sip the sky and you

A few days later, Cheng Yin and Li Yu met Shu Yao at the door again.

She stood with several girls, her head slightly lowered, her face flushed.

Cheng Yin pointed at her with a smile, "Look, Shu Yao has changed a lot. She can wear girlfriends outfits with the girls in her class. I heard that people in her class didn't pay much attention to her."

Li Yu looked over, and sure enough there was a tall girl wearing the same dress as Shu Yao.Several girls were chatting and laughing, looking at the atmosphere in a good mood.

Li Yu smiled, "Very good."

But he was still a little surprised that Shu Yao was able to make friends so quickly, so he unconsciously stood there and watched for a while.Cheng Yin knew that he cared about Shu Yao, so he didn't move, and stood there waiting for him.

After watching for a long time, Li Yu could see something was wrong.

Shu Yao remained silent, but the other girls were smiling and talking to her alone.Shu Yao's complexion has turned from red to white, and she is at a loss.

He frowned, hesitating a little.Cheng Yin tugged at him, "Let's come closer and listen to what they are saying."

Li Yu tapped his toes on the ground, but followed Cheng Yin and walked over.

I heard it before I got too close, and the tall girl said to Shu Yao with a smile: "Shu Yao looks good in clothes."

The other continued, "Shu Yao is thin." He reached out and patted her on the head, "It's so cute."

"I'll go back and change it at noon." The tall man continued, "Compared to Shu Yao, I'm so ugly."

Several girls kept laughing.

However, Li Yu felt that their tone of voice was weird and their expressions were subtle.Li Yu couldn't stand Shu Yao standing there with her hands down, looking out of place.

He sighed in his heart, walked over, and said to Shu Yao: "I solved the math problem you asked me last time. Now go to the classroom, and I will explain it to you."

Shu Yao looked at him blankly, and whispered, "Li Yu?"

Li Yu nodded, "Let's go now. Didn't you say that if you don't solve the problem, you won't be able to sleep well?"

The tall girl glanced sideways at Li Yu, smiled and said to Shu Yao with an affectionate look: "Have you worked so hard lately? I fell in love with studying and don't even look at your little brother anymore?"

Shu Yao shook her head.

The atmosphere was just too weird.Cheng Yin couldn't hold back and gave Shu Yao a hand, "Let's go, we're going home for dinner soon after the lecture!" Then he pushed Shu Yao and strode away, turning around and waving to the tall man, "Let's go first!" ha!"

Li Yu followed behind, nodded politely to the girls, but noticed the vague and weird smiles on their faces.

After walking away, Cheng Yin put down his hands and glanced behind, the girls had already walked away.

"Are they bullying you?" Cheng Yin asked Shu Yao.

Shu Yao shook her head and looked at Li Yu with obvious confusion.

Li Yu was a little embarrassed, "You look a little strange, are you okay?"

At this time, Shu Yao lowered her head, as if she was thinking seriously, and it took several seconds before she opened her mouth.

"They want me to be with them. But I don't think it's acceptable and I don't know what to do."

Li Yu hummed, and asked her: "With them, do you mean to make friends with you?"

Shu Yao nodded and shook her head slightly.She looked at Li Yu with a confused and puzzled expression, "I don't quite understand why they are going to be with me all of a sudden. I find it strange that several people came to talk to me on their own initiative."

Li Yu turned his head and looked at Cheng Yin.Those girls he just glimpsed looked really weird, eager to accept another unwelcome person?No, it's not like that.

Li Yu intuitively thought that their motives were not pure, but he couldn't tell what bad intentions a few high school girls could have.

"Are you in the same class?" Cheng Yin asked.

"Only Chen Zhixin and I are in the same class. The tallest one. The others are her friends. I just met them recently."

Li Yu said, "Don't you like them?"

Shu Yao smiled, with a helpless tone: "They are together every day, but it seems that there are only a few of them."

She said softly again: "I don't really want to do that."

Li Yu felt sour for a while, loneliness and self are two concepts.

I think of Yu Hua's words: I would rather return to loneliness than give up my dignity in exchange for superficial friends.

It's even more meaningless to hug a group to keep warm.

Shu Yao lowered her head, "One person is pitiful, but a group of pitiful people together is hopeless."

"Let there be light." Cheng Yin said.

Li Yu smiled, and Cheng Yin also laughed.

"If you don't want to make friends with them, just refuse." Li Yu said, "I told you before that you can ask me if you have any questions. It is sincere."

Shu Yao looked at him, and Li Yu nodded to her.

"Thank you." Shu Yao bit her lip and whispered, "I'm really sorry to hear that I said such inexplicable things."

"It's okay. I was the one who called you over." Li Yu smiled and said, "Go back and have lunch."

After Shu Yao left, Li Yu and Cheng Yin also hurried back.

Li Yu laughed, "Why did you suddenly say 'Let there be light'?"

Cheng Yin squeezed her chin, "God said: 'Let there be light, and there will be light'. It sounds so easy for God to create the world, but it is not easy for human beings to live. But each of us lives in our own world. I am the god in this world. When you are in the boundless darkness, no matter how desperate you are, you must say to yourself: 'Let there be light.'”

Cheng Yin couldn't help but also laughed, "See if I look more and more like you. I've become educated in speaking."

Li Yu rolled his eyes at him.

Let there be light, and there is light.

Of course, the most touching sentence is not light, but so.An understatement so, effortlessly bright.

God creates things by "word", what do people use to keep the light?

Sometimes when I wake up in the morning, I see the red sun.Open the door, walk through the corridor, and the daylight stretches along the white walls. At first, it is a piece of light, then turns into a few beams of light, and finally disappears, leaving only darkness.

The sun can't shine through the cold buildings, and the light doesn't seem to be able to reach all places.

Li Yu is always so sad.He has not yet learned Cheng Yin's view of creation:

Build your own world by yourself.If you want light, trees, and seas, take them yourself.

Li Yu unconsciously covered his abdomen with his hands.It's been weird lately, my stomach hurts all the time.

After walking for more than ten minutes, Li Yu didn't speak any more.Cheng Yin wanted to say something, so he turned his head to look at Li Yu, only to find that his face was not in a good mood and his lips were pale.

"What's wrong?" Cheng Yin patted his waist lightly, "Are you uncomfortable?"

"It's okay. My stomach hurts a bit. It's not serious. It will be fine in a while." Li Yu forced a smile at him.

In fact, the situation is not too good, Li Yu is very uncomfortable.An empty, sometimes intense burning sensation in the stomach, similar to hunger, but much worse.Even when he was simply walking, he felt as if his stomach was shaken violently and he became dizzy.

There was no strength in his whole body, and he was even more tired when he walked.

"Are you hungry? Let's hurry up, your mother must be ready to cook and wait for you." Cheng Yin gave him a hand, "It should be fine after eating and taking a nap."

Li Yu hummed.It is hard to avoid bitterness in my heart.

It's a pity that his mother could have prepared a meal and waited for him.

After divorcing his father, even his son seldom intervened.She is now completely immersed in her own musical world.

In my impression, my mother was gentle and elegant when I was young, and she was elegant and moving no matter where she was.The food, rice, oil, and salt have nothing to do with her. The rice is cooked by her father, and the pot is washed by her father with Li Yu playing with bubbles.

But Li Yu likes to see her playing the piano.

He was still a child at that time, his father held him in his arms, put a copy of "Oscar Wilde's Fairy Tales" on his lap, and the two read slowly together.My mother practiced the piano ecstatically, and sometimes sang songs.He couldn't help but read a book for a while and then quietly turned his head to look at his mother. Seeing her intoxicated appearance felt novel and sacred.

Like Li Yu, she lives alone now.But she dedicated everything to music, lived in her own ivory tower, completely forgot herself, and almost forgot her son.Just a little bit, she was able to completely shake off his little burden, but this blood relationship involving flesh and blood was still hindering her, making her distressed.

And Li Yu didn't know whether to blame her or not.

Almost at the gate of the community, Cheng Yin asked him again: "Are you feeling better?"

Li Yu pursed his lips tightly and nodded.

"Go back to eat quickly. I'll go up first." Li Yu said.

Cheng Yin glanced at him again, "Okay. If you're still not feeling well, take some medicine. Call me in the afternoon and I'll ask for leave for you."

Li Yu smiled gratefully at him, "It's fine."

"Then I'll go first." Cheng Yin leaned forward, still looking at him.

"Okay. Goodbye." Li Yu shook his hand.

Cheng Yin turned around and left.

Li Yu clutched his stomach and slowly walked to the nearby Family Mart.

Although he didn't have any appetite at all, thinking that it would be worse if he didn't eat because of a stomachache, he still ordered a tomato beef rice.

Although he has been living alone, Li Yu has always been ignorant of cooking skills, at most he can only cook instant noodles.If he barely cooks a meal, it will take him two or three hours, so he has no choice but to give up cooking by himself.

But he didn't like restaurants. Those small square tables were piled neatly or scattered in the store, and they were filled with all kinds of people.Either someone is sitting alone in a corner, staring at the phone and giggling, or there are groups of three or four overflowing the table with laughter.

But those opposite tables—tables that require several people to fill—always make him feel panicked, and make him feel that the boundless loneliness in his heart will be ruthlessly seen through in an instant.

The little family downstairs was his refuge.The narrow table was against the wall, and there were beautiful stickers on the wall. It was a great comfort to him to be able to sit in a corner by himself.

Li Yu raised the spoon, scooped up the rice one by one, and delivered it to his mouth.Cold sweat oozes from the forehead, his stomach hurts so that his brows are frowned, but he repeats the action of eating mechanically.

After eating, buy a box of painkillers, Li Yu thought.