Birth of an actor

Light, will face all kinds of tragic experiences, being discriminated against, being chased by the police, being beaten, and being killed. When seeing these plots, what Alan Chambers feels is not joy, but fear from the bottom of his heart, just like It was as if he was the one who suffered all that.

This is a very scary thing, which directly exposes the truth of homophobia that he has been unwilling to admit for many years-homophobia, what is the fear, is it true that homosexuality is sinful and polluting, or is it fear What kind of misery will she encounter after her unchangeable sexual orientation is discovered?That's why it's crazy to cover up and erase?

When Dan White shot Harvey Milk, Alan Chambers felt a great pain when he saw this scene. He saw his own doom in the fate of these two characters.

A conversation popped into Alan Chambers' mind last year when he was preaching "sexual conversion therapy" to his congregation at Exodus's North Carolina rally of a thousand. West appeared, and he and a group of homosexuals came to oppose the event. When Chambers finished preaching and stepped down, Bersie rushed over and asked him loudly.

Percy asked him how many times he and his wife had been married since they got married.

Chambers, who could not lie, replied that he and his wife were in a sexless marriage that was recognized by both parties. They would kiss and hug every day, but they would not have a married life. This was their own choice, and they felt that such a life was very good and happy. .

Bossy asked him, is this what you preach, can sexual orientation be treated and changed?

Under the gaze of thousands of congregants, Chambers found an explanation for himself. He said that sexual orientation can definitely be changed, but change does not mean that there must be sex. The opposite of homosexuality is not heterosexuality. They can choose to convert Religion, dedicating one's body to God, is like Adam and Eve who have not yet tasted the forbidden fruit.

At the time, Bassie looked at him with penetrating eyes and said: "Gay therapy is a lie. You can't really change."

Although the congregation later kicked out Michael Busey and his accomplices, this sentence has always haunted Chambers. Yes, he never really got over his attraction to men, he always had same-sex desires.

Yes in life, watching movies, past, and now.Shots of William Bradley's T-shirt stretched tight against his body, of James Franco swimming, made his heart beat, and he knew the longing was sinful, but he couldn't take his eyes off it.

Alan Chambers finally recognized himself. He prayed to God for more than [-] years, hoping that God would help him change his sexual orientation, but this was doomed to fail.

Perhaps as Michael Busey said, sexual orientation cannot be changed, not even God.

This cognition gave Chambers the feeling that his heart was cut open and exposed to the sun with blood dripping. It was very painful, but after the pain, there was an indescribable sense of pleasure, as if a drowning person finally Rescued, it was like living in a basement for years finally seeing the light of day.

Alan Chambers finally faced the truth, and he will eventually make a choice.

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In Montreal, Quebec, Canada, some people are also experiencing a brainstorm because of "Milk".

"Ouch!" Xavier Dolan whispered, pulled his index finger out of his mouth, and took a closer look under the faint light in the movie theater. Biting his nails while thinking was a problem he had since childhood. Unexpectedly I accidentally bit my nails too short just now, almost biting the flesh.

Xavier Dolan stuffed his index finger into his mouth again to relieve the pain with saliva. At this moment, the screen of the mobile phone flickered suddenly. He opened it and saw that it was a message from his mother, asking where he had been.

' in the toilet. ’ he replied, before dropping the phone into his trouser pocket and not looking at it again.

Xavier Dolan is of course not in the toilet now, he is in the screening room of "Milk", and going to the toilet is just an excuse for him to fool his mother, and he has done so countless times since he was a child - Dolan is often taken to the cinema by his mother Watch a movie, and then he'll sneak out midway, using the excuse of going to the bathroom, and sneak into other screenings.

Including today, Dolan was originally watching "Wedding Crashers" with his mother, but he felt bored halfway through the movie, so he slipped out and found a screening room where "Milk" was playing, and this It is the fourth time he has watched this movie, and he has been alone three times before.

After watching the movie for the fourth time, Dolan even memorized some lines, especially the lines of Leonardo DiCaprio and William Bradley, because these are his two favorite actors.

No, or it could be said that the favorite in this life is almost the same, and this love was almost turned into sadness and resentment before.