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At around six o'clock in the evening, someone knocked hard on the door, Li Yu opened the door suspiciously, and saw Cheng Yin rushing in.The slippers are not changed, and the shoes are kicked away and rushed in.

Li Yu was startled, and hurriedly followed behind him and asked, "What's the matter? Someone is chasing you?"

Cheng Yin rushed into the kitchen, "Yes, it's very popular."

Li Yu watched him quickly take out the pressure cooker, with a food packaging bag hanging on his wrist, Li Yu asked, "Didn't you say before 08:30? Are you having New Year's Eve dinner at home?"

Cheng Yin opened the food packaging bag, poured chicken nuggets, ginger, wolfberry and other ingredients into the pot, and then poured cold water to put the pot on the fire.

After finishing the work, he wiped his sweat with his sleeves and smiled at Li Yu, "Our food will be ready soon. I told my mother to go downstairs to buy drinks, so I ran over with my things."

Li Yu was stunned: "You..."

Cheng Yin's eyes were amazingly bright, "Let's boil the soup first, and it will be almost done when I come over. Just watch the time, and turn off the fire after two hours."

"Huh?" Li Yu was still shocked.

Cheng Yin smiled, gave him a hug, and stuffed a paper bag into his hand, "The chicken wings my dad fried just now are delicious. Eat two first, to fill your belly."

Li Yu's eyes suddenly became a little wet, and he looked at Cheng Yin without saying a word.

Cheng Yin patted his head, "Wait for me, I'll be here in a while. I'll go back first, good boy."

Li Yu turned his head and watched Cheng Yin run away in a hurry.

As soon as I touched the chicken wings in the paper bag with my hand, it was still very hot.

Li Yu raised his head, feeling that his eyes were sore and swollen.It's been a long time, and no one has said the word "good" to him so preciously and carefully.

After sitting on the sofa for a few minutes, Li Yu slowly ate the chicken wings.At seven o'clock, he opened the refrigerator again and took some things to the kitchen.

After steaming the rice, Li Yu stared at the phone for a long time looking at the menu.He pursed his lips tightly, narrowed his eyes, and made a... cold tomato salad.

Li Yu continued his efforts and cooked another dish of braised eggplant.It looked pretty good, but it didn't smell very good. Li Yu poked it with his chopsticks, and the eggplant was already rotten.Li Yu didn't dare to taste it, he wanted to keep some suspense.

Seeing that it was already [-]:[-], Li Yu took a big bowl and put on two dishes, guessing that Cheng Yin would be here soon.

He thought of the last year he spent with his father.

The dinner that day was extremely sumptuous, far exceeding Professor Li's culinary skills.

At that time, Lan Lan had already left them. Professor Li was busy with trivial matters, and he couldn't say he was very happy, but in order to let his youngest son have a lively New Year's Eve, he was busy from noon to night.

He remembered clearly that Professor Li opened a bottle of red wine and poured him a glass.Professor Li, who is usually so upright and self-restraining and always believes that teaching by example is more important than words, preached to him for a long time after dinner.

It's as small as locking the door at night, and as big as spending money sparingly—Professor Li even told him the password of the safe at home and the password of the bank card.

"Li Yu, you will grow up soon."

When he heard this sentence, Li Yu thought that Professor Li felt that his son had grown up, so telling him about the family situation was proof that the father and son depended on each other.

Only now did I understand that he was just explaining the funeral.

That year, Professor Li was about to produce results for a scientific research project. As the deputy leader of the scientific research team, he had a heavy responsibility.However, Lan Lan abandoned him that year, and he suffered from diabetes due to long-term fatigue.

Li Yu really felt that Professor Li had a miserable life experience, why is he always so unlucky by himself?

Li Yu felt that he was weak again.

The loss of a loved one is painful, but it is also a peaceful breakup.Why can't he accept it?

Diabetes is not a terminal illness, why can't he survive?

It was not his fault that scientific research funds were embezzled, so why was he framed for nothing?

Li Yu couldn't hold back the tears.

But his father will always make him love and admire him deeply.

Going to jail, three months in prison, did not make him become resentful.

That night, Professor Li was extraordinarily elegant, with heavy eyes on Li Yu, "Xiao Yu, don't underestimate yourself at any time."

"Although Dad is in a cage, he doesn't think he is a prisoner. As long as his heart is not raped, he is free wherever he is."

At this time, the knock on the door sounded again. Li Yu wiped his eyes and opened the door with a smile.

Cheng Yin stood at the door, staring at her eyes, "Wait until my eyes are red?"

"No," Li Yu smiled, "I'm going to chop onions and fry the meat."

Cheng Yin walked in, changed his shoes and sniffed the kitchen, "Have you cooked?"

"Yeah." Li Yu was a little embarrassed, "I'm too good at cooking, so I made cold tomatoes and braised eggplant."

"Is the rice ready?"

"It's ready."

The corners of Cheng Yin's eyes curled up, and he shook the things in his hand, "That's just right. Let's make this."

Li Yu followed Cheng Yinyou's example and cut up the pineapple and scooped out the pulp. Cheng Yin brought two pineapples and said that he would make pineapple rice.

Cheng Yin stuffed the diced fruit into Li Yu's mouth, "Okay. Go and play, I'll take care of the rest."

Li Yu was stunned, "Don't give me any room to play?"

Cheng Yin smiled briskly, and began to direct him: "Then you take the rice out of the rice cooker, and I'll fry it."

Li Yu filled a big bowl with rice as he said, and stood aside with the bowl in his hand, waiting for Cheng Yin.

Once the oil was hot, Cheng Yin cracked the eggs in, and when it was almost done, he added shrimp, peas, and carrots.

The fragrance was overflowing, and Cheng Yin slapped it with his hand, and looked at Li Yu proudly, "Is it fragrant?"

Li Yu looked anxiously at the pot, then at Cheng Yin, and said honestly, "I'm so hungry that my stomach hurts."

Cheng Yin was in a hurry, "Pass me the rice. Did you only eat those two chicken wings in the afternoon? Fuck, I forgot, fried food irritates the stomach."

Seeing that he was in a hurry, Li Yu hurriedly said, "I'm exaggerating. Don't smash the bowl."

"It's okay." Cheng Yin mixed the diced pineapple and rice and fried it together. "alright."

Cheng Yin served the chicken soup and put two pineapples on the table. The colors were bright and bright, which made people feel comfortable.

Li Yu took out his phone to take a picture, and smiled at Cheng Yin, "This is the youngest New Year's Eve dinner I've ever had."

"Isn't it the easiest?" Cheng Yin pointed to himself, "Or do you mean me by being young?"

Thinking about these words carefully, it really makes people blush.

However, Li Yu returned to his usual serious manner at this time, and explained cheerfully: "This color looks bright and moving, and I think it is a symbol of youthful vitality."

He raised his head slightly and his eyes were clear, which made people feel sad for no reason.Emotions are too delicate, such as Li Yu, probably often feel sad or happy inexplicably.

Cheng Yin rubbed his hair, "Bring out your cold tomatoes and braised eggplant to make the colors richer."

Li Yu was slightly embarrassed, "Just eat this. Those two dishes are almost cold."

Cheng Yin smiled, and brought it out by herself.

The braised eggplant was a bit cold. The tomato was originally served cold, but the sugar was completely melted, and there was a layer of light red juice on the bottom of the plate.

Cheng Yin finished eating the tomatoes, poured all the juice into a bowl and drank it down, looked up at Li Yu, "The sweetness is well controlled, you didn't exaggerate the truth last time."

Li Yu laughed loudly, "Why do you still remember something so long ago?"

"If it's too far away, I can't remember it. My memory isn't that good." Cheng Yin raised an eyebrow, "However, I still remember such frequent things as slapping me last night and slapping me again this morning. It's clear."

Li Yu bit his lower lip and raised his chin, laughing hard, "Can you stop mentioning this?"

Cheng Yin puffed up half of her cheeks, shook her head, "I can't."

After dinner, Li Yu went to wash the dishes.Cheng Yin stuck behind him, "Li Yu, what are you doing later?"

Li Yu straightened his neck, looked at his hands covered in dish soap, and Cheng Yin blew lightly behind him.

Li Yu smiled and washed his hands clean. "Let's watch a movie."

The old movies found on TV, the twilight tone filled the whole screen.The slow narrative rhythm is dyed with misty scenes.

After watching for more than an hour, Cheng Yin suddenly turned to look at Li Yu, who closed his eyes.

are you asleep?He leaned over, but Li Yu gently held him back, "Hush."

Cheng Yin asked softly, "Did you fall asleep?"

"Don't talk, listen to this." Li Yu half-raised his eyelids, the shadows of the lights and eyelashes were in his eyes.

Cheng Yin sat down obediently and took Li Yu's hand.

After a while, Li Yu finally said, "The soundtrack just now is called openthedoor, and it's my father's and I's favorite soundtrack in this movie."

Cheng Yin said: "This is the first time I've watched "The Last Emperor."

Li Yu sighed, "I used to watch it with my father every year."

Cheng Yin was silent for a moment, rubbed his head against his neck, raised his hand to touch his face, "It's almost twelve o'clock, I'll go warm up a cup of milk. Go to sleep after drinking it."

Li Yu smiled at him, "Don't put honey."

When Cheng Yin came over with the milk, Li Yu slowly said, "My father committed suicide."

Cheng Yin held her breath and didn't dare to say anything.

The wall clock clicked to point to zero, and there was a loud bang outside the window, and Li Yu shivered suddenly.Cheng Yin looked over and found that his face was as pale as paper.He was startled, stretched out his hand and squeezed his shoulder, "What's wrong?"

Li Yu stared straight ahead, staring straight ahead.He gritted his teeth, and a low sentence leaked from his mouth: "I don't know if the sound of gunfire can be heard mixed with the sound of fireworks."

It turned out that's why he was afraid of hearing the sound of fireworks.

Cheng Yin's heart sank suddenly, and he pulled him into his arms and hugged him tightly.There was another sound outside the window, followed by the third, fourth, fifth... Cheng Yin pressed Li Yu's head into his arms and stroked his back over and over again.

Li Yu said in a muffled voice, "Fireworks are so beautiful, what's wrong with them."

The repeated fireworks exploded in the air, causing Li Yu to tremble with each sound, and Cheng Yin's heart also jumped up and down with Li Yu's vibration, and the heart beats like a drum to suit the occasion.But it's the wilderness drum, the thunder hammer.

It was bustling outside, with the cheers of children and the clapping of old people.

Cheng Yin hugged Li Yu tightly and coaxed him in a low voice, "It's the sound of fireworks. When I was young, I loved setting off fireworks and those small firecrackers. Once I didn't pay attention to my surroundings, and the old neighbor who came over It exploded. The firepower of the little firecracker was so strong that it burned the piece of cloth on the uncle's buttocks! My mother gave me a good beating."

Li Yu buried his head and leaned against his collarbone, Cheng Yin could only hear his heavy breathing.

Cheng Yin sighed, didn't speak anymore, and hugged him quietly.

After a long time, the air in the room has become very cold.

Cheng Yin hugged Li Yu tighter, looked up at the clock on the wall, it was one o'clock in the morning.He was distracted thinking about whether he didn't close the window tightly, and what to do if he froze Li Yu.

At this time, a muffled sound came from his arms, resembling the creaking of shoes on snowy days.

Li Yu said, "How did he get the gun?"

How did he kill himself with one shot?Professor Li is a gentleman, handsome and elegant, and his hands only write about the warmth and coldness of the world.No matter how well analyzed the disadvantages are when criticizing, those hands can't write overly sarcastic and sharp sentences, and they are extraordinarily upright and self-sustaining.

Li Yu raised his head and looked at the TV in front of him.He asked: "How could Professor Li be able to hold that gun and pull the trigger?"

Li Yu looked calm, but his lips were trembling uncontrollably, and his eyes were expressionless.

"Clean and neat, the gunshots killed people, how can you still look like Professor Sven?"

Li Yu looked confused, he gently grabbed Cheng Yin's clothes, but his back straightened up, and his whole body froze, motionless.

After a minute, Cheng Yin asked in a low voice, "Scholar?"

Li Yu moved his neck stiffly and moved his head lightly. He did this simple movement with great effort.He looked into the darkest part of the room.

Li Yu paused every word, and spit out a sentence: "My father is my belief since I was a child."

He looked back again, and said in a low voice: "His hopes for the next life are buried in this life. But in fact, I don't understand why he suddenly despaired of this life."

"There was no reason for his suicide. His cowardice made me sneer."

"However, the person my faith is tied to is still gone."

Li Yu seemed to be falling apart.His head was like a dying flower, it couldn't be lifted anymore, it was hanging lifelessly, and it fell to ashes very quickly.

Cheng Yin's heart ached, seeing Li Yu like this made him feel very distressed.

Cheng Yin gently held his face, "Li Yu."

Li Yu looked at him silently, his eyes were dark.

Cheng Yin took a deep breath and said seriously, "Li Yu..."

Li Yu lowered his eyes and said hoarsely, "Cheng Yin, stop talking."

There was infinite forbearance in his words, as well as deep weariness, which made Cheng Yin's mind go numb.

Cheng Yin felt great grief for a moment.Suddenly thinking of that Chinese class, Li Yu said lightly: "Life is impermanent, who knows."

How arrogant and ignorant he is.

Cheng Yin half closed her eyes, hugged him tenderly, and said in a low voice, "I'm sorry."

Li Yu sighed and buried his head in his arms again. "You don't need to apologize. It's just the pain that has accumulated over the years, and I haven't gotten used to it." He whispered: "People are gone, and I will get used to it. I'm sorry, New Year's Eve was a good day, but I do it every year , making you uncomfortable."

"Don't be like this. Why do you apologize." Cheng Yin closed his eyes in pain, and said cruelly, "Maybe the reason you think is groundless is because he has been deliberating for a long time."

Li Yu looked up at Cheng Yin in surprise.

Cheng Yin pulled the small blanket on the sofa over, put it on Li Yu, and stopped talking.

In a daze, Li Yu recalled Professor Li's appearance in the last period.Calm and composed, gentle and fearless.

Li Yu spoke with difficulty: "So Cheng Yin, you want to say that people in the world have reason to lament others' suicide, and only those who commit suicide have the right to decide whether to live or not?"

Cheng Yin's mind went blank, and he said for a moment: "Life is your own after all. No matter what anyone says, you live it yourself, and it's your own choice whether you want to live it or not."

The cruelest people have always been people themselves.

Li Yu was stunned for a long time, then suddenly lay on Cheng Yin's lap, crying bitterly.

Feeling the ups and downs of the boy's back in his arms, Cheng Yin remained silent, but couldn't stop crying for some reason.

Li Yu closed his eyes, feeling a bitter cold in his heart, the tears froze when they flowed down, and the ice pick made his heart ache.

He always thought that Professor Li was cowardly.But for so many years, his father was obviously his source of strength.

How could he easily guess what kind of mood Professor Li had in his heart?In the last years, what kind of pain did he have to accompany this son.How could he know how much strength it takes to give up living?Professor Li has never been impulsive and reckless.

Li Yu didn't believe that Professor Li had left. He always felt that the other party ran away from home without any reason and never looked back.He refused to accept the opponent's choice with a strong attitude.

Today, Li Yu finally understands:

The father he admired the most and who gave him the most strength in the world has since gone away.After that, Li Yu never saw him again.

In the ice and snow, his father was wearing a long black coat.Step by step, he straightened his spine and looked straight ahead.The ink blots faded, leaving only a vast expanse of whiteness in front of my eyes.

The author has something to say: I am really in the second grade.ah.