[Thunderbolt] Pindao just wants to be a quiet Taoist priest

In March of that year, there were peach blossoms and gurgling water. I was born amidst the expectations and disappointments of my family.

Because it was the time when the peach blossoms were in full bloom, and even the river water began to warm up, my mother didn't put much thought into naming me Xiaotao, which was easy to remember and simple.Dad just sighed, another loser.

Before me, there were two older sisters, both older than me, who collected firewood when they could walk and worked at home, and I did the same.

The family's situation could barely fill the stomachs of five people. No matter how good it was, it was impossible, but my dad still tirelessly gave birth to my mom. In the next five years, I added two younger sisters one after another, making life even more difficult.

That year, the youngest fifth sister, who was still in her infancy, was tender and tender, and even her mother was called unsuitable fifth sister, who was sold to someone else by her father.

"Your sister is going to enjoy the blessings." Father put forward the fifty taels of silver that he had put in his hand, smiling all over his face, and he rarely had a good look at our daughters. Not much, and it all went into Father's stomach.

"The fifth sister was actually sold to someone else as a child bride." The eldest sister told me afterwards that the son of that family was crippled and had a bad personality. My natal family, you can do whatever you want.

I cried and ate the dinner that day, feeling that every bite of the meal I ate was the blood and tears of my younger sister. This is the dinner I got by selling my younger sister.

Grandma is pregnant again, this time Father asserts that it must be a younger brother, because this time is different from the previous times, Grandma's belly is pointed and acidophilic.

Every day I have to look for sour fruit for my mother, if there is not enough, I will be beaten by my father, saying that I don't want to have a younger brother and don't take care of my mother wholeheartedly.

That day I was crying by the stream, washing fruit and crying.Because I don’t know who picked all the sour fruits before me today. I searched all morning and couldn’t find enough fruits to go back. I must be beaten.

"Plop" A stone smashed into the water in front of me, splashing a lot of water, which wet my face, not to mention my clothes.

"Why are you crying?" A boy who was only two or three years older than me was hanging upside down from a tree, looking at me with a smile. It was the stone he threw.

He is Asong, an orphan in the village. He grew up eating a lot of food. The old man who picked him up picked him up under a pine tree, so he took this name.

"I didn't pick enough fruit today." I spread out my small pocket, and there were only a dozen or so pitiful ones, each of which was only the size of a thumb.

A Song blinked his eyes, fell down from the tree, covered himself with patches, and opened the cloth bag tightly: "Don't cry, I picked it, and it was meant to be dinner." He said, Pour out all forty fruits to me.

I was overjoyed, but when I thought that it was Ah Song’s dinner, I felt a little bit sorry. If I didn’t accept it, I would be beaten again, but if I accepted it, Ah Song would starve again. It was really a dilemma.

"Well, I'll pick the fruit for you in the future, and you'll pay me for the rest of your time and play with me." Ah Song smiled indifferently, and I thought this was the best smile I've ever seen.

Carrying my family behind my back, I felt a lot more relaxed and happy. Although life was still bitter, going out to look for fruit every day was the time I was most looking forward to and the happiest time of the day.

Sometimes if I cook the food at home, I will secretly hide some for Ah Song, so that he will not always be hungry.

Grandma finally gave birth at the end of autumn, and it was indeed a boy. Unfortunately, it looked a little sallow, as if it was not nourished enough.

If I can see the situation, Dad can naturally see it too.

The eldest sister was married, and there was no banquet, no relatives and friends were invited, and of course, my family had no relatives or friends, so she married in such a low-key manner, as a sequel to a widower, and she was also a fierce and alcoholic old widower.

"20 taels, I didn't expect that I would be so valuable." The elder sister smiled while packing up her things. I felt extremely uncomfortable because the elder sister didn't smile at all.

The eldest sister who is only 12 years old is actually still a child. If she wants to be held in the palm of her hand in other people's family, but in my family, she will indeed marry an old man who is 40 years older than her.

In the evening, the eldest sister left, leaving the home where she had lived for 12 years. Before she could reach her age, she was hastily "married" by her parents.

I hid behind the tree, looked at the back of my eldest sister, covered my mouth and cried secretly in fear.I am afraid, afraid that I will marry an old man I don't know in the future.

"Don't be afraid, I will marry you, I will make money in the future, and take you out of your house." A Song patted my back and comforted me clumsily.

We, who are only eight years old, made a lifetime vow. Although it is too early to talk about the future at this time, we regard this as our dream and hope.

That's the sweetest thing I've ever heard.

With this money, my younger brother was really raised fat and cute, but I don't like it. In his life, he has already sold two older sisters so far.

A Song found a job in the blacksmith shop in the village, and then he came and went with my family openly, and my parents would not refuse. If you have a craft, you won’t starve to death in the future, and you can even have The surplus is at least better than my family.

My parents turned a blind eye to Ah Song's liking for me, and I feel very lucky.Because every time A Song comes here, he will pack some snacks, which Yuan Geer likes to eat, and so does Mom and Dad, after all, it is food.So my job at home suddenly became a lot easier.

14 years old, I have been looking forward to it for a long time, so is A Song, which means that I can get married.

That year the magnolias were in full bloom, and the snow-white magnolias were like jade carvings on the branches, pure and beautiful. Asong asked me to meet under the magnolia tree by the stream.

We often met there, because A Song would always pick a magnolia flower and put it on my head.

"It's so beautiful, Xiao Tao, you look so beautiful wearing a magnolia flower. Just wait, when I have money, I will go to the town to buy a magnolia flower hairpin for you." Ah Song put the magnolia flower on my temples again, blushing Red, looking at me stupidly.

In the past few years, people have been coming to propose marriage to him, but he has never agreed.I know, he is waiting for me, he promised to give me a lively wedding, he has already saved some money, and he is still short.

We all know what it means for a boy to buy a hairpin for a girl. My face slowly burned, I lowered my head, and nodded lightly: "Well, I will wait for you, and you will wait for me."

When Ah Song heard what I said, he laughed from ear to ear, looking silly.

Those were the sweetest words I've ever heard, and I'll always remember them.

Just after I turned 14, I was looking forward to it every day, counting the days until A Song saved enough taels of silver to marry me back home.

Sitting in front of the window, I watched the sun rise and the moon set, the stars moved, and the day agreed by Ah Song was getting closer, and the smile on the corner of my mouth became more and more uncontrollable day by day.I am looking forward to becoming Ah Song's bride, looking forward to becoming his wife, looking forward to growing old together with him and staying with him for a lifetime.

Unfortunately, the famine that year ruined everything.

The food stored in the village was quickly eaten up, especially the bark and grass roots. Some people even started eating soil.

Asong's master got sick and died, his source of income would no longer be stable, and he might be driven away at any time. After all, at this time, it would be good to have one less mouth to eat at home.

The eldest sister was drunk and beaten to death by the old widower two years ago, and the second sister also married ten taels of silver and became the third wife of the old widower.

The fourth sister was so hungry that she was skinny, even crying was a waste of energy.

God can't see the pain and struggle of the people, and even spares us a drop of rain.

I watched my fourth sister starve to death from my parents, so that I could save a ration and feed my brother Yuan.

I just feel so cold, and I'm afraid, afraid that at some point, my parents will sacrifice me and starve me to death.

I beg the gods in the sky, I hope they will save me and other people living in the famine, let it rain quickly, so that the dry earth can give birth to life again.

Unfortunately, the gods cannot hear my prayers.

When Brother Yuan fell ill, a well-dressed woman came to the house.

"Twelve taels. You girl looks good, and you can sell it to a rich family as a maid." The woman looked at me, and I hid aside and shivered.

Ah Song found out about my family, and ran over angrily: "Xiao Tao is going to marry me, how could you sell her!"

"Married to you? Do you have a marriage certificate? Have you changed your horoscope? If you say it, it's yours?" Dad pushed Ah Song, "Either, take out ten taels of silver, or..."

Asong's face was extremely pale, he was still a little bit, just a little bit.

"Wait for me for three days, three days later, I will come to marry you." Ah Song looked at me with tears on my face, and then went to the town.

We all know that this is no longer a marriage, but a sale. A Song is just taking care of my emotions.

"Okay, I'll wait for you for three days." Dad nodded, maybe this was his last conscience on his daughter.

Three days, I have never felt that these three days are so difficult, so long, and again, so short.

I didn't sleep or sleep, looking at the only road in the village leading to the town, hoping to see my sweetheart.

I saw Ah Song running towards me several times, but unfortunately, it was all hallucinations.

I went from hope to despair.

"Don't wait, that kid is already Yuanwailang's son, and he just got married two days ago." That woman came again, to take me away.

I was numb and muddled, as if my muscles and bones had been taken away, and the pain was so painful.

Ha, he is Yuanwailang's son, even if he doesn't want to marry me, why don't you save me with ten taels of silver?Isn't it cheap?

Before getting into the woman's car, I finally shed tears.I don't know what will happen to me in the future, but I know that I have no future with A Song.

Baihualou, that is my destination for the rest of my life.

Looking at the tall and splendid attic, this is a magnificence that I have never seen before, and everything is beyond my imagination.The woman inside is gorgeously dressed, with exquisite makeup, like a fairy concubine in the sky. This place is full of luxury and laughter, and I think this is heaven.It's a pity that this is a man's paradise with exquisite packaging, but it is a hell for women.

After accepting a year of prostitution, I stood in the center of the stage. This was my first night ceremony. According to the meaning of the old lady Huang, it was a good day for me to "marry".

Wearing a bright red gauze dress and delicate makeup, I am no longer a country girl, but a coquettish elf in the world.

The brightly lit stage, the golden carved flowers, and the gorgeous carpet are like an exquisite jewelry box, and I, that exquisite item, will only be played with by others.

Looking at the salivating eyes around me, I just felt disgusted, and thought unrealistically, it would be great if A Song suddenly appeared at this time and bought me.

Dreams are always dreams.

When I was pressed down by that fat-headed benefactor, the pain in my body had long been numb, but the pain in my heart was dense, which made me awake.I smiled, so flirtatiously, that the wealthy businessman's breathing became more rapid and his movements became more rude.

It's impossible anymore, everything can't be undone.

I laughed, had to laugh, and praised Enke for his good work.

Every day after that, I let go of Asong, since it is impossible, stop thinking about things that do not belong to me.

Until, I met A Song that day.

Like a flower and a beautiful family member, very affectionate.

I watched him help his wife get off the carriage, guarding it carefully, as if guarding a priceless treasure in his hands.

He saw me too.

I saw the expression on his face blank for a moment, and then looked away.

Yeah, I'm dirty now and he doesn't want to see me normal.

"Xiao Tao, wait for me, I will help you redeem your body, and I will settle you down." The next day, Ah Song came to see me, excitedly took my hand, and told about the years to come.

My gaze regained its warmth.Believe it again, he still loves me, doesn't he?

My hopes were shattered faster this time than the last time.

The next day, people from the Lin family came to the door, directly paying 1000 taels, not for my redemption, but to buy a laugh, for the servants of the Lin family, and even horse slaves.

The whole day, without even a break, one after another, even several together.

"Oh, the top card of Baihualou is different."

My heart is broken into powder, and it will never hurt again.

hope?so ridiculous.love?unbelievable.Why?It gave me hope and gave me despair.Reawaken my hope when I no longer want it, and shatter it even more violently?

I watched the sun rise and the moon set every day in the building, and I no longer had any illusions. The pain when the illusion was broken, I don't want to experience it again.

A guest who is not familiar with the world came to the building and booked Baihualou for a day.

They are really different. They don't have the dirty eyes that ordinary customers look at us. They only have pity for us women in their eyes, and the equality they most desire.

When they came for the second time, I boldly and presumptuously let the young man listen to my story and let him draw a picture for me.

That painting is so beautiful, I can finally clearly know what kind of image I am in Renguer's eyes.

The young master of the Lin family called my name, I thought, this is my chance.

Living like a walking corpse, I would rather die than live.The life and death of the girl in Baihualou is beyond her control, but I can borrow someone else's hand.

I agreed.

After ten years, I finally had a chance, even if the chance was slim.

"Just you, you still want to compete with my sister for husband and son-in-law?" Young master Lin really inherited the ruthlessness of the Lin family, and slashed my face with a knife.

I touched my face, my hands were covered with blood, and it hurt, but I didn't feel much pain, at least it was bearable.

I smiled: "Renke was joking, Liuying is no more than a firework girl, how can he be compared with Renke's younger sister."

"You are sensible. It's just a pair of jade arms and a pillow for thousands of people, and a few red lips for thousands of people to taste." Young Master Lin's smile was extremely distorted, and the whip covered with steel thorns in his hand was thrown at me, "I think it's dirty."

I don't know how I survived the night, but looking at the light in the sky, I know that I won't be able to see the sun for this day.

The only remaining eye is almost gone, and my vision is getting darker, but I can vaguely see my brother Song walking towards me.Although there are no brocade clothes, just the shabby clothes, but clean and sunny.

He stretched out his hand to me and told me that he came to pick me up, he finally came to pick me up.

I slowly raised my hand, but before I could hold his hand, I dropped it slumped.

I'm betting, betting on my death, betting on whether Brother Song will come down to accompany me after I die.Since living in this world is so painful, it is better to go to hell together.

I am also betting on whether there will be a hero who sees injustice to avenge me.

As for Lin's?She is indeed a good person, but she was born in the Lin family, even if she is innocent, as long as she enjoys everything the Lin family has brought her, then she is not innocent.

I never thought that those four young ladies from wealthy families could help me. After all, I am just a lowly prostitute, and it is very likely that they will never come to Baihualou again, and their elders will not allow them to come again.

In the next life, I don't want to meet Brother Song again. Since it can't be fulfilled, don't give me any more promises and hopes.

Death is so peaceful, I have longed for it, and I am finally free.

The author has something to say:

The first knife of the new year, are you happy?