The strange classmate next to the bed

Han Sha frowned and looked at Qin Xian.

"Didn't I say it before? During the summer vacation before the university started, I was in a coma for a long time in the hospital, and then I woke up suddenly." Qin Xian didn't know how to say it anymore, his thoughts were confused, and he didn't know what to say.

"The me now is not the real me~! I used to live in this city. One day I went shopping on the street, and a tire hit my head and passed out. After waking up, I became this me. ~!"

The more Han Sha listened, the more complicated his expression became.

"The real me is the person on the tablet just now~! That is my real appearance~!" Qin Xian seemed to exert all his strength, "That is the real me~! But... he is dead, I'm still alive~! I'm... still alive~!"

Qin Xian murmured, broke away from Han Sha's hand, and quickly ran out of the cemetery.

Han Sha's hand suddenly felt empty, and he stood motionless, looking at Qin Xian's running direction with complicated eyes.

Qin Xian panicked and didn't choose his way, he ran wherever there was a road, ran into a small forest, and ran forward aimlessly.

A gust of wind with the smell of salty sea was blowing in front of him, Qin Xian ran out of the grove, and an endless sea appeared in front of him.

He looked around blankly, it was a small deserted beach, the surrounding was quiet, only the sound of wind and sea water.

He stepped slowly on the soft fine sand, standing not far from the seashore, staring blankly at the water level at the intersection of the sea and the sky in the distance, lost in thought, his thoughts were in chaos.

I don't know how much time has passed, but I saw the sun slowly approaching the sea level, and the clouds in the sky were faintly filled with brilliant colors of red, red, yellow and yellow.

Listening to the sound of the waves one after another, he felt a little calmed down.

Suddenly, a familiar voice came from behind: "Hey~! That handsome guy in front of you, you dropped something~!"

Qin Xian froze, turned around, and saw Han Sha standing not far behind him, panting.

He looked at Han Sha's red face covered with sweat, and said softly, "Did something drop?"

Han Sha smiled slightly and said, "Your...boyfriend~!"

Qin Xian was stunned again.

"Do you know? When I was young, my parents often told me that I should study hard, get a good job when I grow up, and then I will be very happy after getting married and having children~" Han Cha looked up at the sky, "At that time , I really don’t understand what they mean, I just thought, anyway, I’m going to school now, it’s okay to study hard, there’s no harm in it.

As I grow older, I don't understand why marriage is happiness~ If marriage is happiness, then why are my parents so unhappy, and later divorced.

Later, I met many people and things, and gradually realized that the reason for happiness in marriage is because you meet someone you like from the bottom of your heart, and marriage is just a means to continue this happiness. Marriage and happiness are not necessarily related. , Finding the right person is true happiness.

Then, one day, my parents suddenly left this world and me.

I have a feeling that the world is going to collapse, however, I met you, maybe because I want to redeem myself, maybe because I want to give myself some hope in life, unknowingly, we became good friends, An important friend in my life.

Then, suddenly one day, you also left me.

To me, that was the end of the world.

I often ask myself why the people I care about leave me and suffer continuously.

I don't have the courage to die, so I can only live alone. As long as I don't love and don't contact others, there will be no joy, let alone sorrow.

To lose, then I don't need to have.

No gain, no loss.

I really think that there is no way I can be happy.

Until I met you, I didn't know why I couldn't run away from you, why I couldn't leave you alone.

Now I know why you resemble him so much.

I... Only then did I realize that it turned out to be the same thing.

This time, I won't miss it again~! "

Han Sha stared deeply at Qin Xian with deep eyes, and said in a firm tone: "I met you, I remember you, this city is naturally suitable for love, and you are naturally suitable for my soul~!"

With his eyes shining under the setting sun, Han Sha said loudly: "Now I am more sure, I, in this life, must be you~!"

Han Sha's words drifted away with the wind, but they echoed in Qin Xian's ear sockets for a long time, and the lingering sound lingered deep into the bone marrow.

Qin Xian took a deep breath, collected himself, and said, "Actually, before we formally dated, I secretly thought about a lot of miscellaneous things.

I don't want to have such a special relationship because of my temporary heartbeat, the beginning of a child's play, this way, whether it is to you or to myself, it is irresponsible.

Then, I wonder why many people can’t easily accept such a relationship. Most people think that such a relationship is not in line with common sense, nor can they get married normally, can’t have children, there is no guarantee, and it won’t last long. .

I held my head in my hand, and all kinds of wild imaginations in my mind, this planet in the universe was not called the earth at one time, and there were no human beings on the earth at one time, and everything in the world has a name after it exists.

All things evolve and develop from scratch. Human beings continue to subvert common sense and innovate continuously, which is the reason for today's technological civilization.

I would think again, what is the concept of a child?

Is it as a tool to carry on the family line?

Is it a capital to show off?

Is it as a guarantee for the end of life?

Is it an accident after the passion or a necessity to maintain the family?

Let’s talk about feelings, whether gay or heterosexual, they are feelings, and feelings need to be paid.

I always feel that love is like an investment, which requires money, time, patience, spirit, etc., just like the "smoking is harmful to health" printed on a cigarette box, all investment advertisements of all sizes will pay with a sentence "investment is risky" '.

Heterosexuals go through the normal procedure, meet and fall in love, get married and have children. They have to face the human etiquette of two families, they have to bear the family's food, rice, oil and salt, and they have to shoulder the responsibility of raising the next generation. This is the ideal state.

Often in reality, derailment, emotional disagreement, and family disputes are fresh and new every day, and family tragedies that are staged every day emerge in endlessly.

There are generally two solutions to a problem in a family. One is that people who are more fearless and put the overall situation first will choose to bear it silently and endure the calm for a while. The other is individualism. Long-term pain is worse than short-term pain, and we will give everyone a chance to be born again.

At this time, the child becomes a double-edged sword, or a lubricant to reconcile family relationships, or become an obstacle and burden to family division and reorganization. Life, continuation, cycle.

Homosexuality, on the other hand, saves a lot of things that need to be framed. It is true that there is no guarantee compared to heterosexuality, but from another perspective, this kind of relationship is much simpler and purer, relying on the relationship between two people To maintain and continue, love is together, not love is separated.

I think a lot, and then I ask myself, what do you think?How do you want to deal with such a relationship?

Most people are always used to living in the expectations of others, in the eyes of others.

Or homosexuals will feel like this. On the one hand, they cannot live in the eyes of most people, and they feel guilt and shame.

On the other hand, I think that most people's attitudes are in line with my own ideas, but in reality, things are counterproductive, and I feel frustrated and frustrated.

The world has the best of both worlds, and it is worthy of Tathagata and worthy of Qing.

Thinking about this and thinking about that at the same time, and then a vicious circle. I can't change myself and hate myself. I'm not happy no matter what.

I can only see it as two roads. If you choose one of them, don’t look back.

I may have spoken too many times, but what I want to say is.

This relationship, I made a decision after careful consideration.

What I discovered just now was so sudden that I was caught off guard, and I didn't have time to accept it for a while.

But this should not be a stepping stone that causes our relationship to break up or even break up, but it should be a problem that we face and solve together. "

After Qin Xian said a lot of words in one breath, he felt a sense of relief, he smiled slightly, and shouted loudly to Han Sha: "Hey~! That handsome pot in the back~! I'm here to claim lost and found~! In the future , I will never lose it again~!"

As the sun sets, the sea and sky are coated with gorgeous colors, the melodious waves whisper, and the cool sea breeze blows in, blowing Qin Xian's hair, and a heartless smile hangs on his soft face.

Han Sha raised the corners of his mouth, squinted his eyes lightly, showing a row of neat white teeth, and couldn't help laughing heartlessly.

In their eyes, no matter how beautiful the scenery is, it is just a blurred background, and what can be seen is only the sharpened and vivid each other.

Han Sha stepped on the soft sand and walked slowly in front of Qin Xian, gently pinching Qin Xian's slender fingers with both hands, lowered his eyes and looked affectionately into Qin Xian's eyes, Qin Xian looked up at Han Sha, his eyes Twinkle.

The four eyes meet each other, with colorful glazed lights, and the waves of eyes flow.

"Now, I really want to kiss you, I really want to hug you~" Han Sha said softly, "Can I kiss you?"

A trace of shyness appeared on Qin Xian's face, and he said softly: "I...I want to too, but...but not now."

As soon as Qin Xian's soft voice fell, Han Sha's kiss fell, and his moist forehead was fragrant.

Before he had time to react, Han Sha said, "You are so cute, I...I can't control it~!"

Qin Xian's face was redder than the setting sun, and he muttered tremblingly, "Here...you will be seen by others~"

"Well, it's fine if we can't see others." Han Sha showed a hearty smile.

Qin Xian began to find that he had no resistance to Han Sha's smile.

Han Sha grabbed Qin Xian's hands a little harder, and said softly, "Okay, then let's go back first."

Qin Xian glanced around, it was getting dark, and the sea breeze was still cool, and nodded to Han Sha.

Han Sha pulled Qin Xian's hand behind his back, took his hand and walked slowly through the woods, out of the cemetery, until he was on the road with cars and people, and then reluctantly let him go under Qin Xian's urging hand.

They hired a taxi, the two of them got into the car, and the car started to move smoothly.

Han Sha stretched out his hand silently, hooking Qin Xian's index finger with his tail finger.

Qin Xian blushed, and looked at the flowing street scene outside the window as if nothing had happened.

In the narrow carriage, there are only pleasant pop songs and the heartbeat that only each other can feel.

Half an hour later, they returned to the neighborhood, had a meal first, and then went home.

The two stepped into the door in silence, closed the door, and turned on the lights in the room.

Han Sha glanced at Qin Xian, walked into the room with his arm, found some clothes, stuffed them into Qin Xian's hands, and said softly, "I've been walking for a long time, go take a bath first."

Qin Xian took the clothes handed over, and replied blankly: "Oh." Then, he turned and walked into the bathroom.

He looked at himself in the mirror, a little dazed, and stayed motionless for a while before slowly taking off his clothes and turning on the faucet.

He felt a little real when the warm water was sprinkled on his body.

While washing, I was thinking about what I discovered today.

As he thought about it, Han Sha's hearty smile filled his mind, and his heart beat inexplicably faster.

Thinking like this, he slowly washed himself clean inside and out.

After half an hour of washing and brushing, I wiped off the water on my body and prepared to put on my clothes.

Qin Xian picked up the clothes, froze for a moment, and muttered in his heart: This black bullet is fatter, isn't it the bag I bought before I went to Han Sha's house for the first time?did i bring itThere is also this T-shirt and shorts, the same set that my senior lent me to wear at the time, why are they here again?

He turned his head and thought about it, Han Sha Na gave it to him, and suddenly realized something, his face turned red like a cherry tomato.

Qin Xian put on his clothes in a complicated mood, and walked out awkwardly.

There was no one in the room, so he walked out of the living room.

The living room is dimly lit, only the seat lamp next to the sofa is on.

Under the dim light, there was a person sitting on the sofa. It was Han Sha. He had already changed into a T-shirt and shorts, and he had obviously taken a shower.

Qin Xian was wearing ultra-shorts, and the T-shirt on his upper body almost covered the pants. It looked like only a pair of slender, white and tender legs were left under the clothes.

Qin Xian walked over slowly with long legs, and sat next to Han Sha.

Han Sha looked at Qin Xian from the beginning to the end, until he sat beside him, looking deeply into Qin Xian's eyes.

Han Sha asked softly, "Is there anything uncomfortable?"

"No...no, I feel much more comfortable after taking a bath." Qin Xian replied softly.

"Yeah." Han Sha replied softly.

The two were silent for a long time.

Qin Xian coughed lightly, looked up at Han Sha's shining eyes, and asked, "Senior, do you really believe what I said? Even I think it's ridiculous~"

Han Sha's eyes flashed between Qin Xian's eyes, and he said seriously: "As long as you say, I will believe it."

"Yeah." Qin Xian looked at Han Sha, with a hint of warmth in his heart, and after thinking about it, he said, "However, now that I think about it, I feel so strange. From the moment the accident happened, my eyes were dark and nothing happened. I don’t know, when I woke up again, I was lying in the hospital like this~!

It was the first time I saw you in the school dormitory~!I've never met you before, let alone befriended you. "

Han Sha shook his head, remained silent for a long time, and said, "Let go of the things you can't figure out, maybe there will be an answer in the future~! Anyway, as long as it's you, as long as you're still by my side, other things don't matter~!"

As soon as the words fell, Han Sha pulled Qin Xian into his arms, looked at his twinkling eyes, and said with a half-smile, "Come on, give me a kiss~!"

Qin Xian widened his star eyes, looked at Han Sha's childish smiling face, his heart was beating non-stop, his face was hot, and his mouth tremblingly replied: "I...I am Pure man~"

"Well, I know~ you are pure milk chocolate~" Han Sha raised the corners of his mouth greatly, took Qin Xian's right hand and pressed it on his left chest, and continued with a smile, "What should I do if I'm not pure? You are all in my heart~"

Qin Xian's heart pounded against his chest violently, his face was so red that he couldn't get any more, and he couldn't make a sound for a while.

Han Sha held the hand on Qin Xian's back, increased his strength a little, Qin Xian fell into his arms, and said softly, "Huh?"

Qin Xian took a deep breath, as if he had made up his mind, moved his hands that were originally on Han Sha's chest to wrap around Han Sha's neck, looked at him with wet eyes, and said softly, "Then I I will eat you~!"

As soon as the words fell, Qin Xian's lips pressed against Han Sha's, pecked heavily, and then looked at Han Sha shyly.

Han Sha couldn't help laughing, hugged Qin Xian with both hands, pressed his lips that had just parted, and kissed Qin Xian hard.

With heavy and rapid breaths one after another, Han Cha sucked Qin Xian's soft, wet|hot lips with all his strength, and supported Qin Xian with both hands, hugging Qin Xian to his lap.

The two of them were facing each other, Qin Xian's long legs were weakly gripping Han Sha's waist buttocks, Han Sha's big warm hands rested on Qin Xian's bulging buttocks, rubbing hard Pinch | with.

"Hmm~~" Qin Xian couldn't help snorting, before he had time to react, Han Sha's thick, wet|slippery tongue grew|driven straight|into it, entangled with Qin Xian's|tongue|head.

When Qin Xian repeatedly felt that he was about to suffocate, he felt that he was about to separate. As soon as his tongue left a little bit, Han Sha's tongue came back again.

Qin Xian was kissed so badly that the sky was dark and the sky was dark.

Han Sha's lips slowly moved down to kiss Qin Xian's chin, and he kissed Qin Xian's neck one by one, staying on the tender|flesh part of Qin Xian's slender neck. The kiss made a tsk-tsk sound.

Qin Xian's sense organs are extremely sensitive, and he can feel balls of fire continuously spreading all over his body, and patches of blush appear on his face.

Han Sha's lips and tongue slowly moved to the base of the ears, and his moist tongue rolled gently to enclose Qin Xian's soft earlobe.

Qin Xian's body trembled for a while, and he couldn't help but let out a soft cry.

Han Sha exhaled heavily, holding Qin Xian's back with one hand and Qin Xian's buttocks with the other, stood up vigorously, hugged Qin Xian tightly and walked slowly into the room, Han Sha stretched out his left hand He closed the door, turned it with his backhand, and with a "click", the door was locked.

Han Sha walked slowly to the bed, slowly bent down, and Qin Xian, who was hanging on him, slowly lay down on the big soft bed.

Han Sha kept kissing Qin Xian's neck with his lips, grabbed his body and pulled the T-shirt off, then pulled Qin Xian's T-shirt over his head, took it off neatly, and threw it to the ground.

Qin Xian couldn't help trembling slightly.

Han Sha moved his lips to the base of Qin Xian's ears, and said in a hoarse voice, "Don't be afraid~"

As he spoke, he took Qin Xian's hand and pressed it on his hot|spicy|spicy left chest|chest, thump~thump~Han Cha's powerful heartbeat seemed to beat hard on Qin Xian's hand.

"I...I'm also very nervous~" Han Cha said in a low voice, "But...I really want to hug you~!"

Han Shana's coquettish words came into Qin Xian's ears softly and softly, and they went back and forth in his mind. The little reason he had left had long since disappeared without a trace, and his throat was sticky and greasy. snorted: "Hmm~"

Han Sha's wet lips gently pressed a kiss on Qin Xian's red face.

Stretched his right hand into the drawer of the bedside table and took out a crystal clear "motor oil"~

Qin Xian looked at Han Sha, and asked in a soft voice: "Learn...Senior, how...how can there be such a thing? You...you know so much?"

Han Sha said with a half-smile on his tender face, "Well, you can prepare your lessons in advance so that you can be on call at any time and adapt to the situation~"

Seeing Han Sha's childish expression, Qin Xian suddenly felt dumbfounded.

At this moment, Han Cha leaned down to look at Qin Xian again, his eyes met, his eyes moved, and he said softly, "I don't want to | make | hurt you~"

After finishing speaking, her lips kissed Qin Xian tenderly.

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