sip the sky and you

When they got downstairs in the community, Li Yu stopped and said to Cheng Yin: "I'll go up first, see you in the afternoon."

"Okay, bye." Cheng Yin stretched out his hand and shook it.

Li Yu didn't go upstairs directly, but turned and went into a convenience store downstairs.Sitting in front of the short table in the store, watching the heat of the curry chicken rice rise, Li Yu suddenly felt a little uncomfortable.

He likes to have lunch in a convenience store. He sits alone at a small table, facing the wall, forming a very safe area.But just thinking of the warm and delicious red bean cake in the morning made him feel that the food in front of him was hard to swallow.The power of contrast is amazing.

Li Yu held his breath and quickly finished his meal, and went upstairs to go home.

The first period in the afternoon is English class.The English teacher is a slightly fat lady. She introduces herself as Marina to everyone she sees. She usually likes to wear gold necklaces and gold watches.

When Marina was flying passionately in front of the podium, the back door opened with a bang.

Fang Yuan walked in with a schoolbag on one shoulder, with a dejected face.

Marina frowned, "That classmate, what's the matter with you?"

"Overslept." Fang Yuan didn't lift his head, and walked straight to the seat.

"Can you come earlier next time?" Marina asked coolly.

Fang Yuan threw the schoolbag on the table, and said weakly: "Yes."

Cheng Yin's heart thumped, tsk, Fang Yuan didn't take his brains today, why the hell is this so cool?

Sure enough, Marina's expression changed immediately.Before Fang Yuan sat down, she lowered her face and asked very seriously: "What's your name?"

The classroom was surprisingly quiet, Fang Yuan stared at the teacher for five seconds full of viciousness.

Before the gunpowder smoke ignited, Brother Fang's style of painting changed abruptly, he bowed crookedly, and said uselessly, "Teacher, I was wrong."

Marina snorted and glanced at him, "Hurry up and sit down and listen to the class."

Fang Yuan sat down half dead, took out his English textbook after a long time.Seizing the opportunity, Cheng Yin threw a ball of paper over.Fang Yuan spread out the paper: Are you eating shit?He immediately glared at Cheng Yin.

Cheng Yin made a mouth shape: his face stinks.

Fang Yuan took out a small mirror from the desk, and looked back and forth for a long time.He felt that he was still so handsome that his whole face was full of fragrance, so he just lay down on the table and ignored Cheng Yin.

After two classes, Fang Yuan was still lying there, looking lifeless.Cheng Yin walked over, Fang Yuan closed his eyes, his brows were wrinkled like old tree bark.Cheng Yin stretched out his index finger and middle finger, and pinched his nose, Fang Yuan opened his hand, supported the table and straightened up slightly, "Don't make trouble."

Cheng Yin pressed his shoulder, "What's the matter? It's so hot. How dare you mess with Teacher Ma?"

Fang Yuan said irritably: "Who is it, Teacher Ma? I don't know him."

"Marina." Cheng Yin replied.

Fang Yuan was stunned, "Fuck? You are really good, call me Teacher Ma. You are really from Saturn, you are so earthy."

Cheng Yin shrugged, "She pretended not to tell us her Chinese name. I'll call her Teacher Ma."

Fang Yuan laughed out loud, choked and coughed for a long time, said angrily: "Cheng Yin, I'm broken in love, I'm bothered."

Cheng Yin slapped him on the forehead and said puzzledly, "It's not burned."

Fang Yuan stared at him, Cheng Yin smiled, "I didn't say that, you haven't been with him before. Are you embarrassed to say broken-hearted?"

"You don't know how to be a solo mother. Secret love is also love." Fang Yuan gave Cheng Yin a disdainful glance.

Cheng Yin was also quite unconvinced, "You are ashamed to say it. I have been in love for so long, and I have to act soon." He tugged at his bangs, "I changed my hairstyle on purpose, and I didn't go out to flirt around to attract peach blossoms. Fuck you Serve it right."

Fang Yuan slapped the table, "Have you ever chased after a girl? You still talk about me."

Cheng Yin smiled, "I won't chase."

Fang Yuan lowered his head, "I don't think that guy is as handsome as me. How can he catch up with Fang Ting?"

"You're going to chase, Fang Ting might be your girlfriend now." Cheng Yin hated that iron can't be made into steel.

Fang Yuan took out a pen by himself and didn't continue this topic.He scratched back and forth on the paper and asked, "Cheng Yin, are you still here?"

"Yes." Cheng Yin replied calmly.

Fang Yuan still wanted to speak, Cheng Yin patted him on the head, "Class!"

The last two periods are self-study classes. There was originally a physical education class, but the teacher didn't come, so it was changed to self-study class.

Cheng Yin was writing math homework, distractedly thinking about Fang Yuan's words.

still?yes.

what is itgay.

The awakening of Cheng Yin's sexuality happened in the second year of junior high school.At that time, he was in the period of rebellion, and he happened to be particularly unlucky and had a lot of bad things, and spent two years in a daze.

Before he even had time to think about how homosexuality would be treated, or understood or ignored or disgusted, his sexuality was stereotyped at that time.

Can't change it.

Cheng Yin thought: I didn't plan to change it either.

For a while, his burgeoning self-awareness filled his heart.He took it for granted that he was going to come out to the family. He had no partner, but he felt that a man should take responsibility.

Fang Yuan scolded him severely, even if he was beaten to death, he would not let him do it.

Fang Yuan is always joking and heartless.That time, he grabbed his collar seriously: "What are you thinking about? You idiot."

"Now that you haven't cleaned up the mess in your house, don't bother."

"Cheng Yin, you can't afford the consequences now."

"In case, you will change it later."

Hey, Cheng Yin shook his pen and wrote down the answer to the last big question.

For several days, Fang Yuan was in a half-dead state, absent all day long.On Friday night, Cheng Yin called him.

"Come out." Cheng Yin said.

"Wait a fart. I want to sleep, you can do it yourself." Fang Yuan said listlessly.

"I invite you to eat barbecue."

Fang Yuan considered for a while, "I don't want to move."

"Eggplant, roasted green peppers, leeks, rice cakes..." Cheng Yin counted slowly.

Fang Yuan was speechless on the other end of the phone for three seconds, "Damn it, can I have some meat?"

Cheng Yin smiled, "I'll wait for you at the old place, the shorty's barbecue."

"You really have a special liking for this restaurant. There are so many barbecue restaurants in that row, all of which taste good, you go to that one every time." Cheng Yin heard a commotion, probably Fang Yuan got up.

"Isn't it because the name of the store suits you?" Cheng Yin received it.

"Damn! I'm 175, not a dwarf." Fang Yuan said bitterly.

Cheng Yin laughed, "Isn't it 173, and I lied about my height. Okay, okay, I'll hold it for you and declare 175 to the outside world."

Fang Yuan gritted his teeth, "Who lied?"

"Come here quickly, I'll wait for you there." Cheng Yin hung up the phone.

At seven or eight o'clock in the evening, there was a lot of noise downstairs.Li Yu is in the bathroom, looking at himself in the mirror, his brows and eyes are more like his father, but his tightly pursed lips are exactly like his mother.His hair was so long that it hurt his eyes, he forgot to cut it.

Li Yu grabbed the edge of the sink and buried his head in the water.When he raised his head suddenly, water droplets were splashed on the mirror immediately, and Li Yu's eyes turned red.

The movement downstairs was a lot louder. The couple had been arguing for years, and the whole building was unbearably disturbed.

The woman's sharp voice pierced the window and came out, "You killed me!", and the child's cry was immediately accompanied by this fearless declaration of not fearing death.

The sound of smashing things, the cry of a woman, and the roar of an angry man came one after another, and the heart-piercing cry of the poor child continued.

Li Yu looked out the window blankly, the stars were shining brightly, and the night was dark.

Apparently a little commotion means nothing to the universe.

But for a home, if there is no atmosphere of peace and joy, a home is just an empty shell.The noisy life is like cement, cold and lifeless, and finally built into a rigid house with water.Without breath, it is just a house, not a home.

Li Yu put on his running shoes and went out for a run.There was only the whistling wind and his own panting in his ears, but it made him feel clean.

After Li Yu finished his run, he walked slowly around the neighborhood before going upstairs.After exercising, he felt a lot lighter, and he didn't pay attention when he went upstairs. When he opened the door, he found that the lights in the room were on.

A beautiful woman in her 40s is sitting on the sofa in the living room with a beautiful posture and a book in her hand.

Li Yu was stunned at the door, then slowly took out the slippers from the shoe cabinet and changed them on.He went to the living room and called "Mother" in a polite manner.

The person on the sofa raised his head, casually flipped through the book in his hand, "The Catcher in the Rye", and asked, "How do you read this kind of book?"

Li Yu read a part of the book after returning home in the afternoon and threw it on the sofa. He didn't expect his mother to come here suddenly.

Li Yu slowly sat down on the sofa next to her, then moved to the side and moved further away, "I just flipped through it casually."

Li Yu's mother closed the book and put it on the coffee table.She raised her eyebrows, looked at Li Yu, and said casually: "Don't read these books. They are messy, no matter what the ideological value is, the form is vulgar, there is no need to read them."

Li Yu suddenly wanted to laugh, regardless of the content, should we first look at the form?

Li Yu lowered his head, put the book aside, and asked, "Do you want milk, mother? I'll go heat it..."

"No need, I'll go back later." His mother interrupted him. He wanted to say that drinking some hot milk would make him sleep better.

Li Yu said softly, "Oh."

"I made an appointment with Mr. Zheng to talk about the concert here, so I stopped by to see you." She explained.

Li Yu smiled and nodded.Teacher Zheng in her mouth is a very powerful stage director, and his mother Lan Lan is a well-known pianist in China. This time the two should cooperate.

"Xiao Yu, are you tired from studying recently?" Lan Lan asked.

Li Yu shook his head, "The course is very easy."

Lan Lan rubbed his hair with a smile, "That's good. If the class is easy, practice the piano more, don't lose it."

Li Yu didn't speak.He glanced at the piano in the corner, and there was a thin layer of dust on it, but the light was dim, so it might not be obvious.

He has always been clean.The room is spotless and the cabinets are always polished.Only the piano, he basically walked around.

His mother can't come here a few times a semester, and he looks forward to her every time.But it came like this, don't know what to say.Li Yu was silent for a long time, ready to go to the study to find a book for her to read, Lan Lan stood up by herself.

"Xiao Yu, it's getting late. I'll go there first, and I'll go back after the talk. You..." She hesitated.

Li Yu immediately took over her words, "I will take a break after doing my homework for a while, and I have a lot of homework this week."

Lan Lan nodded, touched his face, and helped him straighten his collar. "Then I'll go first."

Li Yu stood up and sent her downstairs.

Lan Lan turned her head again and gave him a complicated look, not sure if it was love or something else.

Li Yu smiled at her, like a child for a moment, smiling very cutely.

Lan Lan felt sore in her heart, and blurted out: "Xiao Yu, why don't you move in and live with me."

Li Yu was startled, his eyes flashed with light.He clenched his hands tightly, pinching his palms with his nails. Before he could speak, Lan Lan sighed, "Forget it, this side is closer to the school, so it's more convenient for you to go to school."

Li Yu moved his lips, "Yes."

Li Yu watched his mother go away.

When the car disappeared into the darkening night, it was hard to see clearly.Li Yu just looked away, and he was not in a hurry to go back immediately, he walked slowly on the street.

A small shop I visited was playing music.

"Hotsummernight, midJuly, when you and I were forever wild..."

Li Yu raised his head, and the dark clouds gradually spread, and the sky in the middle was still relatively clear, with a small crescent moon, slender and long.

He doesn't want to go back now, what's the point of being alone in a dark room.What's more, there is still Lan Lan's breath in the room.It was the perfume she had been using all the time. The scent of orchid mixed with pine needles was very nice.It was the smell of his mother that he had been nostalgic for since he was a child.

Just walk around here slowly.

When Fang Yuan arrived, Cheng Yin was sitting at the small table in the barbecue shop, wearing a black top, staring happily at the phone.

Oily smoke rose from the grill, and oil sizzled on the black grill.The chef turned the skewers up and down, and the aroma quickly wafted out.

Fang Yuan took a look, added more than a dozen skewers of meat, then walked over and sat down opposite Cheng Yin.

When the boss came over with a plate of grilled skewers and put them on the table, Fang Yuan quickly took the skewers of chicken wings from the plate and started to eat them.

Cheng Yin looked at the corner of his mouth that was quickly stained with oil, frowned in disgust, and handed over a piece of paper. "Looking at your virtue, can you slow down? You said that if Fang Ting passes by here and sees it, will she still have a crush on you in the future?"

Fang Yuan spat out the bones, drooping the corners of his eyes, "Anyway, I don't have anything to do now."

Cheng Yin took the chopsticks and slowly removed the skewered rice cakes, put them on the plate, and said, "What's the matter? I suddenly have a boyfriend."

"Do you remember Ma Yang from our class in the first year of high school?" Fang Yuan asked.

"Remember, pull it, look like the most handsome idiot you have." Cheng Yin replied, and he was stunned suddenly when he said the words, "It's him?"

Fang Yuan nodded, ate the mushroom liver again, and said vaguely: "You don't even know how funny he is, he confessed his love to Fang Ting in the post bar."

Swallowing the food in his mouth, Fang Yuan stared at the front, "Fang Ting really agreed."

Cheng Yin clicked on their school's post bar, "Let me take a look."

The popularity of the post was very high, it was pushed to the top, and the name was very ostentatious: "I announce that I want to chase Fang Ting."

Cheng Yin sneered and clicked on the post.

"I, Ma Yang, a sophomore in high school. I want to say that I really like Fang Ting. After meeting her, I never thought about being with anyone else. Only she can live in my eyes. Who If you want to chase Fang Ting, just come to me, we compete fairly. Fang Ting, if you see this post, I want to say to you: 'If you are willing to be with me, I will work hard and treat you well. If you don't Yes, I will love you until you will.'”

……

Cheng Yin suddenly wanted to curse.Damn retarded.To express your guilt, you have to say it in front of so many people.If the dignitary and the girl don't want it, it will make him feel so fucking embarrassed.

However, Fang Ting eats this set.

Cheng Yin thought about it for a while, and said, "Actually, I think Fang Ting agreed to him because it was interesting before. Otherwise, not any girl can digest such a stupid confession."

Fang Yuan said in a muffled voice: "Yeah. I don't know where I fell in love with him."

Cheng Yin pulled his hairband, pulled him closer, and said seriously: "He is braver than you."

Fang Yuan stared at him blankly.

Cheng Yin let go of the development belt all at once, Fang Yuan's head was thrown back violently. "Eh, fuck me."

"Beep...don't swear." Cheng Yin stood up wagging his fingers, "I'll go to the small supermarket next door to buy something to drink."

Fang Yuan stared at Cheng Yin, "You just drink Coke?", this fellow ran for half a day and bought a bag of Coke, I don't know if he thought the supermarket had a promotion.

Cheng Yin opened a can by himself, raised his head and took a big gulp. "How good is Coke. Maybe you still want to drink?"

"People who are sad should drink alcohol. Drinking alcohol to relieve sorrow is an ancient remedy." Having said that, Fang Yuan still duplicity opened a jar.

The two ate for a long time, and Cheng Yin drank three cans of Coke, feeling dizzy all over.When others are drunk, he is drunk with Coke. If he drinks too much Coke, his face will turn red and he will be extremely excited.

Cheng Yin patted Fang Yuan's back vigorously, "Are you happy? Are you unhappy?"

"Do you think we went for a drive on the road to refresh ourselves? Drink a skewer and drink a Coke, and the grief of losing love will pass?" Fang Yuan said.

"I eat skewers with you, can it be the same? I am such a precious person, can I be the same as others?" Cheng Yin was dissatisfied, "I'm angry."

"Angry?" Fang Yuan took a sip of Coke, "It's okay, I'll let you off the gas."

"Fuck me", Cheng Yin slapped it, and scolded with a smile: "What do you think is a blow-up doll?"

Fang Yuan laughed out of breath, "Hey, reduce the speed."

The two laughed for a long time, Fang Yuan took out his phone and glanced, "It's almost ten o'clock. Forget it, let's go back, my mother will scold me for being late."

"Okay." Cheng Yin went over to pay the bill, and then came back to pick up the undrinked Coke.

Li Yu wandered alone for a long time, and when he came back, the store was still selling Young and beautiful.

The shopkeeper probably liked the song very much and played it on a loop.

Li Yu leaned against the wall beside him, it was a bit dark here.

There he was, alone against the wall.

There is a dark alley behind, and you can see a sharp crescent moon when you look up.Li Yu thought, it is not lonely.

After an indeterminately long time, the music in the background disappeared.The surroundings became quiet, and the sound of cicadas was very clear.

Li Yu still stood still.

A mosquito stabbed firmly into his flesh, and the feeling of pain and itching spread quickly.

Li Yu felt desolate in his heart.

Cheng Yin walked back with a bag of Coke.

Turning a corner, there was a very conspicuous person not far away.With his back against the wall, he was wearing a well-fitting and casual sportswear, with extra long legs, wrapped in sweatpants, which looked smooth and beautiful.

Cheng Yin's heart skipped a beat for a moment.

There was a thin mist in the air at night, and behind Cheng Yin was a street lamp.After the light was smudged by the mist, it looked hazy, Cheng Yin was wrapped in the light, and his figure was indistinct.

Li Yu looked up for some reason.On the opposite side was a man in black clothes and black trousers, walking slowly with the light behind his back.

He narrowed his eyes slightly, it was still relatively dark in this corner, and looked straight at the light source, his eyes couldn't stand it for a while.

Li Yu lowered his head and rubbed his eyes.The eyes are a little sore.

The footsteps were approaching.

There was a slap, and the other party's voice was a little low, still with the childishness of a teenager, "Drink Coke?"

It's Cheng Yin.

Li Yu raised his head, Cheng Yin blocked the light behind him and smiled at him.

This situation is a bit strange.However, Li Yu straightened his body, took the can of Coke, took a sip slowly, "Thank you."

"When you are unhappy, drink Coke." Cheng Yin said.

Li Yu looked up at him, and Cheng Yin continued: "How good is Coke. There are small bubbles popping out, and it's very happy to see it."

"Really, a lot of things can be hidden in Coke, and you can't see it. But happy or unhappy, you can hide it in the black liquid. Drink it, and you will be very happy." Cheng Yin laughed, "I hide it in it. Lots of happy little secrets for you."