my roommate is my lover

Li Anni and I had a cold war, Xiaopang advised me: "You just take the initiative to talk to him, you were so nice before, he won't ignore you."

Cheng Cheng also said: "That's right, he is such an aloof person, he can only get closer to you, and he will definitely not ignore you, so just show him a little favor."

I pushed them away and rushed out of the dormitory building. There was football class in the afternoon, but the teacher suddenly had something to do, so it was rare for us to be free.

It wasn't until I jumped out of our relationship that I realized that Li Anni really doesn't like to talk, doesn't like to make friends, and doesn't like all social activities. He is really too quiet, like a prince who has been living in a castle, even if Falling into the crowd of civilians, he still used the golden halo above his head to distance himself from us.

I don't know if he did it intentionally or because of his personality, but in front of me, he is different, he can joke, fight, share stories, and touch me gently.

I put my hand lightly on top of my head, following his example, and rubbed it twice.

Just thinking about it made me blush. I don't know if I can appear in front of him freely again. I'm afraid I won't be able to learn how to hide it, and I will show him all the nakedness in my eyes accidentally.

This feeling is sinful, shameful, and shady.

How can I continue with peace of mind?

Li Anni, I read his name, the name fell lightly on my lips and tongue, no matter how hard I tried in my throat, I couldn't make a sound.

I only know that I can't let him know, I can't let everyone know, from now on, this is an eternal secret, even if it is rotten or corrupt, I can't tell it, I can't tell it.

Maybe I should continue this cold war, and then find a suitable time to apologize. During this period, what I need to practice repeatedly is to forget this relationship that should not exist.

Autumn comes quickly, and the old banyan tree in the yard has begun to drop its leaves.

But the school fell into a state of turmoil. The principal announced that there would be a dance party at the end of the month, requiring everyone to dress up to attend.

Just hearing the news, everyone couldn't believe their ears. It is the only high school in China that can have such good benefits.

But I was still in the vortex and didn't come back to my senses. Li Anni and I lived in the same dormitory, we didn't see each other when we looked up and we saw each other when we looked down.

He became more and more silent, and even laughed less. He often held a book and read it all afternoon. He nodded and smiled when he met his classmates on the road. He walked his own way and never got too close to anyone.

I made the decision several times to clear up the rift with him, but I thought his indifference was delayed.

This afternoon, it was raining lightly outside, pattering and slightly cool.

Qi Mengmeng handed me her snacks: "Hey, chocolate-flavored cotton candy."

I took one and put it in my mouth, and said sweetly, "It's so delicious."

Involuntarily, I remembered Li Anni's words that day, "Sweet things will wear down one's will."

Qi Mengmeng was still saying: "I didn't expect there to be so many delicious foods here. If I knew it was like this, I would have come back earlier."

"Where did you buy this?" I asked.

"

You also think it's delicious, right?Just at the school supermarket. "

I got up and went to the supermarket to buy a bag, and then I was going to try my luck at the library, where he might still be reading.

I ran into Li Feier on the way, and he said that he saw Li Anni going to the rooftop just now.

What is he doing there?It's still raining.

I held the bag of marshmallows, feeling uneasy.

I climbed up the ladder, and before I reached the top, I heard a burst of laughter. Li Anni seemed to be on the phone, in English, as if saying, this place is nice and quiet, and I just miss you.

Just miss you, he said imissyou.

The raindrops slapped on my school uniform, leaving small water stains. This damn weather is really bad and makes people feel bad.

I barely climbed up and entered his line of sight. When he saw me, he was obviously taken aback.

He hung up the phone in a hurry and asked, "Why are you here?"

I scratched my head in embarrassment, and laughed wildly: "Haha, that, what a coincidence, you're here too? I didn't expect to meet you."

He raised his eyebrows, noncommittal at my lame lie.

"

Oh, then I'll leave this place to you. "He said and was about to leave.

In a hurry, I grabbed his hand, it was the fingers, not the wrist, my face turned red, it was really an awkward position!

The temperature of his fingertips came from the palm.

"

you? ! "

"

Me, I have something for you. "I took out the bag of marshmallows.

He frowned, but the corners of his mouth couldn't help showing a smile, "Oh~ is it an apology gift?"

"Ah."

"

Feel wrong? "

"

Um. "

"

Want to reconcile? "

"

Um. "

I lowered my head and waited for him to speak again, but half a day later I found that he was looking at me with a strange and contemptuous look.

My heart is gradually cooling under his eyes, does he hate me?

This realization made my chest hurt so badly that it was about to shatter. I stood between him and him in the cold air, and he looked down at me. The rain fell and dripped on my lips. I licked it, it was salty.

He started to walk towards me, step by step, until he cornered me, and a deep voice came over: "Why are you crying? Didn't you bully you?"

I raised my head abruptly and wiped my face with my hands. It turned out to be tears, no wonder it was salty, I was so ashamed.

I was a little annoyed, wishing I could turn into water vapor and evaporate it.

He added: "Why do you think I will forgive you if you apologize? You said that day because you hate me, right? Since you hate me, why bother to please me? Could it be?" He paused: "It's because My family's money?"

I couldn't control my hand, slapped him on the left side of the face, and the marshmallow in his hand fell to the ground.

"

You" he frowned.

I blushed with anger: "Who cares about you? It's great to be rich. Do you think everyone is picking on you?!! Scum!"

I pushed him away, and when I was about to run away, he grabbed my collar and pressed it against the cold concrete wall, hurting my shoulder blades.

He looked at me viciously, his eyes were full of flames, and I was stunned. This was the first time I saw Li Anni like this. He was no longer that gentle and somewhat indifferent young man, but he suddenly took off his coat and became It was fierce and terrible.

I could feel my shoulders shaking against the wall, and I was scared, scared.

"Why do you hate me?!" he asked.

I shook my head, and his hand holding my collar tightened once more, depriving me of my thin oxygen.

When I couldn't breathe, I seemed to see the high-rise buildings in the distance crossing in a gentle wave of light, dark clouds crowded between the high-rise buildings, and there were fleeting lights all around.

His drooping hair blocked my sight, his head hit the crest of my neck, his heavy breathing pressed against my skin, his voice came from my ear bone, very clear, as if it was going to be engraved in the depths of my mind Usually, so, after a long time, his deep and powerful voice can still ring clearly in my ears from time to time.

He said, "Don't hate me, Gravel."

The hoarse voice destroyed my defenses, and I reached out and hugged him gently. "

Li Annie, I never hated you. "

And it was only at this time that I realized that no matter how good and powerful Li Anni is, he is still just a person who needs to be loved, a boy who is afraid of loneliness and abandonment.

His body was branded prematurely with marks of strength and self-discipline, so even he himself felt that he was irresistible. Perhaps it was because the sky was cloudy today and the air was stuffy, so it was easy to make people feel fragile and unable to cover up. scar.