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After Shen Lifeng left school, he liked the younger brother brought by his grandmother very much.My younger brother is really good-looking. I don’t know if all children are so good-looking.

Shen Lifeng squatted in front of him and asked him, "What's your name?"

Shen Yi didn't speak.Shen Lifeng immediately said caringly: "Then let me give you a name. Well, your name is Shen Yi. The teacher just taught me that Yi means bright and beautiful, just like you."It was rare for Shen Lifeng to talk to people so gently and kindly, and it was also the first time.

Shen Yi muttered for a long time, and said: "Okay".The so-called people are as their name suggests, and their beauty is unlucky.From this moment on, Shen Yi was wasted his whole life by one Shen Lifeng and one name.

Teacher Lu Chen was righteous, and in order to protect Shen Yi, he took the whole incident on himself.

In the middle of the night, a teacher was playing and fighting with a student, and almost killed him.Even if Lu Chen didn't explain further, the public would think it was the teacher's negligence.

Early the next morning, Lu Chen received a punishment email from the school.Director Li called him to the office and scolded him.

Lu Chen was determined to tell the director the whole story, because he had never encountered such a thing, and if he didn't handle it well, it would be his life, besides, Shen Yi was also his student.

Director Li hadn't had enough of scolding yet, seeing that Lu Chen was distracted!He casually picked up a lesson plan and threw it at him, "No one can control you without your mother, right?"

Lu Chen thought to himself, "My mother is not as lenient as you."

"How old are you, and you still fight with the students. It's fine if you don't look good in class. I turn a blind eye. Now I'm even killing people! A [-]-word review Words can't be missed, explain to me clearly what you are dragging a student to the rooftop in the middle of the night to fool around with!"

"Director", Lu Chen spoke very clearly and calmly, as if he was going to have a serious meeting, "I went to do something on the roof, hehe, how can I let the leader know about this, it's so embarrassing..." After saying that, he still hesitated Holding the pipa half covered his face, he rushed out the door before the Ci Hai in Li Jingze's hand hit him.

Director Li has never been out of school in his life, and the school's interpersonal relationship is relatively simple. He is used to being a leader and he may not be able to handle this kind of thing well.Lu Chen picked an empty place and called Lu Tong.

Ms. Lu is a busy person, her phone is either on silent or busy, and Lu Chen doesn't call to occupy her time when she has nothing to do.Probably because I haven't called for too long, God has mercy, this time I got through.

Overseas phone calls pass through the clouds, and the small signal tower conveys so much joy, sorrow, sorrow, sorrow and longing every day.

Just after class, Lu Tong glanced at the phone when he heard the sound, and suddenly remembered that he still had a son, so he kindly pressed the answer button.

Lu Chen was a little surprised, "Yo, Mom, do you still remember me? Didn't save my phone number, or did I mistype it?"

"Stop talking nonsense, you don't go to the Three Treasures Hall if you have nothing to do, what's wrong with you?"

"Eh... what you said hurt your feelings too much. Well, I do have something to ask you."

Lu Chen came up with a sentence that was "Why do people commit suicide?"

Lu Tong thought it was him deliberately cheating and cheating again, "There is something wrong with my brain, I should go to the hospital!"

Lu Chen was silent for a long time, and Lu Tong was about to hang up the phone, only to hear him say: "You are right, but what if he doesn't go to the hospital? If it is really a mental disorder, hey, it is difficult to diagnose in itself The real illness, if he doesn't cooperate anymore, you say..."

Lu Tong was a little stunned, and realized that Lu Chen didn't seem to be joking, so he interrupted him directly, "Has he committed suicide?"

Lu Chen: "Well, I happened to be rescued by me."

Lu Tong: "Anything else unusual?"

Lu Chen: "He keeps saying sorry to me, and habitually blames all the faults on him, even if it's a small and insignificant thing, he will think it's his fault. Anyway, it's a bit...weird, oops, I can't even tell."

Lu Tong: "Take him to the hospital right away. You have known the doctor there since childhood. He needs to be hospitalized at this level."

When Lu Tong encountered a patient, his serious and professional tone extinguished all Lu Chen's worries, and he replied unconsciously, "Okay, I'll take him to the hospital right away."

After hearing the beeping sound of the phone, Lu Chen realized that he had promised very readily, but how could he open his mouth to Shen Yi and explain to the school?

There are only two classes on Friday, followed by a two-day weekend, and the cherry blossoms by the Sakura River have not yet come to an end.

After class, Shen Yi walked towards the library stepping on the soft music on the radio as usual.He felt as if another piece of his soul was missing.

He was missing a piece when he was thrown down since he was a child, and Shen Lifeng was missing a piece when his mother-in-law passed away. He thought he was numb, but it didn't seem to be the case.

He began to have those inexplicable situations again, the brain is not his own, the soul and the body are separated from each other, he doesn't want to talk or see people, he has no desires and desires, he will suddenly forget many things, he is slow to respond, can't concentrate, and is a little nervous. It's easy to do wrong.Then wait for the long dark night to come back, and then start to deal with the mess one by one.

But dealing with the mess often requires wasting a lot of money, Shen Yi even has problems with food and clothing, so he gradually gained experience.

Whenever this happens, he will arrange his schedule for the whole day, pull out the cordon with his remaining rationality, and force himself to live according to the most concise route.

In fact, it is all to force myself not to make mistakes, and to make myself a prison and try to suppress these inexplicable psychological needs that are purely disruptive.

Then wait for two months or three months, or half a year or a year, the day when the thinking comes back to normal, the feeling is like a sudden sigh of relief.

The Reese Library has huge floor-to-ceiling windows. The school guided Yinghe in and built a narrow branch, which fell in front of the library's floor-to-ceiling windows.

The cherry blossoms come along the water, and you can even smell the fragrance of flowers when you sit by the window.

Because it is the cherry blossom viewing season, there are not many people in the library, so Shen Yi chooses randomly in the literature section.When he looked down to read a book, his slightly long hair would block his sight when it fell down. He habitually pinned his hair behind his ears, but it was a bit short compared to the length that could be pinned behind his ears.

After a few trips, he took out the hair rope in his bag and tied it roughly, revealing the retro glasses frame on the bridge of his nose and his delicate eyebrows.

It's the same process every time, but it has to be repeated every time.

The aisle between the two rows of bookshelves is a bit crowded, but Shen Yi's is especially crowded here.It seems that there is a crowd of people suddenly in the deserted library.

In Shen Yi's memory, he seems to always step on other people's feet, or pick the same book as others.Girls who are braver will boldly talk about literature or something about this book, and then wait until the link of leaving contact information.

He would stay in high school out of politeness, but the constant harassment from these people was so annoying that he later learned to play dumb, and he had to pretend from the beginning.

Shen Yi, who was already dumb, nodded and smiled politely, and walked over many figures, casually carrying a few books to the library station.

Lu Chen leaned against the glass door and watched this scene. He had been following Shen Yi for several days, afraid that something would happen to him, and he didn't know how to talk to him.

Lu Chen was about to be moved to tears by his dedication and great love.

Shen Yi turned around and just saw Lu Chen leaning against the door frame, as if he had been watching here for a long time.

Shen Yi couldn't tell what he felt in his heart, he was a little afraid of Lu Chen, because he had seen his unknown side, but he was yearning for it, or there was a corner in his heart that was calling: Help me!

Although he didn't know what Lu Chen could save him, why would he think so.

The human brain is so smart, it has saved you countless times in the subconscious, with or without awareness, in dangerous situations that you are not aware of.

Lu Chen looked at him very carefully, Shen Yi could only go up to the "light".

"Hello teacher".

The polite tone and smile are just right.

Lu Chen didn't speak for a long time, he looked down at the book in Shen Yi's hand, and only vaguely saw the word "psychology" through his fingers.It seemed that he had already realized that something was wrong with him, and suddenly felt a little uneasy for no reason, and stretched out his hand and pulled his wrist to walk towards the Yinghe River like a ghost.

"If you let me be punished by the school, you must compensate me. Come with me for a walk. It's very lively outside. What are you doing in the library at a young age?"

Shen Yi was very obedient and let him lead him, and almost blurted out in an instant, "Why did you do this and push everything on yourself?"

But due to the confusion of thinking and reason, Shen Yi didn't dare to speak easily. He filtered the words in his mind over and over again, and it took a long time before he realized that the teacher was protecting himself, and he should say thank you.

Then he tasted the word "thank you" for a long time, and said "thank you" in an erratic tone when he was almost out of school.

A large number of people gathered by the Yinghe River outside the school, from inside the city, from outside the province, from inside and outside the province.It is very lively at noon, and it almost looks like a masquerade ball at night.

Shen Yi usually doesn't go out very much, life is three points and one line - classroom, cafeteria, dormitory, this time going out almost feels "difficult to walk".

Lu Chen held Shen Yi's hand and walked with his head bowed in thought, until he realized that it was becoming more and more difficult to pull Shen Yi's hand before he came to his senses.

Looking back, Shen Yi had already circled several people around him, all of them were WeChat merchants, holding up QR codes and asking him to scan them.

Looking at Shen Yi again, he just didn't say a word like a mute, his expression full of innocence at a loss, and his watery eyes looked around for Lu Chen's figure.Lu Chen inexplicably remembered an allusion - the little tadpole was looking for his mother...

But apart from feeling that he was holding her hand, Shen Yi couldn't even see a figure - a 1.9-meter girl blocked Shen Meiren's sight.

This big man was so bold that he bent his index finger and was ready to hit Shen Yi's chin.

Lu Chen couldn't stand anymore, someone actually seduced his student in front of him!

He doesn't care about gender or gender, women's priority, or the traditional virtues of respecting the old and loving the young.He groped along the arm of the person in his hand, and forcibly bumped away a group of perverts who were swearing along the way.Under the astonished gazes of the people around, she wrapped her arms around Shen Yi's waist and pulled her into her arms, then walked forward with her arms around her.

In Yinghe, a young, lively, fashionable and open field, everyone seems to have a tacit understanding of something...

Shen Yi was also a little stunned, Lu Chen's violent chest heaving came through Shen Yi's shoulder blades, he seemed to be angry, but now he is hugging himself intimately and gently, it doesn't seem like he provoked him, so he is bold and relieved asked: "What's wrong with you?"

When Lu Chen heard him speak, he turned his head to look at him, and an inexplicable desire for protection emerged in his heart for a moment.Shen Yi really lived up to his reputation, just like opium, he becomes addicted once he smokes it, and even if he quits it, his muscles and bones will be hurt.

Lu Chen knew that he should stay away from him, and he might not know when this poisonous flower would destroy him.

But one is that there is an inexplicable yearning and intolerance in his heart, and the other is that Lu Chen still has his secret in his heart, so he can't be cruel no matter what.

Lu Chen stared at him for a long time before opening his mouth, "I'm holding you like this now, and this is the only question you want to ask me?"

Shen Yi was even more stunned, the kind of inexplicable and incomprehensible stunned.

Then Lu Chen saw Shen Yi slowly putting on a disguise in front of him, and he realized that he had said something wrong.His emotional channel was cut off by the disease, what else could he feel?Isn't this directly poking his sore spot!

"Then what else should I ask? I don't understand."

This relaxed and natural tone and thoughtful and polite smile almost forced Lu Chen's hand on his waist.

Of course Lu Chen understands that he really doesn't understand that once the serotonin that governs emotion, desire, and will is out of balance...or in other words, serotonin, dopamine, norepinephrine, etc. Once neurotransmitters are out of balance, people will experience insomnia, anxiety, panic, depression and other emotions, manifested as depression, affective disorders, schizophrenia and other brain diseases. (Note)

Shen Yi read the wrong book, this was never a mental illness, it was just a kind of mental cancer, an organic disease, which also needed to take medicine, check up and be hospitalized.

But if you understand it, Lu Chen is still quite uncomfortable facing his sudden estrangement from him.Understanding, as one of the ways to solve problems, is based on patience.

"Shen Yi", the two people behind couldn't stop fighting and bumped into Shen Yi, Lu Chen subconsciously took him into his arms again, "Come with me to the hospital, my mother is the director of the Brain Department of Yinghe City Hospital , I have been fascinated by it since I was a child. When I was a child, I used the hospital as an amusement park every day, and the doctors I knew knew a lot.

When I called her after that day, I chatted with her as usual, and she said... Heh, she said that you may be suffering from depression and you need to go to the hospital as soon as possible.

I called the neurologist, and the doctor said that the patient needs to be hospitalized if he becomes suicidal.

I'll deal with it for you at the school, but I don't know how to say this these days.Today in the library, I saw the book you borrowed. You also hope to get better, right? Can you believe me? "

Shen Yi has locked himself in his own world all his life, no one has ever told him the truth so frankly, or cared about his truth.

Although he couldn't feel the emotion in his heart, he knew that he had been moved.But I still couldn't help but greedily want to ask for more.

"Why are you so nice to me?" Shen Yi said unusually calmly.

Lu Chen felt a little funny. No matter how it sounds, this answer should be the answer to the previous question.So he couldn't help showing the big tail swaying behind him, and deliberately said in a whiny tone, "Can you sleep if you want to?"

As a teacher, is it really good to teach students like this? ...

Shen Yi only used one word to make him freeze, "Okay".

Now Lu Chen froze completely, and then he heard him panting, "I'm talking about going to the hospital."

Lu Chen: "..."