too embarrassing

"In this night of cannibalism, my heart is soaked in the blood of love like a bud."

—— Nazar

Tonight, Niu Keqing made an irreparable mistake.

Wandering in the sea of ​​desire is a very dangerous thing. At the moment of emotion, he forgot each other's identities and spit out what he wanted to say.

Can't help but make the biggest mistake ever.

The moment they heard "I love you", Gu Yifening and Niu Keqing froze at the same time, like two weathered rocks, motionless.

The sudden impulse brought about an unmanageable situation, no matter how intense it was, it was stopped, and an embarrassing silence replaced it.

Embarrassment is more suffocating than orgasm.

The whole night's excitement was completely extinguished by this basin of cold water. When the phrase "I love you" came out, Dr. Gu almost withered on the spot.

Niu Keqing gave him the most "surprise" birthday present.

Gu Yifening remained silent, got up from Niu Keqing, went to the bathroom, and solved it for himself.

Niu Keqing was lying on the sofa alone, the lingering rhyme hadn't completely disappeared from his body, he stared blankly at the ceiling above, thinking about that stupid sentence over and over in his mind...

"I love you."

At that time, he was immersed in the sweet sex.When the love is strong, all reason is submerged, and he gets carried away, forgets to hide his love and admiration, and can't restrain himself from vomiting out his heart.

It's over, it's over.

The phrase "I love you" is like a terrible disaster.It was a massive mudslide, which rolled down the dignity and buried the bottom line.

The man turned over, buried himself in the pillows, and smashed the sofa with his fists, "Niu Keqing, do you have a brain?! Doing love made you stupid, right?! Crazy, crazy, crazy ..."

He can't wait to conjuring a time machine, so that time can go back to that 1 minute and erase that devastating "I love you".

Or force the other party to drink a bottle of amnesia medicine, so that he will forget everything just now.

In the bathroom, Gu Ifnin closed the door and committed suicide inside.

He put his head against the wall and used the cold tiles to cool down his feverish mind, but his thoughts were still flustered, and Niu Keqing's words "I love you" kept ringing in his ears.

Fuck, how much sincerity is there?

What he can be sure of is that it is definitely not for flirting, nor is it for fun. Doesn't saying "I love you" between sex friends directly make people impotent?

He believes that Niu Keqing is also very aware of this...

too frightening.

At the moment of hitting, Guifenin's body was relieved, but his heart still couldn't be relieved, and the sudden pressure swept him.

like?What is love?

In his world, love is strange and curious.This thing is dangerous and weird, like a Gu worm that wants to dominate him.

In his opinion, Niu Keqing's "I love you" was just playing tricks on him.

The man hid in the bathroom and smoked a cigarette.

After the cigarette is finished, the problem is still there. It can be avoided for a while, but it cannot be avoided for a lifetime.

At this moment, he still had to face Niu Keqing.

After struggling for a while, Guifenin finally opened the bathroom door.Unexpectedly, Niu Keqing was standing at the door waiting for him, leaning against the wall with folded hands.

The two bumped into each other unexpectedly, their gazes were back and forth, even though they pretended to be calm, they knew clearly——

It was awkward, the relationship became awkward.

One just wants to maintain a relationship with friends with benefits, while the other wants to fall in love. These are two modes that cannot be compromised, and only conflicts and collisions will occur.

It was Niu Keqing who spoke first. He looked into Gu Yifening's eyes and asked, "What do I mean to you?"

Guifenin sighed deeply, as expected, those who should come still have to come, there is no escape.

He asked back, "What kind of answer do you want?"

"I don't know," Niu Keqing tried hard to suppress the truth that rushed out, "but if you ask like this, it seems to prove that...the answer I least want has already been given."

Yes, what he fears the most is right on the other side's mouth, ready to come out.In fact, he really "wanted" and wanted a satisfactory answer.

What is a satisfactory answer?

"Doctor Niu is someone I care about", "Doctor Niu is a very important person to me", "Doctor Niu is someone I can't live without"...

Also, the sentence I want the most: "Doctor Niu is the person I love."

Unfortunately, the other party did not allow him to do so.

"I can't give you the answer you want," Gu Yverning said with a sinking face, "Doctor Niu, I'm not good at deceiving, especially self-deception."

From the beginning to the end, he thought that he had never been tempted, so it was difficult for him to respond to the other party.

For a prodigal like him, love is a terrible thing, full of electricity and fire, into which all the freedom he has will be reduced to ashes.

The price is too high, it's not worth it for a mere bull.

"Got it," Niu Keqing replied resignedly, "Thank you for your honesty."

The atmosphere of the whole night had been completely ruined, and he felt that it was meaningless to stay here any longer, so he planned to leave after getting dressed.

Before he left, Guifenin stopped him, "Wait."

The man walked towards Niu Keqing, took out the rose on the table and handed it back to him, "Take it away."

"Is it okay to not bring it?" Niu Keqing lowered his eyes, looked at the rose that hadn't bloomed yet, and said in his heart: I bought this specially for you.

Gu Yifenen's tone was very strong: "If you do this, it will only make us more awkward."

Niu Keqing remained silent.

Awkward?Can he still be embarrassed?He will become crazy if he likes it to the extreme, and he will become a lunatic, so he doesn't care about embarrassment.

The room suddenly fell into silence, so quiet that one could hear the sound of water dripping on the flower branches falling to the ground, a "da" sound.

Seeing that he didn't pick it up, Guifenin passed the flowers in front of him again, "I don't like roses, if you don't take them away, I can only throw them away."

Destroying the flowers seemed like a threat, but Niu Keqing stubbornly refused to take the roses, and said to him: "Throw it away and throw it away."

The relationship between people is like a food with a shelf life. Once a certain date has passed, the food will no longer be fresh.If it continues to be placed there, it will only become moldy and rotten in the end.

They are all people who are meticulous about their feelings, and they have long realized that this relationship has begun to deteriorate.

As a party that rejects feelings, Guifenin tried to refrigerate this "food" to delay its deterioration, but unfortunately it didn't work, so he can only consider...

throw it away.

In the colorful bar, a man drinks one glass after another. He is a person with strong self-control, and he rarely drinks so much.

The hot alcohol was like a sharp knife, slashing through Niu Keqing's mouthpiece, quickly cutting his throat open.

Qu Jiawen snatched his cup and slammed it on the table, "Okay, okay, you won't be afraid of alcohol poisoning if you drink this way?"

"What are you afraid of?" Niu Keqing rested his head on his palms, raving nonsense, "Isn't there Dr. Qu here? If I'm really poisoned, just remember to save me."

"Hey, look at your ugly face now," Qu Jiawen felt sorry for his brother, he knew about Niu Keqing and that handsome mixed-race guy, it was a mess, and the two men got into trouble when they messed around.

But love is hard to say, it's not as simple as shooting.

Hitting. Cannon is a basic algorithm. What you need to master is addition, subtraction, multiplication, and division.Love is a compound function. Various algorithms are mixed together. It is difficult enough to understand the meaning of the question alone. There are many people who can't get it out.

Qu Jiawen knows Niu Keqing well, he is as his name suggests, he likes to get into the wrong corner, and it is difficult to get out of it when he is sure about one thing.

But fortunately, this cow listened to the persuasion. He is 30 years old, and he is not the age to be arrogant. It is only a matter of time before he can figure out some problems.

Qu Jiawen understood the reason and sang a famous saying for him: "What you can't get will always be in turmoil, and those who are favored will have nothing to fear."

Niu Keqing snatched the glass, raised the bottle and poured it in vigorously, and when it was full, he gulped, "The unobtainable...the favored..."

"The two of you are going to keep breaking up. Do you want to tell him clearly?" Qu Jiawen went to snatch his cup and wine bottle again. Niu Keqing retreated tactically to avoid the opponent's grasping hand.

They push and pull, move and move, back and forth, like two masters of Tai Chi.

The bartender brother next to him was stunned.

In the end, Niu Keqing simply hugged the wine bottle and glass in his arms, declaring victory.

He knew why and asked, "Say what?"

"Say you like him," Qu Jiawen hated iron and iron, "tell him clearly what you think in your heart, let him avoid the inevitable and face the problem directly!"

"I dare not, I can't afford to lose," Niu Keqing scratched the rim of the wine glass with his fingertips.

He was blaming himself, blaming himself for not being smart at the beginning, getting on the thief ship of Guifenin, and falling into the current situation.

"You deserve it. You can't afford to lose. Don't play in the first place." Qu Jiawen almost scolded him, but considering the mood of the person involved, he finally let it go.

Niu Keqing also knew that he deserved it, but couldn't resist the other party's temptation, and stepped into the deep pit, "Jiawen, I played myself into it."

This is a game of cannibalism, and the one who loses his mind first is the loser.Niu Keqing can be considered an advanced player, but he can only consider himself unlucky when he meets an opponent who is tough enough and ruthless enough.

People like Gu Yvening, who can play with people between applause, maintain an attitude of indifference, get infinitely close to people but never intersect, are destined to win every battle.

However, Niu Keqing was not reconciled.

He tried his best to prolong the game time, but failed because of the three words "I love you". Why did he miss it at the most wrong time?

Why?Why should he bear the price of being neglected by the person he likes because of a small mistake?I couldn't even say "Happy Birthday" to the other party.

He stared at the spirits in the glass in a daze, and murmured: "It is said that the one who teases first is the cheapest, obviously the other party teased me first, but in the end, the only one who is cheap is myself."

Qu Jiawen looked at his good friend and sighed, "Niu Keqing, I think you've changed."

Niu Keqing was speechless for a moment, and said sadly, "I have changed, I have become not myself."

Since he fell into it, the chic and transparent doctor Niu seems to be gradually disappearing, replaced by a submissive doctor Niu who cares about gains and losses.

He hates himself now.

Qu Jiawen had a heartbroken expression on his face: "Brother, you have lived to this age, and you don't even dare to confess your love openly? Just tell him, you can either be a lover or a stranger, I don't want to be friends with you anymore!"

"I am cowardly, when I think that he will ignore me in the future, I will be cowardly..." Niu Keqing took a sip of wine with a sore nose, "I am so fucking worthless."

Qu Jiawen's poisonous mouth was completely aroused, and he slapped his tongue: "I'm an outsider, so it's not good to point out other people's relationships, but I really can't stand it anymore! Are you so interesting? A selfish, a hypocritical Fine, you two are stupid. It's a waste of time and life! Do you think you two are the protagonists? You are in your 30s, why are you still playing the Qiong Yao drama that I love you and you don't love me and I still love you? Why don't you just be a little bit, and you can have a happy ending if you take a long time? Eat your farts!"

Niu Keqing was stunned: "..."

The words were rough but not rough, Qu Jiawen's words awakened the dreamer, giving him a feeling of enlightenment.

Adults really shouldn't procrastinate.

There are only a few hours in a lifetime. Apart from love, there are many things in life that are worth taking care of, and there is not so much time to consume.

Now that the matter has developed to this point, it is better not to do anything, to solve it as soon as possible, and to have a good time.

Niu Ke, who was scolded bloody, drank his drink, "Well, I'll make it clear to him tomorrow."

"That's right," Qu Jiawen teased, using the experience of those who have experienced it, "We gays are always strong-willed, no matter if we succeed or fail, we won't die."

Niu Keqing doesn't hold alcohol well, and it will be very painful if he drinks too much. He fell on the bar counter, his empty stomach was burned by the alcohol, and he wanted to vomit but couldn't vomit, he just retched constantly.

He envied those who could pass out drunk.

But the pain was not in vain, at least, he was sober after drinking.

What should come will always come. Since you don't want to escape, then facing the rain forest with swords and guns is probably the best choice.