growing up

From the south to the north, the biggest change should be the difference in temperature.

When boarding the plane, Gu Yuan only wore a pullover sweater, and when getting off the plane, he had already wrapped himself in the heavy down jacket that had been placed outside in advance.

He took a taxi directly from the airport to go home. Along the way, it was the familiar white world again.

I don't know if my heart has been well established, and the previous anxiety has now calmed down.

He put on his earphones, leaned against the window in silence, and watched the retrograde scenery.

His breath hit the glass and condensed into a white mist. When he realized it, he had already written the word "super" on that area with his fingers.

This kind of action is really girlish, but Gu Yuan doesn't care.

He missed Ling Chao, after only four or five hours apart.Or maybe it started when he turned to walk toward security.

Gu Yuan moved to the seat, staring at the white mist slowly dissipating, and the handwriting gradually blurred.He closed his eyes and let his mind go blank.

The driver brother probably thought that he was not in a particularly good mood, so he even turned off the car radio and concentrated on driving.

About two hours later, Gu Yuan arrived home.

After paying the money, he thanked the driver and entered the yard with his luggage.

The courtyard is still the same as when he left, but there is some new snow on top of the old snow.

Dahei probably smelled him, and there was a cry from the room.

He heard grandma's voice coming from behind, and when he got to the door, he was still saying, "Don't bark, don't bark, no one is coming in this cold weather."

Gu Yuan pushed aside the heavy windproof curtain on the door, and brought the box in first.

"Grandma, I'm back." Gu Yuan called out.

"Hey, Yuan'er is back? Didn't you say you didn't come back until the end of the year?" Grandma Gu was surprised when she saw Gu Yuan.

"I couldn't buy a ticket, so I came back early." Seeing that grandma didn't know the reason, Gu Yuan lied casually.

"Hurry up, it's too cold." Grandma Gu took Gu Yuan's icy hand distressedly, "We are having dinner, so you didn't say anything in advance."

"It's okay, just go back to my own home." Gu Yuan followed his grandmother to the kitchen.

Both Zhang Yun and Qingqing were eating by the stove, seeing Gu Yuan coming in, Qingqing called brother, she knew that Gu Yuan would come back early.And my mother was obviously not in the right mood these two days, so she didn't dare to talk too much.

Gu Yuan walked over, touched the hat on Gu Qingqing's head, and then looked at Zhang Yun: "Mom, I'm back."

"Well," Zhang Yun nodded, "sit down and eat first."

Grandma Gu was going to get the bowls and chopsticks, but Gu Yuan took the first step to get them by herself.

At the dinner table, Grandma Gu kept asking Gu Yuan about the past few days. Gu Yuan still couldn't figure out what his mother was thinking, so he only picked out a few interesting things that sounded like nothing to disagree with and told grandma.

Grandma Gu has a good impression of Ling Chao, not only because Ling Chao is good-looking and polite, but more importantly, he is the first friend her grandson has grown up with, and he seems to have a very good relationship friend.This is better than any other conditions for Grandma Gu.

She knows her grandson who has been brought up by herself too well, and she hopes that he can be happy, be happy, not be alone, and not push himself so hard - he is just a child.

This time, Gu Yuan wanted to go to Ling Chao, and Grandma Gu nodded in agreement.

As usual, Zhang Yun hardly spoke when eating, and finished eating silently.Grandma Gu was still chatting with Gu Yuan, she didn't bother, she just sat there and listened quietly.

After waiting for everyone to finish their meal, Zhang Yun said to Gu Yuan while clearing the table, "I didn't know you would come back today. But since you are back, Mom wants to have a good talk with you."

Gu Yuan didn't tell his family after he changed his contract. After reading the news of Qingqing's return, he was a little flustered at first, and in order to avoid being noticed by Ling Chao, he kept pretending to be calm, so he forgot to notify his family.Then I stopped talking and went straight home.

"Okay." Gu Yuan nodded and said.

As usual, Zhang Yun cleaned up the kitchen, Gu Yuan washed the dishes, Qingqing came in and out from time to time, and no one said a word in the kitchen.

At night, grandma fell asleep, and Zhang Yun let Qingqing take medicine to sleep, and then knocked on the door of Gu Yuan's room.

Gu Yuan was sitting at the desk doing homework, and when he heard the knock on the door, the pen under his hand drew a small black mark on the homework.

He buttoned up his homework, put down his pen, clenched and loosened his hands, got up and opened the door to let Zhang Yun in.

Zhang Yun walked in, sat on the edge of the bed, and motioned for Gu Yuan to come and sit down too.

Gu Yuan pulled the chair in front of the table and sat face to face with his mother.

Gu Yuan rarely had the opportunity to communicate with his mother alone like this, even on the phone, he didn't talk as much as Qingqing.

The two remained relatively silent for a while, as if they were both looking for words to speak.

In the end, it was Zhang Yun who spoke first: "Xiao Yuan, first of all, Mom wants to say sorry, because I turned on your computer, and curiously clicked on the private folder on your desktop."

really!well!Gu Yuan sighed in his heart, his face remained the same as before.

He usually only uses the computer for himself, and Qingqing rarely plays with it when he takes it home, and Qingqing knows everything about him, so he doesn't need to hide it from her.

He actually forgot about that folder. When he knew that Ling Chao liked him, he went to check some information about homosexuality. He took screenshots of all of them and saved them.

In fact, he also checked more and deeper things, but he cleared them all, but he forgot these screenshots.

His desktop already has a lot of things, some programming tools, small game applets made by himself, etc., so the folder of screenshots that he forgot is submerged in the large variety of icons.

If Qingqing hadn't said that his mother went to his father's grave to stay for several hours in this winter because of using his computer, he would never have thought that it would be because of this.

Gu Yuan lowered his head, then raised it again, his eyes suddenly became extremely firm.He looked at Zhang Yun and said, "Mom, I like Ling Chao. Just like you like Dad."

Zhang Yun opened her mouth, but finally said nothing. She put her hands on her knees and buried her face in her palms. After a while, her fingers moved up to her forehead, and her hair slipped between her fingers.

But in just a few tens of seconds, Zhang Yun seemed to have passed many years.

From yesterday to today, her mind was in a mess.She tried to think about the process of talking with Gu Yuan, there were thousands of ways, but none of them were so straightforward.

What is the use of all her psychological construction and thousands of words in just one sentence?

For this pair of children, Zhang Yun is ashamed.My daughter has been ill since she was a child. Although she is lucky to have survived until now, no one knows that one day, God will take her life back.

And to Gu Yuan, she owed too much.

Gu Yuan was a child without childhood, if Qingqing's childhood was a disease, then Gu Yuan's childhood should be about how to protect Qingqing.

In the past two years, he stepped up his studies in order to skip grades, and at the same time took on jobs, often staying up in the middle of the night.Qingqing's medical expenses are not a small amount, she and their father can barely support it, now that his father has passed away, she alone cannot afford it.

If it wasn't for Gu Yuan's computer skills to be discovered, maybe the last time Qingqing entered the hospital, they would have needed help from others.

How heavy is Gu Yuan's life, how can a mother not know?

Zhang Yun is not a rigid person, whether it is puppy love or homosexuality, she is not unacceptable.

However, when this happened to her son, she still couldn't believe it.

"Xiaoyuan," Zhang Yun raised his head slowly, looked at his son and said, "You are only 16 years old this year, and you will have such a long life in the future, and you will meet so many people. Conclusive."

"I was really shocked when I saw your things yesterday. Then I went to see your father, and when I was in front of him, I thought, maybe it's all my fault."

Zhang Yun stretched out his hand to take Gu Yuan's hand, lowered his head, and spoke softly.

"I haven't fulfilled my responsibilities as a mother, let alone guided your understanding of feelings. I am responsible for letting you go to this point now."

Zhang Yun raised his head, looked at Gu Yuan seriously, and said, "I don't think homosexuality is bad, but I hope you can figure out whether you really are. You never made friends when you were young, and now you meet Ling Chao— Of course Lingchao is a good boy, I believe he has many qualities that you should be attracted to - and then the admiration that arises is mistaken for affection. This is irresponsible behavior for both of you. Mom said that, you can understand ?"

Gu Yuan listened to Zhang Yun's words slowly, carefully listening to each word.He smiled, the dimples on his face flashed, and he pursed his lips lightly before he spoke: "Mom, what I said was not out of breath, not capricious, and not casual."

"He is the first person who will stand up when I am bullied, the person who will go crazy when others hurt me, the person who will lead me to slowly integrate into the group, and the person who sees him will feel happy The person who becomes better is the person who wants to catch up with him when he thinks of him."

"Mom, tell me, if I don't like him, what would it be? I want to be with him for the rest of my life, not because of his gender, but because the one I like happens to be with him I'm gay."

Zhang Yun's heart was turbulent, and Gu Yuan's words fell like a heavy hammer. She originally thought that it was okay for a teenager to fall in love out of curiosity. If she guides her well, maybe Gu Yuan will find out that this is just a moment of adolescence. middle two.

But after these words, she could see how serious Gu Yuan's attitude was.

"Are you sure you have thought it through?" Zhang Yun didn't say any more, just asked.

"Well, mom, don't worry. Ling Chao and I are not the kind of people who treat our relationship as a game, and we won't waste too much time because of this, which will affect our studies and future. How should we go in the future? People who have plans in advance, but after meeting each other, they have an extra companion on the road."

Looking at Gu Yuan's firm expression, Zhang Yun knew that it was useless to say any more. She stood up and was about to leave, but she stopped after taking two steps, then turned around and asked, "Did you have a good time over there these few days?" ?"

Zhang Yun didn't seem to be relaxed because of this conversation, but the brows became more dignified.She didn't know how Gu Yuan's father would react if he was still alive and knew about this situation, at least she was still worried now.

Gu Yuan stepped forward, stretched out his hand and gave Zhang Yun a hug.

He put his head on his mother's shoulder, patted her back lightly with his palm, then let go, and said, "I'm very happy, Ling Chao's parents are also very kind to me."

He took out the jade pendant he kept in his clothes, stroked it lightly twice: "This should be regarded as his parents' approval for us."

Zhang Yun looked at the jade pendant and then at her son's face. She knew that today's conversation could be over.

She raised her hand and patted Gu Yuan's arm, and said, "Well, mom respects your choice, but mom also reserves her own opinion - I still don't agree with your relationship, but I won't stop it. "

She finished speaking and left.

This time, Zhang Yun didn't stay any longer and went back to his room.