Seeing the heart is barbaric

To parents:

Dad, Mom.

I can't say anything to comfort you, but I still hope that you will feel less pain.

Dad, Mom, I'm sorry, you must be angry when you came out to you rashly.Actually, I shouldn't have been so sudden.But I really like him, don't blame him for these things, he is really good, I just missed him, so we couldn't be together, but ah, he is your handsome son besides you Favorite person.

By the way, pass another letter to him for me, I want to say goodbye to him.

Dad, Mom, I really regret it now, why didn’t I treat you better when I was still dancing, I didn’t even go back to accompany you during the Chinese New Year, I didn’t go back to celebrate your birthday, and I didn’t even give you money buy something.

After finally raising a son like me, I let you feel sorry for me, I know, I am very unfilial.

Dad, don't think my mother's food is bad, she is working hard.

Mom, don't always talk about my dad in the future, all the money he earns belongs to you.

Dad, Mom, you must be healthy, eat on time, don't stay up late, work is not as important as family.

Dad, Mom, you must be happy, smile more, stop quarreling, and I can rest assured that the family is harmonious.

Dad, Mom, I'm leaving first. If there is an afterlife, I will still be your son and continue to torment you to make up for the filial piety that was not fulfilled in this life.

Thank God, I am very lucky to have parents like you.

Dad, Mom, I love you.

2017. 10, 21

Your eternal son Qin Quan

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To Yanshen:

I'm sorry I shouldn't have kept this from you.

I did it on purpose to hide it from you, but I really didn't mean to make you sad.

I heard that good people will be reborn after death, I thought about it carefully, I have never done anything harmful to nature in my life, so I should not be regarded as a wicked person.

So, maybe I will go back someday, you have to be happier every day, maybe the next passerby you pass by is me, and I will beat you when I see you are unhappy.

Remember to say thank you to your brother for me.Thank you for letting me know that a man named Yan Shen likes me during the most difficult time. Thanks to him telling me, I can survive until now.

Sorry, I didn't see that you liked me earlier, I'm sorry, I didn't confess to you first.

Although the current ending is not what we want most, it is also rare and perfect.

After all, we all know that now, don't we?

Actually, you are my first love.

I used to feel that unrequited love was very bitter, but now I don't feel it at all.

Even though we were never together, you broke into my heart so blatantly, and lived here with peace of mind. This time, you lived for six or seven years.

Every moment I think of you in these six or seven years is actually terribly sweet.

Really.

Although this love that started when I was young ended without a problem, it accompanied me through most of my life, and even accompanied me to the last moment.

Thank you, Yan Shen.

Thank you for being willing to be the only protagonist other than me in my life.

But I hope, for you, I am just an insignificant supporting role, a supporting role that can be ignored in your life journey.

Because you have to live for a long time, your life is still long, there will be someone better to love you in my place, there will be a protagonist who really belongs to you, and will pour more love into you than me.

So, don't give up all possible fate behind you because of me.

I'm not worth it and I'm not that important.

Goodbye, Yan Shen.

It will be indefinite later.

2017. 10, 21

your friend qin qi