Clear and Muddy Loss of Love

芙蓉 帐暖度 春宵

Nangong Jingnv saw that there were candles in Tangquan Hall, but she didn't dare to completely conclude that Qi Yan was inside. This time, she captured her and didn't discuss with her beforehand. What if this person accidentally walked out of the Forbidden Palace? Woolen cloth?

Nangong Jingnv decided that it would be better to confirm it, after all, Qi Yan is now in a state of "disappearing", and if someone sees her, it will be a failure.

But... the people inside were taking a bath, so it would be inappropriate to go in like this or ask if it would be inappropriate, so Nangong Jingnv came to the door and listened attentively.

Thinking that if there is the sound of water inside, I don't have to worry about it.

This side of the room, Qi Yan, has almost finished washing, just stepped out of the soup pool to change clothes, but faintly saw a figure pasted on the window, and asked sharply, "Who is outside?"

Nangong Jingnv suddenly became nervous, with a lot of thoughts in her heart. Thinking of the scene when she was sent away last time, she still felt heartache...

Besides, she didn't know whether Qi Yan was willing to come back, so she made a decision like this...

Qi Yan didn't hear the answer, and became more and more nervous.Quickly put on clean inner clothes and asked again: "Who is outside?!"

Only then did Nangong Jingnv realize that she seemed to be playing the role of eavesdropping on the corner, and she took two steps back with embarrassment: "It's me..."

Hearing Nangong Jingnv's voice, Qi Yan's heart also froze. The change from great sorrow to joy was too fast, tearing Qi Yan's restraint all along. He had a lot of things he wanted to say to Nangong Jingnv... This time, she Don't want to miss it again.

Seeing that Qi Yan didn't make a sound, Nangong Jingnv thought she had offended the other party, and sighed softly, "I didn't mean...I...I'll go back first." She meant to go back to Qi Yan's bedroom and wait for her.

Qi Yan thought that Nangong Jingnv was going back to her bedroom, so she hurried to the door and pushed it away: "Wait!"

Qi Yan rushed out of the Tangquan Hall and came to Nangong Jingnv with big strides, her chest heaving with a violent heartbeat.

Nangong Jingnv looked at Qi Yan, her hair was loose and the tips of her hair were still dripping with water, and the cloth on her shoulders was wet, she came out in too haste and her feet were bare, her chest was loose, revealing the ferocious burns on her chest and the glaring eyes. Welt.

Nangong Jingnu: "You..."

Qi Yan grabbed Nangong Jingnu's arm, her eyes were a little hot: "I have a lot to say to you, don't leave."

One sentence made Nangong Jingnu's eyes blush, she lowered her eyes and said softly: "Look at you, you don't even have shoes on."

Qi Yan: "Your Majesty..."

Nangong Jingnu: "If I don't leave, I'll just wait for you here, okay?"

Only then did Qi Yan let go of her hand, perhaps because she had just taken a bath, a blush appeared on her originally sickly pale cheeks: "Your Majesty, please wait a moment."

Qi Yan turned back to Tangquan Palace, stepped into the threshold, and did not forget to grab the door frame and look back. Seeing Nangong Jingnv, her heart was filled with a strange feeling, swollen, satisfied and at ease.

Just a few days ago, Nangong Jingnv couldn't sleep at night for several days, imagining what should she do if this "escape" was set up by Qi Yan and Jiya?

This uneasiness was diluted as Qi Yan rushed towards her with bare feet, and disappeared without a trace when she looked back with affection like a child.

The door of Tangquan Palace was closed, and Nangong Jingnv's thoughts stopped abruptly. She controlled herself to stop thinking about it, she was afraid that she would think of bad things... The knot was finally loosened, tonight... just Let yourself be willful for once.

When deciding to take Qi Yan back, Nangong Jingnv had already made up her mind that she would not enter the imperial tomb after her death, and unfilial daughters are not eligible to enter the Nangong family's imperial tomb.

Qi Yan put on her clothes and shoes and came out again. Nangong Jingnv really kept her promise and stood there without moving an inch.

Qi Yan walked quickly to Nangong Jingnu, and called out: "Your Majesty."

Nangong Jingnv took the initiative to hold Qi Yan's hand, and said softly: "It's cold in the night, let's go back and talk about it."

Qi Yan grasped Nangong Jingnv's catkin back, with a hint of caution in the appropriate strength, this long-lost warmth has been lost for too long, and he thought that he would never have it in this life.

Qi Yan: "Okay..."

Half of the Oasis Palace has become a forbidden area, empty and silent, but not lonely because of the company of each other.

Hands with interlocking fingers, shadows standing side by side, the same steps...and a steady and steady heartbeat.

Even the bright moon in the sky is no longer lonely because of the nestling of clouds...

The death of Jingwei was originally an inexplicable blood feud, but at this moment, the people of Jingwei buried their pain and hatred tacitly, and walked hand in hand following the call deep in their hearts.

Ten years of ups and downs, they have quarreled, fought, separated... but never really let go of each other.

Back in the bedroom, Qi Yan was reluctant to let go of Nangong Jingnu's hand, but the latter seemed to have a feeling and did not let go.

The two sat side by side on Qi Yan's bed, their hands still tightly held together.

Nangong Jingnv's vermilion lips parted slightly, and said softly: "I'm sorry, I took you back on my own initiative without discussing with you. I sealed half of Ganquan Palace, and the Hongwen Museum has also moved here... Maybe the days to come will be deserted, But I won't let you suffer any more."

Qi Yan didn't answer, Nangong Jingnu waited for a while, and asked, "Don't you have something to tell me?"

Qi Yan said "En", and waited for a long time before turning her head to look at Nangong Jingnv. She had a thousand words to say, but she finally had a chance, but her tears took the lead.

Seeing Qi Yan weeping silently, Nangong Jingnv's heart ached, she held Qi Yan's cheeks, her eyes turned red, "Don't cry."

Qi Yan stroked the back of Nangong Jingnv's hand, rubbed her cheek against Nangong Jingnv's palm, and said in an almost pleading tone: "Your Majesty...you can kill me, but you can't send me away indiscriminately, my life... ..."

A full teardrop overflowed Nangong Jingnv's eye socket, like a dam with a crack, no matter how hard it was to stop.

Nangong Jingnu: "Stop talking nonsense!"

Qi Yan grabbed Nangong Jingnv's hand and pressed it against his chest, choked up and said sadly: "My life, my heart... are all in His Majesty's hands. No heart, no more What's the use of life, even if I let go of my body and be free? I would rather die in your hands completely than live with a body in the world. At least... I am willing to die in the hands of Your Majesty. Death Also rest in peace."

Nangong Jingnv sobbed a few times, bit her lower lip tightly with her white teeth, but her breathing was out of rhythm.

A pair of eyebrows looked at Qi Yan through the water mist, and those eyes seemed angry, resentful, obsessed, helpless... There was distress, but also irrepressible emotion.

Qi Yan: "This journey... I can't sleep at night, I can see your figure when I close my eyes, I am afraid that I will never see you again in this life, I have so many things I want to say to you... But when I see you, I feel Losing my soul, I don't know what to say other than this useless oath..."

Qi Yan pressed the back of Nangong Jingnv's hand, making the other's palm fit closer to her heart, and said with tears: "Can't Your Majesty feel it? Your heart...is not here anymore."

No matter how hard Nangong Jingnv could hold herself back, she said sadly: "Stop talking, stop talking..."

Qi Yan misunderstood that Nangong Jingnv didn't want to listen to his heartfelt words, and said eagerly: "Promise me, don't push me away again! Or...just kill me, don't torture me so cruelly...uh."

Qi Yan's eyes widened, she stared blankly at Nangong Jingnv who was close at hand, and saw the trembling eyelashes and the sparkle in the corners of her eyes, like a dream, like a dream, like a fog in the clouds.

The kiss lasted for a long time, and it was inseparable until the breathing of both parties was out of rhythm, and they reluctantly separated.

Qi Yan's heart was beating like a drum, and she hugged Nangong Jingnv tightly and refused to let go for a moment. The depression of the past few months was swept away, and her mood was unprecedentedly comfortable.

Qi Yan also looked back at Nangong Jingnv tenderly, as if he wanted to outline every detail of the person in front of him in his heart and engrave it into his soul.

Suddenly Qi Yan seemed to have thought of something, bit Nangong Jingnu's lips, and said viciously: "In this life, you are not allowed to have anyone else!"

Nangong Jingnv understood instantly, hooked Qi Yan's neck with one hand, and grabbed the fabric on Qi Yan's chest with the other, and replied domineeringly: "You don't want to marry another!"

Qi Yan looked at Nangong Jingnu intently, and said seriously: "Tonight, can Your Majesty stay?"

Nangong Jingnv breathed a long sigh of relief, and instead of answering, she asked, "I'm asking you... If I can't let go of it in this life, you...will you blame me?"

Qi Yan straightened her waist, and replied in a very serious tone: "As long as Your Majesty doesn't drive me away, I will not regret being a slave or a servant, even if it is a dark shadow."

Nangong Jingnv pursed her lips, raised the corners of her mouth with tears in her eyes, and said softly, "I don't want..."

Qi Yan panicked: "Your Majesty?"

Nangong Jingnu: "I don't want you to be a slave, let alone someone's shadow..."

Qi Yan: "Then what does Your Majesty want? As long as you don't drive me away, I will..."

Nangong Jingnu: "I want...you want me."

The rest of the words stuck in her throat, Qi Yan blinked: "...Your Majesty?"

Nangong Jingnu: "Please... allow me to indulge once, please."

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The hibiscus tent warms the spring night, and the king never goes to court early.

In the early morning of the next day, it was already past noon when the two woke up, and the time for the court meeting had already ended.

Last night's happy event was evenly contested, and it was not until Dongfang Lubai embraced each other that they fell asleep.

Nangong Jingnv's chest and neck were left with a lot of red and purple spots. She opened her misty eyes and was shy for a while, then suddenly realized that the sky was not right, and sat up: "Oops!"

Qi Yan: "What's wrong?"

Nangong Jingnu: "Today's court meeting... I forgot to explain to my servant, I don't know if something will go wrong."

Qi Yan grabbed Nangong Jingnv's arm: "The time for the morning court has long passed, and His Majesty will be trying to cover up if he goes at this time."

Nangong Jingnv took a look at Qi Yan, and thought to herself: It's really a gentle town, a tomb of heroes... The ancients never deceived me.Just spend more time with her... So Qi Yan pulled again, and Nangong Jingnu lay back down.

Nangong Jingnv frowned slightly and hummed softly.

Qi Yan immediately came over, hugged Nangong Jingnv's waist and asked nervously: "What's wrong?"

Nangong Jingnu's pretty face flushed, and she replied honestly: "The waist and abdomen are sore."

Qi Yan smiled, put his palm on Nangong Jingnv's smooth belly, and pressed lightly: "But here?"

Nangong Jingnv let out a barely audible "hmm" and nestled into Qi Yan's arms: "Don't come again."

Qi Yan: "I just give His Majesty a push."

Nangong Jingnv found that Qi Yan's kneading was very comfortable, so she also put her hands on Qi Yan's waist, and imitated Qi Yan's massage. The latter naturally felt her lover's affection and accepted it with a smile.

Qi Yan glanced at the hickey on Nangong Jingnv's neck from the corner of her eye, and said with a smile, "Your Majesty worked hard last night."

Nangong Jingnv gave Qi Yan an angry look: "Aren't you too?"

Qi Yan chuckled, and argued: "I'm fine, I have the foundation to grow up on horseback after all, no matter how bad it is, I won't faint."

Nangong Jingnv's face turned red instantly, she grabbed Qi Yan's ear and said angrily, "You still say?"

Qi Yan begged for mercy with a smile: "Your Majesty, forgive me, I know I was wrong."

Nangong Jingnu let out a "hum", and changed from pulling to rubbing, even though she didn't use any force at all just now.

She looked at the scars on Qi Yan's chest again, feeling a little more ferocious during the day, although Nangong Jingnv was already full of guilt last night and used her lips and teeth to care for every scar on Qi Yan's body, she also solemnly apologized , but after looking at it, I still can't help feeling distressed.

Ask yourself, if you are not one of the parties involved in this revenge, just look at it from the perspective of a bystander... Qi Yan has really worked hard for more than ten years.

If it weren't for this desire for revenge to support her, perhaps she would have died in Luochuan long ago.

Nangong Jingnv sighed and forced herself not to think about it anymore, otherwise it would be deadlocked again. At least in the past few days, Nangong Jingnv did not want the relationship between the two to return to the past.

She raised her hand to caress Qi Yan's chest, gently brushed the scar with her fingertips, and said with pity: "I don't know if this scar can be removed..."

Qi Yan placed a kiss on Nangong Jingnv's forehead: "Maybe I can't."

Qi Yan knew what Nangong Jingnu was thinking, but she still deliberately asked, "Will Your Majesty despise it?"

Nangong Jingnu: "Why? It's just..."

Qi Yan smiled: "It's fine if you don't know, it doesn't hurt anymore."

Nangong Jingnv nodded and nestled in Qi Yan's arms to enjoy this rare moment of tenderness.

Qi Yan hugged Nangong Jingnv and sighed contentedly, and said, "Chen Chuansi, Xia He and Qiu Ju are still alive."

Nangong Jingnv was overjoyed: "Really?"

Qi Yan: "Well, I put them in a safe place."

Nangong Jingnu: "Is it in Sifang Bank?"

Qi Yan closed her eyes and hooked the corners of her mouth: "Sure enough, I can't hide anything from Your Majesty."

Nangong Jingnu: "Besides you, who else can empty out the family property and help the court openly and secretly?"

Nangong Jingnu: "What about Qiu Ju and the others...why didn't you tell me before?"

Qi Yan: "The situation was urgent at that time. I concluded that at least one of the three of them was the secret work of the princess of the previous dynasty who was placed in the inner court, but I didn't have time to check carefully. The three of them are the highest servants of the inner court. The consequences would be disastrous. I originally thought...it is better to kill by mistake than to release by mistake, but I think about them...especially Qiu Ju and Xia He who have been with His Majesty for many years and saved their lives. It's just that the inner court...can no longer keep them. I didn’t tell His Majesty before, because I was worried that His Majesty would miss them and want to get them back, and if he made a mistake, His Majesty would think that they were dead, so let’s stop thinking about it.”

After hearing this, Nangong Jingnv bit Qi Yan's shoulder, and said angrily: "Are you so cruel? Would you rather let me misunderstand like this all the time, and not say anything?"

Qi Yan slowly opened his eyes, looked at Nangong Jingnv and said solemnly: "If you can protect Your Majesty, it is worthwhile to suffer some grievances, besides, I... know how much I feel about myself, and know that Your Majesty will definitely complain. For a while, but I will never let me pay for the lives of the three of them."

The second half was more like Qi Yan's witty words to relieve the heavy, but Nangong Jingnv still felt emotional, she pursed her lips, and asked: "Then why are you willing to say it now?" In fact, she already had it in her heart. The answer, but I still want to hear Qi Yan say it personally, this person's love...is too deep, so deep that even she, the person involved, has to be aware of it later, she wants to hear Qi Yan's heartfelt voice, even once.

Sure enough, after Nangong Jingnv finished asking, Qi Yan remained silent, and her expression was a little unnatural, as if she was not used to revealing her feelings.

Nangong Jingnv refused, and tightened her arms around Qi Yan's waist: "Say it."

Qi Yan: "...I feel that His Majesty has grown a lot after more than a year, and is already a qualified emperor. Even if I tell His Majesty, His Majesty will not take them back rashly, so I said... ..."

Nangong Jingnu: "What else?"

Qi Yan: "...not anymore."

Nangong Jingnv put her fingertips on Qi Yan's heart, and said quietly: "I didn't talk about it last night, this heart is here with me, do you want to go back on your word?"

Qi Yan: "Never!"

Nangong Jingnu: "You are always like this. You hide everything so deeply... You even let me miss a lot. Since you said that I have grown up, you should understand that half the truth can't get rid of me."

Qi Yan: "Your Majesty..."

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This time it was Qi Yan who was defeated. She pondered for a moment, then replied softly: "Well... I want to have a good time with Your Majesty. I know that I have done many things that hurt Your Majesty, and I also know that I am not qualified to let Your Majesty have a relationship with your Majesty." Start again, but...my minister, you must try your best to make up for one or two, not to offset, but to win a place by His Majesty's side."

Nangong Jingnu's eyes turned red, and she asked in a low voice: "If I can't think about it in this life, what if I can't let it go?"

Qi Yan: "The minister should stay by His Majesty's side until that moment, and then... pray to meet His Majesty again in the next life."

Nangong Jingnv wept, partly because of Qi Yan's heartfelt confession, and partly because of her deep guilt towards her father.

This guilt comes from wavering, if there is no wavering, how can you feel guilty?

Nangong Jingnv understood but was unwilling to admit it, Qi Yan understood but did not reveal it.

If Nangong Jingnu really regarded herself as her father-killing enemy, how could she do such a thing with her father-killing enemy during the national mourning period?

Qi Yan gently wiped away the tears for Nangong Jingnv, she knew clearly: as long as she exists in the other party's life, it would be a kind of embarrassment to her, but ah...won't she still cling to her selfishly?

Qi Yan, who has always been quick in thinking, didn't know what to say, just treat it as her own brazen greed, and she will not let go.

Only silently, he hugged Nangong Jingnv tightly in his arms.