Pretending to be cute

Porcelain touches are very Li Mi's style.

This anecdote eased the serious atmosphere, Xiao Ling couldn't help laughing out, and Lin Ziyan was also infected by Xiao Ling, laughing with her, the scar evoked a happy arc.

After laughing, Xiao Ling suddenly asked: "After that, why didn't he come to see me? It's been ten years."

Lin Ziyan suppressed his smile, and said melancholy: "There are two reasons. One is that Uncle Lin is really in poor health and can no longer leave the hospital. The more important reason is that he dare not and has no face to see you."

"why?"

"I don't know. He didn't want to tell me. He just repeated that sentence day after day, saying that everything was his fault, and he deserved what happened. I can see that he is not happy, and he doesn't want to Treatment. If I wasn't by his side, he wouldn't take medicine. So, even if he doesn't agree with me looking for you, I'm going to let you come and see him in his last days..."

The last few words, like a heavy hammer, hit Xiao Ling's heart with pain everywhere.She raised her head, trying to hold back her sour tears, but the gray-black ICU stung her eyes.

Just about to speak, there was a sound of footsteps, it was the nurse just now.

"Xiao Lin, the application has been approved, and the visiting time is up. Although you and this lady are relatives of the patient, according to the rules, only one person can be admitted at the same time, you two?"

Lin Ziyan stood up and said decisively, "Her."

Noticing Xiao Ling's hesitant expression, Lin Ziyan said again: "Uncle Lin is only willing to tell you some things, and there are some knots in his heart that only you can untie for him. Whether you blame him or hate him , I beg you, at least see him once and listen to him... He must miss you very much."

Xiao Ling's mood was complicated.

When the Xiao family collapsed back then, not only her fate was affected, but also others?Yu Qing, Lin Yan, Lin Ziyan, Li Mi, Wan Hong, Du Qingnan... Maybe there are people she doesn't know, whose life trajectory was changed because of that accident.

Lin Yan's time is short, even if Lin Ziyan's words are all lies, she will admit it.Just find an excuse to end this relationship that is better than father and daughter.

Xiao Ling opened his mouth, and finally nodded: "Thank you for taking care of him for so many years, and thank you for telling me this, Lin Ziyan."

"You're welcome, I should be the one thanking you."

The teenager smiled, warmer than the sun.

Before the visit, there is still a series of preparatory work to be done.In order to prevent the introduction of bacteria, Xiao Ling carefully washed his hands with hand sanitizer, and put on the disposable isolation gowns, shoe covers, hats and masks issued by the staff.

Electromagnetic waves will cause some interference to the monitoring equipment. After confirming that everyone's mobile phones are turned off, the management staff let them go and let the nurse in charge follow Xiao Ling into the ward.

Once inside, there are all kinds of monitoring and treatment equipment, as well as countless tubes inserted in the arms.The man lying on the hospital bed was sleeping peacefully. He was clearly only in his forties, but he looked like an old man, with several strands of hair gray.

The tall and strong man in the past has become so weak.

Looking at the wavy lines symbolizing the vital signs, Xiao Ling slowed down, stopped at the side of the hospital bed, and asked softly, "Can he get better?"

This kind of question, basic family members will ask.The accompanying physician in charge patiently explained the condition, then whispered into Xiao Ling's ear, "The patient's condition is really not optimistic, but we will try our best, but please prepare for the worst."

Ignoring those awkward professional terms, Xiao Ling understood the last sentence.The time of this man who once carried her on his shoulders, took her around the entire amusement park, and said he would spoil her like his own daughter is really numbered.

Turning his gaze back to the hospital bed again, Xiao Ling was surprised to find that Lin Yan woke up at some point, staring at her quietly, his half-closed eyes filled with tears.

"Miss Lin, the patient is awake. If you can, please talk to him more, don't provoke him, but say something happy and happy, so that he can overcome the illness with a positive attitude." The nurse lowered her voice and asked point.

In the name of Lin Yan's daughter, Xiao Ling made a mistake and told the medical staff that her surname was Lin and that her name was Lin Ling.Although he explained to Lin Ziyan that he was afraid of trouble, but only Xiao Ling knew what he was thinking.

I don't know how angry my father is if I recognize my father casually?But the object is Lin Yan, maybe it doesn't matter, Dad cares about Lin Yan so much, he will forgive her.

Thinking of this, Xiao Ling smiled lightly: "Lin... Yan, long time no see."

Lin Yan was so excited that he struggled to get up and speak, causing the medical staff around him to exclaim.Without their reminding, Xiao Ling quickly turned cold again: "Don't move, listen to me quietly, otherwise I will be angry with you."

Lin Yan was like a child being taught by his parents, he didn't dare to move any more, but tears flowed down both sides of his cheeks, his eyes were full of hope and joy, and there were some emotions that Xiao Ling couldn't understand.

Xiao Ling's heart softened, and the question that he wanted to ask at first could not be asked.

"The doctor said to tell you something to make you happy. I can't think of anything to make you happy. How about telling you some stories? Sister Li loves to tell me fairy tales before going to bed. Her voice is beautiful and hypnotizing. Listen Listening, I fell asleep... If you want to listen, blink."

Lin Yan blinked.

Xiao Ling smiled, recalling the content of "The Smart Farmer's Daughter" written by Li Minian a few days ago, and started talking softly.Even though the mask and hat blocked most of her face, those eyes were always gentle.

Although it was a familiar story, perhaps it was because of Xiao Ling's pleasant voice that the surrounding doctors and nurses listened intently, and Lin Yan dared not even blink his eyes, fearing that if he closed his eyes, he would realize that it was just a dream.

Half an hour is here soon.

The nurse dutifully signaled that Xiao Ling needs to leave, Xiao Ling nodded, and said to Lin Yan: "I'm leaving, you take care of yourself."

Lin Yan was sad, but still blinked.

Xiao Ling didn't stay any longer and walked outside, but when the door was about to close, she said: "When you get better, I will come to see you again...Papa Lin."

The door of the ward was shut heavily.

Xiao Ling took off his mask and hat, Lin Ziyan waited aside, silently handed over a notebook without asking anything.

"This is?"

"Uncle Lin's diary. He knows his body well. He is afraid that he may not have the chance to meet you again, so he asked me to give it to you. He said, write everything you want to know in it."

Lin Ziyan lowered his eyes: "Also, I'm sorry. Not only Uncle Lin wants to apologize to you, but I also want to apologize to you. Uncle Lin asked me to see you, so he wanted to give you the diary. It's just out of selfishness. Hope you meet him, so buckle down the diary..."

Xiao Ling raised his eyebrows, took the diary, and completed Lin Ziyan's unfinished sentence: "If I don't want to see him, you will use this as a reward? Or, threaten my confidence?"

His mind was seen through, Lin Ziyan bit his lips in embarrassment: "Yes, I'm sorry. No matter what he did wrong, he is my benefactor. If it is the benefactor's wish, I, I... No matter what, I will help him Finish."

He said so, but he was actually ready to be scolded, drooping his head, timidly, like a student who was caught mischievously.Xiao Ling raised his hand, wanting to touch his head, but after realizing his intention, he lowered his hand calmly.

"Sorry, I accept it."

Putting away the diary, Xiao Ling waved his hand and turned to leave.

Knowing that this is a wrong behavior, but stubbornly refuses to regret it, whether it is to repay the kindness or not to repent, she is as stubborn as a cow, and does not turn back if she does not hit the south wall. She does not dislike such a clumsy way .

Because, she saw her own shadow.

Back in the car, Xiao Ling took out the diary in his arms.The style of the diary is very ordinary, without fancy patterns, which is very in line with Lin Yan's simple and straightforward temperament.Xiao Ling heard from Xiao Fengkai that Lin Yan was too thoughtless at the beginning, he believed everything anyone said, and that's why his business was always cheated.

With a sigh, Xiao Ling opened the diary.The first few pages are full of trivial life, and the time span is also very large, but from the fifth page onwards, there is a corresponding diary for almost every day, and the date on the fifth page captured her heart even more.

March seventeen.

On March [-]th of that year, the plane that Xiao Fengkai, Xu Mingqing and Xiao Xun were on had an accident and no one survived.Everyone sank to the bottom of the sea with the wreckage of the plane, and never woke up again.

For Xiao Ling, that day was also a nightmare.

[March [-], overcast.Something happened to my business, and I was seriously ill again, unable to run around. Feng Kai went to deal with it for me. In order not to make me feel guilty, he even brought Ming Qing and Xun'er to G City to play together.Lingling was too young, so he stayed at home and said that if I couldn't be free, I would go to accompany her.Children's immunity is not strong, and if the infection is bad, I'd better go there in two days. 】

The notebook shook, and the words on the last line were somewhat blurred. Xiao Ling wanted to keep the notebook from shaking, but when he moved his hand, he realized that it was not the notebook that was shaking, but her hands were shaking.

That's what Lin Yan meant when he said I'm sorry.

[March eighteenth, overcast.Someone informed me that something happened to Feng Kai, Ming Qing and Xun'er.I scolded him for talking nonsense, put down the phone, but couldn't help checking the flight with my phone...but what did I see?Letter of condolence, list of dead passengers?I tried my best to tell myself that this was a dream, not a fact, but why, there are Feng Kai and their names in that list? 】

[March [-], overcast.I killed the Fengkai family. 】

Nearly eight pages later were filled with "I should be the one who died" in red pen. The bright red handwriting seemed to be the remorse and pain written by someone with blood, and the exclamation marks almost punctured the thin paper. .

Since April, the diary has been interrupted.On the next page, it has been several months.

[August [-]nd, sunny.Lingling is only nine years old, these people are so unscrupulous, I am angry, I hate, but I am the one who is least qualified to blame them.I caused Lingling's family to be ruined, and I missed the day to protect her because of the hospitalization. Why should I beg her for forgiveness after she has settled down? 】

[August 19rd, sunny.I listened to what Wan Hong and Du Qingnan said, so I approached Li Mi and asked why she, who was only [-] years old, took care of Lingling and almost beat her up, but her body was weak and she lost consciousness halfway through.Fortunately, Li Mi didn't care about my rudeness at all, and took me to the hospital personally, and even took care of me.At that time, I was very puzzled, such a person is not like a bad guy who would take the opportunity to seize people's property? 】

[August [-]th, sunny.In the afternoon, Li Mi came to see me and had a heart-to-heart talk with me.Sure enough, she told me that the custody of Xiao's old house and Lingling is indeed in her hands, but she has no intention of coveting.Lingling is too young, and Ming Xiao has other plans. When Lingling graduates from university, everything will be handed back. To make me feel at ease, she even called a lawyer and showed me the transfer letter.As for Yu Qing and other people who were loyal to the Xiao family, she also made corresponding arrangements. 】

……

[August [-]th, heavy rain.Probably, it is difficult for a person to fully trust another person. Although Li Mi saved me, I still spent a long time investigating what she said.Fortunately, she didn't lie to me, she seemed to really feel pity for that child.I wanted to commit suicide to make amends, but it would be too easy, maybe Feng Kai and Ming Qing would blame me for not taking good care of that child for them...]

Apart from these, Lin Yan also used a lot of space to describe in detail the cooperation with Li Mi, as well as some details about Ming Xiao's development.Occasionally, there are a few interesting things, such as when Xiao Ling went abroad for three years, Lin Yan was still quite dissatisfied with Li Mi, once asked Lin Ziyan to drive Li Mi out of the ward and so on.

After reading all of them, Xiao Ling closed the diary, closed his eyes, and lay on his back on the sofa, thousands of feelings came to his heart.

Ten years is a delicate number.

It has been so long that the hatred and nostalgia are no longer strong, and the ordinary life of the day gradually crushes the memories into yellowed leaves. Although at a certain moment, in a certain dream, there will still be pain, but it is already numb.

But it is so short-lived, the family's voices and smiles are still in front of my eyes, and after waking up, it is another floating dream.Xiao Ling often thought, what would she be like if her parents and elder brother were there, would she be loved by thousands of people?

If so, then perhaps she should blame Lin Yan.But then, can she still meet Li Mi?Can I still like Li Mi and live with Li Mi?

Everything is hypothetical.

Compared with life and death, these grievances and grievances seem to be just a cloud of the past, which will dissipate when the wind blows.

Xiao Ling lightly kissed the red string on his wrist.

She misses Li Mi so much.