fantasy land

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After a while, Qi Hengzhi stood up and switched to another video.

"Are you ready?"

The camera shakes, and after a moment of blur, the picture gradually becomes clear.

It was a sofa by the window, the sun looked very good, and the sunflowers on the table were beautiful when it was shining down. The girl on the sofa smiled brightly, showing her teeth as white as glutinous rice cakes. With a natural smile, she was a little arrogant: "Can you do it?"

"Okay, okay, how many times have you used it?" The voice of another girl outside the screen was a little unconvinced, and the crisp voice became a little louder, "Come on, Xiaoqi. Let's start!"

It was still the bright laughter of a woman, like a bell, and it took a while to start talking

"Little guy, today is the first day mom found you. Aunt Wan'er just came over to play, so I want to leave you a gift. It's your first day in this world."

The girl in the picture raised her hand and pointed to her abdomen, and her hand gently attached, "Although I can't see anything yet, hahaha"

She smiled again, that kind of cheerfulness from the heart: "But one day, you will grow into a brave child."

"Speaking of which, the reason why I can record this record for you today is because your brother just fell asleep. Don't worry, he is a very responsible brother. I hope you can get along well with him." Yingqi's idea for him He laughed, and then said, "Your father is also a person who has gone. When you come out, he will definitely take you to many places to play."

"But the first person you know, the first person who loves you, is already your mother."

Qi Hengzhi pressed the pause button.

In this empty room, there was the sound of his heavy breathing.

He looked at the faded pen and ink on the film box and wrote "1X83, March. Today is a good day," which was Yingqi's pen and ink, and Qi Hengzhi could recognize it.

His breathing slowed down, as if he was trying his best to infuse himself with oxygen.Qi Hengzhi was born in the winter of 1X83. From the perspective of time, this life is himself.

Landslides and ground cracks, mountains collapse, flying sand and rocks,

He could even feel the disintegrating vibrations in his flesh and bones.

That is pain.

After an unknown amount of time, Qi Hengzhi pressed the play button again.

"Mom has thought about it for a long time, what should I tell you on the first day I met you. Finally, I want to read an article to you. Hahaha, other gifts will be given slowly when you arrive."

"Of all mankind, I have the right to be the first to love you."

Yingqi picked up the book that had been prepared on the side, and stuck out her little tongue in embarrassment.He made a face for the camera.She straightened her clothes again before continuing to read: "They have to see you, know you, know you and decide to love you, but I don't need it. Your smile flies in my dreams, concrete and real. I love You have nothing to boast about, in fact no one can resist the love for a child."

Yingqi's voice was so gentle, she took every word, paused occasionally, then collected her emotions and read slowly, sometimes looking at the camera and sometimes at the book.

Her eyes are so gentle.

Slowly, her voice and eyes seemed to be moistened with a layer of mist.

"When you came, I began to become a thoughtful person. I have never thought deeply about the meaning of life and respected the value of life. For the first time, I was moved by the sanctity and solemnity of life."

"Thank you, little one. I love you."

The video freezes on Yingqi's angelic smiling face.

Qi Hengzhi was still sitting, staring at the screen intently.

Time seems to be passing, the hour and minute hands are ticking.Time seems to have not passed, and decades ago, the sunshine outside the window is still so good, there are cicadas singing and the sound of wind blowing flowers.The light and shadow with flowers and trees in full bloom are the same as the beauty and warmth in the video.

Memory is a reunion.Memory is another kind of meeting.

In the memory, my mother's dry and soft hands brushed his cheeks, held his hands, hugged him, and pressed the same warm cheeks to him, conveying a continuous sense of security to him.

"Xiao Heng, can't you sleep?"

"Come here, Xiaoheng, mother hugs."

"Xiao Heng, happy birthday!"

"Xiaoheng, Xiaoheng. Mom loves you."

Qi Hengzhi was still sitting, looking at his mother.

He found that memory is another kind of meeting. , After almost 30 years of time gap, the truth has not been reduced by half.

That is love.

It is Yingqi's expectation for a new life.It was the first person who loved him before he came into the world, and his mother spoke the language of love.

He laughed, but he cried.

In the small building, Qi Hengzhi watched his mother's video and cried.

He found that this was a longing, and after almost 30 years of time gap, the longing has not been relieved by half.

That is love.

It is Yingqi's expectation for a new life.It was the first person who loved him before he came into the world, and his mother spoke the language of love.

Although 17 years have passed since the accident, Qi Hengzhi originally thought that they were only looking for a truth, just to return justice to their parents.

But it's not true. Losing his parents hurts his elder brother, his younger sister, and hurts his grandparents even more.

Qi Jinzhi doesn't like birthdays, and after her parents' accident, she doesn't celebrate her birthday either.

Every year on the anniversary of the death of his parents, the eldest brother always takes his family to visit the grave, rain or shine.

As for himself, when he was far away in a foreign country, every year on the anniversary of the death of his parents, he would disappear for a period of time, travel alone, or lock himself in a room for a day.

That is the child's longing and grief for their parents melted in their blood.After being cut off 17 years ago, Qi Hengzhi discovered that they had never come out.

This emotion came back to him, to tear, to destroy, to revenge.Go find that goddamn pervert and ask him why!

Then smash it to ashes, tear it into pieces, and let him taste the same pain.

What fairness and justice do you want, what judgment do you want, burn them all, kill them all, pull out their bones, drain every drop of blood from that evil spirit, and make him fall into Avici Hell forever.

That was Qi Hengzhi's weakness and pain.

He looked at the projection and sat silently, letting the pain take root and grow in his heart.

This stagnant time.

The deep pain was like a black ocean, depressing and roaring, the waves were like animal tongues, licking, licking Qi Hengzhi's feet.Lure Qi Hengzhi to jump into unbridled hatred.

Qi Hengzhi looked at it.

"When you gaze into the abyss, the abyss gazes into you"

"squeak……"

There is light, brilliantly tearing through the darkness, and shining into Qi Hengzhi's struggling world.

Someone quietly pushed open the study door and turned on the light.

Qi Hengzhi was ready to shoot with his gun in a second, and then he saw Xie Tiao.

Xie Tiao came to return the book.

After living in the small building, Xie Tiao realized that he had almost no social circle.

After leaving the Fantasy Paradise, he doesn't need to bother with messy things anymore, just like the hidden world, he only needs to worry about his mother and Qi Hengzhi.

In fact, when he left school before, that group of classmates and friends were cut off by him like erasing all traces of himself.At that time, loan sharks used cruel means to collect debts, and Xie Tiao didn't dare to implicate others.

Xiang Hang and Sister Lang still kept in touch with him.Sister Lang still has the kind of mentality of being a knife-mouthed bean curd, and Xiang Hang has been planning to terminate the contract recently because he is almost done paying off the debt, so he is also in a good mood.

Then there is Tini.Because of that accident they became strangely acquainted.

After returning to the northern capital, Xie Tiao made an appointment with Xiang Hang to see Tini. Tini's health was fine. They met in Tini's rental house, and the three of them had a hot pot meal, which made their stomachs plump.

When Xie Tiao peeled the fruit for him, his heart was warm, and he always felt that being alive in this world, being able to show his teeth and claws is also a kind of happiness.

This moment is the time when Xie Tiao returns home after going out for a party, washes up and returns books in the study.

He pushed open the door, and the room was dark with no lights and no sound. He thought no one was there, so he turned on the light casually.

What he didn't expect to see was Qi Hengzhi holding a gun with both hands.

His body was on alert, the thorns all over his body stood up, but his eyes were full of tears, amber that wanted to smash hard.

Qi Hengzhi's tears were silent.

For a moment, Xie Tiao's heart was severely burned by Qi Hengzhi's tears, and the pain reached the bone marrow.

He ran towards Qi Hengzhi.

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Remarks:

The prose passage that Yingqi read to Qi Hengzhi comes from Zhang Xiaofeng's "Lonely and Affectionate"