Just A Bit Wrong

"Okay, lads, rest for half an hour!" After hearing what the coach said, the players were immediately relieved.

Gabriel Dewar kicks the ball away.He wiped his sweat and looked around until he saw a familiar figure on the other side of the training field. Gabe grinned past his teammates and walked straight to his...boyfriend.Boy friend.Gabe feels that this word is not particularly accurate after all, so it is strange to use it every time.

"My Jared," he mused carefully, unable to hold back a smirk.It sounds better this time.

"Hey," Gabe sneaked up to Jared, putting his arms around his neck. "What are you doing?"

"I'm observing," Jared replied, but his eyes were focused on several substitute players on the court.

Gabriel didn't bother to talk to those people, he just wanted to put his mouth on Jared's sharp jaw, kiss and suck wantonly.He bit his cheek, suppressing this untimely impulse.Speaking of which, it felt not only out of place, but also weird.He already knew that Jared was handsome.But a few months ago this kind of handsomeness was just an abstract concept: after all, he is straight, and his love for Jared is only limited to the spiritual level.Now, there is a physical bond between them, and although there is no question of who is forcing the other, Gabe's dependence on this relationship is so deep that it still makes him feel terrified.In the past, he demanded Jared's love and concern insatiably.Now, his lust for Jared's body can only go beyond that, for example, he wants to kiss Jared's mouth at this moment.

But he couldn't do whatever he wanted with Jared.Although most people are used to their close and sticky relationship, and they are not surprised by the "brotherly love" between the two, but kissing in public is not justified anyway.Sometimes the profession of football player really sucks.

"What are you looking at?" Gabriel asked, trying to take his attention away from Jared.

"Tristan," Jared replied.

Gabriel frowned, following Jared's gaze.His jerk brother avoided the other players and was bouncing the ball. "What do you see him doing? He has almost recovered, so he should be able to train without a doctor's supervision, right? He will play in the next game."

"Didn't you see anything wrong with him?" Jared Moss touched Gabriel's shoulder.Then, probably remembering that someone else was there, he took his hand away.

"No," Gabriel said, his body missing Jared's touch.

"Look at him," Jared said.

"I'm looking."

"No, look at him carefully. Didn't you notice anything strange?"

Jared's words finally piqued Gabriel's curiosity.He looked at his brother carefully: Tristan drooped his eyelids, gritted his teeth and said nothing, exuding a "stay away from me" aura all over his body.

"He doesn't look very happy," Gabriel concluded, frowning. "He doesn't look too happy," he said again slowly, finally realizing what was wrong with his brother.

"That's right," Jared said, "he's been in this state for a week since the day he came back to practice."

ha.Tristan wasn't used to losing his temper in public.Never.He is the "easy-going" one among the Duwar brothers. He is always laughing and joking, opening his mouth for jokes, and greeting everyone with a smile.Although others couldn't see it, Gabriel knew it was all an act.In the public eye, Tristan is a super sunny person.Although he is an orphan, he has been working hard, overcoming various difficulties, and finally realized his dream.Today's audience loves this kind of story (although Gabe has a very similar experience, no one pays attention to him; because he is really not liked by the media).Tristan has always been careful to maintain his persona, so reporters have almost never been photographed in public with his black face or rude words.

"He's not in the right shape," Jared said.

"What does that have to do with us?" Gabriel muttered, rubbing his body against Jared.

"Gabe," Jared said with a hint of warning in his tone.

Gabriel put on an innocent face and looked at him with a smile. "What's the matter?"

Jared didn't respond to his laugh. "It's a public place."

"So what? I want to touch you."

Jared's face softened. "Me too." His dark blue eyes were filled with tenderness, enough to warm Gabe from head to toe. "But that's too risky," Jared finished, turning back to watch Tristan.

Gabriel sighed and straightened his body. "Okay. So what do you think Tristan's bad mood has to do with us? Even if something upsets him, why should we bother?"

Jared paused. "I'm worried he's in the state he's in right now because of Zach."

"Zack?"

Jared looked a little... uncomfortable.After a while, he said: "About a month ago, Zach came to me and asked me something. Well, he didn't come to me for this, but I gave him some advice."

Gabriel was even more confused. "What's your opinion?"

"He said he had feelings for Tristan."

"Have feelings for Tristan?!"

"Keep it down," Jared smiled. "Why are you so surprised?"

"Why are you surprised?" Gabriel looked in disbelief. "Because Zach is straight! He's going to marry Donna in one month!"

"It's an open relationship right now," Jared reminded him. "And ah, if anyone can turn a straight man, it must be Tristan."

Gabriel narrowed his eyes as an ugly, malevolent emotion rolled up and down inside him. "Oh, is it?"

Jared shook his head with a smile. "Stupid again," he said, running his thumb over Gabriel's wrist. "Why are you always so stupid?"

Gabriel's face flushed "shua".The intense jealousy made him feel ashamed, but he couldn't control himself.He understands Jared's love for him, and knows that Jared's world can only accommodate him, just like Jared is the only one in his heart.So how could he not know that he said something stupid?But as long as he thought of losing Jared, no amount of reasoning could dispel the fear in his heart.

"What did you tell him?" He put his hand on Jared's upper arm.Who cares, so what if they seem flamboyant?He doesn't care.

"I told him Donna was a woman worthy of his all, so he had to get over his crush on Tristan before he got married. In other words, I told him to have sex with Tristan to get over his addiction. "

"Ugh," Gabriel said. "I really, really hate to think about that image. But I know it's happening, so what's the problem?"

Jared's face sank. "Even though they're adults, Tristan is my patient—ah, not that he wants me to take care of him now, but I'm the team doctor after all. I didn't take Tristan's feelings into account when I gave Zach advice. , so I feel a little sorry."

Gabriel laughed. "Feeling? He doesn't feel at all. Come on, do you think Tristan is going to fall in love with his girlfriend with benefits?"

"You're on to something," Jared said without smiling. "They didn't have a one-night stand. When Tristan came for the medical examination, he had hickey marks all over his body."

Well, Gabriel really doesn't need to know those details.

"It's disgusting, so what's the problem?"

Jared's face was not very good. "Gabe, I gave Zach that advice a month ago. I thought it would be enough for them to have sex, but I didn't expect it to last that long. They only sleep with each other, so how can they have no feelings at all?" A trace of guilt flashed in his eyes. "Just like before, I hurt Oscar in the same way, because he knows that the only person I love will always be you." Jared pursed his lips. "I didn't expect things to get to this point when I suggested that Zach sleep with Tristan."

"How do you know Zack got the hickey on him? Maybe Tristan went out to hang out again afterward."

"I know, it must be Zach. I have noticed the way those two people are together. Their body movements can tell everything. And their eyes, almost glued to each other, not willing to give a second Other people." Jared smiled wryly. "It's kind of awkward being in the same room with them."

Gabriel looked at his brother. "Do you really think Tristan is serious about Zack?" It's absurd to think about it.Tristan was never serious about anyone.

"I hope not," Jared said. "But—well, look at him."

"The way he looks probably has nothing to do with Zach," Gabriel sarcastically said. "Tristan has no heart at all, he only has an ice pick in his chest. Last year, it was you—after you left the job, he still laughed at me, saying that I was so pitiful when I was sad. He couldn't understand other people's feelings, even this This feeling happened to him, and he didn't know what it was."

"Maybe that's the sticking point," Jared said thoughtfully.

Gabriel sighed.Jared believed that his behavior had hurt his patient, although it was inadvertent, but his depression was obviously caused by this incident.Jared is a good old man, even if some people don't deserve his kindness at all, he still cares about them wishfully. (It is quite another thing for Gabriel to say that these concerns are for him alone.)

"Okay." He touched Jared on the shoulder. "If you really feel sorry, then I'll go talk to him and see what's bothering him, okay?"

Jared looked at him with pride in his eyes, and Gabe's chest suddenly swelled up, as if he had become an omnipotent giant.

He turned his head a little embarrassedly, not wanting Jared to see his flushed cheeks, and walked over to his brother.

"Hey."

Tristan kept staring at the ball at his feet, ignoring him at all.

Gabriel watched him silently.When the two were teenagers, Tristan's flawless skin and graceful posture used to make him jealous.Even now, with the gloomy expression distorting Tristan's features, he still looked perfect.But Gabe still doesn't quite believe that Tristan is going to mess with Zach, because even if everyone is deceived by Tristan's harmless appearance, Zach should be the one who can see through him.

Tristan finally cast him a glance. "Is there something wrong?"

Gabriel didn't want to play around with Tristan, he decided to ask a straight question. "Tell me you're not attracted to Zach."

Tristan froze for a moment. If Gabriel hadn't been watching him carefully, he would have missed this subtle change.

Tristan let out a "huh" with a big happy smile all over his face. "Don't be stupid. Me? I just slept with him twice, and we have nothing to do with each other now. Fortunately, I kicked him. The more he sleeps, the more boring he is."

If Gabriel hadn't grown up with Tristan and watched too many tricks of him opening his eyes and telling lies, he might have believed what Tristan said.But Gabe knew Tristan, and he needed the bright smile on his face to get him out of the way.

It's just... what does Tristan's real thoughts have to do with him?His answer was exactly what Gabe wanted to hear.He could walk away, and he didn't care if Tristan was happy or not.There are only a few people in this world who can get Gabe's attention, and Tristan is definitely not one of them.

He could walk away, he could pretend to trust Tristan.He could, and probably should.

It's just...just, he can't do it.

Gabriel has a hurdle in his heart.From childhood to now, Tristan has been with him and has never left.Although they didn't like each other, Gabriel knew that Tristan was a jerk, and that his selfishness and cruelty would never change, which made him feel strangely at ease.But now, Tristan's distraction actually made him a little... restless, as if the sky had suddenly turned green.

"You're lying," he said.

A look of surprise flashed across Tristan's face, as if he hadn't expected Gabe to expose his lie, but the look of surprise disappeared quickly. "Do you think I'm you?" Tristan said. "I'm not like you. I'm not as stupid as you."

Gabriel lowered his voice. "If you mean Jared—"

"Of course I mean Jared. Look at you." Tristan sneered. "How much ecstasy soup has he fed you? When Jared meets someone better than you, he will definitely dump you."

Gabriel let out a laugh. "Tch, dump you, Jared loves me."

Tristan tilted his head, looking at Gabriel with almost pity. "Now? He might love you. But you're not stupid enough to believe that love lasts forever, are you? In a year or two, when Jared comes to his senses, he'll see that you're not good enough. Because you He is not a good person in his bones, and there is no possibility of changing in the future. If he breaks up with you, you will definitely break down." Tristan looked at him provocatively. "Don't be so stubborn, you know he will leave you sooner or later, that's why you are so afraid of losing him. You understand that people like us will not have any fairy tale happy ending. I don't need anyone else to love me. You used to be like this, now..." Tristan gave Gabriel a contemptuous look. "He's only been away from you for a few months, and you're like a walking dead man. What are you going to do if he kicks you out for someone better? You're stupid, Gabe."

Gritting his teeth, Gabriel said, "At least there was a time in my life when I wasn't a walking dead. At least I wasn't a fucking wimp."

Tristan looked at him blankly.

Gabriel clenched his fists, turned and left.

He told himself not to listen to Tristan.Gabe knew that Tristan's purpose in saying these words was to hurt him and make him suspicious.Tristan has always been good at finding out other people's weaknesses, and then stabbing them hard.

But his words echoed in Gabe's ears over and over again, lingering.

In a year or two, when Jared comes to his senses, he'll see that you're not good enough.You know he will leave you sooner or later.You also understand that there are no fairytale happy endings for people like us.

He gritted his teeth and walked into the gym.

"Gabe!" Jared's voice startled him.

Gabriel was pushed into the next room. He blinked blankly and found that Jared was looking at him with concern.

"What's going on, plus—"

Gabe hugged Jared.He squeezed his arms desperately and kissed him desperately, "I love you, I love you, I love you," he whispered between frantic kisses, and buried his face in Jared's In the neck fossa.

Jared hugged him back with equal strength.This embrace should be Gabe's perfect destination, but, oh my god, his heart hurts so much, so much.

After a long time, Jared just remained silent, stroking Gabe's hair.

"What happened?" he asked after a while. "Is that Tristan?"

Gabriel grinned gruffly. "I know I shouldn't listen to his nonsense, but—but I'm afraid—I know he's right."

"What did you say wrong?"

"One day, you'll find that I'm not good enough for you," he murmured, his voice low. "Nobody ever liked me. Why do you love me?"

Jared sighed, and lifted Gabe's chin with his hand so that he could look at him, a soft smile in his blue eyes. "I know that there are some... not very pleasing things about you. I have seen you in the worst state, the way you are selfish, the way you have malice and hatred in your heart, and the way you are dazzled by possessiveness I've seen it all. But my love for you will not be any less for that."

"Why?" he asked quietly.

"Because when you love someone, you don't just love their noble personality and noble words and deeds. What you love is a complete person, including their shortcomings and insecurities that make people laugh and cry." Jared smiled and touched Gabriel's lips. "I love you, baby. I probably love you more than I thought."

Gabriel laughed too, hugging Jared tightly, burying his face in the crescent of his neck.He closed his eyes, and a strong emotion swept through his body, washing away the fear that had been haunting him.Tristan was wrong.Gabe may not be a nice guy, but he's found the love of his life, and as long as that person thinks he's nice, that's enough.

Gabe felt suddenly particularly sympathetic to his brother.Tristan would never have such a relationship, because he was too timid, so he neither dared to hope for such a relationship, nor dared to ask for it.

"So what's going on with Tristan?" Jared seemed to be able to read minds. "Is he mad because of Zach?"

Gabriel made a grimace, stepped back, looked at Jared and said, "I asked Tristan if he had a crush on Zach and he pinched me so hard I was almost told Crying. Tristan would do something like that, almost admitting he loves Zack."

Jared frowned. "Then what do we do now?"

"No need to do anything," said Gabriel, annoyed that he knew Tristan all too well. "It doesn't matter how Tristan feels about Zach, because he hates it the most." Tristan's heart may not be made of an ice pick, but he will treat feelings as a scourge, not to mention he still He has a stronger sense of self-preservation than anyone else.Gabriel saw the concern in Jared's eyes. "Don't worry." He straightened Jared's collar. "It'll be all right. He'll stay away from Zack, and after a while, his heart will freeze into an icicle again, like in a fairy tale." Gabe was amused by his lame joke, But Jared didn't.Gabriel sighed and ran his fingers through Jared's hair. "I'm serious, don't you worry. Zach will marry Donna, and Tristan will turn back into the maddening bastard—although the asshole is maddening now."

Jared looked hesitant. "What if he doesn't want to keep his distance from Zack?"

"He will," Gabe said. "Tristan told me before that if he wants something, anyone can be a stepping stone to his goal. The problem is that if Tristan wants that thing too much, Instead, he will run away, because he has already been crushed by the fear in his heart." Gabriel smiled wryly. "You heard me right, his character is so distorted. Do you think he is more hopeless than me?"

Jared smiled and kissed him on the nose. "How can it be."

Gabe laughed too, and he didn't contradict Jared.He may be hopeless, but at least he is happy.