Ant Paradise

"Probably not." He said with a smile, "Probably stay here." Jiale stared at him for a long time, and asked why, "Do you feel happy here?" "No, but I'm used to it. "What are you used to?" Jiale's voice suddenly rose and then fell again, "Are you not happy with your habits?"

Shi Le didn't know how to answer, so he tried to persuade, "You can leave here in the future, you don't have to be wronged anymore, you can be more comfortable, you can speak out what you want, and you can also fight for it. Still, you don’t dare to talk to auntie, don’t be afraid.” He held Shile’s slender wrist, showing almost pleading and longing eyes, and he left, he didn’t have to be an illegitimate child, and he didn’t have to be locked in the room, he should Live in the sun.

"Struggling, fighting, very tired, really tired.", he no longer stays stupid, tears are like a barrier, and only after falling down can he see the truth in his eyes. He is suffering and painful, "There is always something Difficult and rough times, I always feel like I’ve been crushed by something for so many years, Jiale, if you were me, you would understand, a fool has only two choices, or become a cactus, covered in thorns, and anyone who comes will thorn The thorn, maybe it will pierce one day, escape, or become an unknown weed, no one cares, no one cares, it doesn't matter, and being forgotten will save a lot of trouble."

"I can't change anything, go out, leave this is still the same." He sniffed, his eyes were red, and he smiled slightly.Jiale let him go, "Try at least once, get out of here first, and go outside to have a look." Shile didn't speak, he hesitated in his heart, he was tired of fighting, and so was patience. It seems that nothing is easy in the world.Aging is an inevitable and endless wear and tear. Even if it seems that there is nothing to do, no resistance, no deeds, the flesh and blood are still being pulled.

Has he never been proactive once, when he was treated with sneering words, when he realized that his identity was different, and when he couldn't get what he loved, he also had the idea of ​​standing up and reaching out, but his strength was weak, and those voices disappeared over time. Well, that's fine, he told himself.

Just stay here for the rest of your life, live this kind of life, and be self-satisfied.

When he met Jiale, he disrupted Shile's life on track, just like the box of ants, telling him that this is the kind of joy that is not forced, making a gleam of brilliance in the black and white picture.This is also the starting point where Shi Le can no longer deceive himself. He is actually not satisfied and has no joy.

Seeing that he didn't answer, Jiale slumped his shoulders, lowered his head and said, "If I want you to leave." Shile's head was in a daze, his mind went blank, and he just didn't know how to politely refuse He doesn't know how to choose now, Jiale's words add too much weight.

Shi Le had sincerely wished him all the best, but at this moment, he was his wish.

Fireworks were set off again somewhere, and there was a crackling sound. Shi Le looked up at the red and green.In the noisy fireworks, Jiale, who did not wait for an answer, asked him softly, "Do you still want to be an ant?" He seemed to be crying too, and he didn't really look at Shile, he seemed to nod and seemed to have nothing respond.

So he called him Shile.

It's like asking and answering, yes.

He is a long sigh raised in his heart.