leaning on bamboo at sunset

Yin Xiuzhu's eyes flickered: "No..."

"Then why don't you trust me?"

"I..." It's not that Yin Xiuzhu didn't believe him, but he didn't believe in himself—how could he have the qualifications to get this?

Qi Mu lowered his voice and said sadly: "I don't know what you think, but for me, dating is very pure. You like me and I like you. This is the premise of dating. Nothing else was enough for me to say that."

—Let's date.

Yin Xiuzhu thought of this sentence again, and the whole body still felt trembling, even stronger than before, because the feet landed, and it was more real.

"Don't lie to me." Yin Xiuzhu held his hand vigorously, and finally met his gaze, "Qi Mu, don't lie to me."

All his erratic spirits came back, gathering in his pitch-black eyes, releasing a desperate light.

Qi Mu looked back at him without blinking: "I like you, if it's to deceive you, then let me..."

Yin Xiuzhu pulled him over and kissed his lips forcefully.

Qi Mu's eyes widened suddenly, his bright head instantly turned into a mess.

When kissing Qi Mu, Yin Xiuzhu felt uneasy for a moment, he was afraid that he would be pushed away, but he didn't...

Qi Mu even got closer to him...

Suddenly, a flame erupted in his heart, and Yin Xiuzhu kissed this person whom he longed for to the marrow and imprinted to the soul in a random way.

If this is a dream, if it is a farce, then he would like to sleep forever.

When the two separated, Qi Mu almost suffocated, he gasped for breath, thinking that he would die from the kiss.

Yin Xiuzhu looked at his flushed cheeks, and wanted to kiss him again.

Qi Mu panted and asked, "Did I make less breakfast?"

Yin Xiuzhu didn't react.

Qi Mu said, "I always feel like you're going to eat me."

Yin Xiuzhu was stunned for a moment, with a long-lost smile in his eyes, he got up and asked him, "Are you full?"

Qi Mu: "..." How can I be full, but it's too embarrassing for me to cook all morning and not cook enough.

Yin Xiuzhu said: "I'll cook a bowl of noodles for you."

Qi Mu whispered: "Actually, I'm not too hungry, it depends on you."

Yin Xiuzhu also felt hungry. He didn't eat much yesterday, and he didn't feel hungry when he was in a trance before. Now that he returned to the human world, he felt empty in his stomach.

As for the two slices of bread in the morning... the little girl would be hungry.

Yin Xiuzhu said: "I also want to eat some more, just wait a moment, I'll be fine soon."

Qi Mu nodded again and again: "Okay!"

Yin Xiuzhu entered the kitchen, and Qi Mu came over on his heels. Yin Xiuzhu said to him: "Just go outside and wait. After the fire, it will be smoky."

Qi Mu felt embarrassed: "I'll learn."

Yin Xiuzhu said: "You don't need to do these things."

Qi Mu disagreed: "That won't work, you will definitely go to work on time in the future, so why don't you have to get up early to cook?"

Yin Xiuzhu was taken aback.

Qi Baba's majesty has not diminished in the past, thinking about it is called Zhou Dao: "I'll just draw a picture at home anyway, it's okay to get up early and cook a meal, the big deal is to catch up on sleep after you leave."

Yin Xiuzhu's hand holding the knife trembled.

Qi Mu said again: "Not only breakfast, I also need to learn more, make dinner or something, so that you can eat when you get home..."

"Qi Mu," Yin Xiuzhu's voice trembled slightly, "I won't be able to cut these tomatoes any more."

Qi Mu was slightly surprised, and leaned over and said, "What? What's with these tomatoes..." He saw Yin Xiuzhu's trembling hands, and understood...

Yin Xiuzhu breathed a sigh of relief, trying to steady his disappointing hand: "I always feel like I'm dreaming."

Qi Mu was helpless and distressed: "How can there be such a boring dream?"

Yin Xiuzhu shook his head and said, "I've never had such a wonderful dream."

After he finished speaking, he turned his head, his dark eyes were full of love, as thick as melted chocolate syrup.

Qi Mu knew that what he was telling was the truth, and his heart ached beyond measure: "...your dreams are too fruitless!"

Yin Xiuzhu was noncommittal, he smiled lightly and said, "Go out, I'll cook the noodles." Qi Mu was here, and he couldn't hold back his heart at all.

Qi Mu was really afraid that he would cut his finger, so he said, "Okay, I'll go out and wait for you."

Yin Xiuzhu nodded, and before Qi Mu left, he said again: "Da Qiao said that once you enter the kitchen, you can't go out empty-mouthed, and there will be no food in the future."

Yin Xiuzhu's smile deepened. He put down the kitchen knife and said, "Wait a minute."

Next to it is the refrigerator. After opening, there is a small partition with chocolates in it.A long time ago, when Qi Mu stayed at Yin's house all day long, he often went to the kitchen to watch Yin Xiuzhu cook, and every time he went, he begged for chocolates on the grounds that he couldn't empty his mouth when he entered the kitchen.

Yin Xiuzhu was afraid that eating too much would be bad for his teeth, and he was obsessed with superstition. He was always afraid that "no food to eat" would come true, so he compromised every time and broke a small piece of chocolate for him.

Qi Mu watched Yin Xiuzhu take out the chocolate helplessly, feeling his throat was itchy.

Yin Xiuzhu took out a piece and gave it to him.

Qi Mu said, "So many?"

Yin Xiuzhu said: "You can eat more."

Qi Mu bent his eyes and said, "The wrapping paper is not torn."

Yin Xiuzhu's heart went numb from his appearance, and Qi Mu said again: "You used to feed it directly into my mouth."

Of course Yin Xiuzhu remembered, those memories were the source of his life for the past four years.

He tore open the wrapping paper slowly, and put the chocolate the size of a quail egg to his mouth.

Qi Mu ate it in one bite, and said with a smile, "It's so delicious!"

Yin Xiuzhu's mouth was parched, he endured it, and resisted not kissing him.

Unexpectedly, after swallowing the chocolate, Qi Mu pecked his mouth: "Okay, I'm going out."

Unable to get out, Yin Xiuzhu grabbed his wrist, pressed him against the refrigerator, and kissed him clearly.

Until the water in the pot boiled, bubbling out...

Qi Mu said: "You have eaten up all my chocolate." After he finished speaking, he felt that these words were too thought-provoking, so he didn't dare to stay in the kitchen for a long time, so he slipped away.

In his absence, Yin Xiuzhu cooked tomato and egg noodles neatly.

It's very homely, but it's beautifully done. The tomatoes and eggs are cooked just right, and the noodles are cooked white and translucent. Served in a bone china bowl, it attracts people's index fingers.

Qi Mu sighed: "You are really amazing! You can do everything so well."

Yin Xiuzhu said: "Looking good is not necessarily delicious." He hasn't cooked for a long time, and he is worried that the taste will not be good.

After Qi Mu took a bite, he was very appreciative: "It's delicious!" There is no harm without comparison. Compared with his brown fried eggs, this is simply a peerless delicacy!

After breakfast, Qi Mu mentioned the matter of seeing a doctor again.

Yin Xiuzhu calmed down a lot, and he could face it calmly. He said, "You don't need to look at it, it's fine."

Qi Mu was worried: "The way you looked last night scared me."

Yin Xiuzhu felt soft in his heart, and said, "I'm sorry."

Qi Mu frowned and said, "Don't apologize indiscriminately, it's not your fault."

Yin Xiuzhu sighed lightly and said, "I feel fine now, and it doesn't make much sense to go to the doctor, and those medicines can't be used often."

Qi Mu said nervously: "I want to know more about your body, I'm very worried."

Yin Xiuzhu paused and said: "Actually, it's nothing, just some depression, and now it's basically recovered."

Qi Mu's heart skipped a beat... Depression?How can this be such an understatement?Qi Mu's uncle committed suicide at a young age because of this disease.

"Is it because of me?" Qi Mu asked dryly.

Yin Xiuzhu didn't want to blame everything on him, but explained: "A lot of things happened after the college entrance examination..."

He told Qi Mu what happened back then.

The day after they had a relationship, Yin Zhenggong took Yin Xiuzhu to the United States, because Yu Daiyun kept calling for Yin Xiuzhu.

Yin Xiuzhu went to the United States in a daze, but what he saw was Yu Daiyun, whom he had never seen before.

She didn't go crazy, didn't ignore him, but treated him with unprecedented tenderness.

Yin Xiuzhu's mental state was very poor at that time, seeing Yu Daiyun like this unexpectedly, he felt a warmth that he had never experienced before.

He accompanied Yu Daiyun, and Yu Daiyun chatted with him like a real mother, asking him about his studies, life and friends.

Yin Xiuzhu talked to her about Qi Mu, and as he talked, his heart felt like it was exploding, and he burst into tears.

Yu Daiyun hugged him, comforted him, and told him: "If you make a mistake, then go and apologize to him, and he will forgive you."

At that time, Yin Xiuzhu was greatly touched, and wanted to go back to China immediately to apologize to Qi Mu, and wanted to beg him to forgive him no matter what.

But Yu Daiyun died.

On that night, she pretended to be a mother for a week, and after making everyone let their guard down, and everyone thought she had recovered, she slit her wrists and committed suicide.

The blood dyed her bed bright red, and when Yin Xiuzhu entered the room, he saw a woman as pale as a ghost.

She left him a letter, and there was no kindness in it, it was all evil from beginning to end.

She was deceived by Yin Zhenggong and raped by Yin Zhengquan. She became a tool used by Yin Zhenggong to slander Yin Zhengquan. Her whole life was ruined by the Yin brothers. She hated them and also hated Yin Xiuzhu to death.

The last sentence she left to Yin Xiuzhu was: "...will not be forgiven, the perpetrators never deserve to be forgiven."

This shattered Yin Xiuzhu's hard-earned psychological defense.He insisted on dealing with Yin Zhenggong, dispelling his doubts. At this time of exhaustion, the news of Qi Mu's going abroad came.

This was the straw that broke the camel's back.

will not be forgiven.

Perpetrators do not deserve to be forgiven.

Qi Mu doesn't want him anymore.

Despair broke out in his heart, Yin Xiuzhu had a splitting headache and lost his belief in living.

That hell-like day, Yin Xiuzhu only recalled fragments of it, and felt that his heart was piercing.

Qi Mu just heard that Yu Daiyun committed suicide, and his heart ached to death. Seeing that Yin Xiuzhu's expression was not good, he immediately said, "No hurry, don't tell me everything." This was too painful for Yin Xiuzhu.

Yin Xiuzhu lowered his eyes and said, "I thought you would never talk to me again." One disaster after another failed to defeat Yin Xiuzhu, but when he knew that Qi Mu was going to Paris, he completely collapsed.

Qi Mu regretted, "I thought you were angry with me and never wanted to see me again."

Yin Xiuzhu's eyes were red: "How is it possible?"

Qi Mu said with some embarrassment: "That morning...you were not at home, and I called you later but you didn't answer, and you didn't reply to the text messages."

Yin Xiuzhu was stunned.

Qi Mu was afraid that he would feel uncomfortable, so he said again: "So you went abroad, I guess...you were probably on the plane when I called."

Yin Xiuzhu said with a pale face, "I didn't bring anything with me when I left." I didn't even change my clothes, and I don't know where my phone was left.

Qi Mu was also stunned.

Yin Xiuzhu's eyes were bloodshot: "I went out to buy medicine that morning."

The night was so bad, Qi Mu was injured and still had a fever, he was so anxious that he didn't dare to ask others, so he could only run for more than an hour to buy medicine by himself, and when he came back, the building was already empty.