Zheng Wang

His deep voice was magical, as if it could drown people in it.

Guan Zan gradually calmed down, his breathing slowed down, and he calmed down for a while before explaining softly: "I don't know how to ask..."

Ke Jinrui stroked the top of his hair when he heard the words, and his smile spread: "Can't you tell the truth?"

Guan Zan was silent again, and after a long while did not answer, he asked instead: "Can't you let me escape the reality for a while?"

"What else is there?" Ke Jinrui asked.

Guan Zan thought for a while and said, "I'm afraid it will affect our relationship."

Ke Jinrui laughed lowly, and his tone seemed a bit puzzled: "Why do you have such concerns?"

Guan Zan looked up at him.The light in the car was dim, and the dim yellow of the street lights was almost diluted by the night. The front windshield reflected the room lights from the apartment building, which fell into the car and turned into fine shiny powder.Guan Zan suddenly felt that Ke Jinrui's serious appearance when he lowered his eyes and said nothing was so handsome, so good-looking, so gentle that it almost melted his heart.

"I can't tell." Guan Zan breathed a sigh of relief, "Although I am very concerned that you know all the time, and that you know but refuse to tell me, but in order to trust you, I must convince you that you have a reason to do so. It is also because Believe it, so I convinced myself."

Ke Jinrui smiled and said, "It's so good." He paused, then changed his words again, "But you don't need to be so considerate when you are by my side, I know, being considerate is tiring, and I feel wronged."

Guan Zan was moved, and his heart softened into a pool of spring water. At the same time, he was rational, and finally couldn't help asking: "Is all that true? My father..." He didn't realize it himself, and it fell on Ke Jinrui. The fingers on the arm tightened uncontrollably, "Did you really do that?"

After he finished speaking, Ke Jinrui was not in a hurry to answer, his eyes glanced at the little guy's clenched knuckles, and after a long silence, he said: "I had already gone abroad at that time, and I didn't personally participate in Yu Wen's last solo concert. I only know that after the incident happened, the ADPP intervened in the investigation, the incident was confirmed by the investigation results, and the official issued a statement, that’s all.”

He said it tactfully, but Guan Zan understood that it was true.

"What else?" He asked again, "The thing about molesting students...?"

"It's impossible." Ke Jinrui said decisively.

Guan Zan was startled by his firm tone, subconsciously asked: "Why?"

Ke Jinrui hesitated, and did not answer for a long time.Guan Zan found it strange, not because of the other party's hesitation, but because Ke Jinrui would reveal his emotions so clearly that he didn't need to figure out or guess. He has always been good at hiding his thoughts, and he has always been indifferent. The question is actually not difficult to guess.

"Is it convenient for you to tell me?" Guan Zan said.

"I don't know if it's convenient." Ke Jinrui said frankly, "Actually, Yuan Xin should say it. I'm afraid I'm not qualified to tell you."

That feeling was very special. The two had known each other for nearly a year. It was the first time he heard Ke Jinrui say the names of his father and mother so naturally, without any disobedience. From the tone of his voice, he could tell that they were indeed old acquaintances. not bad.

Guan Zan was very calm, his eyelashes drooped slightly, and he stopped looking at Ke Jinrui.Ke Jinrui couldn't understand it, or Guan Zan himself was a very complicated person.Sometimes he behaves innocently and cutely, like a young man without a plan, and sometimes he is too quiet and calm, so smart that it makes people feel distressed.

After all, there are no people in this world who are born with empathy, but they have been hurt a lot, and they know that they will feel uncomfortable when they do or are treated that way, so they learn to be considerate and forbearing.If conditions permit, who would not want to act recklessly without any scruples?Such a person grew up being pampered and protected, but Guan Zan was not.

I don't know how long it took, but just when Ke Jinrui thought the matter was over and the little guy would never mention it again, Guan Zan limply leaned back on his chest and asked without raising his head: "What is their relationship?" Is it bad?"

Ke Jinrui was taken aback for a moment, Guan Zan continued: "Does my dad not like my mom?"

Ke Jinrui looked down at him in disbelief: "Why do you think so?"

"When I was very young, I couldn't remember many things clearly, but I knew that they would never sleep together." Guan Zan said, "I didn't think it was strange at that time, but when I grew up, I occasionally recalled and found out slowly. This detail. I can see that my mother loves him very much, he is gone, her life is broken, so it can only be that he has no feelings, why?"

Ke Jinrui was noncommittal and did not answer.

Guan Zan seemed to be more relaxed than before, got up and gently kissed the other person's Adam's apple, whispering while licking: "Don't worry, I am all yours, you are the most qualified." Not long after, Ke Jinrui tensed up. His chest rose and fell slightly, and Guan Zan knew that his breath was gone, so he raised his head and looked at him.

The little guy is too smart, and Yuan Xin looks like that, there may not be a moment of sobriety in this life where he can tell the reason. Ke Jinrui and Guan Yuwen have a close friendship, and he doesn't want the other party to leave a mistake in his biological son's heart forever And have a slanderous impression.Ke Jinrui carefully considered the wording, and then slowly said: "Back then, Yuan Xin was a student of Yu Wenqin, and admired him very much. I don't know the details. I don't know if she fell in love with him at first sight or after a long time."

"But Yu Wen didn't have extra thoughts on her. At that time, everyone in our family heard about Yuan Xin's bold and passionate pursuit. Moreover, Yu Wen had a good temper, so he could only refuse again and again. He couldn't bear to be too unfeeling, and was exhausted by her. They often find me for drinks in private."

Guan Zan wanted to laugh when he heard it, the end of his eyes was already stained with a smile, but his voice was puzzled: "Then, my mother is so beautiful, my father is not impressed?"

"I can't be moved." Ke Jinrui smiled helplessly, "The gender is wrong."

The smile on Guan Zan's face froze for a moment, and he looked at him for a moment: "...What did you say?" He trembled subconsciously, "Does my mother know about this? My father...couldn't... "He felt unbelievable, and finally lost all confidence, "Did he cheat the marriage?!"

"Don't think too much, let alone misunderstand him, Guan Yuwen is not that kind of person." Ke Jinrui said calmly, Guan Zan was a little relieved, almost frightened by the flash of speculation just now.Ke Jinrui continued, "He had no choice but to confess his sexual orientation to Yuan Xin and made it very clear that he would never marry a woman in his life."

"Then why is there me?" Guan Zan asked.

Ke Jinrui said: "Probably because Yuan Xin loves him too much. After leaving for a while, he came back again and told Yu Wen that he was willing to be his wife in marriage. Yu Wen refused at first, but Yuan Xin insisted. At that time, Yu Wen was in the limelight in the folk music circle. Zhengsheng, so it is inevitable that there will be some rumors that the industry tradition has a lower tolerance rate for certain things than this society, let alone nearly 20 years ago.”

"Yuan Xin also wanted to defend him, and when he found that he couldn't go this way, he went to persuade the old man. You can see my father's love for Yu Wen, and naturally hoped that the rumors would be put to rest, so he took the initiative to be a lobbyist and contributed to this matter. thing."

Guan Zan shook his head contradictoryly: "Why is my mother so stupid?"

"You can't say she is stupid." Ke Jinrui patiently enlightened, "All the right and wrong in this world can't match the words 'I do', but it seems irrational to the bystanders, but after so many years, she still loves him very much. , which means that she hasn't regretted the original decision even now, does it?"

Guan Zan didn't comment, and remained silent for a while, then said, "No wonder I also feel that my dad doesn't like me that much..."

"That's nonsense." Ke Jinrui said, "I won't agree if he doesn't like you."

Ke Jinrui did not let Guan Zan go back to the dormitory that night, but took him home.

The two entered the door, Guan Zan went upstairs to take a shower exhausted, Ke Jinrui finished earlier than him, and then went into the kitchen to cook a pot of hot chocolate.Galileo was in foster care during this period, and the apartment was empty. Guan Zan was in a heavy heart, and tried his best to appear indifferent. When he returned to the living room, he got into the hanging chair to avoid being spotted by Ke Jinrui.

After the hot drink was cooked, Ke Jinrui handed the mug to Guan Zan, and he sat on the opposite sofa, quietly watching the tangled child drinking milk absently.

A few minutes later, Mr. Ke couldn't bear it, he didn't want the little guy to hold back something wrong, so he took the initiative to ask: "Do you still mind, do you want to come over and coax?"

Guan Zan put down the cup when he heard the words, pursed his milk-stained lips slightly, hesitated for a moment, and said, "After charging the phone, I checked Weibo again. Why is that one gone?"

Ke Jinrui was not surprised, and explained: "The old man doesn't like outsiders to gossip about Yu Wen, and he has been controlling him for so many years. Don't think he knows nothing about social media, but the news is very good. After he found out last night, he will make a phone call. When he came to me, he called me out of the meeting room to solve the matter."

"Thank you." Guan Zan continued to drink milk, and finally realized something, and asked quickly, "Does the teacher know that I already know?"

Ke Jinrui said, "I haven't told him yet."

"Stop talking." Guan Zan said, "Pretend I didn't see it, and I haven't talked to you tonight, just pretend nothing happened."

Ke Jinrui neither agreed nor refused. After a moment of silence, he asked, "Is there nothing you want to ask him?"

"What can I ask?" Guan Zan smiled, "I always feel like it's something to embarrass myself, so it's better not to ask, just being so confused."

Ke Jinrui smiled and said nothing.

Did nothing else tonight.

It was rare for Guan Zan to be honest with the bed, obediently lying on his side facing the window, covered tightly by the quilt.Ke Jinrui hugged him from behind, knowing that it still didn't make sense, but he didn't want to continue, so he quietly accompanied Guan Zan's insomnia.Guan Zan didn't sleep all night, and didn't fall asleep until it was almost dawn.

When the time was almost up, Ke Jinrui went downstairs to call Ke Jinxi and briefly explained the situation.Ke Jinxi didn't see Guan Zan yesterday, and was tortured by the old man for another day. He was much more nervous than him. He was silent at first, and then said, "I still didn't hide it."

Ke Jinrui stood in front of the floor-to-ceiling window, lit a cigarette, and said calmly, "I shouldn't have kept it a secret. Now that there are so many channels for getting information, Zan-Zan knows that it will only be a matter of time."

"You said everything?" Ke Jinxi asked.

Ke Jinrui snorted, and asked instead, "Do I dare?"

Ke Jinxi was silent for a moment, and after a while, he said, "Have you checked the person who posted Weibo?"

"I checked, Luo Yue said there is nothing wrong with it, and I probably just posted it because of my feelings." Ke Jinrui said, "Now according to your intention, both the Weibo and the account have been deleted."

Ke Jinxi: "The old man..."

Ke Jinrui said: "Zan Zan won't tell him. You can tell him that Guan Zan has been busy rehearsing with Huo Shaoqiu's students recently, so he didn't even see him."

"I see." Ke Jinxi paused, and couldn't help feeling, "Guan Zan is really sensible."

Ke Jinrui sighed imperceptibly: "He knows about the old man's illness, so he loves him and doesn't want to disturb him."

At the end of the two's talk, Ke Jinrui asked Guan Zan for leave, wanting him to rest for a few more days, and return to school after he adjusted.Ke Jinxi was very happy this time, and specially told him to take care of him with snacks. In Ms. Ke's opinion, the school's last performance will have to wait until August, and she doesn't like Gu Wen's performance, not to mention that Guan Zan is just an accompanist and doesn't need much attention. focus on.