I say all wine is worse than you

To be honest, Ji Chunfeng doesn't feel that the current self is suitable for returning to campus.

Even when she was still in school, she basically couldn't sit still in school, and her heart was always floating.Going back now, Ji Chunfeng doesn't believe that he can adapt to that atmosphere again, nor does he think that he can do better than then.

I don't know if he saw her hesitation, so Du Shili simply freed up his own time, taking advantage of the weekend to take Du Shili around Haidian District.

There are many universities in Beijing, but most of them are concentrated here, especially around Xueyuan Road and Zhongguancun.Both Ji Chunfeng and Du Shili were promoted by doing papers in Haidian District when they were young. They are not familiar with this name, and they naturally have a special kind of intimacy when they come here.

For more than two days, they visited nearby schools, and the finale was Tsinghua University and Peking University.

Like all children who do not know the heights of the sky and the depths of the earth, Ji Chunfeng once fantasized about which one he should choose between Peking University and Tsinghua University.The first time I knew the name "Peking University" was in Tian Xiaofei's "13-year-old encounter".The difference is that the girl really came to Peking University in the end, while Ji Chunfeng's ambitions have faded little by little during the long growth time, and there is not even a spark left.

Only when I stand at this place today, will I feel an unspeakable melancholy from the bottom of my heart.

In fact, Ji Chunfeng might not be able to tell the difference between this school and other schools, but when she stood in front of the Peking University library and looked up, she felt a sense of insignificance.

Not to mention the nature of the world and the mysteries of all things, even the knowledge created by human beings, what she has come into contact with is just the tip of the iceberg.Just like the girl in Tian Xiaofei's article cried, "You know so much, but I don't understand anything..."

You know so much, but I know nothing.This is also what Ji Chunfeng often thinks when facing Du Shili.

Although she believes that she is walking on a path that suits her, although she comforts herself that "360 years of travel will lead to the number one scholar", although there are always people who say that bad students will be the boss in the future and good students will work for him after graduating from a prestigious school... But maybe only Those who stand on this road will know how painful that feeling of "inferior to others" is.

It seems that he bowed his head for no reason.

And this kind of lowness is something she admits in her heart, but she absolutely refuses to show it on the surface.

A line of poetry suddenly popped up in my mind.

Ji Chunfeng followed up in a low voice: "There is nothing that makes me stay, except the purpose. Even if there are roses, green shades, and peaceful harbors on the shore, I am an untied boat..."

In 1954, 16-year-old Lin Ling wrote this poem. Thirty-three years later, Tian Xiaofei, who was also 33 years old, wrote this sentence in her article.They are all firmly working towards their "goal", but what about her?

Probably because this environment is really suitable for recalling famous sayings and sayings, Ji Chunfeng's thinking became active, and Paul Korchagin's famous sayings appeared in his mind again.

——A person's life should be spent like this: When he looks back on the past, he will not regret because of his inaction and wasted years, nor will he feel guilty for being despicable and living a vulgar life.

Suddenly hit by a classic sentence, Ji Chunfeng asked himself in his heart, are you willing?Don't work hard and try at all, do nothing, do nothing, see that the distance between yourself and Du Shili is getting farther and farther, and in the end there is no intersection, and you will regret it when you get old?

No.

On the way back, she asked Du Shili, "What do you think I should learn?"

"I feel that you are very interested in western pastry, maybe you can further study in this field." Du Shili thought for a while and said, "The catering business is better than other things, as long as your craftsmanship is good enough, there will always be people to support you. What do you think?"

"Shandong Lanxiang?" Chunfeng teased with a smile.

Du Shili glanced at her helplessly, then lowered his head and searched for relevant information on the Internet with his mobile phone.

Ji Chunfeng looked at her, for some reason, suddenly remembered Na Lan, and made a comparison between the two in his heart.

Na Lan, like her, is a model of instant gratification, and she doesn't have much enterprising spirit. Even when Ji Chunfeng wants to do something occasionally, she loses interest in a few words.But Shili is different. She looks silent, but she has a kind of tenacity in her body, as if she always knows where the road ahead is, and she can pull the people around her to move forward with her.

So when it comes to doing things, she is far more reliable than others.

It is precisely because of this that Chunfeng feels that he is a little far away from her.But occasionally, she also wants to work hard so that she can catch up.Even if she is a person who is always determined, no matter what the idea is, she can't stick to it for a long time.

Du Shili did what he said, and it didn't take long to send a thick stack of cooking class materials, ranging from a one-month crash course to a half-year refresher course, and the courses were also varied.Although she often helps Chunfeng, she really doesn't understand these things, so she simply prints them out and gives them to her to choose.

Because there was still some money in hand, Chunfeng finally chose a class for one and a half years.She is considered a monk halfway through this, and she has not studied systematically at all, but just pondered it on her own. Now that she wants to learn, she will sort out what she has learned before and integrate it.

The cooking class is a morning class. After Chunfeng signed up, he planned to find a job that could stagger the time.

But after picking and choosing, the places that only opened in the afternoon were basically entertainment places. Shili was always worried about her choice of this kind of work, so he never found a suitable one.

When Chunfeng went to the Penumbra Bar, she mentioned a few words to Yaya, and two days later, she and Yaya became colleagues.

Probably because of "acquaintances", Du Shili followed Chunfeng over to see it twice, and felt that there was nothing wrong with it, so he didn't object anymore.When she left, Chunfeng turned around and saw Yaya lying on the bar counter, looking at him meaningfully.

"New love?"

"Don't talk nonsense, we're just friends." Chunfeng quickly lowered his head to hide his unease.

Speaking of which... She and Du Shili have indeed gotten a little closer recently.

Chunfeng didn't like this very much. He divided the distance between himself and Du Shili neatly, and whenever there was any trouble, he would get nervous like a frightened bird, looking very much like a narcissist with excess self-consciousness.But she couldn't stop herself from doing these things. Du Shili was so good, if he didn't pull a red thread in his heart, Chunfeng felt that he would fall unconsciously sooner or later.

And that was exactly what she was trying to avoid.

It's not that I don't like it, it's just that I don't dare, can't... don't want to.