Let's talk about love, okay?

He suddenly stopped arguing, although he didn't know what he was thinking, but he stopped arguing with him for responsibility, he just rested his head on Shen Yang's shoulder, leaned against him, and said softly: "I...don't go out tomorrow Okay? I have to take a long trip after the exam...you...I will miss you..."

where to goHow long?with whom?What to do? ...

Shen Yang had a lot of questions, but he couldn't say a single one.

He's going on a long trip, so why is he angry?

He is angry.

"Okay." Shen Yang hugged Yuan Hua and the two of them together, and complied with his request.

No one is angry anymore, neither him nor himself.If you find out later that you have done something wrong, it is better to correct it in time than to fight to take responsibility.

Like conjoined twins, the two spent a Sunday at home without leaving home. Those estrangements and anxieties that had each other's thoughts disappeared in the close connection. who.

After sending Yuan Hua to the school for the final exam, Shen Yang looked at the time, went to sit at Mr. Yin's place, and talked to the old man absent-mindedly for a while. Mr. Yin also saw that he was distracted, so he made an excuse by looking at the time Telling him to leave on time, Shen Yang was so embarrassed to look at the old man because of the joke.

In the blink of an eye, on Wednesday, Shen Yang went to the gate of X early to wait for Yuan Hua to have lunch together after the two subjects in the morning, and then... the subject in the afternoon was Yuan Hua's last subject of this semester. Which means he's leaving soon.

He will not see him for quite some time.

Thinking of this, Shen Yang couldn't help but breathe a sigh of relief.

"..."

Realizing that he was thinking of Yuan Hua going out and they would not see each other again for a while, he actually felt relieved, Shen Yang couldn't help being stunned.

Tired?

Are you tired of the relationship between the two of you?

Shen Yang was in a panic.

The first time he encountered this situation, he found that there were no suspicious documents for reference.Sitting in the car and thinking about the past few days, he suddenly felt ridiculous.Although it was sweet and warm, he couldn't believe that he didn't read a book, didn't write a paper, and didn't see any patients.

he……

She was actually playing with things and losing her mind, and was indulging in love!

This……

This is definitely not Yuan Hua's fault, Shen Yang said to himself.

This can only be my fault, because I didn't manage myself well, because I made an appointment for Sunday and then for lunch, and after returning home in the afternoon, the two of them had to lie down on the bed together, and when it was time, he sent Yuan Hua back to the dormitory , Tuesday was the same as Monday, and on Wednesday he came to repeat such a day.

Although this feels very similar to day-to-day life, very similar to the days of ordinary people, but...

Isn't that right?

Shen Yang's heart pounded.

This is not right.

Even if it is an ordinary life, one should not live without oneself.Shen Yang suddenly realized that the self these days was not himself at all.

Who is this?

he does not know.

However, at this moment, he was sure that this was not the life he wanted.

"Brother?" Yuan Hua tapped on the window outside the car, calling back Shen Yang who was in a trance, and said, "What shall we eat today?"

"... Casserole noodles." Shen Yang said as he got out of the car, and the two of them walked together to the famous casserole noodles in the city village at the gate of X.

"?" Yuan Hua was slightly weird, secretly looking at Shen Yang from time to time, he always felt that today's Shen Yang was different from the previous two days, but he couldn't tell the difference, could it be that he was thinking too much?

"Brother, what's wrong with you?"

"It's nothing." Shen Yang smiled at Yuan Hua shallowly, as usual, jokingly said, "You boy, what are you thinking about all day long!"

"Hey!" Seeing him back to normal, Yuan Hua laughed straight, leaning against Shen Yang, and the two went arm to arm to eat a bowl of heart-warming casserole noodles with legs next to legs and head to head.When they were next to each other, the two couldn't help but think of the first time they came to eat this bowl of noodles together. Yuan Hua chuckled, holding Shen Yang's with his own feet under the table, and looked at him with a smile.

"You!" Shen Yang also smiled, put the quail eggs in his bowl to Yuan Hua, and said: "According to the calculation, we have only been together for a month."

It has only been two and a half months since he came back from the mountain.But these two and a half months have been earth-shaking changes for Shen Yang, and he has a faint sense of panic.

"But I think we've been together for a long time, a long time!" Yuan Hua made an exaggerated gesture for "a long time" and said, "It's like we live like this every day."

"Are you happy?"

"Yeah." Yuan Hua thought for a while, nodded, and said, "I can always see you, and I'm happy when I see you. Brother, we are like this now, I really like it!"

"as long as you are happy."

"..." These words sounded weird, Yuan Hua looked at Shen Yang subconsciously, and seeing that there was nothing different about him, he suppressed the strange feeling in his heart, and grinned at him.

Yuan Hua passed the last subject... How should I put it, Yuan Hua felt that he didn't do well in the test. He was always thinking about Shen Yang and what he said at noon.The more he thought about it, the more he felt something was wrong.

Strange, these days they have been getting along well, why did it suddenly change?Although he really asked him to say where Shen Yang has changed, he can't tell why, but Shen Yang looks the same as before, this "changed" is just his feeling, which is similar to experience without any actual evidence An ambiguous feeling, a feeling similar to instinct, although this feeling has no evidence and is fleeting, but he just knows that he has changed.

Why?He couldn't figure it out, he never figured out what Shen Yang was thinking!

Yuan Hua was very distressed about this point.It's not that he doesn't think differently, but that he doesn't know what Shen Yang would think if he changed his position.Even if he asked, he wouldn't tell him.It was like this every time, he found something strange and asked him, but he only gave some ambiguous answers, in fact, he had already made some kind of decision in his heart.

My elder brother is really too smart, Yuan Hua thought to himself, and he is too transparent and rational, so he always lacks some popularity, and the relationship between them always lacks the enthusiasm of lovers.No matter how much he clings to him, he always maintains a sense of distance.Even though they are already so close, it is impossible to get closer, but he still feels that there is something between them, like an inherent, insurmountable gap.

He couldn't tell what it was, but the closer he was to him, the more distant he felt. Even if all the disguises were removed and they were honest with each other, he still couldn't see clearly what he was thinking or what was in his mind.For the past few days, he has been thinking about why he is always restless, but no matter how many times he introspects according to the opinions and suggestions of the seniors, he still can't figure it out.

Just like just now, he was clearly in the exam, but he was so disturbed by a sentence he said casually at noon that he couldn't seriously answer the question at all.

Of course, the root cause of his uneasiness was his uneasiness.Yuan Hua is very clear about this, he is just so uneasy.

But what happened to him?

What happened?

"Brother..." Yuan Hua pushed the shopping cart and called softly.After the two left school, they went to the supermarket near their home to buy vegetables together, and Shen Yang was distracted again.

"?" Shen Yang was called back to his senses, slowed down, looked at Yuan Hua with a smile, and said, "You decide what to eat, I can only eat, not cook...how about I learn how to cook?"

"You cook? Don't!" When Shen Yang said that he wanted to learn to cook, Yuan Hua immediately shook his head and denied, "I'll make it for you. I'll cook whatever you like. Just wait and eat." !"

"..." Shen Yang looked at him with a half-smile, noncommittal, then pointed to the freezer and said, "Today's horse noodle fish is good, let's stew one with garlic."

"Okay!" Yuan Hua happily picked up two heads of garlic, six fish, and a few Cantonese cabbage, and pulled Shen Yang out.

After returning home, the two changed into loose regular clothes. Yuan Hua rolled up the sleeves of his undershirt and worked in the kitchen, while Shen Yang leaned against the kitchen door, watching him busy.

The undershirt that looked loose on Shen Yang's body was just right on Yuan Hua's body. The broad and powerful back flattened the ready-to-go Mu Shen on the undershirt, creating a vaguely tense atmosphere.His short sleeves were rolled up, revealing his solid biceps, and an apron was hung around his neck. The fixed rope behind his back was like a tripping wire wrapped around A Mu's feet, preventing him from moving freely.

Looking at such a back, Shen Yang suddenly realized that although they were sweaters of the same style, size and bottom, they liked different things, even if they wore the same sweater, they still had two completely different feelings.Just like the one in front of him, Shen Yang wondered if he couldn't wear such wildness.

That's right, wild.This is Yuan Hua's unruly nature, even if his feet are entangled, he is still full of wildness.

In fact, they have been getting along like this for the past few days. Yuan Hua cooks, Shen Yang watches, and when the meal is ready, the two of them eat together. The kitchen was cleaned up, and the two went to the bathroom to clean up each other, and then went to bed.

Yuan Hua said he liked the simple life, but Shen Yang deeply doubted life.

Is he like me?

Shen Yang looked at the rope on A Mu's feet and asked himself, does he, like me, feel that he doesn't live like himself, and feels restrained in this relationship?

Yuan Hua hummed a cheerful little tune, and took the steamed fish out of the pot.

Only then did Shen Yang confirm that he did not feel the same sense of restraint as he did.

Yuan Hua really likes their current way of getting along and living together.As he said, he wanted to date him, live with him, cook for him, and he did.They are in a relationship and live like an old couple. The happiest thing for him every day is to cook for him and eat with him. It seems that for Yuan Hua, life is cooking, eating, washing dishes and going to bed.

But these are dispensable to Shen Yang.

It turns out that the distance between them is not age, but fundamentally different concepts and ideas.Shen Yang lamented that people who did not understand the "Road to Freedom" could live such a horrible life.

Holding chopsticks, Yuan Hua took out a small piece of fish from the pot, held it with one hand to prevent it from falling, and carefully sent it to the kitchen door.Seeing this, Shen Yang leaned forward and opened his mouth, savoring the taste and nodding, "It's delicious."

"Hey!" Yuan Hua returned to the stove proudly, Shen Yang looked at him with unsatisfied interest, it was indeed delicious, and he still wanted to eat it.

Yuan Hua seemed to know what he was thinking, and after a while, he came back again, with another piece of fish on the chopsticks.

"what--"

Shen Yang smiled, opened his mouth, and took the piece of fish in his mouth, but this time, before he had time to taste it, Yuan Hua approached and took the tender piece of fish away from his mouth.

"you--"

"It's really delicious." Yuan Hua pretended not to see Shen Yang's shyness, and turned around to stir-fry Cai Xin happily.

"..."

In fact, it doesn't matter if you don't understand "Road to Freedom", Shen Yang said to himself.When he fell in love with Yuan Hua, he was still a bastard who fought in gangs on the Internet. He was originally a young man with no ambitions, no sense of pursuit and responsibility.For Yuan Hua, it has always been "the world is not as big as himself", so his expectations for Yuan Hua have always been simple, and the life Shen Yang wants is also very simple: hot meals at home, and someone in bed , not the smirking Pink Panther.

Yuan Hua is not the Pink Panther with a smirk.Shen Yang looked at Yuan Hua's back, walked over a few steps, and put his arms around Yuan Hua's waist from behind.That's right, this is a man, a warm and strong man, a man who will cook for him and warm his bed.

Yuan Hua was a little taller, and Shen Yang's chin was resting on his shoulders. Together with Yuan Hua, they watched the oily ideas simmering in the pot.Now there are hot meals to eat, this should be the day I want, Shen Yang thought.

But today's day is not the day he wants.

In the days he wants, he should have himself, instead of waiting for Yuan Hua, waiting for Yuan Hua to finish school, waiting for Yuan Hua to cook, waiting for Yuan Hua to wash the dishes, and waiting for Yuan Hua to see Yuan Hua again... Besides eating and going to bed, he had to wait for Yuan Hua to do the same thing.