The male god always wants to withdraw from the circle and sell insurance [Entertainment circle]

After nearly a month of filming in a small village in New Zealand, we finally moved to a new location.

This time I chose an old block in New Zealand, but unlike a small village, it is already in the city. The crew negotiated with the government for a long time, but these have nothing to do with the actors.The place of accommodation has also been turned into a hotel. Probably because of the negotiation, the crew took a short vacation, and the cost of living in the hotel has been settled beforehand. The actors can choose to stay or do something they want. do.

The premiere of "Farewell to the Wind and the Moon" was supposed to have two leading actors present, and Gu Yunkai was also obliged to cooperate with the promotion, but because the schedule was really unavailable, he had no choice but to decline it.Zhang Zitao seemed to have misunderstood something, thinking that Gu Yunkai was afraid that someone would mislead him based on his sexual orientation during the publicity period, so he acquiesced in his non-attendance, and even helped him smooth things over.

Gu Jianyue made a publicity statement on Weibo, then thanked and apologized to the production crew. He did a remarkable job and was impeccable.

Gu Yunkai has seen those interviews, Zhang Zitao and Wen Jingan acted together, the commercial and kind smiles on their faces are exactly the same, handsome and compelling, at first glance, those who don't know it think they are the two leading actors.

When they changed locations for filming, "Farewell to the Wind and the Moon" had already been released for at least a week. Gu Yunkai dressed up in a disguise, and even borrowed a plush hat from Sharpe from Finney, and dressed himself like a fashionable man , and then buried half of his face in the scarf, put on a pair of big sunglasses, and pulled down the plush hat, and directly booked tickets online.

"Farewell to Wind and Moon" is a 2D literary film, not very popular, but it is probably because of the subject matter. When I went there, many girls came in groups, and some went alone. Gu Yunkai, who is 1.8 meters tall, was still in a group of high heels It was particularly conspicuous. The person who checked the ticket was an old lady. She looked carefully and persuaded: "You bought the wrong ticket. This movie is not suitable for you to watch."

It caused quite a few girls to stare at each other angrily, and then turned their heads to look at Gu Yunkai. They chattered without knowing what was being discussed, and laughed out loud.

Probably because he regarded Gu Yunkai as a friend or someone who came out of the closet.

Gu Yunkai did not argue, but just took his own ticket stubs and went in to find a seat. Ticket checking is usually 3 minutes in advance for 15D movies to facilitate the distribution of glasses. If the attendance rate is high and there are too many people, it will be a little earlier; As long as the ticket stub is torn off, the movie will only be advanced 2 minutes.

The seat was not very full, and everyone preferred the middle section with a good viewing angle, so except for the first two rows, the middle section of the next five rows was full. Gu Yunkai sat in a remote place, and there was an empty seat beside him. Only one position can be occupied.

The little girl sitting next to him looked very young, tall and thin, probably a college student, wearing thick black glasses, not conspicuously dressed, with a gray scarf around her neck.The movie is still preparing to be screened, and an advertisement is being broadcast right now, she suddenly leaned over and asked, "May I take the liberty to ask why you chose this movie?"

Gu Yunkai was a little amused, and he also leaned over and said softly: "I really like this director's works, and I'm not homophobic."

"Thank you."

Miss Gray Scarf nodded, then withdrew again, without saying anything.

As soon as the two of them finished speaking, a majestic and majestic snow mountain broke through the glacier and emerged, and the rising sun was in the distance. Accompanied by the background music, it was quite shocking. It was the beginning of the Sauron song film company.

It started with a monologue by Bian Yang before committing suicide.

Bian Yang sat by the window lonely, the color tone was gray, as if there were only black and white, and he held a cigarette in his hand, the smoke was rising, and a monologue slowly unfolded.

It seems to be a normal instinct for people to hurt those who love him.

No hesitation or guilt at all.

Memories are those things that can pass, and if they can't pass, they will stay there forever.

I can't make it through.

Then Bian Yang jumped up, and the next shot was blood all over the floor. Many audience members exclaimed, but everyone was very restrained, because there were too few plot elements, and no one whispered to each other; then the blood slowly fainted The lights were feasting, and the glass window of the high-rise building was switched to the frame of Yi Mowen's glasses. The camera slowly moved away, and it was a close-up of Yi Mowen's face.

Seeing his own face on the big screen is very weird, it feels like he is looking at a stranger, Gu Yunkai is a little unbelievable that the picture he shot turned out to be such an amazing effect, it seems that apart from being spoiled in advance Except for this work, he knew nothing about it.

Zhang Zitao's personal aesthetic style can be clearly seen in this movie. The plots of Bian Yang and Yi Mowen together are almost all in warm colors, with a kind of ambiguous warmth.

Many people recognized that Bian Yang was the character who jumped off the building at the beginning, and now they guessed separately, and exchanged ideas with friends lightly.

The plot became more and more enjoyable. Yi Mowen and Bian Yang looked intimate, and the scene where they exchanged kisses and hugs caused many girls to cover their faces and start screaming. Gu Yunkai even heard someone in the back seat A girl let out a sad sigh, and said in pain: "Dog abuse! Dog abuse! I really want to fall in love!"

The subsequent plot was similar to what Gu Yunkai knew. The two drove for their honeymoon, bought a hut, decorated the hut by themselves, joined the crowd at the bonfire party, laughed happily, and then danced and made love in the narrow cabin .

Places with a large scale are particularly noisy, but in warm places, everyone also smiled knowingly. After Yi Mowen received the results of the physical examination, he was cutting apples in the kitchen and wanted to tell Bian Yang. Yun Kai observed the behavior of many people in the dark movie theater, many of them were crying and laughing at the same time.

Until the phone rang.

This is the scene that Gu Yunkai finished, the most explosive scene in his whole movie, Yi Mowen didn't cry, but just showed the hysterical despair and pain from the silence, finally he stood up, As if nothing had happened, he lit the cigarette with the notice, and he took a puff of the cigarette, and the mist he exhaled suddenly enveloped the camera.

The girl who wanted to fall in love was already crying so hard.

Gu Yunkai also felt that the sockets of his eyes were a little wet. Miss Gray Scarf handed over a tissue, and he thanked him a little, but the other party didn't pay much attention and was busy wiping away his tears.

Immediately afterwards, the two embraced and danced in the hut. The moonlight song was very beautiful, and a low female voice humming was added, which was lonely and ethereal. First, there was a close-up of two people embracing, and then Yi Mowen closed his eyes and was sad with Bian Yang. Closeup contrast of happy joyful smile stiff live.

"let's break up."

Gu Yunkai heard that the cries of several people seemed to be about to pass away, so he couldn't help but looked around worriedly, but the cinema was too dark, and he couldn't be sure who the cries came from for a moment.

After Yi Mowen dragged his suitcase and left, most of the scenes were in a cool tone, most of them were Bian Yang’s monologue, and then Yi Mowen entered the hospital, the scene of the emergency room, the red lights of the first aid kept flashing With Bian Yang's indifferent voice.

I never saw him again.

He moved, changed his number, and no one was allowed to tell me about him.

Then I realized that I was nothing more than that with him.

I can not find him.

Maybe he abandoned us all in that cabin and came back with nothing but shells.

It turns out that when people say I will always love you, they are just promising that time.

The lights went out, and Yi Mowen was pushed out. He died quietly as if he was asleep.

Death is so simple, and you seem to be unable to confirm it all at once.

Bian Yang's voice sounded at the same time: Yi Mowen, I forgive you.

Gu Yunkai only wiped his tears in the middle, and the subsequent plot seemed to him that life is impermanent. Although it is worth sighing, it is also a normal state in the end, so he has been watching the whole movie with the eyes of appreciating art Instead, they paid more attention to Wen Jingan and her own acting skills.

It wasn't until the end of the movie that tears flowed in the movie theater that Gu Yunkai really started to think about a serious matter: how do I get out?

Fortunately, everyone restrained their emotions very well. At the end of the film, the last line of words emerged: This film is adapted from a true story.

Gu Yunkai just walked out of his seat, and seeing many girls sitting back and crying again, he turned his head to look at that sentence, and couldn't help being surprised for a while.Although he somewhat guessed it before, he didn't expect it to be a true story. No wonder Zhang Zitao and the others filmed it full of feelings, probably because it happened to someone close to him.

After watching the movie, Gu Yunkai went shopping around again, and bought some small gifts to reward Feeney and Sharp. After all, he was really used to being free in the small village of New Zealand, and somewhat forgot to return to prosperity. Cities need to prepare.In fact, there was nothing interesting outside. Gu Yunkai walked casually in the streets and alleys, let's just briefly appreciate the local customs, then bought some food and went back uninterestingly. After all, the hotel doesn't know how to prepare snacks.

It was already late when we returned to the hotel. Gu Yunkai found a restaurant near the hotel and had dinner before going back to his room. The scattered things were thrown on the sofa. He picked out a few exquisitely packaged ones. The desserts are ready, and Sharp's hat is cleaned up, ready to be sent back together.

Feeney wasn't there, and it was Sharp who opened the door.

Sharp's appearance is not the traditional handsome, but a gloomy, evil appearance, very attractive, but often with a kind of childlike cynicism.Gu Yunkai doesn't like him, but he can't deny the charm of the other party. After all, he believes that if he wears an old man's vest and colorful pants, he will definitely not be as handsome as Sharp.

When Gu Yunkai was about to hand over the hat and gifts, Sharp still had cigarettes in one hand and alcohol in the other. He weighed it for a long time with his mouth shut, and finally moved aside to let Gu Yunkai act as a porter to put the things in.

The room was a mess, with Sharp's clothes everywhere, as well as some messy manuscripts and snack bags. Sharp stood by the window, smoking a cigarette and suddenly took a sip of whiskey, as if planning to swallow the alcohol and tobacco together.

Gu Yunkai regretted his life, he was not as bold as him and dared to mess around, he usually only smoked a few sips when he was stressed, but he would not comment on other people's words and deeds.

"Hello." Sharp put the wine glass on the window suddenly, he turned around to look at Gu Yunkai, and said slowly, "Have you ever felt uncomfortable?"

This is a rare peaceful coexistence between the two, and Gu Yunkai was also happy to deal with the normal Sharp. He smiled slightly and said: "Sometimes it is always a bit difficult, not everyone is as happy as you." His attitude was gentle He was polite and impeccable in his speech, but Sharp looked at him, and suddenly there was a pity-like sadness in his eyes.

"You are so pathetic." Sharp took another sudden puff of cigarette and raised the wine glass again, "You are all pathetic. If the world wants to silence me, how can I not stand up and resist?"

"Anyone who tries to get over me, I will trample them down."

If the world laughs at my stupidity and crushes my fate.

Then let him go.

I am the fool in the eyes of the world, the source of the ridiculous, and the embodiment of error.

But there is still me in the world, and I know that I am not bound by everything.

My soul is free.

My mind is free.

I obey myself.

Gu Yunkai recited this little poem silently. It was a poem in the Chinese textbook of Imperial High School. The author was a very famous philosopher and scientist. He made immeasurable contributions to the theory of celestial bodies, but at that time He was regarded as a deviant, nonsense lunatic, never married. In his later years, he became somewhat cynical because of the ridicule and belittling of the world. He wrote many little poems similar to this in poverty.

Sharp sniffled, shrugged and said: "Well, but everyone has their own way of life. Robots are humble, slick, good at flattering and manipulating people's hearts. For you, insisting on yourself seems particularly rebellious, right? Right? You don’t even have an ego, you’re just a machine, muddled and mediocre, to be honest, the day you beat me was the only time you got angry, but you still remember to save face for me.”

He suddenly stared at Gu Yunkai strangely for a while and said, "Who is angry and still remembers to be decent." Then he waved his hand nonchalantly, "Anyway, I don't know how, I don't like rules."

"Yes." Gu Yunkai smiled slightly, "I don't want to be an astronomer either."

Gu Yunkai didn't know how many turbulent waves rolled up in his heart, and after he finished speaking, he fled without stopping.

Sharp seemed a little frightened. He didn't see how panicked Gu Yun drove away, but he was shocked by the other party's ability to answer the poem. He added several more ice cubes to the wine as if he was overwhelmed. , looked surprised: "Robots can also read poetry???"

Gu Yunkai walked so fast that even a man of his stamina couldn't help panting slightly with difficulty, as if trying to avoid something, he immediately slammed the door and locked it behind him as soon as he entered the room.This isolation more or less gave him a sense of security, and then he only felt his head buzzing, he closed his eyes, and there was chaos in the darkness.

I don't know how long it took before the sound of knocking on the door suddenly rang in his ears, and his head was pressed against the door panel. Although the knocking sound was not loud, it still made his head ache. After a while, he asked outside the door. : "Yunkai? I'm Finny, are you asleep? Sorry, no matter what rude things Sharp said, I apologize for him."

It's Finny...

"It's okay, Feeney." Gu Yunkai heaved a sigh of relief, almost slipping off the door panel. He propped his hands against the door, feeling a severe headache, but still restrained and subconsciously revealed a With a business expression, he forced a smile and said, "I'm fine."

"Oh...that's right, I have received what you sent, I just want to say, thank you for your gift." Finny was silent for a while, and sighed softly, "I wish you all the best."

Feeney seemed to stand outside the door for a while, then sighed and turned to leave. When the footsteps outside the door gradually faded away, Gu Yunkai also slid from the door panel to the ground. He had time to change his shoes, but he didn't care much about sitting on the footprints just now.Gu Yunkai deeply buried his face in the palm of his hand, his whole body seemed to be sore and weak, and he was so soft that he knew very well before that Sharp was a very sensitive person, so every time the teasing was done at the most appropriate time Enough is enough, so Sharp is never annoying.

He has never broken down, nor will his emotions affect others.

It won't affect others...be respectful to each other...be polite and leave a bottom line for each...

That's right, Gu Yunkai raised his head and slammed it against the door, feeling the cold as if condensed in every part of his body, from his fingers to the soles of his feet, cold, greasy sweat broke out.Since he entered the society and entered the real life, he has been bound and bound by the environment all the time, as if this is the only way to be mature, this is the only way to be wise, and this is the way to be invulnerable.

But he is not free.

In other words, he has never been free, he has never laughed wildly once, no matter how difficult the road to success is, he will harshly take all this as a habit, nod calmly, and act in the laughter of others. A mysterious and powerful person.Even when he fell to the bottom of the valley, Gu Yunkai never cried out loudly, he held everything in his stomach, he knew too well that crying could not bring him anything.

That being the case, what's the point of crying and laughing, since no one cares about your smile, no one cares about your tears, and people only see victory or defeat in their eyes, then there is only success, continuous success.Joy, anger, sorrow, and joy have no value in front of interests, except when people need to use it.

People often say they know what they want and go for it.

Gu Yunkai didn't want anything in particular, at first he wanted to have enough food and clothing, then he wanted more money, to stand taller, to have the last laugh...

But no one can have the last laugh. Death and illness are things that cannot be bought. When they come, they will take away everything that Gu Yunkai has without even saying hello. He looks around on the road to death, but there is still nothing. Empty, as if I was still the child when I was a child, as if I was still looking at the white wall with cracks.

Day after day, nothing.

He didn't know why he had everything he wanted, but he still wasn't satisfied, still felt lonely, and still felt uninteresting.

Thinking about it now, he doesn't hate Sharp because of anything else. No matter how unbearably difficult or disgusting teasing, Gu Yunkai didn't know how many times he had experienced it before he became famous, so those were all excuses. Just jealous.

Jealous of this so-called immaturity, jealous of this freedom, jealous of this free and easy, jealous of everyone who loves Sharp, fascinated by him, and let him indulge in madness.

In his previous life, he was pushed by life and didn't want to be run over by anyone, so he climbed higher and higher, but he never felt any happiness when he stood at the top.A lot of work and planning took up his time. He greeted all his partners with a smile, and made strict demands on all his subordinates. The high-intensity work finally gave him a great gift that he could rest forever.

Nobody loves him, and he doesn't love anyone.

This life is not far behind, Gu Yunkai does not have any excessive fantasies and pursuits in life, as if chasing fame and fortune, demanding success has already become a part of his life.His thoughts of responding to the deceased and his persistence of forgiving Gu Jianyue continue to survive in this entertainment circle. Unfortunately, he is a businessman and knows nothing about how an actor should plan, let alone what plan he has for the rest of his life. Study He has spent too much energy on daily life and pondering his acting skills.

Afterwards, it was like pushing a boat with the current, he was the boat, and slowly found what he was interested in in all these, which could be the object of his dreams.

Sharpe was right, he was a robot, and fate arranged for him to get what he had.

Maybe even robots are more thoughtful than him. He has never lived, he just keeps on living.

Gu Yunkai sat on the cold and soft carpet for about a while, the concept of time was blurred in his mind, he took off his shoes tiredly, and then untied the scarf that was strangling him He got down and hung on the clothes hanger, and fell into the soft bed in a daze, not sure if his mind was a mess.

The whole person seemed to have fallen into a deep valley in an instant. He didn't know when he would fall to pieces, but he just kept falling freely, his brain was blank, and the blade seemed to gouged out the skin, and it was cold and stinging.

Until the mobile phone fell out of the pocket, turned a few somersaults on the bed, probably because of the folds of the sheet, the address book was opened, and in the long list of names, the word Jian Yuan was abrupt. Appeared in Gu Yunkai's field of vision.

It's already eight o'clock in the evening, Gu Yunkai is not sure if the other party is busy, maybe he is practicing with the team, maybe he is preparing for a concert, maybe...

Gu Yunkai grabbed the phone into his palm and lay on his back exhaustedly, suddenly felt a wave of fear and shrinking, like a person who has lived in the dark for a long time is exposed to the light for the first time, and it is inevitable that he will feel a little cautious and at a loss.

He has never been willful, and this kind of opportunity is extremely rare.

After all, this night was bad enough, and he really didn't want to experience anything worse and more embarrassing.

The green call button stood still under Gu Yunkai's wandering thumb. For the first time in his life, he knew that it was so difficult to make a phone call. When the sour thumb fell down and touched the touch screen At that time, Gu Yunkai withdrew his fingers somewhat in surprise, but for no reason, a kind of luck and worry like secret joy grew out of it.

The bell rang several times, Gu Yunkai looked at it silently, but did not hang up for a long time.

It was about 1 minute——or the ringtone kept ringing for about six or seven times. Gu Yunkai was almost desperate. He threw the phone beside the pillow and waited quietly for the cold return from the female voice of the system. The result of people answering.The other end suddenly picked up the phone, and the voice on the other end was noisy, as if many musical instruments were mixed together.

"Did I bother you?" Gu Yunkai's confiding and surprise suddenly got stuck together. He was silent for a moment, then said cautiously and hesitantly, "I'm sorry."

Like a tortoise carefully retracting its fragile head into the hard shell.

Not right.

A call is completely different from a video, and it is precisely because he can't see the appearance that he notices the difference in the voice. Jian Yuan can't see what Gu Yunkai looks like, but he hears the tiredness and powerlessness in that voice, which is very different. It was Gu Yunkai's usual appearance.

He remembered that this gentleman had always been polite and meticulous about his own requirements. Every time he met and talked with him, he was rational like a tightly knit machine, running smoothly from top to bottom, and he couldn't find any faults, even if he was confused. The same is true when you need help, and you are still impeccably calm.

No matter what kind of role he accepts, he will break free from those frantic, weird, and terrifyingly attractive emotions, and analyze the characters' emotions and personalities rationally.

But this is not the case now. He sounds like he is short of oil, missing parts, and powerless, fragile and confused, as if a lost passer-by is hesitating on the road and desperately needs the candlelight in the dark to guide his way.

It seems that he has transformed from a rational machine into a helpless human being in an instant.

"Ah——Actually...I'm just trying to get rid of all this." Jian Yuan made up his mind, so he told an insignificant little lie. He greeted the old musicians and clamped his mobile phone to his shoulder and ear In the gap between them, he clasped his hands together and winked at the ensemble musicians as if begging for mercy, showing a well-behaved and sincere appearance.

"Go."

The steady music teacher said silently, and compared the number nine: "Remember to come back."

no problem!

Jian Yuan winked playfully, and hastily escaped from the resplendent music hall, and went to the edge of the extremely quiet balcony to continue their conversation.

He doesn't participate in practice for the time being, but he can't affect anyone.

Gu Yunkai on the other end seemed to be a little bit laughing, his deep and hoarse voice was a little sad, and he said as if he had considered it: "You always seem to stand with me at the right time, I am very grateful for that, real."

"I have already promised you." Jian Yuan looked at the moon in the sky and said happily and gently, "I am willing to be your Church, and I am also willing to be Garcia at the right time. If I can't, then I shouldn't promise you so easily, shouldn't I? It's a matter of course, since it's what I should do, what can I be grateful for?"

Gu Yunkai laughed on the other end of the phone again, his voice was surprisingly low, but it was very clear, so that he couldn't hear what he was saying: "But usually when people promise, they are very sincere, I believe... at least At that moment, it's just not possible... Most people will choose to forget, whether it is promised or promised."

"Why?" Jian Yuan was a little puzzled, he pondered for a while, and still chose to ask, "Why promise what you can't do?"

"Maybe... they thought they would do it." Gu Yunkai sighed, he didn't know how to answer this question, after all, this kind of fact is normal, "Or out of comfort, politeness, and a kind of sympathy The care derived from the heart. Most people will not take it seriously, they were very moved when they heard it, and then they forgot it after a while, or maybe, we all feel that we should not bother others so much."

Jian Yuan was silent for a while, then subconsciously shook his head and said, "I don't quite understand, why do you have to think about whether it's troublesome or not?"

"This is usually the source of human troubles, and they will unconsciously care too much about what others think." Gu Yunkai's voice could not hear emotions, "If some people are happy, they only need to be themselves and don't need to think about others. People love him for what he thinks is right, so naturally there is nothing to worry about.”

Jian Yuan couldn't help laughing, and said kindly: "That's easy, at least you can be a person who has nothing to worry about in front of me."

Gu Yunkai seemed to be choked, and he suddenly changed the subject abruptly: "Did I really not disturb your performance or practice?"

He confirmed it again.

"I'll let you know when I'm disturbed." Jian Yuan smiled.

Gu Yunkai also seemed to laugh, and he said slowly: "It's always a pleasure chatting with you, I don't often have the opportunity to chat with someone who can let go of everything like this."

He still sounded like he was struggling with something, but it was much better than when he just called.

"Then now you have everything you need."

Jian Yuan's voice was still calm and inclusive, like a pillar that stabilized Gu Yunkai's mood. If others said these words, it would inevitably be a little hypocritical and too sweet flattery, but Jian Yuan would not, what he revealed Every word is as beautiful and real as the notes he plays.

"By the way, you don't need to address me with honorifics anymore. Since we are friends, what's more, you have already become you when you type." Gu Yunkai deliberately said an insignificant thing at the beginning as a foreshadowing. Suspicion climbed up again, and there was no peace for a moment. The question was like venom and ice slag piercing the tip of his tongue, making him swallow back into his stomach; and burning his heart like magma in hell. , I can't wait to spit it out in an instant.

"I don't understand." Gu Yunkai sighed softly, "How did I become this lucky person?"

Jian Yuan's long silence was almost unnerving, but Gu Yunkai never regretted it. If he couldn't get to the bottom of this kindness without reason, even if he accepted it now, sooner or later he would be so terrified that he doubted the other party's intentions. He may regret the choices he made in life, but he rarely regrets the decisions he has made.

"This matter is actually a bit embarrassing to say." Jian Yuan turned his head and looked at the musicians resting and chatting. He thought that he would have no hope of joining these people in his life, "On the day I met you, I had planned to surrender to my father, apologize to him, and accept all his arrangements for me."

Gu Yunkai was more or less surprised, he asked: "Why do you disagree?"

"My father and grandfather are both very famous musicians. They are both great composers. I was bathed in their brilliance when I was young. At that time, I could still write a lot of songs, but the longer I Big, the more things I have experienced, the more difficult it is for me to write." Jian Yuan sighed softly, if he was not telling Gu Yunkai his thoughts at this time, it is almost hard to imagine that such a happy person as him would have such a Distressed, "I left home, went to a strange city, rented a small house, I didn't go too far, I could only write some broken melodies, felt depressed, just walked in the small park in front of the house Let's go and play once in a while."

It turned out to be the case.

Looking out from the railing of the balcony, Jian Yuan saw the moonlight that was cut into completely different pieces, and said with a smile: "I was full of despair at that time, I thought, I probably stopped here, and maybe I had to give up my dream of creating. Maybe I don't have much talent. It's time to end this willful behavior and stop being a cranky fool. Then you came, like a dream, and you stood there like a muse. I I can tell you love me."

He resumed his address again, but Gu Yunkai didn't care too much, this was the first time he heard that first encounter from Jian Yuan.

"These rough, broken melodies, I thought no one would love them but me, and you stood there and told me it was fine and would buy me a ticket. I was about to surrender to my father, But...but you still call me a little musician, so I agreed to the performance, but I don't intend to bow my head anymore, I don't want to be just a performer, I want to be a creator."

"I tried my best to make those melodies longer and longer, but they just couldn't make a song. I changed them again and again. Whenever I invited you to listen to it in frustration, you always took the trouble to tell me : They are so beautiful, I look forward to your next improvement." Jian Yuan's voice was gentle, "If my life is boring except for music, then you are another eternal and moving existence."

Gu Yunkai opened his mouth slightly, and sighed, "It's...very touching, but in fact, anyone would do this for you, I just took some insignificant time."

"I didn't wait for anyone, I only waited for you." Jane Yuan said disapprovingly, "Please don't belittle yourself, if you have to say it, then anyone will do it for you."

"What... ah—no." Gu Yunkai subconsciously vetoed, "That's not the case, you... not everyone is like you."

There is such a sincere and passionate soul, such sweet and gentle kindness, and such... a heart-pounding warmth.

"If I am special to everyone, then you are too." Jian Yuan's voice was gentle and calm, with determination that could not be rejected, "You are also special to me."

As if feeling that his attitude just now was too tough, Jian Yuan softened a little: "I love you sincerely, please stop saying these words."

"Then what..." Gu Yunkai was a little at a loss, he was dumb for a moment, gasped, "I...we are not used to saying this word, it sounds a bit like a confession, I know you didn't mean it but... ...that's... I want you to, uh, pay attention to... well, whatever you want."

It was as if he gave up resistance all of a sudden.

Jian Yuan suddenly laughed out of joy, and he repeated sweetly on purpose: "You are so cute, I really love you very sincerely."

"Really?" Gu Yunkai's hands trembled a little, and he couldn't tell whether he was smiling or dissatisfied, and the previous feeling of weakness disappeared.

"Ah, my commander is calling me." Jian Yuan said quickly, "I have to hurry back! Good night, have a good dream."

Gu Yun laughed and scolded: "Skipping fast, I didn't hear any sound... But, good night." His voice quickly became softer, and the ending sound was floating in the air like a feather.

The call stopped naturally, and they all said good night normally, and agreed to the end of this conversation with tacit consent.

The scorching heat of the phone against the ear seems to have not completely dissipated. The phone was pressed tightly against the skin and became a little hot with the drain of the battery. The temperature should have been very inappropriate, but Gu Yunkai only felt warmth.

In addition to the warmth, there was also that weird feeling of powerlessness that quickly subsided from his body, his stomach was tense, Gu Yunkai lay flat on the bed, stretched out his hand to touch his stomach, he didn't know how to feel it A strange feeling of fullness, not the uncomfortable feeling of fullness, but feeling warm in the stomach, as if the whole body was wrapped by something, and he felt a kind of security that he had never had before. Feeling tired.

He thought he could fall asleep.

Before covering the quilt, Gu Yunkai suddenly thought that Jian Yuan didn't ask him why he called all night, as if it was just an ordinary call without any reason.

The author has something to say: "You love me" and "I love you sincerely" mentioned by Jian Yuan are not in the sense of love.

"You love me" means that Yunkai admires his music very much and gives him a kind of respect, cherish