almost lonely

I thought this Chenchen was Xu Ye's off-campus girlfriend, but later I mustered up the courage to ask him once. Xu Ye only said that he was a neighbor's younger brother who was also studying in this city, with an expression that he didn't want to talk about it.She pointed to the vibrating mobile phone: "Aren't you going to answer the phone?" Xu Ye didn't say a word. He lowered his head and finished eating the cake on the paper plate before taking the mobile phone out of the store.

Xu Ye lit a cigarette and answered the phone: "Hello?" Ning Juechen obviously breathed a sigh of relief: "I'm sorry Brother Ye! I'm late for something, have you already eaten?" When it comes to the fire in Xu Ye's heart He went straight up, and he waited for Ning Juechen until seven o'clock, when he was caught having a dinner party and just drinking, he just stuffed a small piece of cake into it: "Then I'm still waiting for you? You see for yourself what time is it?" gone?"

Ning Juechen said sorry several times, and then said cautiously: "I'm downstairs in your dormitory, are you in the dormitory? Can you... come down for a while?" "No." Ning Juechen didn't know how to answer it.He asked with some embarrassment: "then where are you now, can I find you?"

Xu Ye thought that when Ning Juechen came, he would probably be knocked unconscious by those innocent children, and his tone of voice was a bit harsh: "Forget it, I'll go back." Ning Juechen was very obedient and hummed for two Voice: "Okay, then you slow down, don't rush."

As soon as Xu Ye went back, he saw Ning Juechen standing under the street lamp in a suit from a distance, his shadow was stretched narrow and long, holding a cardboard box in his hand, he just stood there stupidly and didn't play with his phone.He walked over, glanced at Ning Juechen up and down, and suddenly felt an indescribable passion in his heart: "Why are you dressed like this?"

Ning Juechen tugged at the cuffs of his shirt uncomfortably: "I have an interview today." He is thin, and this formal suit doesn't really fit him well. Both the shirt and the jacket are a bit too big.I was not very confident in the first place, and I was even more embarrassed to be asked by Xu Ye.

"I didn't mean to let you down! I thought the interview would be over in the afternoon, but I didn't expect that there would be so many people, and the lottery was the last few, and it wasn't until six o'clock. The company was a bit far away. After the interview, I I went back to school and ordered a cake at the cake shop yesterday, but it was too late when I went back, and the cake shop was closed... Actually, I sent you a message after two o'clock! I found out later that I didn't send it, sorry."

Ning Juechen's voice lowered little by little. He thought that Xu Ye might not want to hear his long-winded explanations, but it was a pity that the cake, the more expensive ice cream cake he specially ordered, was because Xu Ye didn't like it. eat cream.In fact, Xu Ye is no longer angry, but habitually wants to insult him: "Is your broken mobile phone still working? I've told you several times to replace it with a new one. It's not that I didn't give you money."

Ning Juechen pursed his lips. He wanted to say that this time it was not the problem of the mobile phone, but the poor signal in the building over there. After thinking about it, he felt that there was no need to argue with Xu Ye about this. He stuffed the cardboard box in his hand to Xu Ye: "No I brought the cake but the gift! Happy birthday, brother Ye!" Xu Ye took a look at the street light, it was a brand new switch console: "You still know this?" Ning Juechen seemed to like him, and finally thought Slightly lightened, he lowered his head and smiled shyly: "That... I saw it was reposted in your circle of friends."

Xu Ye didn't let Ning Juechen go back that night.He took off his suit jacket roughly, unbuttoned his shirt, and pulled off his tie, as if eager to unwrap a beautifully wrapped present.

Ning Juechen's eyes flashed in Xu Ye's mind again, which made him feel extremely panicked.His "person in heart" is obviously Lu Juelan, and has always been Lu Juelan! ——However, Xu Ye couldn't convince himself that he hadn't contacted Lu Juelan for more than a month, but half an hour ago he was still angry at Ning Juechen's lateness!

Xu Ye couldn't figure it out, and he couldn't understand himself, so he could only turn the unknown fire in his heart into an unruly and brutal collision. At the beginning, Ning Juechen could still whimper and beg for mercy in a low voice, but in the end, he just There was only an inaudible breath left.The room was in a mess, coats, trousers and underpants were all thrown on the floor, and shirt buttons were torn off, and a few used covers fell off the side of the trash can, the kind of miscellaneous goods specially provided by express hotels.

The company I was interviewing for that day was far away from the school. Ning Juechen got up early in the morning. He was extremely nervous all day long, and he was already exhausted after going back and forth a few times.Xu Ye didn't give him a chance to relax, and his actions were extremely fierce without any warmth at all. In the end, Ning Juechen lay silently, staring at the dark ceiling with dazed eyes, feeling like he was dying.

Xu Ye originally wanted to light a cigarette, but when he checked his trousers pocket, he found that the cigarette case was empty. He glanced at the crumpled shirt on the ground, and asked casually, "Hey, what kind of test are you taking? Do you want to keep it?" Here?" Ning Juechen was so tired that he could barely open his eyes: "Everywhere is the same... Brother Yi, what about you?" Ning Juechen had no place he wanted to go, and there was no place to go.Xu Ye thought for a while: "Lianshi, probably." "Lianshi...then I'll try, try." Ning Juechen murmured half asleep, "Just wait for me!"

——"Happy Birthday, Brother Yi!"

——"Brother Yi, happy birthday."

——"You wait for me!"

——"Then you, wait for me."

Xu Ye was pulled out of this too real dream by the ringtone of his mobile phone, it was his mother who called, asking him what he wanted to do for half a year after he left, and when he would return to Lianshi.Xu Ye didn't speak, just hung up and turned off the phone.I felt dizzy, my eyes were spinning even when I closed my eyes, and I had no strength at all.He coughed hoarsely for a while, then reached out to touch the place beside him. It was empty and there was no one there, so he woke up instantly.

"Don't look for him, he's gone." Lu Juelan sat cross-legged on the bay window and clicked the lighter, and the jumping flames flickered and disappeared, making his whole body bright and dark, which seemed extraordinarily unreal. "...What?" Xu Ye didn't want to understand and didn't dare to understand what he meant by "not here anymore".Lu Juelan raised her chin towards the head of the bed: "He left you a letter and disappeared after writing it."

In fact, it wasn't a letter at all, it was just a message written on the back of the old photo: [It can finally end.I haven't done anything bad, maybe I did in my previous life, that's why I have such a hard time in this life.But I think that no amount of debt should be paid off.The last sentence is to lie to you.I don't want to meet you again Brother Yi.In this life and in the next life, I don't want to. ]

Xu Ye read it line by line, and he knew every word, but he couldn't read them together.He turned the photo over. In the photo, he was wearing a bachelor's uniform. Ning Juechen was leaning against him, smiling with his eyes crooked, and making a silly gesture with scissors.

"It's fake, it won't be true, he said we'll wait for him, we've agreed..." Xu Ye first held the photo and said to himself, then turned around stiffly and looked at Lu Juelan blankly, "Yes Didn't you write it?! Tell me you wrote it!" Lu Juelan said lightly: "Don't you know his handwriting?"

Xu Ye seemed to have exhausted all the strength in his body. He pressed the photo to his heart, knelt down on the ground, and repeated subconsciously: "No, it's impossible..." Lu Juelan lit up the gun in his hand for the last time. Huo Guang: "I'm free, so is he." Xu Ye's dead eyes flashed a glimmer of light, he touched the cabinet next to him to stand up, and staggered towards the door: "He's awake! Is he awake already?"

Lao Zhao pulled this strange passenger at the entrance of the Central Hospital.Driving alone in the middle of the night is easy to get sleepy. He stuffed two mints into his mouth, and when he looked up, he was frightened by the people who stopped the car on the side of the road and slammed on the brakes.The man in front of him was tall and thin like a pale ghost, which could be blown through by a gust of wind.

The first thing he said after getting on the bus was: "Go to Baile Lane." Old Zhao was stunned: "That piece has been demolished, and it is now a wasteland." Looking erratic: "I know." Lao Zhao panicked in his heart: "Are you... all right?" Xu Yi nodded: "Drive, master."

The area from Baile Lane to Baiyun Building was completely demolished the year before last, but there have been disputes over the land that have not been resolved, and construction has not started for a long time. It has been deserted for more than two years, and now only a piece of fragmented ruins remain.Old Zhao watched the passenger who got on the bus at the hospital walk into the dark Baile Lane alone, feeling a little nervous.

Xu Ye entered from the east, walked through the black sand and rubble, the second house was Chenchen's house, and the innermost house was grandma's house.The old osmanthus tree in the yard was cut off by the roots, leaving only a short and fat tree stump.

Xu Ye sat down against the tree stump, and suddenly felt that ten years passed by in a hurry, like a dream.He still held the photo in his hand, but he didn't dare to read the words on the back anymore, any word in it was enough to break his heart again.

"Grandma, I lost Chenchen, and he doesn't want me anymore." His eyes were sore and painful, but no tears came down, "He won't wake up, what should I do?"

He closed his eyes tiredly, and time seemed to be able to go backwards in the darkness: the broken walls and ruins were restored to old low houses, the branches of osmanthus trees covered the sky, and the stone bricks in the courtyard were covered with golden osmanthus flowers when it rained in autumn .And he was wearing a school uniform, riding a bicycle and waving goodbye to grandma, then stopped at the second house on the east side of Baile Lane, and met Ning Juechen for the first time...

——The world without you is so empty, why is there a wind in my heart in the warm spring.The sky became very blue, the grass at the entrance of the hospital was very green, and the hospital downstairs