double autumn

I usually don't hide anything from Lin Jin, but I haven't told Lin Jin about her, but I think he must already know about her, so he just doesn't ask questions.Who the hell doesn't have a white moonlight? Every man has them. I just remembered her. Last year, Lin Jin sent a big box of birthday presents to his "first love". So I added quotation marks because I was his real first love.

Speaking of Lin Jin's "White Moonlight", they are really more powerful than each other, and each one is more powerful than the other.They left more traces on Lin Jin than I did on him.When I first returned to China, I clearly noticed that something had changed in him, he became more gloomy and paranoid, and he was lifeless. Later, he said that his ex-girlfriend caused him to be depressed.He committed suicide by taking sleeping pills in the rented house. After being discovered by the landlord, he was sent for gastric lavage, and then transferred to the psychiatric department for hospitalization.I was with him when he was hospitalized. He often sat quietly on the bed and looked out the window. I felt very uncomfortable every day looking at his strange appearance.I always think of his ex-girlfriend, and think, my brother is very timid, and he suffers terribly when he is hurt, and he likes to swallow his unhappiness, which makes people feel distressed; He has been petted in your hand for so long, why did you use it to play with him until you destroyed him?

After getting back together with Lin Jin, I can't wait to let everything about him bear my mark.When I think of him being with someone else, I feel like my cabbage has been raped by a pig, and when I think that his current appearance is due to someone else, I really feel distressed and jealous.I told him, don't keep thinking about useless things, and smile at me more, okay?Brother is by your side, so you don't have to worry about so many things. Any action you do to hurt yourself now is disloyal to me. I don't want you to have what others have done to you.I don't know if he understood, but I can't help but say it.I was still angry when he hurt himself, so angry that I wanted to beat him by the collar, and then once he felt that I was going to be angry again, he came over cautiously and rolled up his sleeve to show me the scar on his left forearm , Said that half a year before I returned to China, he drew it on the same position based on memory, and said that he wanted to have the same things as me.I saw that his scar was in the shape of a character Lin, and I couldn't help but think in my heart, this little bastard was born to beat me, right?

After being distracted for too long, when he came back to his senses, Lin Jin had already closed his eyes and fell asleep. The phone dropped on his lap, and his lips were slightly parted to breathe.I turned to look at him, grabbed his hand and shoved it under his clothes.There is a red string on his wrist, tied with beads, which I begged for him. Wearing this, you can live forever and be safe.

I was 23 years old when I returned to China, and he had been wearing this string of beads for more than three years. Although no disaster was prevented, Lin Jin's illness gradually recovered.I can almost proudly say that Lin Jin's character, optimism, cheerfulness, and self-confidence, are all shaped by me.His depression, as well as the little traces left on him by others, have all been erased by me, and now he is all created by me.He said it's okay, he wanted me to occupy everything he had, he said he wanted to live by me.He has not changed in his bones, once he falls in love with something, he is extremely crazy, and he is willing to surrender, even if he loses himself or sacrifices himself, it is worth it.I think fortunately he fell into my hands. Only I have the confidence and ability to accept his love, and I can also have a legitimate and righteous reason to protect him: "I am his brother." At the same time, I am his brother. spouse.

He said that the two of us's views on love are really bad, and if it is released, it will harm the society. I said that we have digested it internally.Lin Jin and I are really a natural fit.

He tilted his head to one side, leaning against the shoulder of the chair.The jade pendant hanging around his neck was exposed from the collar.That was also given to me, and I asked someone to engrave the character Lin.In fact, he doesn't really want to wear so many things on his body. He thinks that red strings and jade pendants are only worn by children.But because I gave them all, he rarely took them down.

"Mmmmmm." He woke up suddenly, opened his eyes and moved around, frowning. "Did you fall asleep?" I asked.As if he had just recovered from another world, he lowered his eyes and stared blankly for a while, then asked in a dazed voice, "Why... haven't you arrived yet."

"You've only slept for a while." I reached out and rubbed the top of his head, "Don't sleep if you don't feel well. Let's go home early tonight and sleep at home."

He was still stunned for a moment, then gradually woke up, and smiled softly: "Hey, I've been so tired recently, I really like to sleep. I just dreamed about a wedding I attended... I don't know if it's Dad's. I saw You got a ring on your finger. I thought I should have one, and then I realized I lost the other one, and you're wearing it on your left pinky. Well, I really..."

"Stop, if you say sorry again, sew your mouth shut." I turned a corner, pointed to the intersection ahead and said to him, "Turn right at the intersection ahead and you will be home. There is a Swarovski shop passing Wanda Plaza before you turn the corner. If we want, we can go in and give the wedding ring before we meet our parents."

"...what?" He lowered his head and hid his face in his clothes, but still raised his eyes, looking out.

"Don't you want it? Otherwise, what does it mean for you to have this dream? I think what you mean is that you want to get married but dare not say it." I deliberately turned into the side road and slowed down before the entrance of the parking lot, "Hurry up Make a decision, there is time."

He muttered vaguely and hesitantly, "Farewell."

"Ok?"

"Farewell!" he yelled, "I thought so, but..." He stopped talking again.I saw his cute look of wanting but not daring to want it, so I couldn't help smiling, and drove along the auxiliary road all the way to the right-turn intersection: "Okay, I won't play with you, come with me after the Spring Festival, and it will be the end of March It's almost ready for you."

"You...all have such strange ideas!" His "objection" was completely lacking in confidence. After subconsciously feeling embarrassed, he quietly grabbed my clothes and said, "Whatever...it's up to you Enough."

How can I have any whim?Lin Jin has been talking about these things for a long time, and I also think that he should be given something to "tie" him. It doesn't matter if he proposes with a ring, or even a wedding for the two of us. And messy relationship.At least when he goes out, people know that he has a family, so there won't be so many messy people trying to get his ideas.

On a rainy night at the end of March 2010, I kissed him with wounds all over my body that had not yet been healed, and since then I have integrated into his other half of life, and he has become my highest dream ever since.I kissed him when he was 16 years old, and it has been 11 years. I can't guarantee that this choice is correct, but no matter what, since we have decided, as the active party, I must be responsible to him.

"Hey, let me tell you." He leaned towards the driver's seat and clasped my hand on the steering wheel, "Brother, will this shadow affect your driving?"

"You know the influence and ask?" I clenched his fingers tightly, and firmly kneaded against his knuckles, "I think, if I don't marry you again, you will be the next one to go on a blind date."

"It doesn't matter." He shook our hands together, "I will still choose you anyway. Even if there are many people around me, I will still push through the crowd and go to you. (He bowed his head and kissed Kiss my fingertips) because you also firmly chose me at all times, so well."

My eyes stayed on his eyes and I almost couldn't move them away. I quickly forced myself to turn my attention to the road, cursed inwardly, thought about it, and pulled his hand to my lips in return.This little brat is so seductive, fuck it.

"Cough." I cleared my throat, and the parking lot at the back door of the community was already in front of me, "Be polite later, be good, and don't embarrass the girl. Don't be too polite, or my aunt will think you are going to grab it from your brother." People. If you dare to flirt with others, you can kneel to me when you get back tonight."

"I know!" He packed his things with one hand, but he was reluctant to let go of the other hand, "I know... your brother has always been very good. Brother is mine, and there is no need to compete with others." He paused for a moment, as if he forgot to say something, then suddenly remembered, turned his head and smiled at me cheerfully, his eyes sparkling, and said: "Mr. Lin, your little baby has always liked you very much. "

"Yeah," I replied, "I love you too." More than anything.

The author has something to say: the next chapter is not the story of the Lin brothers, but the story of the seniors and juniors.