to hug, kiss the person in front of him, rub their ears and temples with him, and kiss him skin to skin.He only had a little desire left in his mind, he wanted to reach out and touch Lu Huai's thin face, trace his outline little by little, then kiss the eyelashes that seemed to be stained with tears, and say in his ear, I'm sorry, I shouldn't run, I shouldn't make you sad.

However, he didn't.Even if his limbs can be controlled, so many people are watching, but he can't do it.

Lu Huai didn't move either, and kept looking at him with a hint of a smile.After a long time, he stretched his palm into the front of his front and took out a small, exquisitely packaged box. He handed it to Zhang Li's eyes, then slowly moved his finger down, and then let go of his hand, and the thing fell into Zhang Li's suit pocket.During the whole process, Lu Huai's hands didn't even touch his clothes.

Zhang Li felt like a stick in his throat, Lu Huai kept that little distance from him so subtly, but that small square box was wrapped in a deep love unknown to others.

Lu Huai said softly, "Have you had breakfast, and if you haven't, take it out to eat now. If you have, take it home to eat."

Zhang Li saw the English words on the package as early as he took it out.It was one year when he went to Paris to participate in Fashion Week, and he tasted it by chance while wandering on the roadside at night. At that time, he sent a message to Lu Huai with astonishment and excitement, saying that he had eaten the most delicious chocolate in the world.Lu Huai laughed at that time, saying how old he is, and he still likes to eat snacks.

At that time, he bought some to bring back to China, but he never bought them in China after eating them. Later, when he went to France, he couldn’t find the small shop even though he was blind. Since then, he still sighed melancholy several times.

Aren't you still laughing at me, when did you secretly write it down, and how did you buy it.

Feeling that his tear glands were about to get out of control, Zhang Li quickly turned around, walked to his seat and sat down, which was only four or five meters away, but his few steps seemed to be in a swamp, exhausted. Pull yourself forward with strength.

Just like the crayfish peeled in the middle of the night is a mystery, he doesn't know where Lu Huai found the chocolate.

The surprises that Lu Huai gave him were never expensive gifts, nor were they some deceitful tricks.It's just an ordinary thing that doesn't matter in the eyes of ordinary people, but there are thoughts behind the ordinary that others can't guess.

Zhang Li looked down at the interview outline prepared by Liu Yunfeng, but his mind was on the person a few meters away. He thought, I will never find such a good lover in my life.

The person in charge of film announcement came in, said hello to Liu Yunfeng and Zhang Yu, and then said politely to the director, "Director, we can go out now, the outside is ready."

There were a lot of media at the press conference.Jiang Xiaoyu had already exposed many stills and private photos to the media in advance, but at this time, she felt for the first time what a "name" is.With countless cameras and flashing lights facing her, she dared not make inappropriate expressions and movements for a second.She thought that with Lu Huai in charge and Zhang Yu who had given her many counselings before, she would not say that she was comfortable, but at least she would not be too nervous.However, at this moment, she still felt a real great pressure.

Jiang Xiaoyu involuntarily turned his head to look at Lu Huai on one side, and then at Zhang Li on the other side.

Lu Huai was as stable as Mount Tai, sitting upright, and dressed like a boss, not stealing the show at all, it fit his status very well, from his expression to his body, it showed that he was here to cheer for the newcomers.

Zhang Li's face was pale and alienated, but he looked at the camera and the media very intently, as if he was earnestly doing publicity and answering questions in a down-to-earth manner.

Jiang Xiaoyu suddenly felt that she was still very tender.

The reporters' questions mainly focused on Jiang Xiaoyu's background, why the director chose her, Jiang Xiaoyu's experience in making her debut film, how she felt working with Zhang Li, her evaluation of Zhang Li, and so on.

At the end of the press conference, there were still some female reporters who did not let go of the old gossip.He asked Lu Huai why he broke up with Fang Ruolin and posted Zhang Li's song on Weibo.

Hearing this question, Zhang Li tightly gathered his suit pants with his hands under the table.

Lu Huai has always been glib in front of the media, true and false. He put on an aggrieved expression on the spot after hearing this question, "Darling, everyone is thinner than Huang Hua when I'm broken in love, and you still mention my sadness thing……"

The female reporter couldn't laugh or cry because of his electric eyes and the words "Dear", so the people around made a coaxing, saying that Lu Huai avoided the question.

Lu Huai sighed, "I'm not afraid to tell you now, I've always liked Zhang Li..."

Zhang Li and Zhang Yu's hearts almost stopped.

Lu Huai then continued in an incoherent manner, "I'm his fan..."

Reporters: "..."

Lu Huai: "Just kidding. When we broke up, Zhang Li accompanied me for a night of drinking. He is very narcissistic. Listen to his songs. I think it suits my mood. When I was drunk, I posted it for a while. , nothing special."

After speaking, he crossed Jiang Xiaoyu to look at Zhang Li, and said with a smile, "Really."

Zhang Li: "..."

This man is so cheap...

Zhang Li pretended to smile under the cameras of the media, "Yes. He can't drink too much, and he hugged me and cried when he was drunk..."

Public media: "Hahahaha..."

Lu Huai: "..."

The boy has grown up...

The press conference ended in this inexplicable mutual teasing.Lu Huai, who came to support him, left the venue first, and Zhang Li pressed the media to take a few photos.After the media dispersed, Zhang Li saw Lu Huai who was leaning against the wall and waiting for him on the aisle from the backstage of the auditorium to the lounge.

After that public teasing, the relationship between the two seemed to be a little more natural.Zhang Li lowered his head and walked over silently.

Originally, Zhang Li thought that Lu Huai would ask him for an answer, but Lu Huai didn't ask.He didn't speak, so Lu Huai didn't speak, just looked at him quietly, without moving away for a second, as if he wanted to make up for what he hadn't seen in three months.

Lu Huai didn't ask, "Do you miss me?" or, "Do you still love me?" He didn't touch him at all, but he looked like he was reading a love poem, and the content of the love poem was easy to guess, probably , I will never leave you, as long as you want, you can come back anytime.

They didn't look at each other, but they were really speechless.Zhang Li has a deep understanding of the feeling of poor words.

The two of them just stood at the corner of the aisle, in a small triangular area, looking at each other silently.

After being fixed by Lu Huai's gaze for a long time, he slowly opened his mouth, "I am reluctant to leave you, but I don't know if I can go back. I have hatred in my heart. I don't know if my heart disease will still happen, in case you don't like it, we might as well keep the old one..."

When he said this, he couldn't continue, and his voice became lower and lower.

Lu Huai dropped his playful smile towards the media, and listened calmly, as if he had expected what he said a long time ago.

"Being fond of each other is worse than forgetting each other in Jianghu," Lu Huai smiled, "Is that what you mean?"

Zhang Li didn't dare to answer.

"I really love you for nothing. If you run into any problems, don't want me." Lu Huai put his hands in his pockets and said flatly.There are no windows in the aisle, and it is a little dark. The shadow of Lu Huai cast on the wall by the light is tall and slender, looking very lonely.

"I... don't... mean..." Zhang Li vented his last bit of courage when he heard Lu Huai's calm tone.

In the past, the person who opened and closed his mouth "Don't want me" was himself...

"Then what do you mean..." Lu Huai stared at him blankly.

Zhang Li couldn't answer because he couldn't figure it out.

Fortunately, Lu Huai let him go in the next second. He didn't mean to ask any more questions. He sighed and said in a good voice,

"What did I tell you? I said I love you, not because I like you, not because I love you, not because I'm obsessed with your beauty..."

Zhang Li didn't expect that he could say the love words between the two people after the ups and downs without any scruples at this moment, and he was stunned.

"If you have a heart disease, I will accompany you to recuperate. If you can't take care of one month, I will accompany you for one year. If one year is not good, then I will accompany you for two years, or for a lifetime." Lu Huai said softly, "OK?"

Zhang Li was indifferent for a moment before he understood what he meant.He muttered in a trance, "You are willing to..."