If love ever comes back

Dai Jiarui was hugged by Wang Xiaotian for a while in a daze, and then sent to his room by Wang Xiaotian without saying a word, and then he had no dreams all night.When he woke up the next day, Wang Xiaotian had already gone out, still leaving a warm breakfast.But when I came back at night, I didn't see Wang Xiaotian, I didn't answer the call, and I returned after a long time, and I was still working overtime on WeChat. It might be very late.Dai Jiarui waited for a long time, and fell asleep on the sofa because he couldn't bear it anymore. Recently, he has been working really hard.When Wang Xiaotian came back, he gently carried the person into the room, put him on the bed, resisted his urge to kiss the person, went out to wash and tidy up lightly, and then went to bed.The next day, he still left before Dai Jiarui got up.

Dai Jiarui sighed, knowing that Wang Xiaotian was avoiding him these days.He also no longer made several phone calls to ask Wang Xiaotian when he would be back like he did in the first two days. After he came back at night, he still had a little time to start packing his things.In fact, there are not many, but it took a lot of time to pack it up.It seems that this house that has only been lived in for a few months is full of memories.Dai Jiarui felt that he was also a terrible person, he was as reluctant to leave the house where he lived with Feng Yiran before leaving, and now he is the same when he leaves Wang Xiaotian's house.But he couldn't restrain the sadness of leaving in his heart, Dai Jiarui felt that he was going to be forced to death by himself.Obviously, he had made up his mind to keep a distance from Wang Xiaotian, but when Wang Xiaotian disappeared spontaneously, he was very disappointed.Yes, not a little lost, really very lost.Even if you keep convincing yourself that you finally have a friend, you will feel lonely if you lose it suddenly, but you still can't lie to yourself.Dai Jiarui knew that he cared about Wang Xiaotian very much.The time is wrong, the place is wrong, so even if the person is right, everything is still wrong.Dai Jiarui kept telling himself this, but found that his heart was getting more and more bitter.

It took a few days to pack everything up, and it was the weekend.Wang Xiaotian was still not at home, saying he was on a business trip for a week, and left on Thursday.Dai Jiarui guessed that maybe Wang Xiaotian just didn't want to see him anymore, so when he wanted to move, he couldn't help feeling even more uncomfortable.However, the rented commercial vehicle driver had already called several times, and Dai Jiarui lowered his head and seriously moved the luggage downstairs one by one.After staying in this city for so many years, what can be left in the end can't even fit a commercial vehicle.

After thinking for a long time, the key was not placed in the mailbox after all, and I still felt that it was not safe, so I planned to find a chance to return it to Wang Xiaotian in person, or treat him to a meal to thank him for his care during this time.When Wang Xiaotian said those words that day, Dai Jiarui wanted to pretend that he didn't know, but he couldn't. It would always be embarrassing to see you later, so maybe after thinking about it, he might not be able to eat this meal.Sitting in the car, Dai Jiarui sighed again, but he didn't know what he was sad about—was it because he lost a friend who was sincerely with him?But Wang Xiaotian has already made it clear that he is not a friend to him at all.Is that losing someone who loves me?But it is obvious that he rejects this relationship at all, Dai Jiarui thinks that he doesn't want to talk to anyone now.But he still sighed all the way, even the driver couldn't help but look at him a few more times.

I left a message to Wang Xiaotian on WeChat, asking when it would be more appropriate to return the key, and Wang Xiaotian asked him to hand over to Xiao Zhang of their company if it was installed—Xiao Zhang is the team leader of Wang Xiaotian’s company who has been in charge of this project, two people I usually have a lot of contact with work.Dai Jiarui was a little worried, "How about letting someone else hand over the key?"

"You wrapped it and sealed it and no one knows what it is. He will send it to my office directly when he gets it. Don't worry." Wang Xiaotian ignored Dai Jiarui's request to return the key by himself.

Seeing Wang Xiaotian say this, Dai Jiarui was a little embarrassed, always felt that his love had a cold ass, but he had nowhere to get angry, so he could only humbly agree.After giving the things to Xiao Zhang, he told Wang Xiaotian on WeChat, but this time he did not receive a reply.Dai Jiarui felt that he was quite hypocritical - he clearly rejected Wang Xiaotian, and he kept a distance from him but he didn't want him to really leave his world.This kind of cheap scumbag made Dai Jiarui embarrassed for a long time, but he couldn't stop.Dai Jiarui was a little anxious, not knowing what was wrong with him.

If he really fell in love with Wang Xiaotian and couldn't let go, maybe Dai Jiarui would be able to throw himself into his arms ruthlessly, but he still felt in his heart that he was just "more than a friend, but not a lover", and he didn't want to make promises or let him go. Is this to make Wang Xiaotian a spare tire?Thinking of this, Dai Jiarui really didn't even want to read the overtime report, and was deeply worried about his character.

After going through the busiest stage of work in the early stage, everything was on the right track, but it was much easier, and the time and intensity of overtime work were less.Back in the empty rental house, Dai Jiarui suddenly felt that he was a failure—the person he loved for 12 years left quietly, and the person who loved him for 12 years also left quietly. 12 years?Dai Jiarui suddenly remembered this matter.I have been entangled in whether to love or not, and whether to leave or not. It was only when I finally got free these days that I suddenly discovered this BUG.Dai Jiarui believes that Wang Xiaotian is definitely not talking nonsense, but he really can't remember any intersection between himself and Wang Xiaotian.

12 years.

Wang Xiaotian is only 25 years old now, which has occupied almost half of his time so far. During the years of ignorance when he was born, Dai Jiarui almost occupied his entire life.Dai Jiarui didn't know when they met, he didn't know how he fell in love with him, and he didn't know how Wang Xiaotian could love alone for 12 years.Looking at what he said before, it is clear that that person is also a matter between himself and Feng Yiran, so that he can continue to love himself. Dai Jiarui is lying when he says that he is not moved, but he is still more confused.

In the past, Dai Jiarui always acted like a baby in front of Feng Yiran and said, I gave you my whole life.

He was able to fall in love with Feng Yiran at the age of 16, and they have been in love for 12 years.

But according to Wang Xiaotian, he fell in love with him when he was 13 years old.At that time, he was just a little devil in junior high school, and he was able to face up to his love for a same-sex.Dai Jiarui suddenly felt a little distressed, he was too aware of the pain and helplessness in the process of recognizing his own sexuality.He had a crush on Feng Yiran and was confessed not long after, but the 13-year-old Wang Xiaotian had a crush on him for 12 years, how did he survive it alone?

Dai Jiarui had no way of knowing all this.