execution boy

The showers had just stopped, and the heat of midsummer was taken away. I walked on the green forest road full of stagnant water, surrounded by lush trees, and there was a couple walking leisurely with a child's stroller beside me, but I saw a little They don't feel cozy.

This is the shortest way to the second prison, I don't know how many times I have walked it.

Separated by an iron gate, there are two worlds, the birds are singing and the flowers are fragrant outside, and the inside is indeed dull and dead.

The prison guards are already familiar with me, because my younger brother is being held here, and I come every week.

He was imprisoned for ten years, and I came here for ten years.

Today is the day when he was released from prison after serving his sentence. Outside the iron gate, I suddenly thought of something. He and I are both 28 years old this year.

Time is like sand that leaks out of the bottom, it disappears in a blink of an eye, and people get old.

The prison doctor called me over and frowned when he saw me.

"Hey, with his appearance, he can't do anything when he goes out."

I smiled: "I didn't want him to do anything, just stay at home."

The doctor poured me a glass of water, put a piece of mint on it to pretend, and said, "You have to think about it, he is a patient. For the past ten years, he has been in a daze or dreaming in his room every day."

I took a sip of water: "I know, you told me before."

Doctor Liu stared at me: "But I didn't tell you the specific situation. You are going to take him away today. If I don't tell you, I will be irresponsible to you. Zhao Yi, he is very dangerous, very dangerous."

I smiled: "How dangerous can it be?"

The doctor said: "I thought he was just immersed in his own world, like other schizophrenic people, but I found that he is a rare example. His fantasy world coincides with reality, you know?"

I put down the glass: "What?"

"In the past ten years, he has been repeating his childhood experience with you. I guess the experience at that time is a good memory in his impression, so he played it over and over again in the cell, and we didn't feel What, many patients are like this, pursuing the happiness of childhood."

Dr. Liu smiled when he said this: "He is also amazing. He always thinks that I am his housekeeper. Every time I take medicine for him, I always coax him, saying that these medicines are to prevent him from having nightmares. Later, he Don't trust me so much because he's still having nightmares."

I also laughed: "I know, every time I come to see him, he regards me as the psychiatrist in his fantasy, and deep down in his heart, he regards the things in his childhood as a dream."

I knew he couldn't tell reality from dreams, didn't recognize me in reality, and being able to talk to him as Dr. Doug was the only thing I could do.

Later, I checked, and there was indeed a family doctor named Doug in his home in Pennsylvania, and a housekeeper who accompanied him since he was a child. Their relationship was even closer than that of his father. Perhaps his consciousness It was so confusing that Dr. Liu and I were identified as that person.

"But recently his thinking has changed. I went to get him the medicine that day and found that his dream had begun to develop. He imagined that he came to China to find everything in his dream. I was afraid that something might go wrong and sent him a message. A fire, he did not listen to my dissuasion, in his spiritual world, he has already left his home."

Dr. Liu said worriedly: "The last time I went to see him in his cell, he actually held a chopstick stuck into the bed board and said: Sara, I'm sorry, I'm sorry... He seems to have killed someone in his own spiritual world. Woman, already mentally broken."

"Sara?" Sara was his stepmother's name, and he killed his stepmother in his mental world.

"Zhao Xiaodao's situation is very dangerous, his memory tends to recover, at least he knows the objective fact that his father has been killed, but his world has been distorted, so if he sees you as a dream one day The enemy in the house may do terrible things to you, so Zhao Yi, you should send him... to a mental hospital, it will be better.” The doctor knew Zhao Yi’s brotherhood towards Zhao Xiaodao, but After being together for ten years, he couldn't bear to watch Zhao Yi face danger.

What a boy, what a handsome boy, and what a pity if something happened to him.

Zhao Yi smiled: "I know you always care about me, but Xiaodao, he just got hit too hard."

The doctor frowned: "Zhao Yi, I've always wanted to ask you, do you not hate his father at all for causing your family such misery?"

I touched the rim of the glass: "I hated it, of course, but I've figured it out all these years ago, Xiaodao was just a child at the time, but it was this child who avenged me and did what I always wanted to do. "

I smiled and went to see the doctor: "You said that all living beings are suffering, I suffer, and he suffers too. I have been suffering for so long because my mother was killed. I always wanted to be redeemed. It was the knife that saved me. He killed his mother with his own hands. Father, by doing what I wanted to do, I was freed from the pain that he has been living in."

The doctor was silent.

I lowered my head with a sour smile: "Do you know Doctor Liu, Xiaodao is really a miraculous person. In order to avenge our family, he personally killed his father in the United States and returned all his property to the country. Father atones, he was so calm when he did all this, and when it was over, he went crazy... He actually couldn't face what he did, that's why he became what he is now."

I drank all the water in one gulp and stood up: "Thank you for your help these years, don't worry, he and I will be fine."

The procedures for getting out of prison were not troublesome, the knife was very docile inside, and because of mental illness, he was released two years early.

After handing over the procedures with the prison guard, the knife was brought out.

I suddenly felt that Xiao Dao hadn't changed from ten years ago. His pale face and thin body seemed to be the same as ten years ago. I touched my face unconsciously and laughed at myself that I must be old and ugly.

The shackles on Xiaodao's hands and feet were released, and he looked at me: "Doctor Doug, you are here!"

The eyes are pure and innocent like a child's.

I stepped forward and took his hand: "Yes, I'm here."

Knife said, "Doctor Doug, where am I going?"

I patted his head: "Let's go home."

I bought a two-bedroom house in Liyuan Community. At that time, the house price had already started to rise sharply, but thinking about the need for a place to stay when the knife came out, I still gritted my teeth and bought it. Since then, I have lived every month tight. The day when the belt repays the loan.

When I got home, Xiaodao looked around the room, then turned to me and said, "Mr. Doug, I had another dream. In the dream, I saw Zhao Yi. He killed my father."

My heart shuddered.

"In the dream, it was Zhao Yi who killed your father?"

Xiaodao nodded and frowned: "I don't know why he did this, it seems that there are many secrets between them that I don't know. I was in great pain and pointed a gun at him."

"and after?"

"I didn't shoot." Zhao Xiaodao frowned, "I wasn't willing to kill him."

I stroked his head and let him take a bath with water.

I was sitting on the sofa, and there was an advertisement on TV, but I didn't listen to a word, and things that I couldn't think of for a long time came to my mind.

We were only 14 years old at that time, and Xiaodao and I came home to see my mother’s tragic death. I sat down next to my mother’s body, and those people pointed their guns at me, and Xiaodao jumped in front of me and shouted: “If you want to kill him, kill him first. me."

At that time, I didn't know why those people obeyed Xiaodao's words, let me go, and Xiaodao followed. I was completely crazy at that time.

It was only later that I learned that these drug dealers were here looking for knives, fearing that my mother would reveal their whereabouts and commit murder. But these bad guys are far away on the other side of the world. As a teenager, how do I find them.

At that time, my father began to drink heavily. A public servant was finally expelled from home. He didn’t want to think about anything other than drinking all day long. My eldest brother was admitted to university, but because the family had no money, he had to rent out for others. Now.

Since then, my life has been nothing but darkness.

Later, Xiaodao sneaked back to China to find me, knelt in front of me and let me beat and scold me, but I was blinded by hatred at that time, and I imposed all the hatred on that boy who was my age.

I said to him, "If you want atonement, kill your father."

My resentment frightened him, so he returned to the United States without saying anything, and stabbed his biological father to death.

Because Xiaodao is a Chinese citizen, he went back to China to serve his sentence. The sentence was 12 years.

I smiled wryly.

Xiaodao, maybe I never knew him, he has been unwilling to admit that he killed his father, so in his spiritual world, I, the instigator, became the murderer.

But even in this state, he didn't have the heart to kill me.