My brother is so strong, I am also disappointed

I built a high wall in my heart, tried hard to hide, tried my best to avoid related people and things, and tried to bury a dead person forever.

I built another iron cage, stuffed all my emotions into it and locked it up, neither listening nor seeing nor thinking about it, so I survived these three days.

I feel that I am very powerful and very trustworthy.I didn't cry, I didn't collapse, I didn't blame myself, I didn't run around, I didn't pull weeds, I didn't eat sugar, I did it all!Maybe I can still be like this forever, I become calmer, more self-restraining, stronger, and after several years or decades, I will write the final chapter with ruthlessness and forgetfulness, isn't that good?

But all my efforts were instantly ruined by Yan San's question and the name he blurted out——

He asked me, "What about twelve?"

I just felt that something collapsed around me, and the rumble resounded in my ears, and the rocky house fell, and the truth buried in the dusty ruins was exposed.

What is real?

It was a bright red and dazzling blood that suddenly appeared in the ice and snow that was white to the eye.

It was the figure in the trance and phantasm covered with flying snow.

It is "I'm leaving" that lingers in the last sentence.

I regretted telling Dr. Liu that it didn't hurt anymore. I clearly felt pain even when I was breathing, and it was so painful that I couldn't speak.

Xia Yu spoke for me again: "You can know the situation in the underground palace at a glance! Why do you..."

"You let him talk!" Yan San was no longer calm, and pointed at me, but glared at Xia Yu, "Your brother was lost and found, where is my brother?!"

"Think about how crazy you were last night, there should be a limit to selfishness!"

"We fought for this. Old nine didn't come back, twelve didn't come back, and fifteen didn't come back. Don't we feel sad?! We sent people to search the mountains but there was no target. How difficult it is to find a needle in a haystack! Xia Lin, you know that twelve Where, only you know where he is!"

"Twelve, he is looking for you, now you are back, what about others?!"

What about others?

how could I know?

He said he was leaving, and disappeared from my sight without telling me where he was going.

In the end, it was Mo Yuanshan who said that he was in that valley.

Mo Yuanshan said that he would sleep forever among the snow-covered mountains and rocks, and his flesh and blood could only become a part of the snow-covered mountains.

But what that guy said is true or false, can you believe it?

I don't believe it, how can I sleep in such a cold place?

In that valley facing the wind, the ice that never melts all year round, the snow that never stops all day long, and the vast expanse of whiteness must be very cold, even if you are healthy enough to run around in unlined clothes in the first month, you have been in such a cold place for a long time , and probably get sick too.

No fool would sleep there.

"Speak up!" Yan San's voice was half hoarse when he shouted, and he took two steps forward, as if trying to catch me.

"Don't touch him!" Xia Yu led me back.

Yan San rushed over relentlessly, and Doctor Liu failed to stop him. Xia Yu was not his opponent in the first place, and he couldn't use it even if he was still holding me.Yan San only patted Xia Yu away with one hand while passing Xia Yu sideways, and grabbed my collar with the other, holding me in his hand.

Xia Yu was sent flying sideways by his palm, unable to move for a moment.

I was forced to look up, but I didn't dare to look into Yan San's eyes.

"Tell me, where is Twelve? Where did he disappear? If you want to see people, you need to see dead bodies, otherwise this matter will never end!"

"Ah..." I tried to find my voice, but what I said was something I didn't even know what it meant, "Wait a minute... I can't die yet, just keep my breath and my right hand, everything else is fine .”

"what are you saying?"

"I said—to be a man, one must keep one's word. I promised others, but there is still work to be done—"

"I asked you where Twelve disappeared!"

"Just... on the other side of the cliff is a deep valley with snow... During which, the evil wind gusts and there is no way to enter..." I don't know where it is, but I suddenly remembered what Mo Yuanshan said He quickly recited two sentences, but he forgot what the last sentence was.

As I said that, a black flowstone beach appeared in front of my eyes. Those stones formed a long river. Countless black stones were rolling like a river, and the rolled up waves chased after each other. ring.The sunlight that day was very white, colder than the moonlight, and there was no warmth in the human body, but there was a smiling face that I worked hard to make in front of me, no, not in front of me, a little far away, but I could also see it. It is very clear, even a small fang bared on the left and right sides can be seen clearly.

Then disappeared, and he turned and swam upstream, out of my sight.

I wanted to call him back, and wanted to urge him to run away, but I still couldn't make a sound, couldn't raise my hand, couldn't take a step, so I just watched him make his own choice.

……

It took me a long time to remember who I was.

Fortunately, no one asked me questions anymore, so it didn't matter if I took my time, and I spent a long time wondering where I was and why I was here.

I was lying on my back with my eyes looking straight up. The house was not well-built, the black earth-fired tiles were not beautiful, and the beams looked rough, and they might fall down and kill me.

Time seemed to be stretched and slowed down. I felt like I had spent a whole day thinking about these things, but when Dr. Liu came to see me, he told me that I was going to have lunch soon.

It's only half a day.

I was worrying about the half a day I needed to spend, when Dr. Liu told me that I could only have porridge for lunch when others had lunch.

"No sugar."

"it is good."

I didn't say the reason, and Dr. Liu didn't ask, he's so kind.

He also told me that my mother personally cooked a table of dishes for my father yesterday, and my father had diarrhea today, and he didn't dare to tell my mother, so he secretly came to Dr. Liu to give him a few needles.

"Yesterday..."

"It was the day before yesterday." Doctor Liu knew what I wanted to ask again, "You haven't had a good rest for a long time."

"I... I was wrong."

"It's okay, the person sent out to search the mountains will come back in a few days, don't worry, he won't ask you again." Doctor Liu said, brushing away a strand of hair that I accidentally ate into my mouth, "I I'd rather you were still the same as before, just let it go if you cried or made a fuss over something."

But now I can't cry at all, like I want to sleep but can't sleep, suffering from being awake, and suffocating from being calm.The thing in the chest is too heavy, I can't say why, but it's not just because of one person.

I didn't follow Doctor Liu's words: "Where's my brother?"

"Still fighting against Yan San in the yard." Doctor Liu smiled, "Yiyang rarely meets someone stronger than himself, so he was very happy to be beaten."

"..." I actually forgot that Xia Yu is different from me. He has always been a person who likes to compete in martial arts everywhere. This time, meeting an opponent can actually arouse his fighting spirit.

I suddenly felt very lonely, the world was so big, and I was the only salted fish.