growing up

— Haha, hello hello.

This is the profile picture of the girl from before, Wang Xiaoxiao Gu Yuan remembered, the girl who took them to pick up school uniforms when school started.

- I am Wang Tian.

- I am Chen Yu.

- I am Xu Ziqiang.

- I am Zhang Cheng.

- I am Xiao Yuping.

The following is a quick self-introduction.

Then the phone rang again, and Gu Yuan exited to see the friend requests sent by the six avatars who had just appeared in the group in the new friends in the address book.

With some helplessness, Gu Yuan approved one by one, and changed the notes one by one.Their various screen names really make it hard to tell who is who.In addition, apart from Chen Yu, the class monitor, and Wang Tian and Xu Ziqiang who were sitting in front of him, he didn't really have any impression of the other two boys.

Maybe it was out of politeness, maybe it was influenced by Ling Chao, but he didn't refuse at this time.

After changing the note, the group chat is much easier to understand.

But Gu Yuan didn't speak any more, just watched them discuss happily in the group.

Wang Tian and the rest of the boarders didn't go home during the holidays, and they seemed very excited. From where to eat at noon, where to go after playing in the science and technology museum in the afternoon, to the activities in the evening, they were all discussed.

Ling Chao saw that Gu Yuan was looking at his phone all the time, and he didn't raise any objection, so he acquiesced to activities with them.

Several people chatted for a while and then slowly quieted down.

It was already getting dark outside, and there was a hint of coolness in the air.

"Brother Chao, do you want to go for a run?" Gu Yuan asked.

"Now? Your illness is just recovering. Don't run away. You will sweat and catch a cold after a while." Ling Chao said.

"It's okay, I just want to go out for a run after being bored at home all day." Gu Yuan still insisted.

Ling Chao couldn't resist Gu Yuan's request, so he asked him to change clothes, and the two went out for a run.

The temperature in the evening is very comfortable, neither hot nor cold. When I run, the breeze blows over my body, and every pore welcomes me.

In addition to Sanda, Ling Chao's usual exercise is running, and running has accounted for more than half of it since he stopped going to the martial arts gym in the past two years.Although most of them run on the treadmill at home, they can also feel the comfort brought by the speed.He likes this feeling, and often runs more than ten kilometers at a time.

The speed of the two was not slow. Gu Yuan took him on a road with few pedestrians, and the sky was as hazy as when the sun was setting and night was approaching.Gu Yuan ran obliquely in front of him, there was a faint fragrance of oranges in the air, which was the smell of shower gel on Gu Yuan's body.He couldn't tell where this place was, he just followed Gu Yuan anyway.

Gu Yuan changed into a white sportswear, and the loose clothes were blown against his body by the wind during the run, showing his lean figure to the fullest.Occasionally a small patch of skin on the waist is revealed as the arms swing back and forth.

White and smooth.

This was the first word that came to Ling Chao's mind.

Ling Chao couldn't deny more and more that he had a different idea of ​​Gu Yuan.like?Yes!From the beginning, I just thought he was handsome, but now I get to know him more and more. After getting closer, any movement will make him care about this person. This feeling has never been felt by anyone in the past 17 years. of.Some emotions in his heart were agitated, but he suppressed them firmly.He couldn't scare Gu Yuan.The two of them are as they are now, which is also very good.

After running for about three kilometers, Gu Yuan stopped on his legs.

This is a riverside path, and the roadside lights illuminate a warm yellow.The surrounding area seemed very quiet, and a few pedestrians could be seen walking sporadically on the trail.There is a large green belt next to it, extending forward along a row of high-rise buildings.

Gu Yuan stood by the river and looked at the opposite bank. Not far away, there were dense lights, stretches of viaducts interlaced and coiled, and the meteor-like lights were illuminated by vehicles passing by.Further away is the prosperity of this city.

This place seems to be a secluded path, isolated from the hustle and bustle of urban traffic.There is a wind blowing, carrying the earthy smell of the river.

The two stood side by side, neither of them spoke, as if they were enjoying the different atmosphere here.

It wasn't until Ling Chao felt the heat dissipate after running that his body felt a little cool, he turned his head to look at Gu Yuan, there were traces of sweat dripping down his face: "Don't stand still, you'll catch the cold again later."

Gu Yuan came back to his senses and nodded.Go straight back.

"You were so preoccupied just now, what were you thinking?" Ling Chao thought for a while, and finally took off his school uniform jacket and put it on Gu Yuan.

Gu Yuan took it off again and handed it to Ling Chao: "You wear it, I'm not cold."

He looked down at his feet, took out a cigarette from his pocket and lit it, took a deep breath, and then spat it out.

"I miss my sister." Gu Yuan's voice was a little low.

"In the past, she always liked to come here for a walk, but she couldn't run, so she always took the bus to the front neighborhood and then came here." Gu Yuan said slowly, taking another puff of his cigarette.

"We are twins, but she is the only one who is sick, but I am healthy. Many times, I hope that the one who is sick is me."

Ling Chao recalled the meeting with Gu Qingqing, such a lively, cute and eccentric little girl.

He looked up what is Tetralogy of Fallot on the Internet.An extremely complex congenital heart disease with a low survival rate.Ling Chao couldn't understand how such a thin little girl overcome every illness.

Gu Yuan didn't say any more, just puffed on the cigarette in his hand until it was burned out.He found a trash can, put out sparks on it and threw it in.Taking a deep breath, he turned around and looked at Ling Chao, his eyes had returned to normal: "Brother Chao, do you want to compete and see who can run back first."

Ling Chao couldn't speak his words of consolation, the young man in front of him might have just touched the scene for a moment, he raised his hand and rubbed Gu Yuan's stiff short hair, and said with a smile: "Okay! Those who lose must be punished."

"What punishment?" Gu Yuan also laughed, and he never resisted the fact that Ling Chao always patted his head from time to time.

"Hmm..." Ling Chao thought for a while: "Those who lost, please drink milk tea later."

"Haha..." Gu Yuan couldn't help laughing: "Brother Chao, what kind of punishment is this?"

This was the first time Ling Chao saw Gu Yuan laughing, and usually he just smiled at most.Gu Yuan who laughed like this, even his eyes were crooked, and the dimples on his face were more obvious, very pretty.

Ling Chao turned his head to the side and coughed lightly twice, suppressing the urge to kiss him: "That's the decision, I don't accept rebuttals. Come on! Start running!"

In the end, Ling Chao won. After all, he had been exercising all year round. He hadn't run away yet, but just sped up his speed a little to cooperate with Gu Yuan.

There is a milk tea shop in the alley. Ling Chao doesn't like milk tea, and the punishment is also casual.

As usual, Gu Yuan had matcha flavor, and Ling Chao ordered a glass of orange sparkling water.Take a sip, the mouthful of orange fragrance is very similar to the smell of Gu Yuan's body.

"Is the shower gel you use orange-flavored?" The two walked towards Gu Yuan's house with cups in their hands.

"Ah?" Gu Yuan didn't come to his senses for a while, and after thinking for a while, he realized what Ling Chao asked: "Yeah, you can smell it after getting up this afternoon and taking a shower?" He said and raised his hand to smell it , but felt that there was no smell at all.

"I smelled it when I was running before, and it smells good. I haven't seen a shower gel with this smell before." Ling Chao said.

"My sister bought it when she came over last time." Gu Yuan said.

"Let's see it later, I will try it next time." Ling Chao said.

This time up, Ling Chao didn't stay any longer, Gu Yuan would definitely have to work at night, he hoped that he would write less and go to bed earlier, after all, he was still sick.

Looking at the brand of Gu Yuan's body wash, Ling Chao found it on a certain treasure, and told him to take a shower and change clothes, and then he took the bag and left.

That night, Ling Chao had a dream for a long time. In the dream, many people appeared, noisy and laughing, but when he woke up, he couldn't remember the content. The only thing that left a deep impression on him was Gu Yuan turning his head while running. , with a smile on his face, he called him "Brother Chao" one after another.The warm yellow streetlights stretched their shadows very long, and he ran behind him without answering, his eyes only staring at the movement of Gu Yuan in front of him.

He sat up and leaned on the bed in a daze for 5 minutes, the voice still echoing in his head.

I grabbed the watch on the bedside table and looked at it, and it was less than 05:30.Last night, I came back to take a shower and went to bed after watching the video with my mother. I didn't pay attention to the time. I guess it was [-]:[-] o'clock. It seems that I went to bed too early.

He continued to lean there in a daze. Yesterday, during the video call with his mother, he mentioned Gu Yuan again. It's only been a few days since school started, and he feels like Gu Yuan is the one he talked to his mother the most.Talk about him skipping two grades in a row, talk about his test score being only two points lower than yours, talk about how he can cook delicious breakfast, talk about his part-time job, talk about his doting on his sister, what did you talk about yesterday?Well, I said that I have some different feelings about him...

Mom didn't look surprised.Ling Chao and his parents always had something to say, and what he said to his mother was just a way of telling.He never thought that there would be any development with Gu Yuan, at least not at this stage.

This is the first time that Ling Chao consciously feels that he likes someone.He will be proud of Gu Yuan's excellence, anxious for Gu Yuan's illness, and feel distressed for Gu Yuan's suffering.Gu Yuan's every move always affects his mood.

In fact, Ling Chao can also see that Gu Yuan treats himself differently than he treats others.But this is different, and it should be different from liking someone.Friendship elements accounted for the majority.

Ling Chao felt a little distressed in his heart, he didn't know what Gu Yuan would think of his feelings for him, if he knew, would he feel disgusted?Will it stay away?

He didn't dare to think about these situations, so he had no choice but to restrain himself.Maintaining the current relationship is not necessarily a bad thing.

But, over time, what if restraint doesn't work?

He recalled what his mother said at the end: "Son, the emotion in adolescence is a beautiful and bitter thing. The best ending is to be happy with each other, but most of them will not have results. But This should not be a worry. You just like him now, just enjoy the beauty of it, don’t worry about the result. Follow your heart, cherish all the happiness, and put aside the bitterness. Heterosexual love is not necessarily the same How smooth, let alone the same sex? Before you can't be sure that the two are happy, you only need to pay for the kindness you have done to him, and don't think about rewards. Even if you can only get along as good friends, isn't it enough to be happy?"

Yes, just be happy.At least he felt that the way they got along so far was happy.