Squad leader

In the morning, the two of them woke up warmly under the covers, and the events of yesterday passed through their minds like a movie.Those emotions of blood, despair, madness, and collapse became clear little by little.

Jiang Tian glanced at the sleeping person in front of him, choked up slightly, and arched into Ding Yang's arms, wanting to absorb more warmth.

"Um...wake up?" Ding Yang's voice was vaguely lazy.

Jiang Tian nodded, "Yeah." He licked his dry lips, "Thank you yesterday."

Ding Yang took a deep breath, hugged Jiang Tian's arm, changed into a comfortable position, and continued to hug, "Brother Tian, ​​you really scared me to death yesterday."

Jiang Tian lowered his eyelashes, "It made you worry."

Ding Yang hugged Jiang Tian in his arms and rubbed his hair, "I don't mean to blame you, it's just that my heart hurts and it makes me uncomfortable."

Jiang Tian swallowed the crying in his throat, his eyes turned red suddenly, "I won't do it next time."

Ding Yang kissed his eyebrows, "Get up, let's go somewhere."

"where to?"

"Lao An is looking for us, we have to go there."

Jiang Tian rarely showed his soft side, he hugged Ding Yang's warm body, "I don't want to get up."

Ding Yang laughed for a moment. It turned out that the class monitor is really a little white rabbit. "Then lie down for 10 minutes, and you have to get up after 10 minutes. Otherwise, Lao An should wait. Today's New Year's Day must be celebrated by someone."

"it is good."

Jiang Tian raised his eyes to meet Shang Ding Yang's gaze, his eyes were full of the person in front of him.

Ding Yang clicked his tongue, this early in the morning, he was so charming that people really didn't want to get up, he swallowed his saliva, and said under his throat, "Brother Tian, ​​I can't help but kiss you like this. "

Jiang Tian smiled lightly, held Ding Yang's face close to him and kissed him lightly.

"……call……"

Ding Yang licked his lower lip, turned over, supported half of his body, and pressed Jiang Tian under his body. He wore these shorts while he was naked. He pinched Jiang Tian's butt, and bit his back Tooth, according to people can't help but gnaw on it.

"You, don't bite... ah... Ding Yang, you are a dog..."

The two of them hugged their kisses and were hot all over.

Ding Yang glanced at his watch, "Grass, wait for me next time, I will show you what it means to be a man!" After speaking, he went to the bathroom with bare feet.

When he arrived in the city center, Lao An had been smoking in the supermarket for a while, "Come here."

The two nodded.

Old An's dark circles were almost hanging on his chin, and he probably worked very late last night. His whole body revealed a kind of fatigue, which was different from the usual tiredness of watching shifts all night.

Lao An patted them on the shoulder, "Thank you for your hard work, let's go."

Jiang Tian was puzzled, "Where are you going?"

Lao An was taken aback, "Go to psychological counseling, Ding Yang, didn't you tell the monitor?"

Jiang Tian was taken aback, turned around and stared at Ding Yang and asked, "Ding Yang, what do you mean?"

Ding Yang's face darkened, he didn't expect Jiang Tian to react so strongly, "Teacher, I'll have a few words with the class monitor first, you go to the lobby and wait for us first."

Lao An glanced between the two suspiciously, "All right."

Jiang Tian made a gesture to leave, but Ding Yang grabbed him from behind, "Jiang Tian!"

"I'm not sick, I won't go to the hospital! You were so nice to me yesterday because you think I'm sick? I'm fine, I'm fine! My whole body is painless!"

Jiang Tian's sudden toughness made Ding Yang overwhelmed, "I didn't say you were sick. This kind of situation will leave a psychological shadow on people in all likelihood. I will come here with you for psychological counseling. At least let this matter go. Turn it over quickly!"

Jiang Tian trembled all over, "I'm not sick, I'm not going!" He didn't dare to think of the bloody scene yesterday, just touching it would make his stomach churn.

"Jiang Tian!"

Ding Yang suddenly hugged his trembling body from behind, and coaxed softly: "Brother, it's okay, I'll be with you, no matter what happens, I'm here."

Ding Yang murmured: "There is me, you said that no matter what we do, we will be together."

Jiang Tian didn't nod or shake his head, Ding Yang carefully pulled up his sleeves, "Come with me."

Jiang Tian clenched Ding Yang's hand very insecurely and let him hold it.

Ding Yang was in the consulting room next to Jiang Tian, ​​and Lao An was sitting outside waiting for them.

Ding Yang came out first. He was also a person who had seen blood in fights since he was a child, and his ability to accept was much stronger than Jiang Tian. The doctor ordered a few words to pay attention to his usual emotional stability.

Lao An with a disheveled face and Ding Yang sat in the corridor and waited anxiously for Jiang Tian. The longer the time, the more anxious they became.

Lao An glanced at the time, "Why haven't you come out yet?"

Ding Yang patted Lao An on the shoulder like a buddy, he believed in Jiang Tian, ​​no matter what the situation, he was such a strong and proud academic master, a person who could calm down in front of Mount Tai, confident and strong , but this time Zhao Wen dealt him too much blow, he needs time to relieve.

Time will heal everything.

Finally, the door of the consultation room opened, and both Lao An and Ding Yang couldn't resist getting up.

"Doctor, how are you?"

Jiang Tian's psychiatrist is a middle-aged woman with a very intellectual and elegant smile, "Post-traumatic stress disorder, don't put too much psychological pressure on him in the near future, and come back regularly for consultations."

Ding Yang cheerfully came over and pulled Jiang Tian, ​​"I just said it's just a simple consultation, nothing will happen!

Jiang Tian nodded blankly, because he was too narrow-minded, and subconsciously felt that psychological counseling was only needed for abnormal mental illnesses, and he felt relieved instantly after communicating with the doctor.

Old An let out a sigh of relief, "It's fine, thank you doctor!"

"Okay, let's go home and have a good holiday. This matter will be the end of the chapter. Take a good rest. You don't have to come back for self-study tomorrow. I will give you two a vacation."

The two sent Lao An away, and Ding Yang held Jiang Tian's hand and sat in the small garden of the hospital for a while.

Holding the medical record book, Jiang Tian breathed a long sigh of relief as he smelled the unique smell of hydrogen peroxide in the hospital. The pressure on his body gradually became very light.

Ding Yang stretched happily, "Lao An finally found out with his conscience, well, this time there is one more day off, will I take you home, or go to my house?"

Jiang Tian lowered his head and scratched his fingertips with his nails, "Let's go to your house."

He is still not able to go home to face Lao Jiang and the others, and he still feels a little bit upset.

He took Ding Yang's hand and said with a smile, "Going to your house is also going home."

Ding Yang smiled, "Okay, let's go home, Brother Yang will take you home, back to our home."

At noon, Jiang Tian went to take a nap after eating, and fell into a deep sleep without the psychological burden. It was already two o'clock in the afternoon when Ding Yang woke him up.

"Wake up, if you sleep again, you will become a pig." Ding Yang held Jiang Tian's face and rubbed it, Jiang Tian opened his eyes in a daze, his stomach growled.

"Get up and eat."

There is still a table of vegetarian dishes, but there is an extra pimple soup, which has a bit of taste, and it is not the same as eating vegetarian food and reciting Buddha.

"Ding Yang, give me my schoolbag, I want to read for a while."

Jiang Tian sat on the sofa with his legs crossed in a daze. His clothes had been washed and neatly dried on the balcony. There was no trace of blood on the blood-stained school uniform jacket.

Ding Yang thought about the doctor's words, and tried not to let him recall the past again and again. He hesitated and said, "Why don't you watch TV, I finally have a vacation, let's take a rest."

Ding Yang is not suitable for lying at all, Jiang Tian's eyes seemed to stare at him, "Give me the schoolbag."

Ding Yang took out his schoolbag from the compartment, uncomplainingly opened it and took out the books and papers, and placed them neatly in front of him, "Just read it in the living room, it's bright here, I'll go out and make a phone call."

After finishing speaking, he went out without changing his slippers with his mobile phone in his hand.

Jiang Tian looked at his back with mixed feelings for a moment, he forced himself to turn his attention to the book, but when he opened the book, there was a picture of Zhao Wen dripping with blood, his weak sighs, and his desperate ravings.

"Squad leader...I want to take a break...I can't hold on anymore..."

Jiang Tian only felt a churning in his stomach. He obviously ate some fresh and clean vegetarian dishes and porridge just now, but there was a fishy smell. He rushed to the bathroom in pain, scratching his throat as if he was not afraid of pain, wishing to eat it. I spit out all the stuff, and kept spitting out acid water until I couldn't vomit, coughing like a fishbone in my throat.

"No...it can't be like this, if it goes on like this, it will be useless..."

He rinsed his mouth with tap water, washed away the uncomfortable stomach acid in his mouth, hammered his chest twice, and continued to force himself to read the book. own arm.

"Jiang Tian, ​​calm down, it's okay, it's okay, study, study, calm down!"

He forcibly comforted himself over and over again, but his body began to tremble uncontrollably. When he was about to lose control, he was tightly clutching the test paper in his hand, and the small and beautiful characters he usually wrote in his hands had become distorted and hideous. face.

"Calm down, calm down..."

Ding Yang was terrified when he saw Jiang Tian in this state. His eyes were shattered, his eyes were red, he was pinching the paper in his hand, trembling uncontrollably, he kept reprimanding himself for controlling his emotions, but the effect But getting out of control.

"Jiang Tian!"

Ding Yang half-kneeled to support Jiang Tian's body.

Jiang Tian gritted his teeth until tears rolled down, "Ding...Ding Yang? I, I can't hold on...I can't..."

He buried his head in Ding Yang's neck in pain, Ding Yang felt his shoulder was wet, suddenly a sharp pain came, Ding Yang couldn't help taking a breath.

Jiang Tian bit Ding Yang's shoulder. Ding Yang was only wearing a thin T-shirt at this time, and the pain came suddenly and sharply.

He frowned and endured the pain but did not push Jiang Tian away. Finally, when the strength in Jiang Tian's mouth eased, he hugged Jiang Tian gently, and comforted him softly: "It's okay, it's okay, if you can't hold on, take a break, let's take a break .”

Jiang Tian stubbornly shook his head, "No, I can't rest, or my life will be ruined. Only the college entrance examination can I go out! The college entrance examination is my only chance!"

Ding Yang patiently patted him on the back, "Don't be afraid, don't be afraid, then let's rest for a while, and then we can study again?"

Thinking about what the doctor said on the phone just now, try not to remind him of the situation at that time through things related to Zhao Wen, and don't give him pressure and rebellious psychology through things related to study.

Zhao Wen's blow to him was more of a fear of learning, but how could he not study?

Jiang Tian tore his hair, forcing himself to read every word.

However, Zhao Wen's words always sounded in his mind——

"I want to take a break... I can't hold on anymore..."

He couldn't help but murmured: "I can't hold on...I really can't hold on..."

"Jiang Tian! Sober up!"

Ding Yang looked at Jiang Tian's gaze a little laxly, and he tightly covered Jiang Tian's ears with his hands, "Don't listen, there's no one here, don't listen to others."

But Ding Yang's words were useless at all, Jiang Tian kept muttering, and tears kept falling, as if there were two people fighting in his body now, the original self-confident and excellent schoolmaster suddenly lost the motivation to move forward Meaning, stubbornly resisting the collapse of thought.

"Jiang Tian, ​​listen to me, listen to me! Listen to me, I am Ding Yang!"

Ding Yang gently pressed close to his ear, "Jiang Tian, ​​listen to me, I like you, listen to my voice!"

"Jiang Tian, ​​I like you!"

"I really like you very much."

"It's really the first time I really like someone so much!"

"Look at me, look at me, I beg you."

"Jiang Tian, ​​I love you, look at me..."

Ding Yang's voice was hoarse, and seeing Jiang Tian's decadent appearance, his tears fell to the ground like broken threads.

"Brother, wake up..."

The two hugged and cried loudly. Ding Yang kept holding down Jiang Tian's hand that was tearing his hair, feeling Jiang Tian's body relax a little bit. The kiss finally landed on his trembling lips.

He tenderly licked Jiang Tian's panic, "Jiang Tian, ​​I love you."

Jiang Tian's rationality was finally glued together bit by bit, bit by bit. He tremblingly touched the tears on Ding Yang's face with his fingertips, and suddenly put his arms around Ding Yang with all his strength, holding a feeling of despair and hopelessness. The feeling of destruction sank deep between his lips and teeth.

Feeling Jiang Tian's sober mind, Ding Yang choked out a laugh while panting, "I love you, I really love you."

Then she inserted her hands into his hair slightly and brought him into her arms, and finally kissed his collarbone hot and gentle.

The two eagerly absorbed each other's breath, beyond the scope of intimacy, more like a primitive biting.

A person who can only hold the person in his arms through the real body temperature, it seems that the person disappears after letting go.

The other needs pain to wake up his collapsed rationality and tell him the truth that he is still alive.

Jiang Tian leaned gently beside his ear, choked up and said, "Thank you, Ding Yang."

"thank you for loving me."

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